(=✖ ᆺ ✖=)

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@squidemoji

dont know what im doing, youre the only thing im sure of right now
( please pick up the phone, baby please pick up the phone )
but i keep falling apart and crushing you in the debris
( i never wanted this, wasnt meant for you to see! >_< )

broken down!
begging for some kind of relief!
take a breath!
kiss me right before you leave! *moans*

im going to sleep
see you in the morning
when i wake up, will you
be there waiting for me?

i know that i dont deserve you
it was wrong of me to hurt you
after everything weve been through
just know that i fucking miss you

( always fucking up )
( i never meant to hurt you )
( love is not enough )
( falling from my virtues )

@loveushiyoko

i dont know if ima gonna be alright 

i just miss you every fuckin night 

just tell me its gonna be alright 

just a lil im soo sad

ill just be fine 

ill just be fine

wish i could talk to my momma more time

even tho your bitch wanna facetime

dont know here to go bitch i just wanna die

i dont know if ima gonna be alright 

i just miss you every fuckin night 

just tell me its gonna be alright 

losing myself to the ciggeretes ill be just fine

crush you w/ shiyoko (fxkss)

interlude, thanks a lot to @imyxno for the verse <3

prod. guda & baz (non profit)

lyrics:

(me)
I guess that you are gone now
And I hope you are happy now
I will go ghost for now
And I imagine how
I am so alone and
I hope you'll see me again
Messing round with your friends
Would it bother you 
If I am dead underground
I call out for you every time
So why does my heart go pound pound
I miss you for a long time
I miss the way you said that you loved me
But I went and fucked it all up
And I just wish you'd fucking hugged me
Can you just call up to check up on me
I cry in my bedroom
Grab a bottle, and exhume
I deleted all my songs because I feel so bad
I just wanna crawl back up and go inside
And I hope you will never forget me baby!!!!!!!!

(yxno)
It's all over now, put it all on a clock
Its so closer now, in my head there's a block
Will you forget me baby?
Will you stay longer maybe?
Why is life so fucking hard?
My arms are just so scarred
I have no idea what I need
I bleed and I bleed, I bleed
Indeed I am dead and I dont care
Will you share and keep it fucking fair
I miss your company but its too late
All I feel from you is fucking hate
This void inside my soul eating me up
To the point where there aint nun anymo
And all you do is meeting new people
I think the only thing you need is an encore

never forget me (ft. i'm yxno)

prod. iceboi, recorded drunk because I feel like crap.

spotify - https://open.spotify.com/track/4xulQbhx7nRpKFiO7VdBV5?si=d331b619cf874daa

lyric video - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h5yOir_CnlI

lyrics:

[intro]
Will there be one more time
Where I can say that I'm fine
Cus I lost all my hope
And u left me all alone
I went fucking mental
And you are judgmental
I hate you but I love you
And now I say fuck you

[chorus]
I can't even think
And you told me 
I cant even sing
How does it feel? 
I bleed for you
Do you even see? 
Because you fucked me up
And I sometimes wish I would end up dead
And then everyone one who knew you calls you vile
But is it in the true? 
Or is it only rumour spread
And I dont know at all what I should do 
But I call you in a pine
Cus I wanna see you 

[pre-verse]
and know how you feel
I dont know if this is what you want
But I dont care, I wont hit you up
Because you left me in a haunt 
You left me in a taunt
I am angry and I wont show
I dont even look at ur photos

[verse]
Cus I dont wanna see your face
And feel all this misplace
I dont ever wanna do anything with him
But I feel like I will miss him
But I wont be weak
I will give myself in
And show my streak
Of ignoring this boy
He thinks ima toy
Stop this annoy 

[bridge]
Will there be one more time
Where I can say that I'm fine
Cus I lost all my hope
And u left me all alone
I went fucking mental
And you are judgmental
I hate you but I love you
And now I say fuck you

[chorus]
I can't even think
And you told me 
I cant even sing
How does it feel? 
I bleed for you
Do you even see? 
Because you fucked me up
And I sometimes wish I would end up dead
And then everyone one who knew you calls you vile
But is it in the true? 
Or is it only rumour spread
And I dont know at all what I should do 
But I call you in a pine
Cus I wanna see you

youleftmeallalone (prod. iceboi)

thanks a lot to @soulvanishh for the feature, I had fun working on this, and thanks to everyone for listening to my music, I love you guys! 

