Part of this sounds like an im not the one you love verse it's neato 👌🤘

Joshua Kelly here and Brother your music is honestly some real shit. Honestly it's like it was actually written for me. 

you prolly dont along with your family becuase your chosen and destined for succeed n they know it

still waiting on lyrics. still waiting on this original style, still waiting for softheart. I miss you, you helped me through so much years.

If you fuck with peep and or have ears listen

softheart but I go hard

Lyrics:
when i lay awake inside the hole in own bed
all these thoughts come back and they come flooding through my head
i wonder what they'd do if they woke up and found me dead
i wish i could reverse all the events and where they lead

i know that i seem crazy i just probably need some help
dont listen to my lyrics cause youll know that im in hell
i promise im just kidding and im really doing well, i wear this mask like every day its halloween you couldn't tell

i would really not be shit at all without my favorite person, i just feel so bad that every night she gets a different version, of me i just spend my days distracted with a big diversion, its the only way i function when im lost in the immersion

i know i say im tired im annoying all the time
i really hate complaining about all thats on my mind, ill either keep myself real busy just to show that i can grind
or sink into the void and smoke until my brain is fried

keep to myself cause i know that im fucked
i know that i hurt everything that i touch
try to be nice but i know its not much
working all day just to bring in the bucks

dont wanna feel so i just wanna sleep
smoke on a bowl then i fall in the deep
baby i love you youre all that i need
i promise im trying to get on my feet

know youre my life so just please never leave
life is so fucked but i wanna believe
maybe the good things we just never see
im just a bitch while i cry on the beat

say i dont care what no one think of me
thoughts will not stop but thats just how it be
sailing away so that i can be free, but im dead on the shore and i float out to sea

in my lane, on my own
hit the blade its the only way to go
im not sane, but now you know
i wont complain when i know thats how it goes

Fried

Fried (prod. Lil Nightshift)

proceed with caution

lyrics for the fan that messaged me sorry it took so long

much love keep your head up it get's better homie trust me <3


you dont even care like you used to
you aint ever there like you used to be
hard like the usual
you just give me stares like your used to me

im just writing songs istead of doing wrong
instead of you alone
im just hitting packs of the bong
it was peace, then
suddenly nobody get along
fuck a reason
i just want you inside of my arms
but you dont wanna
my love she dont want it
perfect she a goddess
goddesses are heartless

and i stay
filled in with blankness as bliss
i get lost in the pain of the shit
faded the canvis it's raw like i'm blazing 
the scent break the cloth when i'm painting the shit
need to stop overhearing ho
personal buissness is blended but different than all my lyrics
no way
teardrops hit any others might stain
still the same kid any others might change
forever i roll with the homies even if we smoking 50 miles away
and im still accidentally passing the j
someone's gon grab that shit one of these days

oh no no no no i never take it like i used to
all this hurt and high shit dont faze me like it used to
she gon do me wrong she gon break me like the usual 
all these ruts and drugs still dont change how i get used to
(x2)

you dont even care like you used to
you aint ever there like you used to be
hard like the usual
you just give me stares like your used to me

homesick (YourStandardSappyOverlyEmotionalHeartbreakSong) |prod. GHXST|

project soon

thanks to my dude @notmorgn
go check him out if you haven't

heartless w/ notmorgn

this song lowkey from like a year ago lol

F5F5F5F5 / Dumb (prod. ACR Radio)

lyrics 4 the fan that asked for em shout out to you 

nightshade
and my Styrofoam in twos 
i change
and when i go home with you i'll stay

these nights in this waistland, ay
keep me right by your waistband, ay

ooo, leave me on my own too high
leave me make me start a new life
seen it far to much it aint right
too many times

nightshade (prod. truett)

the homie @guccihighwaters

lyrics

(gucci)
I build static
I go crazy
Can't put it out if it doesn't sound amazing
and life's too fast baby hold me till it's over
tell me that you love me maybe once when you're sober
Don't wanna die as a memory
I can't leave without my legacy
Leave love letters lying on my tombstone
death is only physical I'd like to have a new home

Anxiety make my body go numb now
I sleep early withdraw on the comedown 
when I was younger it left me in hunger
but now I'm older 
desire to be under x2

(softheart)
you dont even care like you used to 
you aint even there like you used to be
hard like the usual 
you just give me stares like you're used to me

anxious probably up late
tryna hide my face
tryna bring it back
i was thinking that
life is always moving so fast
before you knew it had passed
doing better still bad

i guess im just scared it wont come
true so i dont think it
i swear its so lonely when its snowing
in new england
thought you called me it was just a 
dream was just a figment
of back when you would hold me 
like the only thing you need is
me 
is me 
is me
hate me you hate me so bad
its over hard to stay sober 
as i get older just grow colder
weed make it okay so i stay stoned
just like a boulder

chorus

anxiety (feat. guccihighwaters)

a mess, inside a body of a man

featuring my friend @guardinmusic

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

lyrics: https://genius.com/thebreathingbackwards-what-i-am-lyrics

blackheartemoji

spotify

what i am (ft. guardin)

