my head
is all over the place
its not getting better

i cant
seem to make a change
ill be like this forever

23
whole years i
feel retarded all the time

any longer im confined
im gonna lose my god damn mind

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

breakdowns
from anxiety 
i hate being alone

wasting all 
my energy 
staring at my phone

cant focus
for 2 minutes
even if i try

yet another day goes by 
and im still here but i wanna die

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

out to lunch

i want it now
wanna sing
i don’t know anything

i don’t care
i don’t care
i don’t wanna cut my hair

buy a gun
buy me weed
what else more could one man need

i don’t judge
i don’t judge
now my head is full of sludge

i want it now
want it good
i am so misunderstood

wanna bust
wanna cum
that’s why i’m so fuckin dumb

my baby woke up in a brand new cadillac
my baby woke up in a brand new cadillac
yeah she said
talk to me daddy
i ain’t never comin’ back

come on sugar, won’t you let me be?
jesus christ, you don’t want no piece of me
she said talk to me daddy
she don’t know what she wanna be

she said aaaaaaaaaa








don’t tell no one
they’re not like me
they don’t want me to see

carfentanil
and benadryl
and all the drugs that make me ill

molly rock
in my tea
lemme feel that ecstacy

and kick my shins
cut my hair
optimistic, unaware

molly rock

Watch Me Bleed

VERSE 1
wanna get a get away from here
wanna do a do a runner
i dont wanna be fucking near
this goddamn bummer

of a life, of a life
need a car to fucking drive
away from this place
that i really do not like

face the pain
fading away
i hate the way that it feels


VERSE 2
wanna run a run away from here
need to find a find a new life
everything i want is all so clear
but is too far from my

grasp, my grasp
need to drive really fast
away from this place
leave it all in the past

face the pain, fading away x3

i hate the way that it feels

i said face the pain
fading away
i hate the way that it feels

bummer life

something's been keeping me up
i thought that i could do better
but i'm not
... i get so cold in the night

you were there to bring me down
i would have stayed home if i knew you were out
well you looked quite nice
but i noticed your smile didn't make it to your eyes

i want it all
i'll raise, if you call
two hearts, black six
then a little switch in my head goes click


i get high
when i'm low
i get by 
i make do

will it fade
i don't know
but i'll be okay
i hope 


this world is so nice, it's a beautiful place
if i need a reason, i think of your face
but lately i've been kinda fine
i can go for days 

i never got far with your friends
i find it very hard to relate to them 
they say you're wasting your time          
if you feel that way
maybe don't waste mine

i want it all
your court, my ball
i'll shoot my shot
if i don't get it in there again... so what


i get high
when i'm low
i get by
i make do

will it fade
i don't know
any day
would be cool

i get high 
when i'm low
i get by
without you 

will it fade
i don't know
but i'll be okay
i hope 


i get high 
when i'm low
i can't lie
it gets old 

will it fade
i don't know
but i'll be okay
... i hope

I Get High (When I'm Low)

Lyrics :
[Written By : NV]
[Produced By : Everestmadethis]

[Verse]
Why? Did I, believe your lies,
You got, right through me,

But I’m glad I was able to see,
Right through you,

I’m so insecure, and I’m such a failure,
I can’t, see her, no I, can’t feel her,

Can you feel, my heart hurt?
Can you see, my heart bleeding?

But if you did, you would sit, and watch me bleed out

[Chorus]

You said you were mine,
But it was just all lies,

I’m too far gone, I’m lost!

She said, love was dead,
But I couldn’t feel it then,

I’m too fucked up, I’m lost!

Why did I even cry?
Why did I even try?

I’m too fucked up, I’m lost! 
I’m lost!
I’m lost!

[Verse]

Can you hear my echo!?

I feel so alone!

I’m on my own!

This doesn’t feel like home!

[Chorus]

You said you were mine,
But it was just all lies,

I’m too far gone, I’m lost!

She said, love was dead,
But I couldn’t feel it then,

I’m too fucked up, I’m lost!

Why did I even cry?
Why did I even try?

I’m too fucked up, I’m lost! 
I’m lost!
I’m lost!

I’m lost!
I’m lost!
I’m lost!

Mixed & Mastered By : Everestmadethis, NV]

Lost

skating 7 110 bpm take 1 82525

from griefmode

i don’t want summer to finally break through
i don’t want summer to finally break through at night
my windows open wide
and soon the sun will rise
and shine upon my eyes

i don’t want summer to finally break through
i don’t want summer to finally break through at night
my eyes are open wide
paranoid whats outside
its something i won’t like

its heating up
im melting down
you see me when
you’re never around

i don't want summer to finally break through
i don't want summer to finally break through at night
my windows open wide
and you will take my eyes
show me what i won’t like

Yelling At Inanimate Objects Instead of You

UhOhSlater