But i can feel you when you breathe

Thought We'd Find Salvation (at the bottom of a glass) by Pamplemousse

At the age of thirty five, Stede Bonnet could count the number of times someone had hugged him on one hand. His mother, before leaving for boarding school. His teacher, who found him crying and homesick. His aunt, at his mother’s funeral.

Touch wasn’t something Stede associated with happiness - the embraces in his life had been associated with melancholy and lonely memories. More reminders of how alone he was, than of the connection he had to others.

Stede could count the number of times he’d been held on any number of hands. Because that number was zero.

Stede had all but resigned himself to a life without intimacy of any kind until he comes across an article about professional cuddlers. Upon finding an all-male group of cuddlers called Blackbeard's, Stede books an appointment with a cuddler named Ed that will change his life in more ways than one.



This story is based on real-life professional cuddlers - I wanted to create a universe full of gentle, non-toxic masculinity, a space for queer men to be soft and intimate and express themselves without judgement. Inspiration taken from Cuddlist.com and this article - https://gcn.ie/cuddle-club-gay-men-creates-intimacy/ Thanks to my amazing betas lookinglass, AO3Bendifferus, NifaFifa, and Dr CF for your lovely comments and gentle fixing of my run-on sentences, and to my irl bff who was kind enough (despite being very confused about the concept of fandom) to provide sensitivity reading for this fic. You are my ride or dies and I don't know what I would do without you!  Note: There are consent issues in this kind of relationship! In preparing for this story, I interviewed the CEO of a cuddling agency, to learn more about the profession and how they handle complex situations like these. I have their internal policy for when cuddlers and clients fall in love, and am following it closely so that our boys can have a healthy and enthusiastically consensual experience 🥰  Title is from "Hold Me", by Fleetwood Mac

Come On and Hold Me Ch 1 - To Have and to Hold

This is the recording of my GOAD Smut War fic of the same title.  Text can be found on my Ao3 here:

The Accidental Voyeur

John Watson was a doctor, trained to observe details; a fact Sherlock had never been more aware of than when a drugged John’s lifesaving instructions were based on an unlabeled syringe and an unconscious murder suspect’s body.
Rated: Teen and Up
Original Text: http://archiveofourown.org/works/404409/chapters/666920?show_comments=true&view_full_work=false#comment_99342396

Very Good Indeed

Very Good Indeed by stillwaters01

Friendship is Not My Forte

Healthy Body Sick Mind by Azure_K_Mello

MCU podfic

If They Haven't Learned Your Name Chap 3

Will wanted to enjoy the opera but life for Will rarely went to plan and Jack Crawford had a tendency to ruin things. At least sugar and salt could be relied upon and Will isn’t as friendless as he thinks.

This story is the fifth part of the Friendship is Not My Forte series.

Friendship is not My Forte

Burger King and a Little Understanding

Podfic of silentwalrus's story. Final chapter

ain't really quaint Chapter 4

Fluff

Inspired by To The Victor, by ipoiledi.

Rated: E

Headphones recommended.

Music: Naha - PNL

Cover art: @elkane

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“Oh, Thor,” Bucky remarks, and Steve huffs a laugh, warm and low against Bucky’s cheek. “You sure are seeing a lot of this guy lately.”

[podfic] To The Victor by ipoiledi & thatsmysecret

Quietnight on AO3, Quietnighty on Tumblr.

If They Haven't Learned Your Name Chap 3

Quietnight

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