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[song about losing old friends]

[lyrics]

oh you took this shit to heart
it aint nothing to me
it aint nothing to me
shouldve left me from the start
i dont care if you hate me but whyd you tear me out


i know im a burden, but is it wrong to feel alive in this moment
theres no reason to find the meaning of tropes, imperfect little world where you’re fiending for hope
its fine, its fine
imperfect little world where you’re fiending for hope

take it to heart / alive

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@kinsleygrey
@100signs

@qxi
talking shit im like oh well
i do this to rule tha world
i do this to make em Whoa
take a hit and pass it thats some fuckin loud
bitch im getting crowded gtfo
play that shit on the surround sound
lately been so lost i need some ayahuasca
feel like im an impostor
ive just been so off i think im getting lost up
talking shit im like oh well
i do this to rule tha world
i do this to make em Whoa
take a hit and pass it thats some fuckin loud
bitch im getting crowded gtfo
turn it into what you want
looked in the mirror for too long
my skin is melting off
gonna be in the ground before im 21
havent felt this alone since 2021

@kinsleygrey
since i turned 21, all i do is pour it up
my mental’s so fucked, i just want to turn up
h- hand the aux, i fuck the speakers up
l- look into the future, what you see in us?
got me feeling dumb, yeah
hate me, you been on the same vox since 2021, yeah
going up asf, i’m on a crazy run, i’m not done, yeah
i’ma give my all, even when it’s hard to get up
my ex hit me up like “do you miss us?”
i could not forgive ya or forget ya
i got too drunk, now my world is spinning, yeah
it’s been getting harder not to give up
i’ve been learning from my wrongs
i’m living, not for long
i’m sorry if we do not get along
could you tell me why you did me wrong?
could you tell me what i did wrong?

@qxi
talking shit im like oh well
i do this to rule tha world
i do this to make em Whoa
take a hit and pass it thats some fuckin loud
bitch im getting crowded gtfo
play that shit on the surround sound
lately been so lost i need some ayahuasca
feel like im an impostor
ive just been so off i think im getting lost up

make em Whoa w kinsley grey

@lynyou

i dont fall that easily
but i do i just dont get wtf u see in me aaaa
ive been popping tags im way too clean aaaa
i dont get cold ive been bleeding antifreeze aaaa
its too damn hot outside im staying in, oh
im a loser girl i never win, oh
i just wanna live in ur skin
oh, wish i could toss my feelings in the bin
yea
i dont take no chances
where im hurting u cant fix it with no bandage
yea
u know i gotta hand it to ya
im waking up n staring at the moooon ya
and lately ive been thinking abt u
lately ive been thinking wtf im gonna do
if i say i win i cant lose
if second place is first i cant lose

spotify

i cant lose prod lynU

everything me 
@100signs

i react like the last time
it all comes crashing down
move on
don't come back
and i feel like i lost control over my body
reach in deep inside

i give up so easily
i drop my cards
i lay back
want my heart 
give u the key
i'll open up
forgot the name that i once had
the things that i lost in the fire
keep me warm right beside you baby dont let me go 
i wish all of this would end
i hate all your stupid friends
take me back to when i felt like i had something 
fuck me over i know that you wanna
i could lie bout it 
hide all my problems

i react like the last time
it all comes crashing down
move on
don't come back
and i feel like i lost control over my body
reach in deep inside

Don't come back

shoegaze thing i made a while ago, still want to make an album but for now here's this, drums are shit, mix is shit and i might delete later tbh

you (old demo)

its insufferable
https://open.spotify.com/album/19cIR7o9RONhWR4rvu2PWH?si=ZUtQ2u0OQUSP63fB9du15w

hatred

@rewind214
@lilsadboiiudig

i melt when i see your face
when you're not here i'll decay
what do you want me to say?
theres nowhere else you should stay
why is it so hard to see
that you're so precious to me
what do you want me to be?
i’ll be whatever you need