spotify <3 - https://open.spotify.com/track/6qkOZg53h919tA9zrE1LaY?si=1580fd0033384646 

prod. iceboi

cover by k1baru (www.instagram.com/k1baru)

lyrics:
[chorus]
I have so many questions that I wanna ask
But I am not sure if you even wanna talk
One more time, I want to feel better
I still wear your sweater
Did you already forgot about me?
I know am not the same person I was when you met me
It's true because I changed for you 
I am hanging on by a thread, and you fuck someone else
You left me in despair, left me in an affair
You cheated on me this whole time

[verse]
(soulvanish)

[chorus]
I have so many questions that I wanna ask
But I am not sure if you even wanna talk
One more time, I want to feel better
I still wear your sweater
Did you already forgot about me?
I know am not the same person I was when you met me
It's true because I changed for you 
I am hanging on by a thread, and you fuck someone else
You left me in despair, left me in an affair
You cheated on me this whole time

[verse] sorry I recorded this drunk xD
I been in my car, it's you and me
You are the one that I see when I sleep
Then I woke up it's just a dream
Yeah I know I'm fucked up
I'm such a freak
Going on the ground, let me on my knees
Do you still love me?
Yeah I dont look
Because you betrayed me so many times
And I cant ever imagine a future that I will have with you
And I hope you remember that 
You were the only one 
Who caused trauma on yourself
Yeah I hope you remember that
Because you make me feel like shit
And I take drugs just because of you

betrayal (ft. soulvanish)

i wasnt sober when i made this

--

my girlfriend is online!
hear the notif check it every time
i dont care how far you are
im still gonna make you mine

sending kawaii gifs 
convey my feelings through the screen
picking out the right emojis 
to tell you how much you mean

to me! everything you post is like WOAH! thats me!
repost share reblog and then retweet!
feeling like together in a virtual fantasy
waiting up all night to see your status turn to green

i put some lyrics in my bio made me think of you
i really hope that you see them and i hope you feel them too
matching pfps so everybody knows its true
ask me if i love you and ill tell you that i do <3

my girlfriend is online
wanna text her all the fucking time
that selfie is so damn cute
i wanna make you mine <33

my girlfriend is online (rapsy)

happy new year, praying for 2023 to be better and more enjoyable again! <3

mixed/mastered by me
prod. rottenspirit

Spotify - https://open.spotify.com/track/3Bas5FqqoKEXyeVJEwtJXU?si=bb1fe881003a4ceb

lyrics:
(intro:  Re Zero)
"Deep down inside
At the core of my heart
I'm just a small cowardly filthy piece of trash
Who's always worried about how other see me
How they'll accept or judge me
And nothing...
NOTHING ABOUT ME HAS CHANGED"

(chorus)
I am so stuck up in this time
I've been numb this whole year
I cannot hear your voice
And it was all your choice
You call me angry
When I'm just upset
Frankly, I sweat, I cannot forget you
We're on our own ways
You're in my head as always
You threw me to the ground
I was just crying front of you
We were not meant to be
I feel like you, thought I was a game
You found me lonely in a stage
Of agony, I hate you

(bridge: Re Zero)
I absolutely hate myself.

(verse)
Oh this fantasy, of you and me, 
it's so gone
Will you ever knock, on my door 
to say you are sorry
But this is just a dream
I cherished you
And you just buried me
Can you feel this fire inside ur heart?
You lied to me when you said you didn't love me
Now you got your heart broken one more time
And I can see everything aside of you
Call me crazy, I am just obsessed

(chorus)
I am so stuck up in this time
I've been numb this whole year
I cannot hear your voice
And it was all your choice
You call me angry
When I'm just upset
Frankly, I sweat, I cannot forget you
We're on our own ways
You're in my head as always
You threw me to the ground
I was just crying front of you
We were not meant to be
I feel like you, thought I was a game
You found me lonely in a stage
Of agony, I hate you

purgatory (prod. rottenspirit)

I hope you all enjoy this one! <3

prod. @seroewav
mixed by me, mastered by @nokerbforever

spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/3WvjFbvEMskjhYaz7VnQwD?si=g5Oi6Ya3Q16O4JOwBFgmhw

lyrics:
Was it all for nothing, hurting me until I go
I still remember all these things that you told me
My love was so high for you
Did you even see it in the slightest?

