before the explosion, after the fallout. the smoke clears, revealing the ruins of the false paradise I put so much of my heart into.

my love a+bside

made this 3 months ago or so idek new shit soon.

SHOOT MY FACE

SHOOT MY FACE [ilybeam]

flying through the mountains
flying through the trees
they all turn into ashes
the second i go free

one thought turns into thousands
and sneaks into my dreams
the never-ending houses 
will there be one for me?

will i ever feel at peace or am i stuck close to it?
smoking up the tree, wont see heavan but im close to it
fuck who ima be, take a pill, snortin rows of shit
fuck what ima do, short term comfort what i always choose

i cant stop, always in this loop, know if i i dont change ill end up losing you

flying through the mountains
flying through the trees
they all turn into ashes
the second i go free

one thought turns into thousands
and sneaks into my dreams
the never-ending houses 
will there be one for me?.

through the trees. (narnia)

mix 1stress + @bloodyflower
prod @2broke 
master 1stress

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stress: 
bby take a pic in the back of my rari 
off athousand pills make my body die softly 
take this knife drain ur life Ya we're havin fun tonight
a thousand cuts on me make my body never see the light

knives blood lipstick shes a common misfit 
bullet in my <3 ima need some tape to fix it 
bby wont u cut me up put my body in a snuff
scars all on her eyes but she stillGonna wear her makeup
hold a shotgun to ur head bby fill ur head w lead 
its like ur jst a rotting corpse cant rmr what i said 
ash williams ima grab the chainsaw 
saw open ur <3 ima cut u like a little doll(im sorry)

fun tonight

#fun tonight+iveyyslullaby (2broke)

*prod by niqbo*
(niqbo)
Can't speak im addicted to your medicine
I cant think when im attached to you
When I was next to you 
When I was holding you 
It's the reason 
I want you like a fucking drug
xoxoxo sending kisses through the phone
xoxoxo we should fuck when were alone
Getting drunk in the club
You getting fucked up
Popping more pills baby
You keep taking more drugs
Tonight your everything
So in love when your next to me
Im the one you wanna blame for this 
Wait for me x2
Speak to me x2
Popping more pills I need ecstasy  
When your next to me
Next to me
Your everything 
Everything

(skypebf)
Stupid little bitch
Yeah you don't really hit the same
Talkin-talkin on my name
Your bf such a fuckin lame
What a shame that your such a whore
Always texting me say you wanting more
Get outta of my way
Get the fuck outta my face tonight
Stupid little bitch
Always acting outta line
Saying everything’s ok
No they aren’t fine
Keep on hitting up my phone 
No it ain’t right
Anorexic bitch 
Yeah you better keep that pussy tight
All night x4
I don’t wanna play 
These games w u no more
omg wtf your such a bore

(niqbo)
Speak to me x2
Popping more pills I need ecstasy  
When your next to me
Next to me
Your everything 
Everything
xoxoxo sending kisses through the phone
xoxoxo we should fuck when your alone
Getting drunk in the club
You getting fucked up
Popping more pills baby 
You keep taking more drugs
So different when your away from me
Im the one you wanna blame for this
Wait for me x2
Can't speak im addicted to your medicine
I can't think when im attached to you
When I was next to you
When I was holding you 
It's the reason I want you like a fucking drug
xoxoxo sending kisses through the phone
xoxoxo we should fuck when were alone
Getting drunk in the club
You getting fucked up
Popping more pills baby
You keep taking more drugs
Tonight your everything
So in love when your next to me

ATTACHED 2 U ft skypebf

love it when I can feel you in the palm of my hand

it feels so good to be loved i know that you understand

every little part of me and why I am the way that I am

I'm so glad that your patient, I know I cant demand

anymore than what you give me  trust me this is more than enough

everyday I'm getting stronger with the strength of your love

but am I strong enough to fix myself shit I couldn't know

because I'm sitting here smoking up a ton of my dope

know that this different this ain't like any high I can reach

smoking this new pack swear to god that this shit smell like bleach

winter finally coming I was getting sick of all the heat

finally making changes, no more promises I can't complete

grinding down my bones til I'm loaded up on tons of keef

smoking to get high or im smoking just to get to sleep

struggling to work, I cant get my flows to be on beat 

struggling to live, I can barely get myself to eat




struggling with everything it's part of my identity 

it's fucking with me mentally, no matter the severity 

I'm always filled with jealousy, I feel like I cannot compete 

I know that Im potentially, missing opportunity 

to be in this community and feel that there is unity

between myself and all my work, and i guess to be brutally 

honest with myself I don't think I'm going anywhere

my music is my life and I'm always finding myself at square one



grinding my bones. (narnia)

Spotify *https://open.spotify.com/track/3tf7DNpcGlN9uc394ewhIs?si=6c9bdc9cfee942ec*

grinding my bones. (narnia)

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