Text:
Verse 1
I walk through rooms where laughter echoes loud,
But inside me there’s a silence — heavy, cold, and proud.
I greet the world with jokes, a grin, a smoke, a lie,
While deep within my mind, a storm begins to cry.

The lights are bright, the music plays, the faces smile so wide —
But under all the masks I wear, there’s a tear I cannot hide.
I dance, I work, I speak — I function every day,
Yet in the corners of my mind the colors fade to grey.

Pre-Chorus
And when they ask me “How are you?”
I lie and say, “I’m fine.”
They don’t see the cracks underneath,
The cracks within the mind.

Chorus
Shadows behind the smile, I’m holding up a wall of glass,
Shadows that I carry — silent ruin from the past.
Don’t see the tears, don’t hear the screams —
I play the part, but drown in dreams.
Shadows behind the smile —
I’m still standing, but I’m not alive.

(solo)

Verse 2
The sun will rise, the world will move, they say “tomorrow, new day”.
But who will mend the broken inside that night stole far away?
I feel the weight, I feel the doubt, I feel the emptiness inside,
A hollow echo of my voice, a soul that’s cast aside.

I’m master of the masquerade — applause when curtains fall,
But when the crowd is gone, I’m lost — behind this fragile wall.
And every breath I take reminds me of the fight inside,
Between the me I show the world, and the me that wants to hide.

Pre-Chorus 2
And when they ask me “Are you ok?”
I laugh and say, “Just tired.”
They don’t see the darkness creeping,
The cracks within my light.

Chorus
Shadows behind the smile, I’m holding up a wall of glass,
Shadows that I carry — silent ruin from the past.
Don’t see the tears, don’t hear the screams —
I play the part, but drown in dreams.
Shadows behind the smile —
I’m still standing, but I’m not alive.

Bridge (atmospheric, instrumental with echo-vocal)
(whispered)
Inside I burn — but no one sees the flame.
Inside I fade — but nobody knows my name.
I built a world of noise and colour,
To hide the blackout underneath.

(solo)

Final Chorus (raw, emotional)
Shadows behind the smile,
I won’t pretend I’m fine.
Shadows behind the smile,
I’ll tear down this false shine.
May the music burn the darkness,
May the light pierce through the lies.
Shadows behind the smile —
I want to feel alive.

Shadows Behind the Smile

A passionate music producer who is still learning the art of mastering my beats and becoming a professional. all my beats are made by ear as I don't really know any real music theory.

Music is my way of expressing myself or expressing an emotion. Hope you guys dig the vibes ✌



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Shadows Behind the Smile

Thomas Brutscher