I don't wanna die but I don't wanna live like this Why try when I always end up pissed? My life is nothing but a ball of shit I'd cry but I'd rather make a song like this

u sound so good with piano 😱😱 this is 🔥 🔥

stuck in the past

Let Me Rot (W/ Unknxwn.)

Lyrics

I can't stop this fucking bullshit
My life is some fucking bullshit
My past was some fucking bullshit
My future some fucking bullshit

My songs are so fucking morbid
Breathing I am fucking bored with
My life might be fucking shortened
I don't think that I'm important

You could never hurt me because I'm my biggest enemy
Everyone deserts me and you don't know what that did to me
You don't wanna know about the shit that I got hid in me
They're dark and they're bad, put my body in a bag

Demons all around, it don't matter where I go
I find solace in the sound and I feel hopeless when I don't
Got fans all over the world but I'm stuck in this fucking room
I can't stop feeling this pain and I don't know what else to do

Am I stuck? Am I fucked? Am I shit out of luck?
Will I burn when I die? Have I lost my fucking mind?
I'ma waste, I'ma burden, I won't ever stop this hurtin'
I can't take what I been holdin', I'm so sick of feelin' hopeless

I can't stop this fucking bullshit
My life is some fucking bullshit
My past was some fucking bullshit
My future some fucking bullshit

My songs are so fucking morbid
Breathing I am fucking bored with
My life might be fucking shortened
Don't think that I'm important

enemy.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

out of reach.

Lyrics

Broke my heart, ran away
Scream I hate you but my feelings don't match what I say
Make my art from my pain
It's a paradox, wanna let it go, but can't
Where she went I can't go, I know that I'm always gonna end up on my own
Tried love, fell apart, I think that there's something evil growing in my heart
Tried to stop it, I can't stop it, my heart's hardened, out of options
I know I should let you go, if your heart get involved don't let her know
Feel like 2019, give me back my soul
But it's 2024, I ain't a kid no more

i say i hate you but my feelings don't match what i say.

Destination Maybe

Julian Michael Power - If that glove dont fit ,dont wear it !.m4a

Art by: @grimapparition

Lyrics

I don't understand why I feel the way I feel
Just to not be sad I be taking fucking pills
Soundin' like a bum but the shit I say too real
Flowin' with emotion you don't know cause I conceal
I do it too well, and honestly its sad
Coming off as golden when I feel like fucking trash
Every bridge I had is now nothing but the ash
Fuck I'm holding back too much I'm about to fucking crash

Sit back I'm about to make you fucking wish that
You never gave me all the fucking pain I'm bouta give back
Kick back smokin' on some shit that make you trip back
Slip back into the abyss I made with this track
Flick that lighter back up on the blunt I kiss that
I don't even rap, I just steady fucking spit facts
Tic tac toe I X you out you needa get back
Everything in every line just make em wanna skip back

Write fast you try keeping up then you just write trash
I fuck up a type beat you just it make it type bad
Might add, do this on my own I got no right hand
I stopped wishing that I could, now I fucking know I can
Slow down, you cant catch the flow now
Wrote down, turn it into dope sound
Hope now, I cant fucking slow down
Broke now, not for long no doubt

I don't understand why I feel the way I feel
Just to not be sad I be taking fucking pills
Soundin' like a bum but the shit I say too real
Flowin' with emotion you don't know cause I conceal
I do it too well, and honestly its sad
Coming off as golden when I feel like fucking trash
Every bridge I had now is nothing but the ash
Fuck I'm holding back too much I'm about to fucking crash

Sit back I'm about to make you fucking wish that
You never gave me all the fucking pain I'm bouta give back
Kick back smokin' on some shit that make you trip back
Slip back into the abyss I made with this track
Flick that lighter back up on the blunt I kiss that
I don't even rap, I just steady fucking spit facts
Tic tac toe I X you out you needa get back
Everything in every line just make em wanna skip back

unknxwn. - ashes

ashes.

