Played during an Instagram live stream on November 8, 2021. I tried to polish it a bit to make it somewhat listenable and failed spectacularly. Anyway, here it is.

All music owned by Hayden Anhedönia.

Ethel Cain - There's Something Wrong With Me / But He Doesn't Know It Yet (Full - LQ)

Edited Version of Ethel Cain performing Amber Waves (aka. I Keep the Angel) live. I tried to remove the crowd noises as best I can, but there may be some left and weird distortion in places.

Music owned by Hayden Anhedönia.

-Lyrics-
Evil, she is
Amber waves that leave

Days gone by, time on without me
I'll be alright, I'll be alright

I take the long way home
Shaking the bar and letting them row
'Cause the devil I know
Is the devil I owe

Is it not fun, oh
To feel many other ways?
What you do
Is nothing to me, to me

I still kick rocks when the walking is good
And pretend that the chain link that I am the wood
As I'm leaning my head back
Saying "Take me, I ain't gonna scream"

Yet here I am еmpty
Watching the love of mine lеave
But I'll be alright
I'll be alright, I'll be alright, I'll be alright

Is it not fun, oh
To feel many other ways?
What you do
Is nothing to me

Is it not fun, oh
In the catatonia?
Maybe it's true
You're nothing to me

Ethel Cain - Amber Waves [live - no crowd]

Haydens own cover version of Nearer, my God, to Thee playing during shows before Dust Bowl.


Ethel Cain - Nearer, My God, to Thee [live recording - no crowd]

Ethel Cain covering Bette Davis Eyes live at Lollapalooza 2024 in Chicago, minus the crowd noises. The ending is a bit weird because the live version immediately blend into American Teenager.

Ethel Cain - Bette Davis Eyes [live - no crowd]

Posted on her Tumblr 10/11/2024.

*hayden anhedonia, angel diaz of vyva melinkolya on vibraphone, and ryan brewer of good night and good morning on guitar*

Music owned by Hayden Anhedönia.

-Lyrics-

I was an angel, though plummeting
I watched it get dark
I'm playing it tough
The worst that could happen
Is happening to me
Another round of shots
For the boys on TV
I was an angel, but they made me leave
With stars in my eyes
Crying as I wheel
As I hit the lake
I prayed it'd be green
It's all that I need
I deserve it, I think
I loved an angel, and it made me weak

Ethel Cain- Punish (Practise Demo)

Played during a past Instagram livestrem.

Music owned by Hayden Anhedönia.

Ethel Cain - Powerline Valley (corrupted demo, but there's no talking and I added a shit ton of reverb)

Posted on Haydens Tumblr. Featuring production by Vyva Melinkolya.

Ethel Cain - Strangers (Vyva Melinkolya Demo)

Willoughby Tucker, I’ll Always Love You out in August, let's gooooo.

Live at Pitchfork Music Fest 2022, edited by me. 

P.S.: Shoutout to Chris Daryl who was the source for the base recording I used (https://soundcloud.com/chris-daryl/sets/ethel-cain-pitchfork-fest-chicago-il-7-19-22)

Ethel Cain - Dust Bowl (Acoustic Live)

Played during one of Hayden past Instagram lives. Recorded by someone, gatekept by a hoarder, leaked by a freak. I tried my best to remove the annoying leaker tag but dear lord it was obnoxious, So pardon the awful sound quality.

-Lyrics-
[Verse 1]
Are you afraid of the dark?
Miscreant patriarch
I say I'm sorry, just to God
But we're no gods and my [?]

[Refrain]
It feels good
It feels good
It feels good inside

[Verse 2]
Think of me on my own
You lie with her, but she's alone
She's perfect but it's not enough
I'm all you've been dreaming of
You come to me, ready
You're safe with me, my love

[Refrain]
It feels good
It feels good
It feels good
It feels good

[Verse 3]
These walls miss you
Just close the door
The world is empty
But I'm all yours

[Bridge]
Tied up, blood-stained
We kiss goodbye in the driveway
Night lights, angels, tell yourself what you need to feel safe
If not now, then when?
If not mе, then who, her?
Our kids keep her in thе dark
You might as well bury her
Downward spiral
Self-induced pill flavoured low
Wander aimless to the fields
Who has the time to take to heal?
The wind up here burns tonight
Egress to the shores
Take me where the ice breaks and let go

[Outro]
And it's cold in the war

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