big rose garden

Mitch Welling (aka flatsound) gave me permission to upload this, because he's running out of space on his own Soundcloud account.

flatsound - Little Seal Girl (Uploaded with permission.)

pre & post prayer:
we pray to thee our god this day
from the blessings you provide
from ashes to ashes
from dust to dust
so it must be
keep this woman, king of kings
beneath thee almighty fingers 
may god of the spirit world
rejoice in you
& grant you love like you’ve yet to meet
we pray to the unseen
though we know we are seen
we pray to thee our god this day
from the blessings you provide
from ashes to ashes
from dust to dust
so it must be
keep this woman, king of kings
beneath thee almighty fingers 
may god of the spirit world
rejoice in you
& grant you love like you’ve yet to meet
in the glory of our darkest nights
& in comfort in times likes these

every little fucking thing
my heart runs away with 
grew all the roots i can’t rip up 
but, you’ll burn them out
with that look, love 
can’t hurt me 
with no remorse
won’t hurt me 
with no remorse 
where is your hope 
i’m off the map lord
innocence has been slaughtered 
in water afloat 
tenderly torn
baphomets in you, my love
we're among empty houses 
innocuously my only crutch drug 
slowly killing me
within months
cant wait to be hurt 
with no remorse
please hurt me 
with no remorse

5/22 (worlds passing)

the lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.


it's way later than it should be
all of my friends went missing
something is in my body
making the sky bleed light leaves
& the wind is brushing my teeth
from whisky & nicotine
& i don't think i ever said goodbye
well, maybe i just didn't get the chance too
& life keeps passing us by
what makes me think the end is soon?

it's all blurry

dear me, 

today is the last day that you are 22. You are entering a period of growth after losing someone you considered to be your true love. You are currently grieving but found something thru your new found friendships and adventures. You are at a point in life where you have matured and your consistent silence has given you a sense self and worth. Even right now, your views and ideas are shamed and mocked but you still pushed and persevere thru adversity and consistent aggression. I dont know if you'll read this again nor do I know what your future holds but dont forget where you came from. You recorded this song in your 2007 Ford Escape hybrid on top of signal hill with your best friend ben in the passenger seat. it took you almost 6 months to write this verse. and as you write this its the day before your 23rd. You made it as you always have and continue to even when the darkest nights and brightest days have tried to swallow you. you would be nothing without those around you that love you and those that are the true writers of these songs for they and you experiences have shaped this unorthodox
life. Pen and pad, Heart and mind. 

Nova, Edwin, Ben, Cesar.

Sincerely yours.

Homage

Ugly-