Though we are broken up, I will continue to write this 200 paged (Idk exactly how long it it) lette to her

I’m not ok I just whant go off grid for ever

When I was born my mother and father had a divorce causing me to be sent through court trials my grandmother adopted me and I was raised by her, I love her with all my heart but back in 2020 she had a stroke two strokes in one year and in 2022 she had another stroke 2023 she was sent to a nursing home and I have been switching between houses and in 2024 I visit her at her nursing home, People always tell me I was such a nuisance to her that she had those strokes out of stress and over the years it has been taking a toll on me, Things like that really leave you messed up I thought I got over it but it just keeps coming back, I cry every night and I do things for everyone ask them how they are doing but nobody appreciates it, Nobody asks me how I'm doing and that's all I want is to have someone to vent to, Everytime I see another family I hurt so bad I wish that my dad were dead so at least I know I could never see him but I live everyday knowing he is out there ill just never see him.

Is it bad I want to keep disassociating? Ik disassociating isn’t a good thing but when I’m not, I’m either having an anxiety attack or I’m crying. But when I feel like I’m not real, I can’t remember much and it feels okay

mild high club - homage / slowed + muffled

Clair De Lune Ethereal Remix Slowed And Reverb

Mice on Venus but make it EXTRA nostalgic

𝖀𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖗𝖙𝖆𝖑𝖊- 𝕱𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖊𝖓 𝕯𝖔𝖜𝖓 (𝖘𝖑𝖔𝖜𝖊𝖉 & 𝖒𝖚𝖋𝖋𝖑𝖊𝖉)

school rooftop but sadder and muffled

it’s okay to cry. i love you.

school rooftop but sadder and muffled

Undertale Fallen Down muffled

Undertale - fallen down (slowed + reverb + muffled)

fallen down (slowed + reverb)

yot club - ykwim? (dreamy version)

Yot Club - ykwim? (dreamy Version)

Every moment is complete, even before we name it.
What arrives is not time, but consciousness folding itself, silently.
When you stop seeking, the present reveals its form.
This is not waiting. This already is.

The Distant Knowing

Original: 𝐬𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥 𝐫𝐨𝐨𝐟𝐭𝐨𝐩 by @hisohkah
I do not own the audio
Only the edits is mine.
July 12, 2019

𝐬𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥 𝐫𝐨𝐨𝐟𝐭𝐨𝐩 but you're in an empty mall at 𝟭𝗔𝗠 *USE HEADPHONES*

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God first ☦️

Undertale - fallen down (slowed + reverb + muffled)

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