prod @odihu i help mix and master
ft @blurxy

desmi chan

Closer w/ mesmerizing

one take ill step on the gas
im going way too fast
hoping that i dont crash
hoping that my life lasts
im feeling way to horrible
my mind is feeling really dull
ive been out of it lately
i think everyone hates me
feels like its constant raining
and that theres no escaping
ive been getting thoughts in my head 
text her phone dont leave me on read
i dont even know what you said
i look like such a fucking mess
spin out of control and idk what to do
if i was to rot today i would still think about you

ive been out of it lately :(

@1zakuro

think im going insane
i let u fall
and destroy my brain
i think im wrong
keep ignoring me
but with u
i feel the lullabies
come to life

whats wrong w my head
i feel bulimic and dead
and i tried to change
to be the one that u want
but i guess that im not

zakuro - bulimic

desmi helped casue i was stuck using vocaloid 

lyrics:
im
inside of my home 
always alone
scrolling on my phooooooone
grinding on the game
i am so lame 
cant stand anythiiiiiiiing X2
(im sitting on the game i love doing this everyday)
(and im sitting on the game i love doing this everyday oh yaaaaaa)

and iiiii just wanna stay inside my room for toniiiiight
i wont come out anytime before the sunrise
im feeling fine today i feel just alright
but just for now i wannaaaa beee insiiiiide
(i feel good yea i feel right yaaa)
(i feel fine yeaaa im aaallrrriiiiiiiight)

✮⋆˙ i love being inside ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

kinda diff but not that diff js lmk if yall fw it

is this the way its supposed to be
then i hate everything
i swear that i cant get a break
its starts to bother me
im so alone i have a soul that no one sees
and if i say anything then im a freak
do not go down the stairs
just dont go anywhere
nobody likes you here
youre building up your fears
ur not safe in this place and everywhere u go
the devils always looking at you
trying to get a hold


is this the way its supposed to be?

i love d frag and i HATEGEGEEEE wisdom teeth !!!!!!!!!!!

i could do sm better
only if i wanted to!!!!!!
nothing's rly stopping me
besides my rly shitty mood
and lack of sleep i guess
and lack of friends too
there's so many things
that i dont rly care 2 do

more and more excuses
i'm running out of them
don't know what to do with
my fucking life again
i stopped trusting people
i have a messed up head
im sorry i ignored u
i dont mean 2 upset :((((( </3

i must be 
in that 1 game
where u can't logout
or they'll fry ur brain

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but only if i wanted to!!!!!

w/ @humanendeavour, beat by me

im not right
its all in my eyes
everybodys normal but i just cry
is it wrong to say i hate my life
get to die just wait for my time
ill be alright as long youre on my side
and whats it like to fucking wanna die
they dont like me
so ill just go hide
im just a loser that kinda looks alright

im begging for attention
i crave it
u love me
but wont dare 2 say
there's a problem
between us
but we're staying quiet
breaking wine bottles
jus 2 break the silence
sirens coming after me
y god cant i jus bleed
i fucking hate like everything
and everyone including me

im not right
its all in my eyes
everybodys normal but i just cry
is it wrong to say i hate my life
get to die just wait for my time
ill be alright as long youre on my side
and whats it like to fucking wanna die
they dont like me
so ill just go hide
im just a loser that kinda looks alright

except for me w/ endeavour

(lovefilter) 
girl you look so good and i read online
if i talk to you i will feel alright
and im not rude im just real uptight
got my hands round your neck and i make them tighten
your lies ill take my life
if i hear them one more time
your eyes yeah your my bride
my girl forever ill decide
the prize of having of you is hard to act alright
dont mind me im fine ill be alright as long as your alive

(@yukisasayaki)
wanna keep u mine
pls dont die
come spend the night
lose track of time

fallin asleep with my tv on
and u look so cute with that t shirt on
i dont ever ever ever wanna see u gone
but i know it'll happen and i wont move on

it'll happen baby u cant tell me
feed these lies n it'll drive me crazy
jus want an answer like yes no maybe
thought u came to this world to save me

keep u mine w/ yuki (bloodsekai)

@weejk cover!!!! prod me

anyone can see that ur outta my league
i wish that i could be a perfect man for thee
the way u tie up ur hair
the way that u dont care
ur lips they look so soft
in my room i rot
i wish u stared at me
the way u stared at him
think im going crazy the lights are dim
the way u tie up your hair
the way that u dont care
ur lips they look so soft
in my room i rot

ur outta my league

All these songs were fully done by me besides the song "I dont wanna go". For that song i used a guitar loop and that's all.

Other than that thank you guys so much for being here, I turned 18 today and its pretty fucking crazy that I am still here.
I wouldn't be alive with out music and I appreciate every single one of you that listen to my stuff and can relate to it.

Thank you, G0yaa

I dont wanna go (demo)

i never fall in love so fast
but so its so unpredictable 
i hope you think im likeable
i hope you think I'm delectable
i like your voices and your eyes
so when i die would u miss me
so when i die
you said u hated me
do you want me to dieeeee
its like memory but i cant get rid of it
your pretty white skin so is so beautiful  i cant get enough of it
you said you dont know if u like me
i hope you love me
i love calling your name
your so beautiful 
you said your ex did u bad well baby i can do better
you told me you hated his guts well baby i can curve him out
watch him all bleed about
i make him to a bloody mess
you said u hate his guts well i hate em to
i make a bloody mess
you said you his guts.

this song about my cool girl friend love her so much

your ex sounds shit so ima kill him

i am bloodsekai 

@bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai @bloodsekai

but only if i wanted to!!!!!

umustbemistaken

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