spotify.

ashes. | Produced by Zølenya

@guccihighwaters

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

Everyone's so damn depressed, everyone's so fucking sad
Everyone's scared of the future, everyone's stuck in the past
Me, I just wanna get better, I can't be like this forever
Call me a loverboy when I'm with you
You're my sun when I'm under the weather

It's late as hell and I'm up
Recording a song cause I feel so fucked
Volcanic emotion getting ready to erupt
Now I'm all on my own, just hope no luck

I been stuck in the past like I'm McFly
And I'm so full of shit like a pigsty
I can be good or bad depends on whos eye
Everyone that I loved I was used by
Now I'm broken, still hoping
I can breathe in your love without choking
That I won't regret what I've spoken
Hope the pain that I felt won't soak in

Lately I been feeling like shit, fuck this
I ain't never really had felt much bliss
Her lips, death stained kiss
I reside in my mind's dark abyss

Write songs just to cope with the pain
Broad day, still stuck in the rain
Different day, shit still feel the same
It's been a while and I still hear your name
It's been a while and I still see your face
It's been a while and I still can't erase
All the times that I used to embrace
I know you can't so don't say that you relate

I don't wanna start over again
Guess I'll cry about it, scream into my pillow again
Bleed more than I do when I'm using a pen
You know where to find me if you wanna see me again

Everyone's so damn depressed, everyone's so fucking sad
Everyone's scared of the future, everyone's stuck in the past

It's late as hell but I'm up
Recording this song cause I feel so fucked
Volcanic emotion getting ready to erupt
Now I'm all on my own, just hope no luck

| guccihighwaters |

Am I worth it, is it perfect
Do you feel the same as I do
Worthless, so cursed, with a mind like this
Do you mind if I die for a bit

To keep it honest, I would die for you bitch, yeah
Say fuck life, wristcry for you bitch
Never wanna make you sad, it kills me
Intoxicated every night from feelings
I got regrets in my head (x4)

unknxwn. - regret

regret.

regret. (feat. guccihighwaters) | Produced by brokn

Lyrics

Broke as shit, I just wish that I could cope a bit
I'm sick and tired of hoping this life will get better
I'm over it
I'll drown in my tears, and forever fear
Letting another person get near
The last of a heart that I have
I'm trippin' out and not off of a tab
But I wish that I was, I hate when I'm sober
I love being buzzed, I wish it was over
I'll always have some kind of chip on my shoulder
Even if I loved her I still wouldnt show her

You only care for me when it's too late
I don't want friends cause everybody's fake
I'm already broken, so stop adding weight
I'm fading away and I'm starting to shake
Life is a bitch so fuck it
I'm tired of all of the fuck shit
I'll start not giving a fuck quick
This life is nothing but tough shit
You can't put me together I'm too far apart
Black in my lungs & black in my heart
Don't ask me to save you, don't know where I'd start
The knife in my back is so fucking sharp

I'm a piece of shit & I know that shit
The girl who broke my heart? I don't know the bitch
Yeah I care a lot but you won't notice it
Cause you can't break my heart if I don't open it
I'm a locked up, dying, low life
I'm living it wrong, so taking it's right
And the sunlight fucking so bright
Don't wanna make plans, I'm staying inside
I'm making a song, I'm up all night long
This shit do more than you ever done
For me so it's peace to most people I know
Ain't ask you stay so I think you should go

lowlife. | Produced by unknxwn.

