just bc i Luv u… dont go breakin my heart
remix of self love by mavi / mixed by kid cole 

{lyrics}
Clasp the Windows to my soul
The smoke thicken as I drown inside my lows
And My hands still shaking from the feelings that ain’t gone
These pills can only numb me so much until it falls
I, reached out for a word, but you offered me a blessing
Said my head is full of ghosts who will forever hold the leverage 
On my soul and aching body, crumblin to this depression
Said I’ll die inside this bedroom, if I let you in my head 
And, I can feel it when you lying, don’t repeat that shit you said
I can tell your tells right from a text
And if you ever gave a fuck then I never would’ve left

And I’m Not sure what I’m saying but I’m talking
Staring at these walls until they crumble and they cave in
Bones breaking snapping while I’m lying on the pavement
I died in Montreal I felt my mind fade to nothing
My physical remains, but my soul is succumbing
Leave it to my brother in the sky, he can see it
Kamyar watching over me he knows that I need em
I woulda never made it, in September I was bleeding

You know I been alone since I was 12, so the feeling is indifferent
Fighting for my spirit in this world and you can see it
Mama tryna it make out the hood fore she see heaven
I would do bout anything to toss her ass a blessing
I’m trapping in Chicago all the gunshots deafen
Youd think with all this drama I been living with a deathwish
I’m tryna meet my end so you could say you fuckin guessed it

And I could never show you anything if you could never get it
I show you what I think you’d understand or you can phathom 
Listen to this.. when I’m gone and maybe you can hear the gasping
Crying out for help inside my head, but I can’t have it
I just know that everything I need is in my jacket
Pull the gun out from my pocket, you can hear the moon talking
All the words you never said You can tell me in my casket
Until it’s nothing

argent/pour/une/flour/noir

spit on my grave

spit on my grave (prod. mavi)

HA HA BITCH I PULL UP DO MY DANCE IN MY DOCS
YEAH THE BLOOD IT HITS THE FLOOR YEAH
THE BODIES YEAH THEY DROP
HA HA 
YEAH FAGGOT TALKIN' SHIT ON HIS LIVE
SHUT YOUR MOTHER FUCKIN' MOUTH BEFORE I END YOUR FUCKING LIFE

woah savage don't you think that's a little bit far?
what, who invited this guy?

NO BITCH SHUT THE FUCK UP 
I'M STUCK UP
EVERY DAY I WAKE UP BITCH I FEEL LIKE I'M A FUCK UP

YUH YUH YUH YUH YUH WHAT THE FUCK IS UP
JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP ON HIS FUCKING SKULL
YUH YUH YUH YUH YUH WHAT THE FUCK IS UP
JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP ON HIS FUCKING SKULL

YUH GOT YO SHAWTY ON HER KNEES I'M MCLOVIN' IT
DOUBLE STACK WITH CHEESE 
YEAH SHE SUCKIN' AND SHE FUCKIN' IT
15 AN I GOT A MOTHA FUCKIN' DAD BOD
BITCH PLEASE BITCH YOU BILT LIKE MOTHA FUCKIN' SASQUATCH

HA HA BITCH I PULL UP DO MY DANCE IN MY DOCS
YEAH THE BLOOD IT HITS THE FLOOR YEAH
THE BODIES YEAH THEY DORP
HA HA 
YEAH FAGGOT TALKIN' SHIT ON HIS LIVE
SHUT YOUR MOTHER FUCKIN' MOUTH BEFORE I END YOUR FUCKING LIFE
NO BITCH SHUT THE FUCK UP 
I'M STUCK UP
EVERY DAY BITCH I FEEL LIKE I'M A FUCK UP

YUH YUH YUH YUH YUH WHAT THE FUCK IS UP
JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP ON HIS FUCKING SKULL
YUH YUH YUH YUH YUH WHAT THE FUCK IS UP
JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP ON HIS FUCKING SKULL
YUH YUH YUH YUH YUH WHAT THE FUCK IS UP
JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP ON HIS FUCKING SKULL

YUH IMMA' LEAVE YOU WITH A BLODY TOOTH
SHUT YO FUCKIN' MOUTH BEFORE I KICK YOU WITH MY STEEL TOE BOOTS
YUH YUH I DON'T REALLY FUCK WITH YOU

HOLY FUCKING SHIT ARE YOU STILL TALKING

HA HA BITCH I PULL UP DO MY DANCE IN MY DOCS
YEAH THE BLOOD IT HITS THE FLOOR YEAH
THE BODIES YEAH THEY DORP
HA HA 
YEAH FAGGOT TALKIN' SHIT ON HIS LIVE
SHUT YOUR MOTHER FUCKIN' MOUTH BEFORE I END YOUR FUCKING LIFE
NO BITCH SHUT THE FUCK UP 
I'M STUCK UP
EVERY DAY BITCH I FEEL LIKE I'M A FUCK UP

YUH YUH YUH YUH YUH WHAT THE FUCK IS UP
JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP ON HIS FUCKING SKULL

I FUCKING HATE YOU (PROD. SVM)

KID COLE - BUTTERFLY JEANS

prod.miercoles

(in case y’all don’t like the gritty version)

lyrics:

The silent screams
They’re yelling at me
They tell me to leave
Please
Dont talk to me mean

Im glad I made it home
It felt like Im stuck here waiting for something on my own
Now Its been a couple hours and im stuck here a-lone
Lone
Im all alone
Im all alone
Im all on my
Own
Own
Im all alone
Im all alone
Im here all a-

old picture - my safe isolation (cleaned up version)

sad satan (prod. triplesixdelete)

produced by drugslutt<33
shoutout KIRA

(November 19th, 2021)

GIA 

GIA (remix)

The cold truth is, when you're the last man standin', when your whole damn crew is gone, no friends, no cousins, no brother, no shorty to hold, the loudest thing in the room is the silence. And the TV, that glowing box, that's your only connection to the outside world. It ain't even about the show on; it's about the noise, the human voices filterin' through the static. Just enough to drown out the echo in your own damn head.

So yeah, while everybody was yellin' "Happy New Year!" to somebody they probably didn't even like, I was watchin' a movie, lettin' the characters be my company. It ain't sad, G. It's just... real. It's a different kind of survival. And sometimes, apathy is your best friend when the world outside is makin' all that damn noise about happiness. Word is bond.

1995

HBO & Apathy

Get it on Amazon

Apathy (HBO)

Unser Wert und Werk ist keine Ausnahme,

Fraction Ft Slutty Sonny

I Loved You When I Didn't Love Myself [ig: @yayzay_] (prod. xenshel)

IF YOU PRDUCED THIS TRACK PLEASE CONTACT US, I CANNOT REMEMBER WHO PRODUCED THIS, WE WILL GLADLY PAY OFF A LEASE FOR A REASONABLE PRICE THANK YOU.

spit on my grave (prod. mavi)

TILFALL