prod @jolst + @pekarot_161
mastered by: @jolst

right here
won’t you hold me right here 
cus everybody switched up
i had to fight fair 
i been
stressed out
think i need a cold beer 
said fuck that 
i’ll smoke a blunt
and pull out my hair 
x2

cus i been spending my money and livin up
and i been textin her she just don’t give a fuck
at least i got my friends right here to jus show me love
if i was alone right now i’d probably kick the buck 

i just want my baby to come and kiss me a little bit 
i know i get too greedy and i wanna take it off
if you ever need a friend just hit me for the thrill of it 
she give me a little but i rlly want it all >:•)

baby im a loner :(
straight to the fucking face 
smoke a blunt n then i phone her 
im beggin beggin baby please 
why won’t u just come over (im kinda bored)
im not tryna be dramatic
but im gonna fucking throw up !!!!!!!!

not tryna be dramatic but i'm guess that im a loner ): 

(alan watts speech)
(ak47 reload)
(lightsaber sheath)

revenant (jolst x pekarot)

shoutout my homie for bein on this! @notaheroo

lyrics:

i’ve been drowning my sorrows in the bottom of bottles
she said i should relax and not to go full throttle 
baby just calm down and i’ll be gone by tomorrow
you say your heart has been hollowed

but have you looked at me lately?
i’m the one who needs a saving grace
her eyes they pierce so painfully
i see your face and i’m back in that place

they’ve left me with nowhere to go
i’ve been broken down and on my own
my shoulders are crushed from the weight of it all

and you’ve been laughing at me waiting for me to fall
and i lack the motivation to force myself to crawl
you held back information knowing that it’s your fault
clarification is shown behind the walls
a now known revelation planned to kill my soul

it’s hard not to fold 
underneath the mold
of what i was always told and what i’m feeling
the seasons are changing again

oh, changing again
oh, can you tell me where the times been?

(notahero)

can u hear me coming baby?
open up the front door
i know time is infinite
but i don’t think i got much more
my bones and back grow sore
u tell me i should fight
pain gets defied when i look up in ur eyes
sorrow gets diffused into energy all u gotta do is fight
it’s hard enough waking up
be my saving grace tonight
anxiety riddles me when i feel my lungs fucking up
the pressure belittle me when i don’t think that i’m blowing up
but riddle me this baby
how come i ain’t never show no signs of giving up?

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

from my soul
featuring: @greenwood2000
produced by: @trplgmni
art by: @tamagotchu

lyrics:
can you blame me for the reply?
couple months had to get by
now instead of waiting outside
i found a way to live a new life
another lens, check the replay
look at all the shit thats been changed
always tough in the deep grey
but i made it out unscathed
if i don’t even remember
its because i’m doing better
wooden necklace & a keen eye
gotta feeling that i’m

blinded by the downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

greenwood: 
killing time before the door
more than life, more than you know
thought it's different, i was told

lost touch the way it is
further from the places that we've been
despite the mess i'm in
over and over
the state i'm waking in
the bed's been feeling colder
i'm ashamed to say it doesn't fit anyone without you
never did

i'd wait for you in Spring
i'm changing in the worst way
i'm holding out again this time

(gotta feeling that i’m blinded by the)
downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

tether (ft. greenwood) [triple gemini]

spotify & apple <3

fill my lungs with nicotine and hate
alot of water running down my face
runaway to a hiding place
and seek some words from someone with your name

i could give a word or two about you
i know thats just never right to do
but every word im speaking out is true
i dont give a lot its more than you

i can take it but you dont give anything
i wish that youd lie to me, come lie to me again
i want you to hide with me, come lay with me again
i want you to fight with, come fight with me again
i want you to break it but weve broken everything
i dont wanna face it but its hard for me to leave
i dont wanna listen, so i wont hear anything
holding onto something i dont care if you dont

maybe this is all that ive got in life
writing songs about it pacing all the time
fighting with myself im pulling hair from the root
maybe itd be if i wouldnt intrude
on life
its yours not mine
i had my time
and blew it right
it goes
its everything around and i swear that it goes
i dont wanna ruin it by doing the most

hiding place

ty for help @itsseele <33
self prod
guitar @hiraethsry :D

to think i owe, anything at all
taking out my hand is all that u know
theres no walking this back, not letting it go
u dont even feel bad, youl reap what u sow

im lifting your weight, i wont carry this around
leave me lacking in faith, let it all hit the ground
lead me, shackles and chains, theres no hope for me now
how long does it take?! im done dragging it out

weight

why do I still call you knowing you won't answer (prod. eel)

produced by lostcage

@nevermadeithome:
i've been walking to our tree
scribed our names within that leaf
then it blew away
and as it flew away
i got my knife out from my sleeve
carved our names off from that tree
so its permanent
so its permanent

