150+ songs on my spotify ambient playlist (more than here) + new songs every week
my head is an ambient playlist _ https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy

spotify playlist

i was only temporary (+every song like it)

this song was in the movie " Terrifier 3 "
here is my other song that was in the movie - https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/perpetual

free albums

life, on hold

my song was in the movie " Terrifier 3 ". 
here is the link to my other song in the movie - https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/life-on-hold-1

spotify

perpetual (from Terrifier 3)

music video: https://youtu.be/D682dSewGfA
thank you for the millions of streams on this song on spotify,
as well as the thousands of videos on tiktok using the audio.
seeing you all living your life to this song i just randomly made one day in my room after a good bike ride, i had no idea it would reach so many people. thank you all for listening and showing me your world on tiktok, and you all have in turn changed my world streaming this song so many times on Spotify. thank you all so much. i know soundcloud is a bit dead these days, but if you would like i can share music here too, and not just to spotify. let me know! big love
https://open.spotify.com/artist/7pxIYxdkx2675ZGKSAPBAy

as an update, i am writing this on 7/4/23 - i am currently writing more ambient music as well as nothing is real, part XIX (19). i am excited to share with you all this new music :) and again, thank you all so much for streaming the heck out of these songs on spotify. it truely means the world to me. thank you so much. it has made the situation with my health a million times easier. <3

ambient vol 3

numb

Spotify Link

special thanks to my lover for doing a lil vocal thing @miranda-ra1n
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my head is an ambient playlist _ https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy

ambient vol 4

a way out

thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my playlist here
soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
spotify version: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy

i was only temporary

spotify link

my head is an ambient playlist _ https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
soundcloud version : https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
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hi guys, thanks for the love on ' i was only temporary ' . on tiktok, spotify, and soundcloud!
personally i never thought that song would get attention
so i wanted to make a better version of it, here's what i was trying to make at the time but couldn't seem to get it out right.
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i was only temporary 2 u

my ambient playlist

music video : https://youtu.be/n1WDiqdPRHY?si=UAfKnKq9jjX_3HYb
my cover of // by kaya
...
woke up now it's time for school
wash my face and brush my hair
put on clothes and tie my shoes
grab your lunch there's lots to do
another day another life
another place another time
last night had a funny dream
this girl i loved was next to me
we kissed until the night went blue
he kissed my lips and said we're through
another day another life
another place another time
but what am i to do
it's obvious superfluous
it's what we'll do
i was counting on the two
but the lines run slow
you ask me why
i just don't know
i used to know this girl from school
a pretty face and yellow curls
she smiled one day and said im done
then next day was a funeral
another day another life
another place another time
so maybe this is all a plan
you do what you've been given
but i've done everything they've said
still feel like i haven't lived
another day another life
another place another time

my head is empty

music video

i don't know what i'm doing anymore

releasing this one independently, any support would be appreciated as it wont be playlisted in any way on spotify 
\\\\ all my ambient songs playlist - https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient

my sign to retreat

thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my spotify playlist here
spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
soundcloud: soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient

all my ambient songs

i was only temporary (Super Slowed)

music video: https://youtu.be/Adb4uO8wTuo
i wrote this song about my recent relapse with my brain disease MS. lately so many people around the world have been stealing my music, and sharing it without crediting. its very sad to me because i am trying to provide a life for my girlfriend and i, both of us have disability. so its been very stressful seeing millions of people on tiktok/youtube listening to my hard work, but i get zero plays from it. its been so stressful that its made me begin to go blind in one eye. i had to take a super high dose of steroids to get my brain lesions under control. my eye sight is a little fuzzy but its stable-ish now. i wish people knew how badly they hurt me by doing this. i dont want to sound like im blaming other people, but the bottom line is, MS is fueled by stress, and yes i could just "not care". but i have to. i cannot work because of my condition. i go blind and cant use my limbs just from the most basic excercise like bringing in grocerys. making music is my only chance at giving my girl and i a life together, so when people steal my music, after i work so hard to make it, its stressful, and i feel as though its justified for me to feel upset about it. anyways, all those frustations are what this song is about. its about me trying to "survive myself". i doubt i can survive the bad people in this world, so the best i can hope for is to my body to randomly stop trying to hurt me. </3

this song + all my ambient tracks on my spotify playlist here
spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
soundcloud: soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient

ambient playlist

survive myself

thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my spotify playlist here
spotify version: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
\\\\\\ BTW!!! i've been writing for "nothing is real, part XXI, so im sorry if im late to reply on here, instagram, tiktok etc; - i hope to make this next NIR a special one, akin to the first in the series, back to the root sound of the series. <3

this will destroy me

music video: youtu.be/d9kkX8yHEgw
thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my spotify playlist here
spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
soundcloud: soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient

you only cared about you (Pitched Up)

my head is an ambient playlist _ https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
soundcloud version : https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
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hi guys, thanks for the love on ' i was only temporary ' . on tiktok, spotify, and soundcloud!

