produced by alastxrr and bughvvl
bughvvl:
https://www.youtube.com/c/bughvvl/videos
alastxrr:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCbk2JJgxxcqBSzxczxdWfOw/videos

Lyrics:
Imma be your downfall, supernova if you try me boy, long sword swingin straight comin for your neck

Imma hit you with that combo till the pressure makes your bones snap, backstab seein through your fake shit shape shift 

I’m coming for your weak spot, I’m your manifested nightmare, pull up with the demons black magic I don’t fight fair

stun you like a flashbang take away your field of vision you will never see me coming when I’m going for that bloodrain

I ain’t down with you bitch
I ain’t down with you bitch
why you all up in my face yuh
why you all up in my face yuh

all up on your knees now you’re sucking for attention yeah say you making moves but you got no recognition I see through you like a ghost you can't hide your true intentions, kissin asses on the daily but they know you just pretendin

bloodrain (prod alastxrr x bughvvl)

cover art made by my girlfriend, check out her art:
https://www.instagram.com/moshmau/
https://www.instagram.com/cytromie/
https://twitter.com/cytromie

check out the producer of this track:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCh4tr-5sGC4MLO4W5tg1SLQ

Lyrics:
I am way too broken for this sad world
way too broken fuck life
I ain’t got a choice but to make it

I am barely living nah
laying face down in the dirt I’m too wasted
always chasin death yeah I hate it

demons sing my name every time I close my eyes
hear em calling out for me, till the day of my demise

lullabies for broken dreams
yeah I’m living in a nightmare
everbody seems so fake
feeling like I don’t belong
on this planet I’m a stranger
everything feels so feint

demons sing my name prod. bughvvl

check out the producer of this beat:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCUEtORp9PiEebqS0F2zrp-w

Lyrics:
you can’t find me cuz I’m hiding in my paradise
hiding in my paradise
psychedelic paradise

I am not real everything is fake
I been searching 
searching for the evidence
I am surfing
surfing through the universe
I am changing
changing my reality

ever changing state of mind
I’m microdosing sanity
maybe I am far behind maybe I’m too fast for you maybe I’m too fast for you
do this when I feel like it, feel like it, feel like it
do this cuz I feel like it, feel like it, feel like it

psychedelic paradise prod. jxey

check out poena:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCZu3zdnPOE94gmoMDvZzo9w

Lyrics:
damn, yeah got no money in my wallet, Imma fuck up baby I be acting outta pocket 

oh, shit,

broke boy lifestyle, kick it with the gang whole clique shining like the nightsky, living life in the night like a vampire

hunnid grams in my blunt boutta blast off, zoom zoom I be goin too fast, you can try to catch up but you come in last what shame bro

double up, ah shit, uhm

double up my pockets till I blast off like rocket,
blow the speakers out the socket when it’s nightskyclique, better turn it up we gon make you bounce yeah

out of pocket  (prod Poena)

check out tsuji boy:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCeKuF_rYjSmjTSHZH73oZ2Q

Lyrics:
fuck it imma pull up in a super fast ferrari
rollin rollin round super hot jus like wasabi

feelin extra  rare
makin wishes with jirachi
ballin with the gang
you may call it katamari
 
you can’t tell me what to do, I’m doin what I want
makin music when I want to move in silence then I haunt u

I keep doin me
till the people start to see
that I’m riding on a wave others couldn’t fuckin reach

super fast ferrari (prod tsuji x forty)

check out the producer of this beat:
https://www.youtube.com/c/bughvvl

Lyrics:

crossfaded solely for the peace of silence
paranoia lurking now I think I’m hearin sirens

running running running through a maze of my emotions
clipping out my conscious now I’m feeling like I’m floating 

please don’t perceive me I like to be lonely
so stay out my way bruh I know you don’t know me
don’t call me your homie, whats up to the phonies,
refuse to be fake all that shit so below me

pressure pack on me you know I stay faded,
depression stay lurking, don’t ask about life yeah I’ll tell you I hate it
all contacted evaded
if you come too close then I’ll push you away

rip to myself

tortured by the thought that all my time is wasted
had to kill myself I didn’t like what I created
  
