Love Of Consolation - Razor Blades

the sequel to digital psychosis, "psych ward valentine" will be coming out this valentines day. last valentine's day I went in for extreme suicidal behavior. this year I feel like I'm in a better spot mentally surrounded myself by friends who love me for the person I am. making music that I enjoy and others tell me they enjoy too. this will have tracks ranging from postpunk ,slowcore , darkwave , psychedelicrock, alternativeindie, ethereal , and shoegazemetal. I test different vocal ranges in this project. I'm still always learning and experimenting with my music and would love to take you with me. I appreciate you all, even the ones who don't listen to my music and wish you nothing but unconditional love.

dysphoria

Soft Fall

i feel the weight
of another mistake
this truth i know
it's what i make
i'll know it's gone
before too long

finally awake
to another day
i stayed up
way too late
and when it's gone
i won't belong

finally awake
and after all it takes
i'll make my move
what can i lose?
finally awake 
boy what can i say?
i'll find my way
again

i make my way
to the front door
too much to think
i don't know what for
i felt a heart
beat in mind

what do i know 
anyway?
i don't know 
what to say
and will the beat
come in time?

finally awake
and after all it takes
i'll make my move
what can i lose?
finally awake 
boy what can i say?
i'll find my way
again

finally awake

Balance

lovey dovey

Days Go By

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CEMETERY SKIN

Lyrics:

My mom knows I smoke cigarettes
And I bet that she ain't happy about it
Someday soon I'll quit
I've learned to hide all my tattoos
It started out as just a few
Little pictures that I drew
What do I have to lose
I'm so use to playing a game
Hide and seek but the seeker never came

You say you search but you can't find me
How can you see when you look so blindly
Time after time
Again and again
What is real when we're all pretend

A hundred thousand times
I looked you in the eyes
To see if you really cared
But you were never there
A hundred thousand miles
I escape for a while
A breath of highway air
Over the sea somewhere

Hey dad do you have regrets
You've spent your time playing life's roulette
Addictions that you never quit
So I learned to grow up way too fast
To keep the peace because it won't last
Now I cry about my past
Why did I have to lose
I'm so use to playing a game
Hide and seek but the seeker never came

You say you search but you can't find me
How can you see when you look so blindly
Time after time
Again and again
What is real when we're all pretend

A hundred thousand times
I looked you in the eyes
To see if you really cared
But you were never there
A hundred thousand miles
I escape for a while
A breath of highway air
Over the sea somewhere

The seeker never came

Hide & Seek

Twin Siren

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