late nights when i think about you
you’re the only thing that i can’t afford to lose
in my daydreams when theres nothing else to do
if i tell you how i feel, you should know its all true
i’m going crazy, baby do you hate me?
when i’m feeling down, can you come and save me?
its too late theres no way that you could erase me
everything we did together yeah it changed me

my heart it didnt notice
now i cant stop losing focus
my feelings went unspoken
now i cant move i’m frozen

melt (rewind & 1sadboii)

old song emptying the vault we dropping weekly from now on

art by me
prod @hxini

its like i need someone to blame
yea its always been the same shit
i cant seem to fake it 
i wish that i could change it
who am i to say shit
vision filled with greyness
dont know why they hate us
they still act the lamest
guess u made it
u act like ur famous
knew it from the jump
i knew that i cant relate bitch
gas inside my lungs
got this blunt guess imma face it
am i wasting time
tell me if the feelings fading

@7akkiro
yk i dont care whats the issue
knew theres something wrong u weren't there whem i missed u
i keep causing problems u dont know what i been thru
tell me what u into
tell me u want more of that 
tell me if it went thru

whats the price
taking way too long to make you mine
fall into ur hands like i might die
can we make it right
baby take ur time
i dont wanna cry

@deepinparis
we had to do that shit on our own
its been a cycle of doing me wrong
if its the right way then why when i do it again im feeling so lost
all of a sudden they all wanna flock
you say that you like that know that youre not
im in the back im chillin and shit
im with your bitch and we tying the knot

they think that theyre making me worried
im rollin that spliff in a hurry
reason you not going up cuz you thinkin bout blowing up while i am focused on learning
reason she aint wanna fuck is cuz you got no bands i get to work in the morning
why you out here non authentic and suck and wondering why youre so corny

blame ft. akkiro, deepinparis prod hxini

out on all plats 
https://open.spotify.com/track/69nRRctsVhBHI611bMIFsw?si=2c54bbc63d0c4a33

first beat prod advxrse
second beat prod me

lyrics:
guess i wish i u well
dont kno what u want
i cant even tell,
i got gas in my lungs, 
donut pack and it smell,
they said that i should run
guess i shoulda listened
i dont need no friends nah
they all want a picture get a headshot
heard he talkin on me he wont fess up
yea my life a movie like its red box

they tell me let go
yea these pills got me slow
with my squad we countin dough
so dont act like u dont know
guess im losing hope
cuz its getting hard to cope
feels like ive been on a tight rope 
guess ill keep my eyes closed

guess i wish i u well
dont kno what u want
i cant even tell,
i got gas in my lungs, 
donut pack and it smell,
they said that i should run
guess i shoulda listened
i dont need no friends nah
they all want a picture get a headshot
heard he talkin on me he wont fess up
yea my life a movie like its red box

they tell me let go
yea these pills got me slow
with my squad we countin dough
so dont act like u dont know
guess im losing hope
cuz its getting hard to cope
feels like ive been on a tight rope 
guess ill keep my eyes closed

i got highs n lows
i count x and os
i dont wanna go
friends they turn to foes
friends they turn to hoes (ya)
focus on the dough
they wont let me glow

i feel like shit
dont wanna feel like this
they say oh u on it?
i just flooded my wrist
yea i still reminisce
u not rlly on shit
u should go sprint
u should get fit

live another night
i say im fine
my flag is white 
dont wanna die
you cant say i tried
dont wanna lie
try to ruin my life
need u out of my sight
x2

wish u well

s/o @1sla

a veces está bien dudar de uno mismo; no siempre tienes que estar en lo correcto y el miedo está ahí por algo.. te protege
el cambio puede nacer de algo malo, pero con el tiempo tomará la forma de algo distinto.
solo acéptalo y sigue adelante.. continúa tu camino.. desciende a lo más profundo del abismo.
yo te estaré esperando allí.. en el jardín de la cuarta capa.

gardens of fortitude

next to u ft kaia prod yaoicat

chiaroscuro

ig @ fentstarved

discord @ tsumi2732

email - fentstarved@gmail.com

you (old demo)

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