i dont have the confidence to do what i want

rics:
she asked me why im acting strange idk,
i couldnt tell ya even if i wanted to
the more u dont know the better
the more u dont know the better
the more u dont know the better
fr, the more u dont know the

i let these emotions get in my way
and now i realize, its not okay
its not okay
and sometimes i think about if id be happier if we didnt meet(no)
im too far deep 
so we gotta 
and im sorry that i made u think everything was ok
and im sorry for putting u on a pedestal so high u touched the stars
and whatever i had it was urs it was ours
cuz id give anything
id give anything

feel like i shoulda never met you
but why do i feel like fate got in the way
cuz i dont give a fuck anymore
i dont even care bout me

and u said we dont really understand each other
then how come u know me better than me
and i will never abandon u, promise
and that's a promise I swear that I'll keep.

im sorry im sorry that i just act this way
this way this way this way
i mean truly u know im da one that cares bout u most either way
but i know i make mistakes
so find a new friend to cry on ur shoulder
find a new friend to grow with, get older
because honestly, you deserve better than me. sry.

promises

w/ tigerstar - that's just what it is (p JUKUKO)

AMV MADE BY : @alrunaxo
https://youtu.be/qyCZHNIAZyQ

prod: boyfifty

lyrics: 
another look in the mirror and I can’t stand what I see
i fuckin hate the world it’s so obvi to me
I wish I could wake up and be somebody else
she told me pick myself up self love is the key

another stupid argument pertaining to nothin
I never kiss and tell but we make up and start fucking
honestly i can never say the right thing in my words
I don’t deserve you but don’t kick me to the curb

I see how you look at him when I’m not around 
I’m not multifaceted and blend into the crowd
I get so anxious that I tense up to the sound
I’m not the type to brag about or to tell me your proud of me

And I know I’m not enough but everytime you seem to fuck me up the moment I’m feeling fine
And it’s know it’s not my fault but I can’t fall asleep it’s always those other guys but it’s never ever me


another look in the mirror and I can’t stand what I see
i fuckin hate the world it’s so obvi to me
I wish I could wake up and be somebody else
she told me pick myself up self love is the key

journal entry (boyfifty)

enjoy

viviviolet for da loop <9

rics:
glass shard in my mouth i bit down and felt relief
bloody, bloody teeth
bloody blankets and bloody sheets
sometimes i lie awake and think about whats wrong with me
and i think what we could be
and it fills me with hate and jealousy

loving people from a distance is easy
dont come close
dont come close

scars on my shoulder
she said that she dont wan grow older
neither do i (redo that)
i aint never been afraid to die
i aint never been afraid to

bloody teeth with a fucked up mental
burned my hand on this hot hot kettle
scald my face im in real big trouble
save myself away from me

bloody teeth
bloody teeth
mouth full of
bloody teeth

i was gon drop it again but don feel like it
haha ur so funny traxee(not)

the waters red
ruby bleach i like it like it,
it makes me feel like me.
yea, bloody teeth.
bloody teeth.

bloodyteeth//s.harm

[imsorry]
very emotional song :/

all plats
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oktober4/my-fault

EDM DROP BY @brokitz

you never cared
wont ask why you gave a shit about him
im just a kid
and im so done with your bullshit
i might motherfucking lose it
all the rumors were true about you
i was right
i didnt have a clue
didnt wanna lose you too
but its over now
you dont gotta pout
its all done
thought that you were the one
you think its fun
but im holding the gun
to my head
you want me dead
fuck what you said
about me or all my friends
i should have never picked up the phone
im alone
watch your tone
is what i was told to be quiet again
i should have kept my mouth shut
i should have locked the door up
its my fault
everything is my fault when it comes to this
im a piece of shit
i know
i should have kept my mouth closed
i should have told anybody who knows
dont tell anyone
im so fucking done
im done
but i still miss you
i miss everything that we've been through
and im sorry
for everything that ive done to u
its all my fault
but its over now

my fault

all plats

@dthxrgt tap in w/ gang, of course. <9 <9 <9  the best. 

im back. yay! ❤❤❤

rics:
you should make a move then.

we're all gonna die what's your hesitation? 

im a two faced slut!
with a motive that's clear. 
do you even like me?
you like the idea of me, can you make a decision.

i thought it was fate? 
ill break some . . . if i have to

do you want to see me fall for you?
(i fell, help me up!)

maybe you like the way i make u feel.. but u have plenty of other people that can fill that feel. ugh.
mayb i invested 2 much into someone who doesnt even feel it back :(

im a two faced slut!
with a motive that's clear.
we're all gonna die anyway.
so tell me right here, do you even like me?
you like the ideaaaaa. 