FREE DOWNLOAD

i'm still just a kid and i'm trying my best

feature: @guccihighwaters

lyrics:

(softheart)
why would i trust in anything
i dont feel the love it dont mean a thing
feels so good then it really sting
i dont really talk but i really sing 
she got me thinking like
oo she had me
cut me off so bad
leave me messed up in my head
only miss us when were bad
i be in my room smoking loud sitting silent
you should be adressed as your highness
i swear every time we touch just mitus
im just roaming through the ridges of your irus
violence got your eyelids looking violet
promise ill get rid of him ill leave him where i find him
i be with the blinds dimmed hidin
vibin

unimpressed and always bored
it aint here yet so i'll wait for it
im depressed and always stoned
im always stressed i can't control it 
uninterested always alone
fire in my chest and my heart cold
bedroom unkept ash all over my floor
i got kush in my breath merijuana my decor


(gucci)
oh
i’m all alone my phone dead
i got thoughts of the end 
and my eyes sell a forfeit
thoughts of brain matter
stain my mattress
thoughts you drown me
like a baptist

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

(softheart)
yeah and im just an outcast 
only fit in with the skyline 
cause im always lighting up
never really gets me numb enough
sorry i wasnt the one you loved

(gucci&softheart)
girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

i'm not the one you love (feat. guccihighwaters)

young existential crisis V2 (prod. young taylor)

taking naps i cant even afford

with some beautiful guitar work by my friend @the-gnarly-neighbors

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AmBDiyk9YO8
lyrics: https://genius.com/Thebreathingbackwards-morning-light-w-the-gnarly-neighbors-lyrics

morning light (w/ the gnarly neighbors)

@mewsyc
@producedbyaidan
@guccihighwaters

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

whats inside my cup
blindsides my brain
so i hide my face
in an act of shame
and hope to dissapear
in a perminant way
u watch me fade to black
u'd love to watch my pain

and u know
who to call
ill b there
after all
and i know
when i fall
u wont care
afterall,

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

yeah, im just a waste
i dont got that much to offer
im selfish and conceeded 
but always put my all
into everyone and everything
then watch it as it falls
let it crumble to my feet
just like everything ive ever loved

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

im ur puppet and u play me like a game
text from my ex, yeah she never felt the same
use me on a rainy day
abuse me til i cant even think
that picuture that we took
i always kept it safe
id put it in my pocket just so i could see ur face
when i was out of town
u always kept me with u
never told u bout all the times when i would miss u

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

Follow me <3

boy toy (ft. guccihighwaters) [prod. mewsyc & aidan]

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/bornhero for the amazing beat <3

lyrics:
where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i do not know
how to fit in
smoking me out
ripping a spliff  
everyone loves me when i go and dip
everyone loves me when i go and dip

everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
i'm stuck here 
writing simple songs
hope to take the pain away
when my eyes turn to gray
i know 
that my secrets buried deep below the bong
will release
every thought i'm feeling making me do wrong

where i belong
i will not know
every weekend i'm feeling so low
no where to go 
staying at home
staring at walls scrolling twitter alone
hit up my phone
leave you on read
people around treating me like i'm dead
feel like a ghost
no one will post
sit in my bed think about you again   

no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti
no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti

i take control of the whip in my mind
driving me places that i can't define
exploring the road, taking my time
lie to my friends when i say i'm alright
where have i gone
i do not know 
hop in the car and i'm driving alone
phone is on silent not trusting these tones
i feel the weight all the way to my bone

where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i take control of the whip 
going straight 90 i dip
exploring the vessel of me
tell me about what you see

where i belong (prod. born hero)

explicit

[+] stop talking words are useless.
* featuring @trechorboy + @sushisai * prod by @boyfifty *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[verse 1: seejayxo]
you could take my love and you could throw it out
got me looking at the stars when you not around
thats why i be jaded, fuck what u be sayin
i ain't even playin when i say that i'm make it
i don't feel anymore, eyes hella sore
i got the bag and it's Christian Dior
i'm callin for you, i'm callin for you

[verse: 2 trechor boy]
gas inhalation took me on vacation 
 i never get love i hate the sensation 
a life worth lived makes no sense 
cuz  we all die in da fuckin end like

lemme paraphrase Thoreau, he said
“rather love, money, faith, show me da road”
and i uh, i guess i understand that now
dont vibe with the lies they be tellin u now

[verse 3: suisai]
stop talking words are useless
can never hold up
What did you expect it 
to be different 
Shouldlt even have to convince
but they all look from outside
Walls could cave in at
Any givin moment
it looks like its the time to
Stop wishin for it to get better
And wash that pain away
Pitter patter of rain on the rooftop
i could lay in this bed all day
  And think And listen and look 4
For a sign pls remind me again
what really matters at the end of all this

[chorus: seejayxo + trechor boy]
like i want it all too
fuck it i'll fall through
i thought i loved you
i thought i loved you
like i want it all too
fuck it you'll fall through
i thought you loved me
i thought you loved me

i'm still just a kid and i'm trying my best

Truett

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