Lyrics

Am I real? Am I fake?
Every path that I take always sends me right back to the start of the maze
Lost in a haze of the shit that was broken, I can't really say if I'm happy or hopeless
Fuck it, you think it matters it doesn't, what does? I can say for sure that not love
Every connection I had it was all lust, look at 'em now, they're so beautiful, all dust

Ashes of passion, could never imagine that what really has would have ever have happened
From crying to laughing, from peace to me spazzin', I used to have drive but I fucked up and crashed it
I'm still alive but I wish I could die, told me the truth when I wish you would lie
Cause sometimes the fantasy's all that I need, real isn't something I'm ready to be

Valentine in december
You say you love me but you don't remember
I named, you caused me pain
All girls are the same in the end

This whole year been dumb shit
I lie and say that I'm making it better but I ain't did nothing
Said that I quit drugs but I'm still out here buzzin'
Whenever however so I can feel something

Nicotine in me suppress the anxiety
I can't get out that's inside of me
I lie to you so it's cool if you lie to me
Tell me sweet nothings, just for the time at least

Cause I want what I don't need
Don't want you but don't leave
I might be a dick but I'm worse when I'm lonely
I'll write a quick line bout the time you were still here
I'm so indecisive like bitch why you still here?

I'm sorry that I'm not, it be like that
I won't tell you when I leave, like be right back
I don't open up but when I do I needed that
You think I'm going down the wrong path and I agree with that

december. | Produced by capsctrl

Visual: https://youtu.be/GPKZ9nyH2lM

Art by @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I don't really got anything else to say
Never really happy, if I think I am, I just felt a little nice, it'll go away
My brain is so messed up, tried to download love but I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? Ain't shit gonna change, I already tried it

Been starved of love for so damn long so when I catch a girl I can't let her go
Everyone I every cared for is gone, if you don't wanna stay then let me know
Why does everybody like to waste my time?  If you don't think you are then where're you now?
While I sit alone in my bed and cry, I can't even get high to escape my down

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I say that so many times, ain't shit else to say
Even when I'm happy, I don't really get to feel it, been not so long, I don't really like the feeling
My brain is so messed up, my hardware fried, I got a virus
So much weight I can't get up, if there's any kind of help please help me find it

I been searching for so long for somewhere that I belong
I'm an orphan to my own thoughts
I get so lost but I know where I'll end up
Dead in a box all covered up, my life's a mess, I fucked it up

Where do I go when I don't know where to go? (x4)

Peaceful in Hell, when I'm not I feel so cold
I'm off the rails and back on the same road
Not doing well but this is what I chose
Laugh at my pain, my life is all a joke

Been starved of love for so damn long so when I get it now, I just let it go
Everyone I ever cared for is gone, you don't really wanna stay, I already know
Why does everybody like to waste my time? I got tired of it all, I don't go out now
I just sit alone in my bed and cry, why should I get high when I'll just come down?

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I don't really got anything else to say
Never really happy, if I think I am, I just felt a little nice, it'll go away
My brain is so messed up, tried to download love but I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? Ain't shit gonna change, I already tried it

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, ain't shit else to say
Never really happy if I think I am, It'll go away
My brain is so messed up, I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? I already tried it

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I don't really got anything else to say
Never really happy, if I think I am, I just felt a little nice, it'll go away
My brain is so messed up, tried to download love but I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? Ain't shit gonna change, I already tried it

virus. | Produced by IOF

Lyrics

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
When I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

Will I end in suicide?
These are things inside my mind
That I always try to hide
But it's hard to always fight

So I'll let it all be known
Show some things I've never shown
Learn some things you've never known about me
Evil in me

I've done things I'll never cope with
Might be bad to show this
I take back what I said
I'm keeping it all in my head

I won't love again
Stuck in the pain, I been smothering
Nothing to hope for in life except for the end
Don't think that my pain is a trend
I been so lost in the thoughts of my mental
How in the fuck did I get so far away from myself? It don't make sense
I'm in love with the fact that I hate shit
Took shit so long ain't no wonder I take shit
Hood on my head, don't you look at my face, I'm not confident, I cannot take it
I'll never be fine because you wasted my time
You played with my mind, thought you were a dime but that's a lie
You left me alone and I wanna know, bitch why?

