I dont know how I got here, but I’m never leaving :0 ur music is amazing 🙏🥺😭

Bro where you go? I love the songs and up and dissapeared.

the world is cold and it's really not fair♥️🎵

Musical Masterpiece keep up the good work dude love your music.

ugh thanks to my boyfriend for introducing this to me... it reminds me of him so this song means a lot. keep up the amazing work <3

You are a great musician! I love this song and your creativity.

my blooming flower
ascending due to ultraviolet rays
you've grown so much throughout the years
despite the overbearing shade
and i've pulled stems up from their roots
i know you get the metaphor
but with you i touched your core
and pulled away due to your thorns
that represent the past endeavors
whether evil or angelic
the purity of your heart
was something nobody should mess with but,
somehow i just want to hold you closely to my chest
and keep you hydrated for life 
and plant you safely in my gardens crest
honestly, i've never ever known someone like you
such a beauty to lay eyes upon but dangerous to soothe
a sort of, rosebud through comparison
a venus setting traps
so inviting, so enticing
get too close and then you snap shut
understandable
you've been drowned and dealt with drought
you've gone through way too much to grow and yet your petals start to show
i pray that i could be a cause, from my attempts at full nutrition
my volition being only that you'd burst at full fruition
all my visions of you synthesizing photos of us living
know that all of my decisions come from all my past afflictions
all my life i've plucked through gloves to keep the dirt off of my hands
and only see my palms unguarded when im finished with my plans
or when a storm comes and threatens us with never ending showers 
i will run inside for tents to keep the flooding from your glands
i've said it once but for good measure i have watched you rise matured
you've learned to keep it all inside and ignore every feeling surged
throughout the time you have been silenced 
all those needles never dulled
because your innocence was ruptured
and you felt you had been cursed 
but oh my dear, my flower, my precious dandelion
i will comfort you with sunshine
even if you hurt me first
even if you hurt me first

i know you beg for sunlight
i know you beg for rain
i know you pray for something
to numb you from your pain

i know you beg for mercy
i know you beg for ease
i know you pray that you could
take off your thorns for me

an anticipated hurricane's been spotted in the east
and gave me time to pack my bags and migrate up and climb to peaks
like killamanjaro sounds like fun i guess
the view is pretty nice
but with no lily in my sight i'd rather stay and roll the dice
we've talked each other through our darkness
though the difference clearly seems 
that you wilt throughout the outside
i whither in my dreams
all i want is to take care of you
and pour your fill of water
then re-plant in finer soil
so a growth begins to follow
every garden that i've raised has had its wonder in its way
but there's never been a time that i was careless in my traits
i wear my goggles for debris and wear my mask over my face
i put on bumblebee protection spray and lastly without haste 
i wear layers on my hands
to ensure that they stay clean
and i take cautions round my belly
like i just removed my spleen
so how come every time i'm sprinkling the dirt around my feet
i just have to let my fingers bare enough to touch your seed
after 86 occurrences of slicing up my skin against the walls that you have built 
i think i've figured out the meaning behind barriers of silt
i still reach out to coax your base until my blood drains from where it burns down to the turf
it's because i'll never stop being there for you
even if you hurt me first
even if you hurt me first

i know you beg for sunlight
i know you beg for rain
i know you pray for something
to numb you from your pain

i know you beg for mercy
i know you beg for ease
i know you pray that you could
take off your thorns for me

thorns.

I do not own this track, nor did I make it. It is simply a re-upload of the song by Atlas. Please go check out his stuff if you like this track, he's amazing and deserves any support he can get.

Holy Fucking Shit - rapperatlas

produced and mixed by @barnesblvd
Cover art by Julia Jordan

Ultimately

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Ultimately (Prod. barnes blvd.)

another old sad reflection.

Lyrics: 
Man, fuck tryna to socialize, I wanna be  mesmerized by nature while I’m outside, people make me wanna die

And if that hurts I’m sorry, but I’ve obviously lost my shit when I cover up suicide with a Christmas party

And my jokes just involve me juggling my fate
I’d rather talk to you than make songs but I can’t be real with a fake
Man, at this point, everything I make
Can be a joke or a cry for help, so fucking give or take

I’ve been questioning everything
I try calling other people but they let their phone ring
So I leave them alone, can’t be annoying
I show the bigger picture, but they never see the whole thing

I let my feelings out even though I can’t sing
I’d let them out to you but I’m afraid I might cling
I can’t handle this tonight, I can’t handle this tonight
Don’t know if anything I’m doing is ever completely right

And I’m all alone
But I don’t do anything about it
And that’s the saddest thing about it

Called your phone
Now I’m feeling obsessive
I can’t wait till I look back and regret this

I need someone near
I need someone close
I need someone here
I need someone who knows

I need someone near
I need someone here

I need someone near
I need someone close
I need someone here
I need someone who knows

I need someone here
I need someone near
Chorus (2x)

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Isolate Yourself With Me

This is for you Renata. Thank you so much to the wonderful @khai_dreams for allowing me to remix his already perfect song. I hope I did it justice.

