circa — October 2021
Background Vocals by gunk @iloveallmydogs
Produced by elxnce
Stream on Spotify: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/elxnce/around
https://elxnce.bandcamp.com/track/around-2

Lyrics:
Don't know if it's love is it just pretend
Every time you call my phone I wish that you were dead
Can't get you out of my head
Can't get you out of my head
Don't know if it's love is it just pretend
Every time you call my phone I wish that you were dead
Can't get you out of my head
Can't get you out of my head

And where do I begin, I love you so much we can go through the thick and the thin
I'm describing everything I want to say to you, 'cause I can't hold back (not this time)
It's been like too long, without your phone calls
And despite of everything, I hope I'll see you around (I hope I'll see you around, around)

Don't know if it's love is it just pretend
Every time you call my phone I wish that you were dead
It's alright, it's okay, I didn't need you anyway
It's alright, it's okay, I didn't need you anyway
But I still haven't kissed you, is it bad that I still kind of miss you
It's alright, it's okay, I didn't need you anyway
It's alright, it's okay, I didn't need you anyway

It's alright, it's okay, I didn't need you anyway, it's alright
I didn't need you anyway

Stream

Around

circa — April 2023
Additional Production by @whyawe

Welcome to my luck it's not new
I wouldn't be here anywhere without you
If I was young right now I wouldn't know what to do
I'm just glad I fought my battles and grew
I still can't believe that you're gone
I wish that you could hear this song
But you know when times get too tough
And you know that you've had enough
When things start going in place for you
And I don't let anyone catch my bluff
Times like these, just to bring myself together
Would be all it cost

I'm glad I wasn't born anywhere else
'Cause I don't think that I'd be me
I wish we could play our favorite songs
I wish that you weren't gone
My sister said it's okay to cry
I'm looking at our pictures, wish that we could live another day
Forever grateful for you, yeah it's sad it had to end this way
It's breaking me up, it's breaking me down
I hope we can find ourselves in the afterlife, I love you mom

Close my eyes, and then I fall asleep
I can't breathe without your company
'Cause nothing else really matters (but you)
All I ever was was your baby

It's Okay to Cry (Outro)

(plays are botted)

prod.me

i look outside the box
don't know where to start
ask me how i feel 
i feel spectacular
lost track what u want?
don't know who you are
so ask me how i feel
spectacular 

that's enough to kill the bitch
stuck inside my room
i don't give a shit
more time to myself
ima make a hit
yea my mom said i'll make it
IMA MAKE THIS SHIT

i look outside the box
don't know where to start
ask me how i feel 
i feel spectacular
lost track what u want?
don't know who you are
so ask me how i feel
spectacular 

stand on what you said
take a new approach 
if you look outside the box
you can see me
fuck what you said and meant
i don't care at all
i'm like oh my fucking god i don't mean it

but if i said i did 
would it change a lot
i'm like come on what the fuck 
i didn't break your arm
its so simple its a joke
i never got this far
and i'm sorry if i hurt you
i just care a lot

-tacular
ask me how i feel
i feel spectacular 
-tacular 
-tacular
spectacular 

i'm tryna do this shit for too long
it better work out
i've tried to hit the ball too far
now there's no sound
they tryna take me down i said 
FUCK YOU
HOPE IT WORKS OUT
i've got the best feeling 
it's somebody i know 
i hope you get well

stand on what you said
take a new approach 
if you look outside the box
you can see me
fuck what you said and meant
i don't care at all
i'm like oh my fucking god i don't mean it

but if i said i did 
would it change a lot
i'm like come on what the fuck 
i didn't break your arm
its so simple its a joke
i never got this far
and i'm sorry if i hurt you
i just care a lot

spectacular

art: @xaev 
prod.me 

she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

she said it's cold but i wanna 
hear the wind outside, and i'll 
act like it's my birthday but
i'm not alright

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes
she says that i'm fine
it's all in my mind
i don't wanna die
i don't wanna die
it's only sometimes 

close my eyes and i'll see

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

just take what you want
i hate gain and loss
i've lost the whole plot

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

and i wanna die sometimes 
swap clothes? not quite
restart my life

close my eyes and i'll see

JUST TAKE WHAT YOU WANT
I HATE GAIN AND LOSS 
I'VE LOST THE WHOLE PLOT!!!!!!!!!!

close my eyes and i'll see.

gain & loss

7 months of no creativity and i finally finished this

WILL BE ON SPOTIFY SOON IM SO ANNOYED AND SORRY

deadset

-lyrics-
I don't wanna die
I just want it all
I lost track of time
Trying to give u my all
I just want a try
But you do not want it more
I don't want to lie
Please don't change your mind