I don’t wanna take my life just like to contemplate it
theres no way to stop me you just really gotta face it

rip 2 myself prod. bughvvl

had this sitting in my projects for over a year cuz I forgot about it, yeah

check out my bro wafes, he made the beat:
https://soundcloud.com/wafeswafes

Lyrics:
I been feelin too low too low too low
gotta catch a flight
gotta get out of my mind yeah 
maybe I should I take a step back 
(step back)

take a look at what I have
take a look at who I am
tell the mirror I have come so far
(so far)
take the needles out my heart 
pick me up and carry on
tell the mirror I have come so far
so far
take the needles out my heart 
pick me up and carry on

try so hard to teach myself how to walk
I’m so tired I don’t know if I can do this anymore
living through the shit
through the shit I’m talkin bout
life's so hard when you don’t know how to walk

too low prod. wafes

show some love to pinomin:
https://soundcloud.com/pinomin
https://twitter.com/thepinomin

check out the producer of this beat:
https://soundcloud.com/user-597676997
https://www.youtube.com/c/CapsCtrl

Lyrics:
[unhappyisdead]
tired of the same shit
each day feels like the last
I don’t know how to save me
everyone is watching as I fall apart

dissociating
contemplating
suicide
I killed myself a long time ago

and I don’t recognize myself in the mirror
a stranger to my own fucking world
I spectate my life
see the years racing by
counting down all the days till I die

I’m not the one living this life
I’m not the one living my life
I’m not the one I’m not the one I’m not the one 
I killed myself a long time ago

[pinomin]
i wish to sever these ties
i wont be the same again
my heart died when you went away
in debt to your priceless advice

and heaven seems so far away
im packing my bags for the road
im leaving this place on my own
if i die i know where im going

n feel it break somehow
n im feeling colder now
im being torn apart
im never sober now

killed myself a long time ago feat pinomin prod. CapsCtrl

check out the producer of this beat:
https://www.youtube.com/c/Discent

lyrics:
I look in the mirror and I don’t recognize the person I see
ghostly figures in my vision I know they're comin for me

tryna disappear, please don’t bother looking for me
everyday is a challenge I can barely stand on my feet

hunt me down hunt me down hunt me down yeah
tear me down tear me down just tear me down yeah
let me drown let me drown let me drown yeah
just don’t say you gave a fuck bout me when I’m gone yeah

hunt me down prod discent

made this song for fun

check out xnull, the producer of the beat:
https://www.youtube.com/@prodXnull

Lyrics:
I don't want no medication yeah I’d rather be insane
pump me full of drugs take the creases out my brain

everythings blurry I’m unsure of what I see yeah
never feel alone cuz the shadows talk to me

smoking cryptid gas gettin high with mothman
benadryl for breakfast, I don’t want ur fucking bran

moving aimlessly cuz Ion have a plan yeah 
I’m just doin me, doin whatever I can

gimme

drugs x 2235623

only feel myself if I don’t feel myself at all
when I’m high I’ll fall cuz sober I feel small
swear I’m not an addict I just do this shit for fun
I can stop whenI want and everything I want is

drugs x 1355
barf x 1

benadryl for breakfast (prod. xnull)

show some love to @noxisdrunk:

youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@madnox_weirdposse
soundcloud: @noxisdrunk
twitter: https://twitter.com/brauchecuddles
instagram:https://www.instagram.com/we1rdspirit0mb/

check out the producer of this song:
youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@bughvvl
instagram: https://www.instagram.com/bughvvl/

Lyrics:
[unhappyisdead]
I DON'T FEEL MYSELF AT ALL
I DON’T FEEL MYSELF AT ALL
I DON'T FEEL MYSELF YEAH I DON'T FEEL MYSELF 
YEAH I DON'T FEEL MYSELF AT ALL

PAINT THE TOWN RED
NO REST
NO CHANCE TO GET A GRIP
GROWN SO TIRED OF THIS SHIT

6 FEET DOWN WITH THE BLADE TUCKED CLOSE
THROAT SLIT
BLOODSTAINS ON MY CLOTHES

I DON'T FEEL MYSELF AT ALL
I DON’T FEEL MYSELF AT ALL
I DON'T FEEL MYSELF YEAH I DON'T FEEL MYSELF
YEAH I DON'T FEEL MYSELF AT ALL