Lyrics: https://genius.com/Cloud-mac-ultimately-cloudy-remix-lyrics

Produced by @barnesblvd
Featuring @khai_dreams
Mixed and Mastered by @polearm
Artwork by @itsbubblegum

Original: https://soundcloud.com/khai_dreams/ultimately

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Ultimately - Khai Dreams (Cloud Mac Remix)

Do you wanna catch a vibe with me
Runaway
In the middle of the night with me
Hold me down 
Always side with me
If it came down to it
Would you die for me
Cuz I would ride for you
I would lie for you
I would die for you 
I swear
The world is cold and its really not fair
But when I'm with you
I really don't care
Yeah
I don't wanna say goodbye
But I'm leaving this town behind
I'm gonna make it big someday 
But it means 
Nothing if you are not by my side
Yeah
So come with me let's leave tonight
To the desert where they have those
pink and purple skies
You and me can build a life
Don't hesitate when the feelings right
 
I don't wanna die
Before I die
There will never be
A perfect time
I'll never be the type 
To fall in line
But if you give me your heart
I'll give you mine ( 2x)
 
And I know
We're supposed to take it slow
But
I know what I want they say
go slow because they don't
Plus, we're gonna die so
Let's not waste our time
I don't care if I sound crazy
I just say what's on my mind
Look
You're a f*cking goddess
I'm just being honest
I don't mind
Wasting all my time
With you
We don't have a single thing
To lose
You should come with me
And be my muse
 
I don't wanna die
Before I die
There will never be
A perfect time
I'll never be the type
To fall in line
But if you give me your heart
I'll give you mine (2x

Runaway

LYRICS:

I miss finding a sort of solace in the rain
 I miss crying Im so exhausted of the pain
I miss silence its something talking in my brain 
an inner monologue that up and takes my oxygen away
I miss being happy at church 
The preacher lied to me
Since I was 9 I’ve had existential anxiety
I miss Lincoln logs and see saws and hide and seek
They told me grow up be a man I never really tried to be

I miss when back in school my adjective was gifted
 Now that I’m in college I feel average and conflicted 
I don’t think I have it in me to be actively persistent 
I’m busy convincing myself I’m an actual musician 
I miss when other rappers showed me what they make
 They think I rode in on their wave but I’m just floating in their wake
 I dip my toes in just to show them I can hold my own and take 
a couple notes and ask some questions but I never show restraint 
I miss my girl I miss my friends I miss my foes 
I miss my life I miss the highs amidst the lows
 I miss the times when I felt like I had a home
 I miss when crowds of people didn’t make me feel alone
 I never sleep till I’m collapsing from exhaustion
 I was following my dreams with hella passion but I lost it
 Now this music just a coping mechanism do it often 
Got to throw myself in something more productive than a coffin

fuck it I don't care no more I've given up on subtlety
cause If I don't say it out loud they scream it under me
Yeah I said what I said so let it fucking be
Its like God said drown then never let me up to breathe
So look, I'm fucking manic depressive
I have my good days and bad weeks 
That lack any spectrum
Getting offended takes some effort so I'm passive aggressive
And I ain't sad I'm indifferent I watch my life from a distance  
I put the par in pariah
 I put the sigh in messiah 
People praise my old music back when I was a liar
 I put my life on the line and I wanna take it all back
 Wish I could think how I act but its acting and fuck I’m tired

manic depressive

depressive (prod. depression sweater)

produced by https://soundcloud.com/draffish & https://soundcloud.com/mental

lyrics:

[Verse 1]
first things first lets make this clear
i don't know where i'll be next year
for all i care i could be on the street

i feel so lame when you are near
i think bout how i was last year
for all i care i could be six feet deep

[Hook]
its noones fault but just my own
and noone knows what i would owe
i don't know if you'll ever give it back

with blurry eyes i feel alone
in clubs i cry in bathroom stalls
i don't know if you'll ever take me back

[Verse 2]
first things first lets make this clear
i don't know where i'll be next year
for all i care i could be on the street

i feel so lame when you are near
i think bout how i was last year
for all i care i could be six feet deep

in dim lit rooms i'll see your face
inside the fumes i'll feel your grace
wash over me a sad and broken wreck

i wish for views of mountainsides
and country roads that i can ride
and realise that i dont need to forget

[Hook]
its noones fault but just my own
and noone knows what i would owe
i don't know if you'll ever give it back

with blurry eyes i feel alone
in clubs i cry in bathroom stalls
i don't know if you'll ever take me back

Runaway

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