About the person i love most in the world.
vocals, mixing, writing done by @noraware
production by https://soundcloud.com/tilda-890813192

trying to figure out what i did wrong this time - you're playing with my heart what line did i cross this time?

i'm the only who can catch u from falling..
and when you get mad, you blame me for nothing.
or i did something wrong but my ego's in the way..
sorry baby,  i ain't take my meds today..

wish u Saw through my eyes so you can see i'd fade away
even that should make more sense now, i'm lost in my mind with doubt
just want you to help me out.

trying to figure out what i did wrong this time - you're playing with my Heart what line did i cross this time?

i'm the only who can catch u from falling..
and when you get mad, you blame me for nothing.
i might get sidetracked but atleast i'm doing something
All my friends, they act like villains

i'm a museum of everything i love and fear (belsha)

This isn’t easy for me to say, and it’s something I’ve wrestled with for a long time. But I want to speak to you not just as a performer, not as the voice behind the songs you’ve played on repeat but as a person. Today, I’m choosing to step away from the stage. I am stepping away from fame. Being a vocalist has been one of the greatest honors of my life. Music gave me purpose. It gave me a way to connect with you, to share pieces of my soul, and to feel less alone in this loud, complicated world. Every cheer, every message, every shared moment—we’ve built something beautiful together.
But fame… fame is a different kind of weight. Behind the applause, the interviews, and the flawless photos, there’s a human being who wakes up with anxiety, who feels the pressure to be perfect, and who sometimes just wants to breathe without being watched. The spotlight, as bright as it is, can cast long shadows. And in those shadows, I started losing pieces of myself. I’m not quitting music. Music is in my blood, in my bones. I’m just choosing to find it again without the pressure to be “on” all the time. I need time to heal, to rediscover who I am when the mic is off and the cameras are gone. To my fans thank you. Your love has carried me through more than you know. But now, I need to carry myself through this next chapter. I would like to give a huge shoutout to everyone who has supported me through my journey: 
@reo4u
@14106lyn
@7akkiro
@1sana
@overoveroverover
@sxnnai
@pw4prez
@xayaroth
@trustt
@seph 
@knuckllles
@rimerensu
@cruseyyyy
@h3artch3rades
@bazington
And many more

the final calls of a desolate soul (prod decago x akura)

prod isa n chinapoet

lyrics:
you dont wanna talk
you dont listen
guess I'm done thinking it was different
money up spend it on prescriptions
I'm still tryna process what I just witnessed
tell me what u want from me
tell me do you want me endlessly
tell me that you're never gonna leave
I wont ever trust my enemies
I said ok fuck em let em bleed
will you keep the other half of me
tell me do you wanna hear from me
Ive been fucked up way too long that I cant tell just what I need

rest of me prod heroine, chinapoet

erase

@lynyou

i dont fall that easily
but i do i just dont get wtf u see in me aaaa
ive been popping tags im way too clean aaaa
i dont get cold ive been bleeding antifreeze aaaa
its too damn hot outside im staying in, oh
im a loser girl i never win, oh
i just wanna live in ur skin
oh, wish i could toss my feelings in the bin
yea
i dont take no chances
where im hurting u cant fix it with no bandage
yea
u know i gotta hand it to ya
im waking up n staring at the moooon ya
and lately ive been thinking abt u
lately ive been thinking wtf im gonna do
if i say i win i cant lose
if second place is first i cant lose

spotify

i cant lose prod lynU

//:TechRoK【DANCE!】

@synplant 
felt the feeling leave now its calling my phone
never choose a scene, i dont know what i want
i was acting fake now youre calling my bluff
i cant even lie, i just wanna go home

i been insecure abt myself for the past ten years,
think i gotta switch my reflex
cant even go outside no more, no recess
it all fell to pieces when a bad bitch hit my dms, yeah
fucked up for the whole weekend, i gotta reset

felt the feeling leave now its calling my phone
never choose a scene, i dont know what i want
i was acting fake now youre calling my bluff
i cant even lie, i just wanna go home

@sinefelt
i lose my mind x2
i guess i tolerate myself some of the time
taking a second glance losing my mind
there's plenty abt myself that i would wish away instead
but rly it's all alright, at least i'ma be something

i couldn't speak
i wouldn't talk
it'd be better if she knew what she wants
but she don't n she's gone

calling my phone feat. sinefelt

shoegaze thing i made a while ago, still want to make an album but for now here's this, drums are shit, mix is shit and i might delete later tbh

you (old demo)

production n vocals by me
add vocals n production @1eldridge
artwork me

eldridge: 
There’s mold on the floor
There’s jolly ranchers in the carpet
I feel as if it’s too late
Should’ve done something as it started

Does it get better
I don’t really try but I wanna know 
I don’t really know who I wanna be
Are you the one who I wanna see
I love my friends and I hope that they love me 
I don’t hide but I just pretend
I can be who I want but it always depends
Always alone on the weekends
I just feel I just drown in the deep end
Be who you want and be who you need
There’s no reason to plead







tris:
u can tell me im a loser
few years in the bag i cant lose a beat
yeah bitch im a user
yuh ye im getting tired but i cannot leave
well, but i cant stay calm
always got a feeling that my friends dont like me
yeah, but i reached my goal
searching for a thing but i just got lucky

real me + eldridge

**soundcloud turned this tf down bc i master my music correctly so turn it back up yourself pls <3**

this is my longest song so far, ive been trying a lot of new things this year like songs over one minute so count this as like 4 and a half songs


spend my time away from the screen
last time that i die in a dream
glaciers rolling off of my wrist
they dont turn back
spend my time away from the screen
last time that i die in a dream
glaciers rolling off of my wrist
they dont turn back time

say you love me while youre pulling me home
sculpt me softly while youre crushing my bones
say you love me while youre pulling me home
say you love me while you x2
say you love me while youre pulling me home
sculpt me softly while youre crushing my bones

sculpt me softly

chiaroscuro

ig @ fentstarved

discord @ tsumi2732

email - fentstarved@gmail.com

you (old demo)

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