never before in my life has it felt exactly like this

featuring:
@saoirsedream
@dossyx
@4kmirage
@quickslvr

produced by:
@dossyx
@st1cksyea
@wishlane
@saoirsedream
@t0rr

peer2peer

stream / download

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fishmonger (b-sides)

Ur not really bout it (bonus track)

10 of 10

featuring, coproduced, & cowritten, & mixed by @can-of-bliss
mastered by ryan schwabe
art by atlas ezra

~~lyrics~~

(sd)
i am the target i’ve been trying to reach
but all of my verses feel shallow to me
the only words i believe in are too painful to speak
make my trauma a collar pulled so tight i can’t breathe

if i work hard enough, i can get out of this town
while all of your parents are just flying you out
give my honest opinion, put your head in the ground
if you want explanation, i’ll be shutting my mouth
but i play games to make being broke feel fun
wondering how much money can i waste this month
spill my guts to the cashier while she’s ringing me up
i could go back to california anytime that i want

i am the target i’ve been trying to reach
but all of my verses feel shallow to me
the only words i believe in are too painful to speak
make my trauma a collar pulled so tight i can’t breathe

(can of bliss)
i wanna hurt you and make you feel bad
and then have a breakdown and show you that i'm sad
but i know i won't do that cause that's kinda dumb
make discussion, tell you where i'm from
i get so frustrated every day of the month
cause i'm not getting all the attention i want
doesn't help it's been so long since i made a new song
yeah it's been so long, yeah it's been so long

(sd + can of bliss)
i am the target i’ve been trying to reach
but all of my verses feel shallow to me
the only words i believe in are too painful to speak
make my trauma a collar pulled so tight i can’t breathe
i am the target i’ve been trying to reach
but all of my verses feel shallow to me
the only words i believe in are too painful to speak
make my trauma a collar pulled so tight i can’t breathe

(sd)
don't take it serious
i've been doing so bad lately
don't take it serious
i've been doing so bad lately
i've been doing so bad lately

(sd + can of bliss)
i am the target i’ve been trying to reach
but all of my verses feel shallow to me
the only words i believe in are too painful to speak
make my trauma a collar pulled so tight i can’t breathe
i am the target i’ve been trying to reach
but all of my verses feel shallow to me
the only words i believe in are too painful to speak
make my trauma a collar pulled so tight i can’t breathe

star★☆

collar

Mara, romanticizing the girl-next-door S*nny’s rough upbringing, breaks into S*nny’s house and pretends to be her.

You don't even know who I am

Oxbow's Market Employee Onboarding  - Cashier Bagger 2016_update2.mp4

underscores - Northwest zombie girl

writing & production: Jane Remover
additional guitar & bass: Douglas Dulgarian
mixing: Kayla Reagan
mastering: Hector Vega
cover art: Brendon Burton

Census Designated

Backseat Girl

S*nny’s gets diagnosed with a rare disease and interprets it as a warning from God.

Wallsocket

Duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Old money bitch decides that her apathy makes life not worth living.

Horror movie soundtrack

S*nny’s friend Jordan unearths their peoples’ shared history, altering her stance on religion.

Geez louise (with henhouse!)

Prodigal (feat. underscores)

The End Of The World, Vol. 3 - Full songs on all other streaming services

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	1.	Whisper My Name in the Dark
	2.	Your Flame 
	3.	Dancing ’til dawn 
	4.	It’s Hypnotic
	5.	Broken Dreams
	6.	Do You Think About Me?
	7.	Love Ignite
	8.	Fever Dream
	9.	Infernal
	10.	Breath in!
	11.	The Storm You Never Saw Coming
	12.	Don’t need nobody
	13.	Rise Above!
	14.	Mechanical 11 
	15.	Vicious Game
	16.	Lonely Streets
	17.	Forever Free
	18.	How You Feel Right Now?
	19.	Girl
	20.	Playground
	21.	Mi Amore
	22.	Not Your Machine
	23.	Ever Higher
	24.	Make You Body Move
	25.	Dance in Your Dreams
	26.	Restless Cravings
	27.	Can’t Escape
	28.	Electric Touch
	29.	Goddess
	30.	True Believer