Mirabella's House

Spain

AI


I feel everything but show nothing.
I smile when I want to scream.
I push people away then beg them to stay.
I want closeness but I'm terrified of it.
I blame myself for everything.
I don’t know who I am.
I say I’m fine when I’m not.
I fear being a burden.
I fall apart in silence.
I punish myself for needing love.
I hate being seen but hate being invisible more.
I don’t trust anyone fully.
I expect abandonment even when I’m loved.
I second-guess every word I say.
I isolate to feel safe but feel worse when alone.
I crave connection then feel trapped by it.
I apologize for existing.
I feel guilt for things I didn’t do.
I downplay my pain so no one leaves.
I remember every rejection.
I replay every conversation.
I absorb other people’s moods.
I pretend I don’t care when I care too much.
I want to disappear without being forgotten.
I keep quiet so no one hates me.
I fear being too much and not enough.
I fake stability to stay accepted.
I feel broken but act put together.
I never ask for help but wish someone would notice.
I survive by staying silent.




Quiet

THANK YOU AND GOODBYE

Travelling musician has spent years on the road playing bars to "sodden ears that could not hear." He now misses his sweetie, so he's driving home to get "back in baby's arms..." He decided to take a pretty violinist home with him in the backseat. Not sure what "baby" will think about that...  

Back In Baby's Arms

@leon (Private koronox keyboard) (luxor²∆)

emancipation by Nova J

[Vers 1]
Demons they haunt me
Lost souls, cast away at sea
Heartbeats from dragging me
Into endless purgatory 

But I was pulled from nights’ abyss (oh oh)
By the pull of Divine forgiveness (ooh ooh)
That suffering makes sense
That carried me to this

[Pre Chorus]
And If I had to do it all over again (ahh oh)
If that was the means to meet this end (ahh oh)
And that was the way to learn to live
If I had to
If I had to

[Chorus]
Break the chains of desperation 
Emancipate your mental state
Free your mind, free your body
‘Cause heaven on earth awaits (awaits)

[Post Chorus]
How much longer shall you linger (linger)
In this hell of your own creation? (creation)
Take your hand off that trigger
Feel the joy of emancipation 

[Pre Chorus]
If I had to do it all over again (again)
If that was the means to meet this end (this end)
And that was the way to learn to live (learn to live)
If I had to
If I had to

[Chorus]
Break the chains of desperation 
Emancipate your mental state
Whoa! Free your mind, free your body
‘Cause heaven on earth awaits (awaits)

[INSTRUMENTAL]

[Post Chorus]
How much longer shall you linger (linger)
In this hell of your own creation (creation)
Take your hand off that trigger
Feel the joy of emancipation 

[Bridge]
And if I had to do it all over again
If that was the means to meet this end
And that was the way to learn to live
If I had to
To learn to live
If I had to
To meet this end

[Final Chorus]
Break the chains of desperation 
Emancipate your mental state
Whoa! Free your mind, free your body
‘Cause heaven on earth awaits (awaits)

[Outro]
How much longer shall you linger
In this hell of your own creation
Take your hand off that trigger
Feel the joy of emancipation 
Feel the joy of emancipation 
Feel the joy of emancipation 
Feel the joy of emancipation

emancipation

A cinematic Nordic-inspired ballad blending atmospheric synths, ethereal vocals, and the soft cry of a harmonica.
In this version, I experimented — letting the harmonica meet northern synths and folk elements to create something both ancient and new.
It became a sound between silence and wind, between heart and sky — a memory carried through the northern night.

Under Quiet Skies

Drum  It up

Lyrics:
Snow lies hushed, a blue breath’s slender thread
Stone-still, saddened shepherd's dog in snow by a fallen wolf, also stone-cold, but ... dead

Wind’s faint track runs over silent rock and air
Sheep huddle close, heads low, too numb to truly care

“Is it dead?” — “Might be a trick, dog - beware”
“Wolves deserve no mercy, dog, strip his skin bare

Let his ribs drink cold, let frostbite tear
He hunted us — now let him drown in despair”

The shepherd dog stood grieving on the white-drift ground
“I faced those teeth for each of you when hunger came around

You shivering, spiteful fleeces, little heaps of warmed-up hide
To talk like this in all this grief, with him dead at your side

I broke his charge so many times, turned hunger from your door
Now starved he lies in tilted snow, and still you ask for more

Your eyes spit hate at him, and scarcely less at me
You love my snapping jaws, but loathe what they must truly be”

The will to live is nothing wild
Teeth are hunger’s praying child
Rib-cage law is not the knife
Cold time writes the end of life

If joy should flicker when this despair is shown
Hide it deep, deep, deep inside, guard it alone

The will to live is nothing wild
Teeth are hunger’s praying child
Rib-cage law is not the knife
Cold time writes the end of life

If joy should flicker when this despair is shown
Hide it deep inside, guard it without  me - all alone

With the tip of the shepherd dog’s nose he folded snow back
Covering bone and fur, nose-following the last faint track

The last warm breath rose up as cloud, then thinned to black
Veins froze like glass; his shadow split along the crack
Wind whispered over naked bone, then turned and circled back

“Master, I remember the oath you laid on us
I’ll save you, silly flock of sheep — but who will save you from me?

Yes, I will tear for you, but who will tear you through?
What will you be without my teeth — what will remain of you?”

Who is guilty here — fang, or fear, or sky askew?
Cold voices howl at iron clouds of frozen blue
No road back across this black, blind storm we stumble through
Only snow knows when a life splits clean in two

The will to live is nothing wild
Teeth are hunger’s praying child
Rib-cage law is not the knife
Cold time writes the end of life

If joy should flicker when this despair is shown
Hide it deep inside, guard it alone

The will to live is nothing wild
Teeth are hunger’s praying child
Rib-cage law is not the knife
Cold time writes the end of life

If joy should flicker when this despair is shown
Hide it deep inside, guard it without  me - all alone

If joy should flicker when this despair is shown
Hide it deep inside, guard it without  me - all all all alonel
alone alone alone

Guard yourself

an amazing Paploviante open collab that really drew me in.. 

Timeless Floating In Space / Paploviante Open Collaboration Offer 
Paploviante: E-Bass, Music, Composing, Arrangement, Mix and Mastering 

SK  Lyrics, Melody
Timeless Floating

timeless
floating
your galaxy and mine
the universe
quiet
bodies realign

hold me now
the stars begin to shine
diamond lightning
in the dark
bursting from this heart of mine

hold me breathless
in your arms 
i’m undefined

a universe
we yearned to find
to touch the stars
in uncharted skies
timeless floating
you and i

you and i
you and i

stardust stirring
a velvet shadowed night
at light speed burning
your touch becomes my light

every whisper
every sigh
in this endless place
pulls me deeper into you
timeless floating
in space
with you


timeless floating
timeless floating

a universe
we yearned to find
to touch the stars
in uncharted skies
timeless floating
you and i



timeless floating







Guard yourself

trisiz