@lottaheart:
you said you'll see me in the fall,
i can't wait until the leaves change
i just want you all to myself with no restraints
wish you were around me
i don't think you relate
miss the way your house key dangled from my keychain
[x2]

dangled from my keychain
i wish we could replay
take me to the start cause i'm not a fan of these days
i'm high on a weekday,
i can't even see straight
i can't fall asleep when i'm in the same bed we layed
how the fuck can i forget that?
another setback, take a step back
get back, i can't get back on the same track
let that, i won't let that
cause i kept that-
promise i made in august before you said that

@lottaheart:
you said you'll see me in the fall,
i can't wait until the leaves change
i just want you all to myself with no restraints
wish you were around me
i don't think you relate
miss the way your house key dangled from my keychain

@nevermadeithome:
ay, i've got your fuckin housekey
i got 2 bags of coke, i'm gon sniff it till it bleed
ay, i wipe that shit all on my sleeve
why my brain asking questions?
don't ask questions while i leave

you fucked my world up
fucked my heart up, arctic freeze
i'm so haunted, you're so dead
you're the ghost, you won't believe

you fucked the start up,
fucked my world up, twilight trees
hang me from the highest branch
from the ground up, i can't reach

@lottaheart:
you said you'll see me in the fall,
i can't wait until the leaves change
i just want you all to myself with no restraints
wish you were around me
i don't think you relate
miss the way your house key dangled from my keychain
[x2]

see me in the fall [lostcage]

i need a way
need a way
from the sorrows
take out the waste
oh my days
i feel so hollow

you blew me away
like the dust from the tables
all love was fake 
yea i know it was fatal
wash away the pain
i have these methods
that i cannot get into
i dont wanna drown in the rain 
but im alone i might just need too

i know all about you
what is life?
its starting to feel just like a game
and i would never doubt you
in the end we'll both go our ways

how hard do i try? 
no matter i will die
and i try finding peace
but turns out its a lie
and im stuck on this path
im fucked in the end
it was a laugh 
but right now im so dead

you blew me away
like the dust from the tables
all love was fake 
yea i know it was fatal

dust [wixxy]

og comet (jabarionthebeat) (snippet) 2019

Detroit

fuck out the way

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

https://soundcloud.com/prodmichael

Lyrics:

(bbyk9)
A few words now
Girl you’re in my brain

Could you move cause
Girl you're in my way

Yeah you're just watching, you don’t care if I break

Leave me in the dirt, and walk away

Yeah you fucked me up now I've gone bad
Barely finished this song I was too sad
I got cheap drugs in both hands
I got problems don't say that

And I'm attached now she's mad
Pop pills. and I lean back
You come in, paint the scene black
I got bad plugs like where he at?

Please just shut up get out my way
Mud in the cup blunt to my face
It makes me sick so I don’t say her name
She’s fucking him rubbing it in my face

And I’m not okay
Two or three words put me in a disarray
Need a lil somethin to numb out the pain
Gave me your love should've known it was fake

A few words now
Girl you’re in my brain

Could you move cause
Girl you're in my way

Yeah you're just watching, you don’t care if I break

Leave me in the dirt, and walk away

(heylog)
Like pls girl just get out the way
But she tried seeing if he was okay
And his eyes filled with heavy rain
But he lied said hes happy im great

No she has no idea hes in pain
But he smiles faking every day
And he always said "dump me on the blame"
So he vanished and left not one trace

And if u think i love you baby im already passed ya
And hes falling far behind maybe tyo will help u catch up
I got bigger problems than to worry bout the both of ya
So imma go to sleep even though ill probably dream of you

I wanna get rich so i can isolate in montana
Maybe have a cat and a golden retriever
One named max and the other named bella
Maybe have you, cause i really want you

(bbyk9)
A few words now
Girl you’re in my brain

Could you move cause
Girl you're in my way

Yeah you're just watching, you don’t care if I break

Leave me in the dirt, and walk away

og comet (jabarionthebeat) (snippet) 2019

nsl