vox + additional prod by @swotll

lyrics:

i gave you my heart
will you make it up to me?
is this real
you're making it hard
makes me wonder why you're here

please dont talk behind my back
why u talking at that smack
ur like a burden in my back
and im with you and i cant stand it

you're like a plane and i cant land it
im just tryna fix my damage

damage (ft. swotl)

spent the summer of 2022 making this. wrote the original draft in 2021. not much compared to what i can do now, but i figured it was worth putting out since there's a bit of an emotional attachment for me. Represents a different era of my life

yes the export/sidechain is glitched because the file is corrupted and i could fix it by jumping through some technical hoops, but it's been like that for so long i kind of just consider it part of the song

ann j gardner canyon park 2012

i hope this has made up for all of the time i HAVENT been here! i love all of yall and thank you for sticking around for here! everything here is unfinished i think
1st: signature (demo)
2nd: default
3rd: opus
4th: disregarded once more

a beautiful homonym of a flower

(plays are botted)

prod.me

cry, that's your best sound
cry, that's your best sound 
cry, that's your best sound
talk, that's your best sound

where's the fun in living it?
i don't find this way of living fit
no more 
why's it hard to feel remorse?
it's so hard to feel
no, more
no, more
no, more
no, more

- original title, field(yourbestsound)

your best sound

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1JAV46oTdV7Z05cJZIF0ac?si=67e499cfa1f6436c

lyrics:
i know your starving in heaven 
i know your starving in heaven
are we all meant to die (die)
are we all meant to

stop!
are you a fan of a person you dont like
if you cant stand closing the curtains when its night 
and i cant tell if im doing this all right 
and i cant tell if you're doin alright 

(stop) i got 24 missed calls inside my inbox
too many gamma rays around me need to detox
you got me trapped inside your springlocks (springlocks)

(stop) cus im so constantly worried like "what do they think about me" "am i not interesting" 
its getting harder to sleep without you
you said its only me but why am i counting two

i know you're different when there's no one in sight 
you cant help but bring me to life
(bring me to life)
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life

well what do you think 
why you so bad
you've done terrible things
you ain't the one to change cus you've never been

i know you're different when there's no one in sight 
you cant help but bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life
bring me to life

(i cant believe you, i cant believe)
(i cant believe you, i cant believe)
(i cant believe you, i cant believe)

bring me to life

produced by me
written/mixed/mastered by me
cover illustration by server (https://serverxyzz.carrd.co)
interpolates jishoumushoku by sasanomaly

[lyrics]
~verse 1~
i like to keep things close to the same
got personal problems adapting to change
i always plan things so far away
but when i get started its far too late
i like pretending i know what to do
like if i really feel at home then itll all come true
i like pretending ive made it on my own
when it could all end with a phone call home

~bridge~
god, its so hard
to juggle all the things that have been handed to me
but i cant stop
ive got to get back up

~chorus~
so im step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
maybe i just need something,
something to keep me down
it feels so lonely when i dip
my head into the clouds
this gravity's too open
sometimes i miss the ground
it feels so weird to kiss the earth
i wanna get right back to
step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
(step, step, step step it up)
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
(step, step, step step it up)
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop

~verse 2~
i try to sleep well, but every night
i cant shake the feeling im wasting time
ive gotta sink before i can fly
but im still afloat and i dont know why
maybe its all gonna slow way down,
thats all i can hope for, but i still dont know
i roll with the punches, i live in the now
i take a step forward and i double back

~chorus~
so im step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
maybe i just need something,
something to keep me down
it feels so lonely when i dip
my head into the clouds
this gravity's too open
sometimes i miss the ground
it feels so weird to kiss the earth
i wanna get right back to
step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
(step, step, step step it up)
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
(step, step, step step it up)
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop

Steps

2 out of 4
Final part inspired by https://soundcloud.com/prodelxnce/eighteen

lyrics:

I can’t lose it all
Why don’t you go and break my heart
I done lost my friends there’s no one 
You dont have to say that its my fault
Why dont you make fun of me now
I cant bear to watch it fall down
Go away i dont want to come back
I already know its all gone now

Now ur actin like u know me
U dont know me u just know the old me!!
And i’ll never be that person i'm a phony
I know you’d hate it 
(but you don't have to say it...)

I get so jealous
You cannot save me at all
“Why won’t you tell us”
I know I’m better off alone
Im wishing all night
I know you’d laugh at me when I fall off
So don’t go telling me that you were always my friend
I’m In the deep end
I was so scared then
And im still worried when I drop, you wouldn’t like it
Don’t try to fight it
But I cant say how I feel just for you to go and break my heart

Now please
Hear what I hear

You think about hurting yourself again
I can't save you this time
When i close my eyes
You're there

Now you're acting like you know me
Now you're acting like you know me

I can’t lose it all
Why don’t you go and break my heart ?
I done lost my friends there’s no one 
You dont have to say that its my fault

If you don't fucking like me
Then you can just fucking say it

break my heart

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sample by @periwinklepopo

~

He counts heads on his fingers and finds they're all surviving. So what if he'd rather be remembered in the dreams of strangers?

your best sound

trustt