i dont feel anything anymore (super slowed)

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qKfCiJfHnzM
played my guitar for this one.
hope you guys like it anyways

i need a purpose

free download: https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xxi
music video: https://youtu.be/lRf86L7MYLU
so sorry for the delay. ive spent the last 7 months writing this album, in between all the ambient singles/albums. i hope for any listeners of the "nothing is real" albums, it is worth the wait. on a very personal note, these albums are the only thing that brings me self worth. i am deeply impacted and thankful some of my ambient songs have connected with you all, in particular "i was only temporary". however, despite their impact on social media, i personally do not feel any accomplishment when writing ambient. as many long time listeners of the "nothing is real" project have mentioned, the simple ambient songs are in essence, just an outro of a "nothing is real" song. i too share this sentiment. i think i am capable of making a lot more emotionally impactful music, not just for others, but as means of helping myself. i struggle with feeling adequate, and because of my events in my life it has become of my personality to want to prove to myself, before anyone else, that i can do something great, even if there is nobody around to see it. even for years and years before the viral song "i was only temporary", these "nothing is real" albums we're written and released one after another with little to no support, or viewership. i hope that, in my efforts to prove to myself that i can make something truly one-of-a-kind, and original, that it will inspire people to not copy others, and find their own sound. i think alot of people, with a platform have a similar message about wanting to "make the world a better place". i think this is a good message of course, i just would like for anyone reading this to know, that my message is a bit more specific. with the  "nothing is real" series, i want to share that, in this world today, i think there are so many fake things, people, friends, etc. i do not want to inspire people to copy what i do, or anyone else. i want to release these albums and hopefully make people say "wow, this is so much effort, and it does not sound like anything i have ever heard! maybe i should not try to keep up with trends, or other people, or let them make me feel inadequacy any longer. this music inspires me to do my own thing, and master it, and make something unique and original that can tell my own personal story". i think individualism is being lost today, in a world that prioritizes followers, and followings. i want to leave behind something that will inspire others to look within themselves, and find approval in their own ideas, instead of constantly looking to imitate what already exists. i think the next most wonderful and beautiful thing that will help a lot of people, is lying in wait inside one of you, and to find it, i hope whatever i have done may help people become introspective enough to dig it up, and share with all of us. anyways, thanks for listening and reading all this. <3 - mhie

nothing is real, part XXI

we’re all we've got

easier, is not always better.

thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my playlist here
soundcloud: soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy

its just easier to be alone

instagram

thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my playlist here
soundcloud: soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy

i wish i had more time

below the links is a long write up about this song. thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my playlist here
soundcloud: soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
about this song: i’ve felt that ambient has been very stale for a long time now. i never wanted to start making ambient music, but it felt like the only chance to get out there. my heart will always be in my “nothing is real” albums, and i can’t thank enough those of you that have begun to listen to them. i’m glad that sort of, simplifying my music - to ambient - ended up being how i came to know you all with “i was only temporary”, and was able to meet you all, but i think it’s time to expand this genre for myself, for my sanity! when i make simple ambient songs for me it feels like im shackling myself to a bunch of rules and restrictions. while i understand that simple music is often best for a lot of people, and i very much appreciate the way these simple calm songs can help others and myself, ive been trying to think of a way to bring just some of the complexities or experimental nature of “nothing is real” over. ambient used to just be sort of a small component of nothing is real, like a base layer, and often at the end of a 5 or 7, or sometimes even 9 minute long nothing is real song, i would try to sort of attach an extra ambient piece of music to the end of the song. not always ambient, just whatever felt right. 
i really liked doing acoustic versions of a song built right in to the song itself, so i think its time to bring this NIR idea to my ambient. i dont see the point in releasing 2 separate songs. to me just like many many times through the 21 “nothing is real” albums, i say.. “we’re already here listening to the song, just put the acoustic version in this song too!!l i’m excited to explore this concept in my ambient now too, and not just the NIR series, and i hope you guys will find it as refreshing as it is for me. it sort of helps me feel better about making simple music that a lot of you enjoy, when personally my heart will always be with making those really complex nir songs !! anyways if you read this far, thanks so much. and if you have listened to any of the NIR albums, i wish i could shake your hand and tell you how much it means to me.

playlist

i (don't) deserve forgiveness

music video here! - https://youtu.be/0X3CJcJrGkU 
thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my playlist here
soundcloud: soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy

MUSIC VIDEO

what if this is the real nightmare

my problem is me

‎‎creator of the "nothing is real" album series. (2018-present)
hello. my brain is killing me from a disease called multiple sclerosis. i am making as much music as i can before inevitability i wake up one day unable to function.  i wouldn't wish this on anybody. thanks for listening.
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