I DON'T FEEL MYSELF AT ALL
I DON’T FEEL MYSELF AT ALL
I DON'T FEEL MYSELF YEAH I DON'T FEEL MYSELF
YEAH I DON'T FEEL MYSELF AT ALL

AND I MIGHT DISAPPEAR DON'T MIND ME WHEN I

GO MISSING FOR A WEEK
YEAH YOU KNOW HOW IT ENDS
YEAH YOU KNOW THAT IMMA

[nox]
i don‘t feel myself
i don‘t feel myself
i don‘t feel myself
i don‘t feel my self at all

alone in my room you know i’m smoking dope
but not to get high i just do it to cope
the thoughts in my head tell me to grab a rope
silent hill my is last shimmer of hope

i‘m out of air like i‘m under the sea
i‘m out of this shit bitch i‘m gonna flee
with a pumpgun barrel to my head
watch the sun set smoking up my set
hotbox with some cigarettes

yeah i smoke up in every season
and i won‘t quit cause i don‘t have a reason
shoutouts to the gang and to all of my demons
i‘m a zombie not a sentient being

[unhappyisdead]
AND THEY DONT WANNA SEE ME
BREAKING ME DOWN
THEY DON’T CARE ABOUT FEELINGS

PUSHING YOU BACK
DON'T SAY THAT YOU CARED 
WHEN I HANG FROM THE CEILING

[Outro]
SUICIDAL TENDENCIES
MY STORY ENDS IN TRAGEDY
THE THOUGHT OF YOU IS KILLING ME
CANT FIND THE STRENGTH TO FIGHT FOR ME
I GAVE YOU ALL THATS LEFT OF ME
PLEASE SPARE ME WITH YOU SYMPATHY

I NEED TO LET GO OF EVERYTHING THAT KEPT ME HOLDING ON

ITS NO SECRET 
THIS LIFE DONT MEAN SHIT TO ME
IT’S NO SECRET
I MIGHT THROW IT ALL AWAY
ITS NO SECRET
I BEEN GOING THROUGH SOME SHIT YEAH
ITS NO SECRET
I DON'T FEEL MYSELF AT ALL

I DONT FEEL MYSELF AT ALL  feat madnox (Prod Bughvvl)

check out bughvvl, the producer of the beat I used:
https://www.youtube.com/@bughvvl

Lyrics:
I'm falling apart
yeah everyday feelin the same

can’t seem to find peace
no matter where I try to look

the pressure keeps rising
don’t know if it’s me or the kush

maybe I’ll get help
maybe I’m going to hell

all things feel the same
and I’m growing so tired
growing so tired of it

all things feel the same (prod. bughvvl)

check out the producer of the beat:
https://www.youtube.com/@vhxxl

Lyrics:
Fuckin with me you cuz you don't know any better

my vision is blurred out by anger
depressed and addicted like everyone else
last time I felt hope was when I was on pills

fuck

my life is a mess cant hide where I’ll end up
you fuck with me cuz what I’m sayin is real
fuckin with me cuz I know how you feel
need a fat blunt for all these wounds that I heal

fuck with me
lie with me
cry with me
die with me

killin myself b4 I fuck with these hoes
willing to die for the path that I chose

pretend they don’t know me till the money is flowing
they wanna be homies
aha

tying the noose b4 fuck with the fake shit
authentic as can be don’t care don’t fuck with it

fiending for feelings the drugs can’t replace
what living has felt like when I was alive

DONT KNOW ANY BETTER (prod by ⱯRMØR)

backstage clubbin, you can find me where the drugs are
stoned out my  mind, now I’m feeling like a rockstar,
cute girl over, yeah she’s movin like a pornstar,
says she wanna be with me but I gotta move on

no more love I gotta get my head straight,
stuck in the past but I’m living in the future,
constantly cryin got me feelin like a looser,
nowhere to go and nothing to loose

