Track 1 from Tangled Thoughts of Leaving's debut album 'Deaden the Fields'.

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‘Certified Bastard’ / Commodified Person / Assisted Reproductive Technology (ART) Adoptee (older term: DCP) :: just a human bean trying to get an accurate Birth Certificate + life saving medical history to my siblings.

I was ‘batch product’ conceived at The Royal Hospital for Women (the old location in Paddington, Sydney) + thanks to my newly found ‘little sister’ (she’s 5 months younger + I’m overprotective of my siblings; whether they’re found or still missing) we now know we have another batch of siblings created at Royal North Shore Hospital too.

If we’re related via DNA, please get yourself to your GP + request a referral to a Gastroenterologist who specialises in Serrated Polyposis Syndrome (sessile serrated polyps can be very hard to detect + unfortunately, SPS carries a 25-40% risk of Bowel Cancer, if untreated).

Even just being related to someone with SPS means my siblings’ risk of Bowel Cancer is 3 times higher than the general population.

My Gastroenterologist wrote a letter (2024) that stated — in bold text cos I’d told him it was likely to be ignored by the almighty, all powerful IVF Doctors — that all of my first degree relatives must be informed + must have an urgent colonoscopy. He was stunned that NSW Health, SESLHD (RHW), our current NSW Health Minister Ryan Park + our current Federal Health Minister Mark Butler didn’t care.

Admittedly, both Ryan Park + Mark Butler have been very busy — these gentleman have been very happy to meet several times with IVF + Surrogacy advocates.

Sadly, this has left both current MP’s without any free time to meet with ART Adoptees (older term: DCP) as we try to save the lives of our missing siblings, ask for sensible limits on the number of siblings, to know our first families + prevent consanguineous relationships, have access to accurate medical history to prevent more unnecessary deaths + maybe, just maybe, implement some Child Protection measures so we don’t get abused, neglected, killed?! ❤️‍🔥

In Australia, it does not matter if you are a convicted Paedophile, Rapist, Murderer, DV / FV, Offender, a person who intentionally harms Animals through Abuse, Neglect, Intentional Starvation + Beastiality (precursor to CSA) or if your mental health poses a risk to yourself or others (ie. untreated or not in remission MH conditions such as Schizophrenia, Bipolar Disorder, BPD, NPD, Anti Social PD, etc) — if you have the money, you can get a baby via ART Adoption, IVF and/or Surrogacy.

Where are all of the people who love a good ✨miracle baby✨ success story?

I’ve always known we only count as a ‘live birth’ — no one wants to talk about what happens once we’re taken home, by anyone who can pay the right price..

I just want the so called experts to admit it for themselves + even if they only say it silently to their own reflection — I just want them to feel the hollowness of the Hippocratic Oath — ‘first, do no harm’.

Disconnecting First Families for a profit + without Child Protection safeguards comes at a price + the only ones who’ve paid it are us — the commodified people who’ve been abused, neglected, tortured, sold + shared around, killed, or died because of the arrogance of men in white coats who think we don’t deserve accurate medical history.

Bowel Cancer is the leading cause of death in Australian’s aged 22-44yrs old. Why wouldn’t you want to save the life of adult ✨miracle babies✨ OR is it really all about the 💸MONEY🤑?

Why not optimise patient safety, recognise + mitigate discriminatory, unconscionable + unsafe risks that have already resulted in the preventable death of our beloved friend, Narelle ‘Rel’ Grech — Little Luna ✨🌙

Rel died a preventable death from inherited Bowel Cancer at just 30 ❤️‍🔥

Rel Grech coined the term ‘Genetic Deception’.

Rel also wasn’t afraid to call this ‘Human Trafficking’.

My Geneticist is another gem. She wrote a letter (2025) which stated unequivocally that all of my first degree relatives must be informed about SPS.

Royal Commission 🔜

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