I don't wanna die
Come and break it off
You know that I'm so gone
I'm going thru it, no
I just want a try
But you do not want it more
I don't want to lie
Please don't change your mind

That boy wanna play, he'll get it
I told myself, i'll get it soon enough
When is it my turn
All my friends are going up
When is it my turn
I told myself, i'll get it soon enough
And i'm still someone that i'm not
That's not me yet

I Wish That Were Me

[made for the Niztopia song wars 3/9 :>]

prod.me

can you smoke the pain away? 
please tell me
can you tell that im insane?
please tell me
if you never shoot then you always lose
(think quick tell me sum that i cant do)
if you never shoot then you always lose
please, tell me something that i cant do

cant do
give me something that i cant do
cant do, cant you?
give me something that i cant do
cant do, cant do
give me something that i cant do
cand do, cant you?

SAY IT REAL LOUD
say it real loud
give me something that i cant do
say it real loud 
give me something that i cant do
say it real loud

(i) step outside the (box)
thats the way i move
i know it aint perfect
but its more than you
if you never shoot
then you always lose
give me something that i cant do
(cant do)
cant you turn the sound off?
you dont fucking own that
YOU SHOULD GET YOUR OWN SWAG
i can feel the doubt from the next room
SO IF YOU FIND SOMETHING THAT I CANT DO

SAY IT REAL LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

say-it

[MUSIC VIDEO - https://youtu.be/BxLYEp4Ya1A]

prod.@xaev + @72crash + me

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you-

bruises on my body
dont ask me how i got it
brand new face i bought it
shout out to my doctor
bruises on my body 
please dont get me started
bruises on my body
i just wanna party

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?

plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING
plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty thing

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty th-

you just wanna be like me 
but you cant afford it
stop obsessing over me
but you know i love it
if you say i gotta leave
im like ok fuck it
PROMISE you wont follow me
if you blink you miss it

bitch im rolling in my bed
turn the music up
i just wanna smash my head
i just wanna jump

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
I DONT LOVE NO ONE
RIGHT NOW I JUST WANNA 
JUMP, JUMP

turn the bass up, why????
IM TOO SHY TO PARTY BUT ILL STAY UNTIL IM HIGH
i dont wanna talk i can talk between my eyes
right behind my forehead is where i form all my lies

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK

it's a beauty thing [DON'T YOU NOTICE ME]

prod. @wubz <3
art by kagitasuimen with design + photography by disk_motif

holding
I can't let you know me
I can barely think straight I'm still hoping
take your knife and mold me
I'm caught in your arms now caught in you're-
and i'm caught in your arms now
holding my hands out
pray that you're right
that you'll figure it all out (relish)

that's right - that's right - that's right
you told me last night last night it's fine
don't hold me i'll cry - i'll cry - i'll cry
cause I hate the way you look at-

and i'm caught in your arms now
holding my hands out
pray that you're right
that you'll figure it all out
making it worthless
thought that it'd hurt less
I let my guard down
carved like a knife- I'm-

I don't wanna know you now
feel like I've fallen down
took the time to find my heart
and you stole it from me
and I can't get up 
my legs are still broken
my heart is still stolen 
I need the piece that you're still
holding
I can't let you know me
I can barely think straight I'm still hoping
take your knife and mold me
I'm caught in your arms now caught in you're-

held by my halo
talk but say it slow
do it all over
you'll be my holder I
can't seem to stay long
wish for it all gone
do it all over
you'll be my hold- hold -hold
held by my halo
talk but say it slow
do it all over
you'll be my holder I
can't seem to stay long
wish for it all gone
do it all over
you'll be my (re-re re)

guide me slowly talk cause I can't speak I
hear you talking for me
can't get the words out
feel like I'm hurt now
all that you told me 
lies just to hold-

that's right - that's right - that's right
you told me last night last night it's fine
don't hold me i'll cry - i'll cry - i'll cry
cause I hate the way you look at-

that's right - that's right - that's right
you told me last night last night it's fine
don't hold me i'll cry - i'll cry - i'll cry
cause I hate the way you look at-
and i'm caught in-

and i'm caught in your arms now
holding my hands out
pray that you're right
that you'll figure it all out - out -out
held by my halo
talk but say it slow
do it all over
you'll be my holder I
can't seem to stay long
wish for it all gone
do it all over
you'll be my holder

say-it

trustt