Something akin to being low, but knowing we will get out

Matrix One

old song
added flute

This was intended for an album that I never finished. Then my computer died and I forgot all about it. But, I had a bunch of songs and stuff on this one drive and, luckily, that drive survived the computer death. I put that old drive in my new computer, but I never really took account of what all was there.  Fast forward a decade or so...  The new computer died too. Happened recently. That computer was really old but really nice. Fast. It worked really well for a dinosaur computer. Rebuilt and reborn from the ashes of my 1st workstation, I loved that piece of scrap.

 Then... the song must have sat unnoticed for at least six years until I found it yesterday. 

One other version featured mellotron flute. That was my favorite version.  It was pretty good musically, but the vox were not very good. It's just gone anyway... I think?   =j

This song is about "my own shit."  Make no mistakes. Jung was, and will always be, correct. It's my goddamn shadow that will always be taller than my soul. =j

AURORE-Life is not a game..unplugged

music written and produced by Lochman in Fl Studio 
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Trap - BPM 138

Lochman "Awake" (original Trap)

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Memories

Ghosts & Shadows

Gabillard Laurent - Badman (Killer Mix) [Explicit]
Date de sortie: 01/12/2020
Nombre de disques: VOLUME 1 
Label: iM Electronica
Copyright: ℗© Gabillard Laurent
Durée totale: 4:01
Genres: Electro House

BADMAN

Gabillard Laurent - Badman (Killer Mix) [Explicit]

One Drop with Two Drop? I am not sure.
Foto: Johnny Brown @ unsplash

One Drop

*VIDEO HERE*    👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻
                              https://youtu.be/3Sz_eWpiwr0

It was this that gave meaning to my life.
It was this for which I lived.
The color of love faded with the wind.
But mostly it is not feelings that are fleeting.
It is people themselves who do such great damage.
Even when they don't want to, they think; to commit themselves to it.
The true feelings are in the hiddenness.
These are usually wrapped in a white, innocent dress.
"I like you." "I love you." "You are all I care about." 
And all the words.
Everyone just lied to me,
I've died countless deaths.
You gave me the melody to the song,
but suddenly the poetry is missing in my life.
It is the conscience that says what one must do,
but too often the courage is missing that drives one to do it.
It is often only a moment that shapes the future.
However, there is no one to bear the responsibility.
Life at once consists of withdrawal, guilt,
anger, self-deprecation and fear.
You want to help me, although you can't even empathize.
Everything is transient, but not memories.
Many have tried to forget them, but everyone has failed so far.
But I can say, I like to remember, because from our mistakes we can learn.
The way to myself is still very long, but I know that I can find it and create it.
I will find it, you can say what you want.
I'll make it, even if you don't help me.
The time was beautiful, I was happy.
Memories are everlasting...

Es war das, was meinem Leben Sinn gab.
Es war dies, für das ich gelebt hab.
Die Farbe der Liebe verflog mit dem Wind.
Doch meistens sind es nicht Gefühle, die vergänglich sind.
Es sind die Menschen selbst, die einen solch großen Schaden anrichten.
Selbst, wenn sie es nicht wollen, meinen sie; sich dazu zu verpflichten.
Die wahren Gefühle liegen in der Verborgenheit.
Diese sind meist umhüllt von einem weißen, unschuldigen Kleid.
"Ich mag dich." "Ich liebe dich." "Du bist alles, was mir wichtig ist." 
und die ganzen Worte.
Jeder belügte mich nur,
ich starb schon unzählbare Tode.
Du hast mir die Melodie zum Lied gegeben,
doch auf einmal fehlt die Poesie in meinem Leben.
Es ist das Gewissen, das sagt, was man tun muss,
doch fehlt zu oft der Mut, der einen dazu treibt, dass man es tut.
Es ist oft nur ein Augenblick, der die Zukunft prägt.
Jedoch gibt es niemanden, der die Verantwortung trägt.
Das Leben besteht auf einmal aus Entzugserscheinungen, Schuldgefühlen,
Zorn, Selbstentwertung und Angst.
Du willst mir helfen,  obwohl du nicht mal nachempfinden kannst.
Alles ist vergänglich, jedoch nicht die Erinnerungen.
viele haben versucht, sie zu vergessen, doch es ist bis jetzt jedem misslungen.
Doch ich kann sagen, ich erinnere mich gern, denn aus unseren Fehlern kann man lernen.
Der Weg zu mir selbst ist noch sehr lang,  doch ich weiß, dass ich ihn finden und schaffen kann.
Ich finde ihn, du kannst sagen, was du willst.
Ich schaffe ihn, auch wenn du mir dabei nicht hilfst.
Die Zeit war schön, ich war glücklich.
Erinnerungen sind unvergänglich.

🎞️ Video

Everlasting

Here's some things about me :
I did this , I did that , me me me , blah blah blah . 
Ive been some where and i met (name drop) and blah blah blah  ... 
The only thing that truly matters is the feeling that you get when you hear music ... Nothing else is important ;  but i did meet and work with (name drop) LOL

Lochman "Awake" (original Trap)

LOCHMAN 💎💎💎