tell me something
the stars won't share
i know they're dying to talk

they're far too old and i'm
too far from where they are

the night is long
i'm wide awake

show me the parts
my eyes alone won't find
the more the dust, the more i'm in love

i'm far too old and I
have been sitting here for a while

the night is long
i'm wide awake

the time moves slow
but i know you're dying to talk

dying to talk

i'm older now but that's it

For now, I'll sing

CARMEN SOUZA
Port ’ Inglês (English Port)
Musical Suite
Out 2024
ON GALILEO

Badju Mandadu
Carmen Souza – vocals, guitars and small percussion,
Theo Pascal – Double Bass,
Elias Kacomanolis – Drums,
Diogo Santos – Acoustic Upright Piano

Badju Mandadu speaks about the contradance as a choreography. I mention several dance steps: “…Chenenglese, sacaceplace, balance, tranvance, chocecatre turdimen, reste.” The lyrics describe an English dance where people gather socially and have fun together. My intention was to create a lively song suitable for a traditional dance hall. I added contrasting drum patterns to create different dynamics throughout the song but maintained a steady pace for dancers. The piano improvisation section is particularly intense and colourful, and it becomes more active and energetic as the song progresses towards its end, drawing from a Jazz/Blues inspiration.

Lyrics
Bem no junta                     (let's come together)
Ness dança Inglesa            (In this English dance)
Bem no baila                     (let’s dance)
Ba bsca bo par                   (go and get your pair)
Bem balance                     (Come and Balance)
Chocecatre Turdimen 
Sacaceplace
Arrie, Passe
Nos guenti faze attention   (Pay attention, everyone)
Par Avanti a frenti 
Num brinca yo yo 
Nos Guenti faze attention   (Pay attention, everyone)
Ta ruma tud mundu
Brinca yo yo

Faite attention, camare      (Pay attention, everyone…)
Faite attention, Balance     (Pay attention, everyone…)
Faite attention, Tranvance (Pay attention, everyone…)
Sacaceplace, reste 

Faite attention, pass pa frenti (Pay attention, everyone…)
Faite attention, bolta um bez (Pay attention, everyone, turn)
Sacaceplace, classe, reste
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Badju Mandadu

Ritual Charades

It’s not my fault you cried.
You handed me the glass. I just drank.
🥂 Thanks for the vintage heartbreak.

Lyrics

Come closer.
I won’t bite…
Hard.
But cry for me,
And I’ll drink you dry.

Your sorrow pools beneath your eyes,
So ripe, so soft, delicious lies.
You called me angel, begged me stay,
I smiled and carved your hope away.

You dreamt of lips, I took your breath.
You reached for love, I offered death.
You wept, I sipped, so slow, so sweet,
Your dignity my favourite meat.

I’ll drink your tears,
You want me to.
Each drop a truth
You never knew.
You called it love,
But it was need.
And I was born
To watch you bleed.

Your hunger pooled behind your eyes,
A vintage brew of shame and sighs.
You begged for truth, I bit my grin,
Then let you think you’d drawn me in.

You whispered ‘love’, how sweet, how vain.
I raised a glass to your new pain
You called me yours with trembling grace,
But I was gone without a trace.

I’ll drink your tears,
Your soul distilled.
A storm-bound oath
I’ve long fulfilled.
You bled for love,
I bathed in screams.
I am the tide
That haunts your dreams.

Let it fall, don’t hold it in.
Salt tastes better steeped in sin.
You begged me gently, thought me kind,
But I’ve been sipping from your mind.

Drink your tears,
I feast, I reign.
Your sobs are songs,
Your loss, champagne.
You’ll die for touch,
You’ll beg for grace,
While I drink deep
From your disgrace.

Thank you, darling,
You’re emptier now.
So hollow. So quiet.
Perfect.

Drink your Tears

Smooth Operator

The album "Ashes Bloom: Dark vs Light" is a double story told through sound.
The first half — Darkness — carries the weight of broken hearts, shadows, and fading echoes.
The second half — Light — reflects the same emotions in a brighter, more intimate way, like flowers rising from ashes.

Each track exists in duality: one is dramatic, the other is alive. Together, they create a journey through loss, transformation, and rebirth — a mirror of a soul rediscovering itself.

This is not just music. It’s a confession, a haunting dream, and a gentle resurrection.

Ashes Bloom: Dark vs Light

Dying Inside - Light

Ethnic flavors explode with this release from Wassim Younes. Maia delivers emotions from the middle east, while Geetha gets you lost in the desert. Both tracks packed with wonderful organic instruments and heavenly voices. Anatolian Sessions puts his own twist with a wonderful remix with more dominant middle eastern sounds. Estray remix brings to the forefront organic and synthetic sounds with a bouncy beat. Miichii delivers an outstanding dance floor friendly version that gets you moving to the groove while getting lost with emotions.

Maia

Wassim Younes - Geetha (MIICHII Remix)

Wassim Younes - Geetha (MIICHII Remix) - PAP007 - Pipe & Pochet

we were so young then
lot of time to spare
doing all the usual things we do
not thinking twice about them
the day is too nice to think it through

every little thing we touch
always seem to fall apart
no matter how hard we listen
nothing makes sense
it can be quite exhausting
is this really how it is to be young

ohh together we let go
we can cry then run away
because today we can do anything we want

i know it won't be easy
we'll fall in love and hurt someone
we'll keep on spinning in circles
soon enough we'll learn
to catch up in our own time

ohh together we let go 
we can cry then run away
because today we can do anything we want

ohh together we let go
take a rest from yesterday
it's okay
you'll get to know who you are

we'll get to meet the people we can trust
best believe at first we'll shed some tears
but it must be nice
if they can be with us for a long time

a word vomit inspired by a thai series called "Hormones"

thanks to Lzl Joy for unintentionally giving this song a title and for being my safe space while watching the series, one heartbreak at a time.

june 4, 2020

circles (original)

The Dark

Verse I

It's when I saw the picture that I cried
It's when I heard the words from others that I tried
To pull away from
My own lies

It's when I looked for answers that I lost
It's when I went back to bed that I realized
That days are much longer now
And I'm feeling more tired

Pre-chorus

It's taking me a while
To adjust my eyes to the dark

Chorus

There in the ground
A flesh for the worms
I said goodbye

I lift my head to the clouds
Is there something more to this
Hmm

Verse II

Days are cut short when I want to cry
Oh, it's easier before to ask "why?"
And to convince myself that I'm doing just fine

It's difficult to grieve when I know it's my fault
I can't sleep anymore and I'm the cause

Pre-Chorus

It's taking me a while
To adjust my eyes to the dark

Chorus

There in the ground
A flesh for the worms
I said goodbye

I lift my head to the clouds
Is there something more to this
Hmm

Bridge

How much longer now
Before things make sense again
This feels heavy

It's hard not to be afraid
If I cannot see
This feels heavy

...

There in the ground
A flesh for the worms
I said goodbye

You can laugh while I cry
That's alright
We're all just trying to survive

It's just taking me a while
To adjust my eyes to the dark
Hmm

The Dark

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