“The Wrong Enemy” is a song about the painful realization that the battles we fight on the outside often come from wounds on the inside.
It explores how easily we misinterpret tones, gestures, or words — not because others meant harm, but because something unresolved within us reacts first.

The narrator reflects on years of blaming the world around him: other people, their voices, their intentions.
But every time the noise faded, the same familiar ache returned — proof that the real source was internal.

The song reveals a powerful shift:
the enemy wasn’t the other person.
It was the leftover echo of old beliefs, early defenses, and emotional patterns built long before adulthood.
Patterns designed to protect —
but now standing in the way.

The chorus opens wide with emotional clarity, admitting that the true conflict isn’t between him and the outside world, but between him and his own inherited reflexes.

The bridge speaks quietly but sharply:
he has slammed doors where no walls existed, fought battles that never belonged to him, reacted to ghosts from the past rather than to the present moment.

By the final chorus, the insight becomes resolve:
the pattern can be broken,
the fight can be faced consciously,
and the blame no longer needs to be placed outward.

“The Wrong Enemy” is a moment of honesty —
a song about turning inward, owning the truth, and releasing the weight of misdirected battles.

The Wrong Enemy

My illusion, my mistake

Again I dwelled on dreams
And nothing ever turns out as it seemed at first -
like in a curse.
My heart was hungry and so I took the bait.
My illusion, my mistake.

Again I sat and grieved.
Your words had made a dreamer out of me,
I thought so foolishly.
I didn‘t think my heart was gonna break.
My illusion, my mistake.

It hurts when you know 
you have to let it go.
But you want the impossible to happen
Say it isn‘t so.
I don‘t want to let it go.
Don‘t tell me it‘s impossible...

All these words,
how they bleed 
onto the paper infront of me.
But they don’t express what I would like to say.
Unable to sleep, at night I lie awake.
My illusionn, my mistake. 

It sucks when you know
you need to let it go.
But you hope the impossible will happen
Say it isn‘t so.
I don‘t want to let it go.
Don‘t tell me it‘s impossible...

To some
chasing a dream 
might feel contemptible,
It may appear absurd
The most exciting tunes I know are 
melodies that I‘ve never heard.
Let‘s think we‘re growing wings
as we‘re falling from the sky like birds.
Unperturbed.
Superb. 

It still hurts,
It still bleeds,
And It doesn‘t seem to heal.
All my fantasies have turned into aches. 
No, no, no, no, no
I thought that our souls were bound by fate.
My illusiom, my mistake.

music/lyrics/vocals by J. Ahlskog. Recorded in Shanghai by Ruel Aldecoa; guitars by Sven Heineken; piano, bass, drums and strings by Ed,(Embot Embot). 2019.

my illusion, my mistake

Neon

I wait for my turn in
this cosmic melody
I wait for my turn in
I wait for my turn in

Still waking up
I’m still waking up
Waking up
I'm still waking up

I live in your castle and I'm mad
uh oh

I'm still waiting alone
The days swim by, they've now long gone
and I wither like clouds
I'll miss you so
I’ll kiss you mad when we’re relieved of danger
I told your friends I'd break in song
But I'm still waiting all along

Still waking up...
I'm still waiting alone...
Still Waking up...
I'm still waiting alone...

Neon

Kelen Helvetia - You And I - Cover (Lady Gaga) 2015

Kelen Helvetia - You And I - Cover (Lady Gaga)

Transformation II

When You feel that You are not in right place, I should be somewhwew else, other in other universe...

Composing, drums and synth programming, playing all guitars (rhythm, lead, bass) : Kontra Szabolcs.

Cover photo is from Adi Kavazovic. Page: https://www.pexels.com/@adi-kavazovic-182036

Release date: 28 april 2020

Donate

Not My Universe

Track 9 from the album "B Sides, Alternates and Other Songs" ......... a collection of 10 songs written or recorded during the making of my "For the Stars" album in 2019 but didn't make the album.......releasing one song monthly thru October 2020!

"Always Remember (Song for 9/11)" was written shortly before the release of the "For the Stars" album in 2019. It said everything I wanted to say about what happened that fateful day,  September 11, 2001. All my recollections from my own perspective. It was never intended to be on that album, it was just an OTHER SONG that I had written of everything that comes to mind each year at this time.

ALL OF MY TRACKS ARE FREE TO DOWNLOAD direct from this page or at this link: lenaloise.bandcamp.com/music ........... CD's are available in the USA for the cost of postage at this link: lenaloise.bandcamp.com/merch

follow me on Facebook at www.facebook.com/PoppysMusicPlace

Always Remember (Song for 9/11)

Written and recorded this morning while missing my sweetheart, STL NiNjA. True love fears no evil.
Bars sang on an older beat of mine when I was Jenny Jumble.


Somewhere In Between

With Inner Truth

Ahnensegen (feat. Adrian Kunz)

Through The Galaxy

Somewhere in Space

Our imagination and fantasies always exceed reality. So the best love affair is the one you've never had. It seems to be our human dilemma that we're constantly chasing dreams which will forever remain unfulfilled. But music can give these notions a form and make them come alive. As a singer & songwriter I am attempting to capture these moments. Currently I'm based in Shanghai, China, where I've been involved in several RocknRoll-projects. Enjoy my songs and please leave a comment. Cheers!

my illusion, my mistake

Too Fat To Be A Butterfly