bittersweet (w/ ryan hall & han.irl<3)

about doubt

lyrics:
One, two, three
Am I

Too cold to care about
Do you hate to talk 'cause it brings you down is it
Too much to say aloud
Are you tired of this
Can we fuck it out am I

Too cold to care about
Do you hate to talk 'cause it brings you down is it
Too much to say aloud is it
Too much to say aloud

"Is it me?" (Ion know)
"Is it different?" (Yup)
"Are you tired?"
"Am I anxious?"
We both asked and tried to respond but
Sleep deprivation's never been honest

So we sat
In silence (Sh)
"Why can't you talk to me?"
We both asked and tried to respond, but
I'm just quiet
I'm just quiet

Fucked up tough love getting upset
Try to ignore all the shit you told
Your friends about my broken thoughts and
What I said or tried to

Tough luck got fucked by the solitude
Blank walls, cheap room, creeping want
Of sensory content
Alone and at fault
I'm in tears on the floor
I know it's "just another freak out"

Little bitch sit down
It ain't really that bad
Won't you shut your mouth
'Fore you take another lap of the house

Stop pacing you're acting insane
All this talking to yourself won't help

"I'm well! I've never felt better than this!"
"I'm great! I've never felt better than this!"
"I'm well! I've never felt better than this!"
"I'm great! I've never felt better than this!"

Do you wish you'd settled down
Thirty, forty minutes out the city
Somewhere quiet, but
Close enough so that you could still go see your friends

You'd be working as a teacher
He'd be doing something stable
Twenty-seven, everything
Would be going according to plan

Do you wish you'd settled down
Somewhere quiet out the city
Finished study finally starting up your life like you had said

You'd be working as a teacher
He'd be doing something stable
Twenty-seven, everything had gone according to plan

Am I

Too cold to care about
Do you hate to talk 'cause it brings you down is it
Too much to say aloud
Are you tired of this
Can we fuck it out am I

Too cold to care about
Do you hate to talk 'cause it brings you down is it
Too much to say aloud is it
Too much to say aloud

'communication is the basis of every strong relationship'

prod. ilytwelve

you say i sound like him oh well 
i’m just doing what i love 
tryna make it my living 
i don’t wanna be no scrub 
and i don’t wanna be no one but me 
i don’t wanna be no one 
this when shit get ugly 
singing shit through my lungs 

ain’t nothing copacetic keep it real 
i never come in second first or fail 
now everybody hmu sayin i’m gon hit a mil 
but where were y’all at when i fell? 
( gone ) 
yeah, where were y’all at when i fell? 
yeah, where were y’all at when i-

don’t know what to feel 
been so caught up in your lies 
don’t even know what’s real 
don’t wanna work a 9 to 5 
that ain’t how i wanna live 
don’t wanna work a 9 to 5 
that ain’t how i wanna live 
stop 
show what you’re made of
don’t want the fake shit 
baby i want the real love but 
can’t ever get it 
i never know your intentions 
picked up my heart 
and you left me with these incisions 
i just 
wanna be me don’t wanna be no one else 
but how can i fucking do that 
i don’t even know myself 
trade a penny for a dime 
and my time for some help 
cause i don’t need to know nobody 
i just wanna know myself yeah 
( fuck ) 

ain’t nothing copacetic keep it real 
i never come in second first or fail 
now everybody hmu sayin i’m gon hit a mil 
but where were y’all at when i fell? 
( gone ) 
yeah, where were y’all at when i fell? 
yeah, where were y’all at when i-
fell.
( gone )

epiphany

prod. ilytwelve 
yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
( i love you )

i dont know what to feel anymore 
stuck in anonymity don't know who i am no more
only took a couple months you walked right out that fucking door
yeah, like what the fuck was it all even for?
if this is how to live then i don't want to live at all
i just wind up all my feelings then i let em go
and it was never for the worst but that's just how it goes 
fuck around to fuck around probably just to feel something more
( i love you )

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

and i dont know if i miss you or i miss the thought of love 
im trapped in my consciousness need drugs to get out of touch 
you all diplomatic, im just a manic 
so whose advice do i take if i don't have an answer 
i just spend up all my time in my own mind 
the only friend i got is what i smoke to feel right 
i set the bar high 
a waste of my time 
caught on the deadline, in which im taught to be sure
i struggle finding what's sure 
don't need a hand and not yours 
take revelations it's straining to rip out the sword
i wasn't distant before 
but now i'm distant and more 
my personality inside of me 
it makes me contort 
( i love you ) 

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

fuck!
but i ain't going out sad
do it by myself 
i dont need nobody bad
i remember i was down 
ain't nobody had my back so
now when i go up
ill be up until my body bag yeah.

amenity

STILL

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