whoops, i lost my (!) 
hey! give me that back!!! >:(

death:
it's me or him.
you took enough from me.
i see you run around (bitch)
guess i won't stop you now (fuck that)
cause i was never enough.
look who's laughing now(ha!)
and you can keep that two faced bitch for real (keep her)
fuck a filter imma tell you how i really feel
you tricked me into thinking this was real...

w/ deathright - two faced slut (we're all gonna die!)

aphrodite (guda)

https://open.spotify.com/track/3OUtVW4ZDI5vgMK1Y6lygH?si=657ff3dcfa5b48cf

mastered by the one and only - Puppy 

guys i really dont know ewahat teh fcuk this song is 
enjoy though. 

if u read this trax loves u mwah <9 


rics:
so i was set on finding if god was real
that i stopped eating the forbidden fruit() what the fuck wrong lyrics

rics:
so i was set on finding Aphrodite that i forgot to eat my apple slices
nausea nausea i cant keep my food down
remember who i really am oh i think thats the goal now
u said u like me, i dont like u back
i said u were nice, that i cared that was bullshit

i would spit in ur pudding if i had the chance!!!!!! haha

spit in ur pudding spit on ur face
whats wrong? u dont like this side of trace?
if i got to ill put a fucking nail in it.
out the box, all they do is put me back in it

so tell me the truth, wassup with u?
just tell me if you dont like me, it's cool.
ive got 50 reasons im in love with you!
but ive got 50 reasons i would spit in ur pudding too.

um uh um uh, i have friends who do it better. @puppy @ju @deathright @petro @1sloan @indicuh @55

why do you look up to him?
he's a bitch, whatever.
we should burn him at the stake and take his clout
maybe then we wont be underrated, wow.

and you aint ever done shit for me
and he aint ever done shit for you
so why you spoon feeding him his pudding?
why are you spoon feeding him his pudding.

spit in ur pudding

prod by @silentcxbin
guitar by @prodtahto
mix & master by @silentcxbin

###LYRICS###
go outside! the sun it miss you,
you wanted this right?
you wanted this right?
you want flowers girl i'll pick them
you wanted this right?
you wanted this right?
too many shots at my head
inconsistent
you wanted this right?
you wanted this right?
care for the mean time
look on the bright side
you wanted this right?
you wanted this right?
shut all the lights out
make sure its not bright
you wanted this right?
you wanted this right?

you wanted this right,
its okay,
its all right.
shut out the night light
come over its all right
you wanted this right,
its okay,
its all right.
shut out the night light
come over its all right

(ouh)

≪•◦ ❈breakdown❈ ◦•≫

u wanted this right?

mix nd master by me
prod @koukitsu

Yea, pull up i got codeine in my soda
Bitch im making green and smoking green like yoda
I just bought a chain and that shits cold like minnesota
I just got this bad bitch and she out from sarasota
Off, the wock, bitch i be feeling nauseous
Walk, it off, my bodys filled with toxins
Bitch i'm counting profit, bitch i like to talk shit
Bitch i do not give a fuck i walk it like i talk it

Woah, i'm with @koukitsu and we high off lsd (lsd, woah)
Woah, get this bag i swear that's guaranteed (guaranteed)
My life is a movie directed by tarantin (tarantino)
Pour a double cup, bitch im tripping off this lean
Yea woah, got like 1 too many hoes
But im really chilling i've been smoking do-si-dos
Yea bitch im in LA doing hunnid on the road
Yea woah, i'm in LA making hunnid every show

Yuh, fuck yo bitch thats nothing new to me
Ha, fuck yo bitch i grab her boobies
Yuh, drop yo bitch yea she a groupie
Bitch i got two cars im pulling up with two keys
(Heard your music it was dookie
Where they at? I’ll pull up where those dudes be
Bitch you smoking on that doobie
Swear to god you looking goofy)

Yea, pour up i got codeine in my soda
Bitch im making green and smoking green like yoda
I just bought a chain and that shits cold like minnesota
I just got this bad bitch and she out from sarasota
Off, the wock, bitch i be feeling nauseous
Walk, it off, my bodys filled with toxins
Bitch i'm counting profit, bitch i like to talk shit
Bitch i do not give a fuck i walk it like i talk it
Off, the wock, bitch i be feeling nauseous
Walk, it off, my bodys filled with toxins
Bitch i'm counting profit, bitch i like to talk shit
Bitch i do not give a fuck i walk it like i talk it