What was the last thing you said to me?
Never gotta call back you texted me.
Put his heart on the valve. 
If I had the means I tear this place down

Personally, I feel it's an eyesore.
Quintessential but I feel like I don't need it no more
No more, no more, no more

You can take me to that art show 
Or the fucking play bae
I know that it starts slow
we don't gotta go fast

We all got sum fuck-ups & vices.
I got way too many wants now. 
So we burn the midnight oil,
That's the end all be all, plans got foiled.
Character building, your voice in these thin walls
& I'm happy to get rid of them

We can't blame it on the circumstances.
Look at me, I'm barely even standing. 
So who's to say, that you always had to feel this way?
I know that you can feel (fill) this space 
& it takes time, I don't have that.
So what's up with this wait?

inspo by @aldn.
art by @thrdprsn333

it's not meant 2 b

it's not meant 2 be (nielyoung)

1st part i sampled reaper by @ccottrill
2nd part is produced by @deadyami
mix and master done by urs truly lol

Part 1 ( Hesitant . ) :
this use to be my room
deciptive and a liar
hurting full of innocence
think all of this was an incident

a date with what seems to be the end
i think i need some steps on how to make new friends
i need u back in my life i need u present
i wanna ask u for ur love but im so hesitant

i asked u for the world that was a kick to the face
i wanna restart everything make sure to give u ur space

-

Part 2 ( Untitled ) :
but i, havent been one to talk much
falling to the ground after i feel ur touch
ur not safe where im at
better off dead at that
and i dont wanna be alive anymore after that

and i checked out with god
after finding whats wrong
and she came to me
i took the knife out her knee
and i aint comin home
desperate on my own
and u aint gonna see the light of day no u wont

deceptive (dead yami)

thx <3 https://soundcloud.com/luhvstory
cover by https://soundcloud.com/hansoloisdead

inside of my sky w/ luhvstory (prod. voyce x jkei)

new synthetic w @toxinbrewer :3

lyrics:
u could break all of my bones
if it means i’ll take u home
i could nevr fuckin hurt u
make that promise in this song

i kept ur name right in a folder
i was smilin like the joker
every time that u would hold me
i would tell u pull me closer
u had me singin in the shower 
i would text u after hours
an i wanna say i love u
but u know that i’m a coward
x2

fuck this shit u should be mine
u think bout me like all the time
an i’m always abt u
so wtf we gonna do

ur drifting away from me an it’s making me worry :(

woaaaah, u make me wish my life was over
i can’t keep up my composure
u ran away an gave me no closure!

every time u cut me off
my head is spinning i see colors (i see colors)
i’ll leave my drugs right on the shelf
if it means i’ll be ur lover (be ur lover)

pull me close, ur the only one who knows
no one tells the difference my emotion never shows

i can’t trust these bitches i can’t trust as far as i can throw
and if ur not the one i’m drowning 60 ft below
fuck this shit u should be mine
u think bout me like all the time
an im always abt u
so wtf we gonna do????

woahhhh u make me wish my life is over
i can’t keep up my composure 
u ran away an gave me no closure
woahhhhh my head is spinnin i see colors
(my head is spinning i see colors)

COWARD 弱虫 W/ TOXINBREWER☣️🧬 ｢wolevsky｣

lyrics :
2 times I found out,
like why'd you do me like that?
Cos bitch you got me good,
oh yea u got me good
Ima be fine, Ima be good

but I don't think that we be on
the same wavelength now.
I can be an asshole if you make me
you better mean it tho,
know you gonna need me now.
I'm screaming out loud
no one tryna hear me out

I didn't wanna give in
living in a pigpen full of fucking degens
beat that pussy up
I swear that's all she want
I'm off all the drugs,
running outta love
figured it was lust
hard 2 to a give a fuck
too bad you left me in the dust

2 times I found out,
like why'd you do me like that?
Cos bitch you got me good,
oh yea u got me good
Ima be fine, Ima be good

I do this bc I want to
you know me very, very well so
do it cos you said to.

can feel the weight?
it's no way I'm okay
but, that's okay!
just get us home.
get me to my hole
so I can rot away
just like I want to.
keep it simple then I keep I going
you're looking for the symbols just 2 keep you going

and you just noticed that it's so hard now
I'm about to have fucking breakdown
you got me all me wrong, I know I had doubts.
wish you'd shut the fuck up, you never shut your mouth
say something
let it out.
world full itty bitty people & some letdowns
at this point, i can't even joke about it
it just makes me violent & I don't wanna lie
or say some shit to make you cry

//hello everyone, im very excited 4 what's 2 come!

imma be good

it’s no way im okay, but that’s okay (abelskittles + thrdprsn)

looks [original version] (tennis player)

eavesdrop

https://linktr.ee/Clubxmusicx
prod. johnnyfriend
lyrics - 
verse1:
私はいつも気にした (i always cared)
and you were never there when i needed ya
私の顔を見ましたか (did you see my face)
i jus cover my arms they're filled with scars

verse2:
and would you turn back around, and see my face one more time?
i thought i was the one for you, i guess it all was a lie :/
and now i feel for my heartbeat there is nothing inside
and when need me ill come back and wipe your tears from your eyes

verse3:
and when you come back around you'll see my face one more time
i never thought id be in pain while you're up in the sky
and when they felt for your heartbeat there was nothing inside
and now you tell your family you love them right from the sky

pre-drop:
and you were never there when i need ya
私はいつも気にした (i always cared)
i jus cover my arms they're filled with scars
気になりますか (do you care at all?)
助けて (help me)

drop:
and i will always love you for the rest of time
and i will always support you in your troubled times
私はいつも気にした (i always cared)
and you were never there when i needed ya
私の顔を見ましたか (did you see my face)
and i jus cover my arms they're filled with scars

i always cared

stream

change (rubbish + silver + noble)

fully produced by @m4tthan
vocals by @m4tthan
mixed and mastered by @m4tthan

lyrics:
lights flashing, my mind hurled
i don't know what's going on, say what in the world
i don't know what's going on, i'm lost in a swirl
i don't know what's going on, all my thoughts are curled
yea, lights flashing, my mind hurled
i don't know what's going on, say what in the world
i don't know what's going on, i'm lost in a swirl
i don't know what's going on, all my thoughts are curled

stuck in my head and i can't move on
stuck in a loop yea the night's too long
my heartbeat loud but my brain's not on
i'm drifting away, gone
stuck in my head and i can't move on
stuck in a loop yea the night's too long
tryna hold on but i'm not that strong
i'm slipping again, gone

put oh my headphones i don't wanna talk to them
i just drown out the noise and let my thoughts creep in
put on a fake smile, i hate they know that i pretend
it's been a long while, slip back to my old self again

what do they want from me
i've been fighting a battle that they don't see
they talk to me but i can't lie girl i can barely breathe
i wish that everyone would understand what's underneath

stuck in my head and i can't move on
stuck in a loop yea the night's too long
my heartbeat loud but my brain's not on
i'm drifting away, gone
stuck in my head and i can't move on
stuck in a loop yea the night's too long
tryna hold on but i'm not that strong
i'm slipping again, gone

stuck in my head and i can't move on
stuck in a loop yea the night's too long
my heartbeat loud but my brain's not on
i'm drifting away, gone
stuck in my head and i can't move on
stuck in a loop yea the night's too long
tryna hold on but i'm not that strong
i'm slipping again, gone

what do they want from me
i've been fighting a battle that they don't see
they talk to me but i can't lie girl i can barely breathe
i wish that everyone would understand what's underneath

GONE

atlantic [13en].wav

#5hundredyearsummer 
prod & vocalist 
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