I keep grindin, till the day you see me ridin,
don’t give a fuck bout you unless I think we’re vibin,
way too insecure about myself now I’m hidin,
stay the same or change myself, I’m the one deciding

backstage clubbin, you can find me where the drugs are,
stoned out my  mind, now I’m feeling like a rockstar,
cute girl over, yeah she’s movin like a pornstar,
says she wanna be with me but I gotta move on

leave me alone if you’re not tryna make me happy,
stay out my life if you’Re just lookin for some fame yeah,
fake friends annoy me you better be a real one,
it’s up to me if I let you in my life let me tell you

backstage clubbin (prod. smokerose)

things will never be the same feat. 24chandeliers (prod. HXRXKILLER)

dreams of suicide (prod. vaegud & HXRXKILLER) bad mix

[unhappy]
fake world fake world fake world
I can't fuck with no one all these lies just make sick
fucked up, locked up in my mind all the time, been fighting all my life, I'm jjust tryna make it out alive

fuck with nobody can't trust a soul around me, all these people think we homies but I know their knifes are aiming for my back

[brock]
I feel stuck inside my head and I'm drowning in my fears, can't seem to see that soon I'm dead I don't shed a single tear, so alone inside my bed as I'm staring at the roof, playing scenes inside my head because I still remember you

fake world feat brockboy(prod Vaegud X Sketchmyname)

stayin the same feat 24chandeliers (prod Vaegud X Sketchmyname)

could spend all day screamin into the mic
how I hate my life and I'm ready to die
and baby let me tell you that I mean what I say
because I just can't put these feelings aside
yeah I feel like shit but I grind everyday
won't die like this, I got places to be
yeah I chase my dream till the end of my life
and I couldn’t care less if you’re in on the ride

iced out dreams every day of the week
I just can’t fuck with no one cuz my mental is weak
finna die alone, not a soul around
when I close my eyes for the final time
goodbye to anyone I ever knew
goodbye to all the people that kept me alive all the time,

I owe you my life

iced out dreams (prod Hxrxkiller)

I’ll be over you, I’ll be over you
just a couple more lines and I’ll be over you

I’ll be gone I’ll be gone I’ll be over you
couldn’t live my life in the way that you do

I don’t really care bout shit cause I hate my life
build me up break me down, I won’t change my mind
can’t go back in time and change my life
so I’m stuck in my ways till the end of time

I’ll be over you, I’ll be over you
just a couple more lines and I’ll be over you

pain pills in my pocket let em waste my mind, throw my life away I don’t take my time, sick and tired of this shit so I stay on my grind

over you (prod Sketchmyname & Vaegud)

6 feet down, life in the underground
tear my life to pieces light em up and watch the ashes fly
baby I’ve seen angels die, baby I’ve made angels cry
tear my life to pieces light em up  and watch the ashes fly

I chose my own my fate yeah I walk my own way
our planet is dying and so is my faith
you’re nothing but dirt why you up in my face
I’ve been through some shit you could never relate
you tryna be friends but now it’s too late
you could never understand the pain that I felt
so stuck and lost in my head,
yeah I’m tryna get rich but I’m better off dead

got nothing to lose so i’m tryna get rich
take care of your bitch, she’s into my shit
won’t get off my dick, she knows I ain’t fake
take my name out your mouth you’re not part of my clique
still chasin my dream, till my body decays and my soul fades away, got no reason to stay you got nothing to say
so i’m running away and I’m chasin my goal so get out of my way

tryna get rich but I'm better off dead (prod. pinomin)

I’m lost in the hell of my everyday life
feels like whatever I do I will never suffice
baby please tell me if it’s worth to survive
I’m goin insane girl i’m loosin my mind
I’m denying all help but I know that I need it
In love with the pain, yeah I feel so defeated

I’m constantly living in spite of myself
it’s an endless abyss I will never escape
cherry red tears dripping down from my knife
keep telling myself that I wasted my life
I’m desperate for change, I’m destroying myself

my thoughts chew me up, tearing right through my flesh
so scared of the future I live in the past
memories fading, time is going too fast
I’m telling you that I’m not going to last, 

day for day I waste away
making songs about my pain and smoke the time away
suicidal thoughts are roaming through my mind
but you know that I could never leave my friends behind

so I’m stayin high just to free my mind of all the bullshit I can’t cope with would rather have my throat slit
ashes on my outfit
baby I’m a mess and you know it
moonlight on my skin as I close my eyes

