This is a track about basically being a waste man.

Drugs & Lies

This track is about the endless cycle of having depression and an addictive personality. 
You hit a low. Climb back out. Peak. Drop to the bottom again and repeat. 
It never seems to end but you just have to learn to manage it and understand it. 
If you do that kind of thing then please always give yourself the time to climb back up again, you're not alone and know that the darkest days aren't forever. 
It's tough and it may always be this repeating cycle but there are positives from it if you look for them: 
You can be creative and reflective
You learn about your weaknesses
You become stronger each time
The good days are even better when you get to them
You probably struggle because you care or are aware of things more than other people
You can help others when they drop too by using your experience

Don't let the dark days win. Just ride the wave with them and climb again no matter how many times you slip up. 

LT

SadswimmerS

Slip Again

A burning effigy
A burning effigy 
A burning effigy 
A burning effigy

Sacked and overthrown 
All for the gold 
A new man sits at the throne    
Low and behold 
The king is dead 
Long live the king is said 
In unison.  
Turned against their own 
How cold  
A new man sits at the throne 
This is an all time low 
The king is dead 
Long live the king is said 
In unison

A burning effigy
A burning effigy 
A burning effigy 
A burning effigy

Victory drunk feasting eating,
Dreaming where they’ll take the kingdom next
The king is dead,
Long live the king is said
In unison
Cobbled streets stained red
With blood of friends
Who didn’t want this revolution
The king is dead,
Long live the king is said
In unison

A burning effigy
A burning effigy 
A burning effigy 
A burning effigy

December Demos

Effigy

Severed heads of dead pets spread across the bed like some horror set
The scenes almost set night sky is a scarlet red just need some lubricant and then the rickety can commence
No time for playing.
I’ve already pissed too much time away 
No time for playing 
I’ve tried to be a saint when I ain’t. 
Tried to play the game stay in my lane 
But nothing changed 
So let’s see what the other guy’s saying 
The loudest voice in my brain 
Who’s favourite game is making bodies drain as he operates in white satin 
Cause it catches the splattering blood stains. 
He’s insane you see
And loves death, despair and tragedy. 
usually he’s hauled up locked away, 
but not today. I need his rage. 
So I unlock cage and 
let him take centre stage.

The doctor said 
the way I am there’s a term for...
A loose cannon with a handgun ripping open my own jaw just for the sport. 
The doctor said I’ve lost my head again

The machete 
Fits so neatly and cuts so cleanly 
So i know if i swing  & hit I’ve got to dig another pit.
No survivors. No mercy. 
Just the lives of 
All that he feels wronged us 
And when he’s freed from my mind 
There’s no conscience 
Can’t command him 
Now he sees red 
Goes wild
With a fury of violence 
Whilst I’m waiting to be assessed. 
You’ll never guess what

The doctor said 
The way I am there’s a term for...
A loose cannon with a handgun ripping open my own 
jaw just for the sport. 
The doctor said I’ve lost my head again
The doctor said Ive losing my head and there’s a term for it 
The doctor said doctor said “you been taking your medicine? You’re going crazy.” 
The doctor said the way I am there’s a term for
A loose cannon with a handgun ripping my own jaw just for sport. 
The Doctor said I’ve lost my head 

He’s got his own back lawn full of dead dark thoughts and rotting corpses on crosses of double crossers he crossed off for me   
Sometimes he prunes the roses so he’s not all that bad. Surely? 
He just can't hold back 
when something makes us mad. 
Straight to attack and snap. 
It’s like that. 
There’s no going back. 

Is it insane to listen to the voices inside your brain?
Is it insane to listen to the voices inside your brain?
If it’s insane then I’m insane. 
If it’s insane then I’m insane. 
I’ve relapsed again but I’m relaxed. 
Better see what the doctor’s saying. 

The doctor said 
the way I am there’s a term for...
A loose cannon with a handgun ripping open my own 
jaw just for sport. 
The doctor said I’ve lost my head again
The doctor said 
the way I am there’s a term for...
A loose cannon with a handgun ripping open my own 
jaw just for sport. 
The doctor said I’ve lost my head again
The doctor said 
the way I am there’s a term for...
A loose cannon with a handgun ripping open my own 
jaw just for sport. 
The doctor said I’ve lost my head again
The doctor said I’m losing my head and there’s a term for it 
The doctor said doctor said “you been taking your medicine? You’re going crazy.” 
The doctor said the way I am there’s a term for
A loose cannon with a handgun ripping my own jaw just for sport. 
The Doctor said I’ve lost my head again

The Doctor Said I've Lost My Head Again

It’s high tide at nighttime. 
The waves rise 
They brush my skin and I don’t mind. 
Cause at least I’m feeling. 
Feeling something again.  

Wash me away. 
Wash me away with the tide 
in the nighttime 
Wash me away 
No I don’t mind. 
I already died a long time ago. 
Wash me away. 
Wash me away with the tide 
in the nighttime 
Wash me away with the tide 
No I don’t mind. 
I already died a long time ago.

So it’s high tide at nighttime 
The waves rise and I don’t mind. 
It’s nice to feel something again. 
It’s high tide at nighttime 
The waves rise and I don’t mind 
I’m waiting patiently for them to take me in. 
It’s high tide at nighttime 
The waves rise and I don’t mind 
No search lights can find me tonight 
It’s high tide at nighttime 
The waves rise and I don’t mind 
I’m just waiting to soothe my mind again.

Wash me away. 
Wash me away 
with the tide 
in the nighttime 
Wash me away 
Na I don’t mind. 
I already died a long time ago. 
Wash me away. 
Wash me away 
with the tide 
in the nighttime 
Wash me away with the tide 
Na I don’t mind. 
I already died a long time ago 
There’s no hope 

Used to look up
Now I only look down to the sea 
Waiting for the day she finally takes me. 
But every time I build the confidence up 
Dive in she recedes. 
Waving mockingly
Like she’s having a laugh with me 
Pulling the rug from under me
Before I jump 
So I slip to my knees 
It’s all I need. 
Please let me have this release. 

Wash me away. 
Wash me away 
with the tide 
in the nighttime 
Wash me away 
Na I don’t mind. 
I already died a long time ago. 
Wash me away. 
Wash me away 
with the tide 
in the nighttime 
Wash me away with the tide 
Na I don’t mind. 
I already died a long time ago. 
There’s no hope.

Nighttime High

Sup chickins and chickouts. 

Sorry I've been quite. My asshole friend put her boney ass knee through my Mac and it is now deceased. So I had a few months saving for a new computer and no real way of working on tunes for all 3 or 4 of you who listen to my depressing emo mating calls. 
 
Nowhere near finished with any of these ideas but I thought I'd post what I've been working on so far this year just to see if anybody has feedback, hates something, loves something and hopefully it'll help me pick out which songs I want to prioritise finishing and which are a wet bag of dog shit or something along those kind of lines. 

LT - MMXXI

Hit List (verse)

Heart Shaped Spaces

All I've Ever Known

Shines

Nighttime High (Hella Rough Rework)

Daylight Again

Just writing what I’m feeling. 
Totally no clue where I’m heading. 

Simply creating. 

It’s all kinda sad...

L⚡️T

@troublesoftenant

TenanT

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