I can tell you were the brightest star for me
I look at you from so far away, do you still love me?
All this thoughts; all this pain; all this hurting
Was it all worth it
Without you by my side I feel so bored
All I had inside was it all for you so stored
In my head I just see you all the time
Finally I can see you one more time
Can I just say that Im fine
End my hurting for my life
Now I dont wanna die
Because I have you by my side

Never die inside, I'ma kiss you in a pine 
I miss how you were so bright
I dont wanna fight
Turn on the light
I still remember all the things that we did
How could I forget, when I loved you so much?
Now all I miss is your touch, can you fix me?
And all I ask for is for you to kiss me 
And I hope you miss me

I can tell you were the brightest star for me
I look at you from so far away, do you still love me?
All this thoughts; all this pain; all this hurting
Was it all worth it
Without you by my side I feel so bored
All I had inside was it all for you so stored
In my head I just see you all the time
Finally I can see you one more time
Can I just say that Im fine
End my hurting for my life
Now I dont wanna die
Because I have you by my side

heaven & hell (prod. @seroewav)

A song dedicated to my friend Squidy <3
Lyrics:

idk what's next for me
i think i ran out of things
to do
i have no one
at all
but it's cool

I just stayed in bed until the sun came down
Yeah I'm depressed but no one gives a fuck now
I don't have anyone that tells me it's okay

I'm always the one
That has to say

Boy don't worry
The sun will come out tomorrow
It's all okay in the end
Just keep goin
I know you can't see the end
But please keep goin

but i don't want to, you know
it's too hard when I'm all alone

I have everything I could ever want 
And it's not enough
I would burn all this useless junk
If I could just have someone
That makes it enough

Boy don't worry
The sun will come out tomorrow
It's all okay in the end
Just keep goin
I know you can't see the end
But please keep goin

BUT I CAN'T MAKE ANY PROMISES
I'M AT THE END OF MY ROPE I'M BOUT TO CUT IT
LIKE FUCK IT
YOU SAID I'D BE SOMEBODY BY NOW
BUT I WASN'T

Make It Enough (prod.wetgropes)

Decided to make this song for my birthday, I hope you all like it! <3

prod. @erxn_music, featuring @soliooooo, mastered by @nokerbforever
cover by https://www.instagram.com/k1baru/

Thank you to everyone!!

lyrics:
Call me just to make sure I am doing good
But could you tell, I aint so so much of a good?
I am a walking corpse, I wanna kill myself
I felt all these sparks, focus on yourself

Girl, do you know how I feel?
Empty room, I seem to only think of you
I seem crazy when I'm just obsessed
Sorry for being a piece of trash
Hold me tight, I cant do nothing right
Your hands were so soft, I need you once more

I need you once more
Falling on the floor
Why did you leave me
Did I do you so wrong?
Cant you see?
I'm suffering without you
It has been so long
Since I've seen your face
Now all I do is lace

(solio)
Oops i did it again 
I fuckin hate the way you lied to me 
And killed all my friends
And now you're trying 
Your apologies, like it won't offend, 
I got a lot of animosity for you in the end. 
damn your praying on my downfall, 
I told you that you shouldn't been around her, 
and now you want me dead on the ash fault, 
you made a bad mistake and a bad call.

And now its only you and me in the room
Hoping that you will go ahead and bloom
It’s doomsday, I lost my honest way
Never gonna lose to myself
You’re my ally and I’m my enemy
Im not gonna fight this war by myself
And I know how you looked so preciously
I was on the ground, let down by everyone
Can you better than anyone?
And this love that I felt was never lust
Cus even when we fucked, I loved you
So can you ...

Call me just to make sure I am doing good
But could you tell, I aint so so much of a good?
I am a walking corpse, I wanna kill myself
I felt all these sparks, focus on yourself

Girl, do you know how I feel?
Empty room, I seem to only think of you
I seem crazy when I'm just obsessed
Sorry for being a piece of trash
Hold me tight, I cant do nothing right
Your hands were so soft, I need you once more

I need you once more
Falling on the floor
Why did you leave me
Did I do you so wrong?
Cant you see?
I'm suffering without you
It has been so long
Since I've seen your face
Now all I do is lace

Spotify 🤍

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