Moonlight On My Skin As I Close My Eyes (prod. pinomin)

you can't save me feat. 24chandeliers(prod pinomin)

chasing dreams, smoking gas I’m livin like a rockstar
making big moves got me feeling like I’m up now
nsc with me I can never feel alone now
chasing dreams, smoking gas I’m livin like a rockstar

baby you don’t know what’s best for me
I can never go back it’s my destiny
just gimme some time and Imma set you free
Imma show you everything that you wanna see

people keep on talkin people keep on doubting
I don’t give a fuck I just gotta keep on walking
people keep on talkin people keep on doubting
I don’t give a fuck I just gotta keep on walking

chasing dreams, smoking gas I’m livin like a rockstar
making big moves got me feeling like I’m up now
nsc with me I can never feel alone now
chasing dreams, smoking gas I’m livin like a rockstar

Imma prove my worth, Imma grind till I made it
need an iced out smile to show the world that I made it
make em choke on their words, live so good that they hatin
cuz you know I won’t let go of the dreams that I’m chasin

shoutout to curtains :)

chasin dreams smokin gas (prod curtains x iof)

shooting stars collide when you look me in the eyes girl
it happens everytime yeah your presence get’s me high

I’m addicted to your vibe like the drugs I need you in my life
slowly glowing up like my blunt in the nightsky

[brock]
yeah your kiss got me really fucking faded
chasing dreams, getting high you know I'm wasted
blurry vision can't remember your faces
rockstar lifestyle we never changing

I’m falling down into endless depths
I can’t save myself waiting for my death
down so weak tryna catch my breath
I can see the light yeah I know I’m blessed

I know how you feel I know all about your pain
I can see it in your eyes, I know why they lost their shine 
forced smile on your lips, feelings breaking down
emotions come in close, you don’t wanna be around

baby let me heal you, I wanna make your eyes glow,

baby let me save you, I’m tryna fix your broken heart

shooting stars collide feat brockboy (prod HXRXKILLER x vaegud)

dedicated to someone I once used to call a friend

check out the producer:
https://soundcloud.com/pinomin

Lyrics:
hate me
tell me that you hate me
hold me till you break me
love me till you fake it

just treat me like your bad memories

hate me
tell me that you hate me
hold me till you break me
love me till you fake it 

pay no respect to my soul make me regret all I’ve done for you

murder me, burry me
you don’t what’s going on inside of me
threaten me
treat me like we’re enemies
but keep in mind which shoulder you’ve been crying on
holding on to pieces of my broken heart
tell me what you want but don’t tell me that it’s my fault

hate me, tell me that you hate me
hold me till you break me
love me till you fake it

just treat me like your bad memories

break me (prod. pinomin)

this song is part of my ep "almost killed myself in the same room I grew up in", this is a project that has a lot of emotional value to me since all of the songs are about major parts of my life and feelings, those songs are meant to be seen as a window to my emotions and feelings, as a way to relate to me. Thank you for listening. Update: I won't release the ep until a lot later or never, most of the songs have been more of a coping mechanism for me than they should've been and I don't feel comfortable releasing these songs atm

Lyrics:
last nail in the coffin, put my body to rest
I still wish you the best but your words left me broken
they scared me for life, when I looked in your eyes
I knew they would end me, made me wish I was dead

almost died in my room, can’t get out my head
nothing feels real
yeah the scars they may heal but the memories stay
I forgot how to love
my heart is so empty
my world is so grey

I gotta let go, I need to let go
I can’t keep on going like this anymore
holding on to the past, you’re stuck in my head
I just wish you would leave me alone in my dreams
still looking for peace I don’t know where to find it
I die every day but I really don’t mind it
I don’t even know if I’m alive anymore
this life feels so fake, I think lost my mind

last nail in the coffin (prod pinomin)

show some love to pinomin, the producer of this beat:
https://soundcloud.com/pinomin

give kianna a follow aswell
https://soundcloud.com/kiianna


LYRICS:
hold me, don’t save me, I just need a moment of clarity

purple lights in my eyes, I don’t feel alive
looking into the sky, praying I’ll be alright
tryna get through the night
baby I’m way too high can you see that i’m dying inside

my life is a mess tryna piece it together
sky full of stars, seconds lasting forever
moments ago yeah I was doin better
now I’m back in head, getting lost in my feels

I dream way to much and I reach for the stars
I think of the future and  I live in the past
holding grudges against me, I know you can’t save me
now what does that make me now what does that make me

I don’t have a halo girl I ain’t no angel
I’m falling apart every day a bit more
all alone with my pain cuz I can’t open up
keep it all to myself and let it out in my songs

I dream way to much and I reach for the stars
I think of the future and I live in the past
holding grudges against me, I know you can’t save me
now what does that make me
now what does that make me girl

I know I’m a mess but I don’t want to hurt you
would give up myself if it meant I can heal you
my heart is in pieces
I can’t let you go yeah I still want to save you

I’m screaming for help but no one can hear me
my life ain’t the one that I’m living, please tell me it’s real
I don’t know if I’m dreaming cuz nothing feels real anymore

purple lights feat kianna (prod. pinomin)

check out the producer of this beat:
youtube:
https://www.youtube.com/c/CapsCtrl/featured
soundcloud:
https://soundcloud.com/user-597676997

Lyrics:

surrounded by friends but I feel so left out
cuz I’m always in my head, lotta shit I’m thinking bout
got me so messed up, wish I didn’t have to feel like this
but I’m used to it, yeah I’m used to it

surrounded by friends but I feel so left out
cuz I’m always in my head, lotta shit I’m thinking bout
got me so messed up, wish I didn’t have to feel like this
but I’m used to it, yeah I’m used to it

I’m a young dumb boy making songs about his pain
steady reachin for the stars tryna be a rockstar
but you’ve seen that before
yeah you’ve seen that before

hate can’t face me cuz I hate me the most
overthinking every move, but this dream is all I have
so I’m holding on to it
I’m holding on to it

used to it (prod. CapsCtrl)

check out wafes:
https://soundcloud.com/wafesm8
https://twitter.com/wafesmusic

Lyrics:
fuckin with me cuz you like the way I glow
always on my grind it’s just the way I roll
shawty vibin yeah she like the way I flow
theres nobody that can stop me
I need all the cameras on me yeah

leave
me alone
if you ain’t fuckin my gang
I don’t want you around

see me baked as fuck
red eyes black dragon
spread my wings now I’m flyin away

mushroom kingdom
I be trippin with my clique yeah
send me to farplanes
don’t care if I’m dying today

all night I been feelin fuckin alright
call me yung godzilla
shootin lazers from eyes

I been 
kinda geeked up
but it’s alright
I been vibin like I’ll never have to worry again

yung godzilla (prod. wafes)

please show some love to the producer of the beat:
https://soundcloud.com/pinomin
https://www.youtube.com/user/pinomin123

Lyrics:
throw my life away and watch the rain fall down
they all say they love you
but they watch you drown

watch em switch up when the money comin in
fake love fake friends
they ain’t tryna see you win nah 

fuck fame fuck bandz
 just wanna live my life
I don’t want no commas no I don’t need no ice

they gon judge me
watch em doubt me
let em hate me
I don’t care
let em do what they want cuz I won’t let em play me

I won’t let em play me
I won’t let em play me

Imma do what I want
til it fuckin kills me 

I won’t let em play me
I won’t let em play me

Imma do what I want
til it fucking kills me

let em play me (prod. pinomin)

feelin like a wizard off them shroomies mixed a potion
+5 luck on my armor I’m enchanted
route 104 and I kick it with my mudkip
level up my team, goin wild in the moshpit

fuck your rules yeah Imma do it my way
doin what I want like I’m using action replay
I’m chasing all these gems spittin fire call me spyro
smokin all this gas till my stats way too high yeah

shiny charizard I fly away from the fuckshit
all black fit like my cat  boy we dressed up
making moves but no sound
like I’m snake
still unfound
found my home underground
yeah shoutout to the shadowrealm [love ya'll <3]

I keep an open mind for all the things I never see
I be smokin big doinks with my boys we livin free
keep the vibes pristine
gem mint 10 my whole team
fuck the drama keep it clean
nsc we boutta gleam aye

and how are you gonna tell me that my life is going nowhere
yeah you know that I’m forever dreaming
aiming for the stars, stay away with your bullshit
I don’t need no money cuz  I’m flexin all my friends
keep the target in my scope and my goals inside my head
got way too many thoughts, layin wide awake in bed
stayin up all night on the switch playin smash

unhappyisdead

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