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

why don't i feel alive? | Produced by Raspo

Lyrics

Where to go? I don't know, hide my soul, I won't show
Anyone the many things I feel when they get too close
Can't be fixed, I'm too broke, I'm searching for new hope
I'ma let you let you find in me what's really there but won't glow

Be the spark I need to burst in flames, I can't go like Kobain
I just wanna see the day I'm saved, I don't want fucking fame
I just need myself to make me safe but I feel out of place
Yeah I might get lots of plays but I still feel like I'm a waste

You don't know how I feel when I see your eyes
I know it's a disguise covering up all the lies
You told me that you cared but you left me fucking scared
Girl I see you everywhere, swear this life ain't fucking fair

Bitch you ain't real nothing but a hoe
I can't even stay with you, I really gotta go
If I don't, you gone leave me cold
Till I'm dead and I'm growing mold

Scars on my heart you can't see
The one I need you can't be
Stayed here so long, now I can't leave
Breathed in your love, now I can't breathe

I don't wanna die but I don't wanna live like this
Why try when I always end up pissed?
My life is nothing but a ball of shit
I'd cry but I'd rather make a song like this

Why would you hurt me for nothing?
I knew you were up to something
You say you care but you bluffing
I lost my way cause I made you my compass

This is a poem for you my love
The thing I can't take but it is still my drug
I hope we can both learn to go high above
Just so I can knock you down and show you what it's like to trust

You don't even know how hard it was for me to reach out to you
Just for you to do the very thing you said you'd not do
She loves me, she loves me not
Picking pedals off a flower under the moon is all I really got

Nagging about the past, it's all I'm really good at
According to you, it's something we could get back
But looking at your actions, you're something I don't need back
I hope you can find someone, seems you need that

a love letter. | Produced by unknxwn.

Produced by ryini

Lyrics

Don't call me if I'm just your scapegoat
To ignore the pain that you hate most
I know that you're lonely cause so am I
But don't come around me with that damn disguise

Acting like you really might want me
I'm not a toy, don't try me, don't taunt me
Cause I've got impulses that haunt me
Do you really wanna end up as a trunk piece?

That's Detmer talking to Qayin
I'm Ken, I really don't like them
Don't hurt me, that's what excites them
Then it gets really hard for me to try and hide them

They been tryna get out, make something happen
Holes they wanna dig out, fill 'em with some tragic
They don't like to talk, they just really be on action
Once ounce of pain, all it take for them to tap in

Bitch stay away cause I promise you don't want this
You might let 'em in if you even choose to bump this
Burning embers, you can't even stomp it
My light getting thinner, turning into something

Ken stfu, we don't wanna hear you
They making yo blood rush, we gone make 'em feel you
If they wanna touch us, we gone make 'em fear you
Let 'em know they fucked up, then show them the real you

Tryna pull some fuck shit, we gone fuck 'em up now
Throw that body in a ditch, we ain't had enough now
Tellin' us they last wish but they out of luck now
Who left on that damn list? Let's see if they tough now

last wish.

Produced by khail

Lyrics

And I don't even know if I'm progressing or forgetting
Cause every now and then I turn up stones that I have hidden
And then I recall some things I tried to keep off
Even if you're deaf I hope you know the tree can still fall

Cause I break down and no one notices until I make a song
Your timings kind of off, you only look when I'm already gone
You only try to touch me when my sense of it is going numb
I seem a bit out of it, I don't know what is going on

Autumn inside of my soul
I'm dying, it's all getting cold
Drop all the things that're old
Make room for all the things I'll grow

I wanna hold on but I can't
How can I go on if I don't let go?
All I really wanted was to be your man
Thought you were the one but you're not, I know

It seems to be a problem when I get real with
The people in my life that I have chosen I will deal with
I'm learning not to stress out cause what's it even all worth
When every single one of us will die and lie upon dirt

Why don't all of you just fuck off?
I don't need you if you won't give all
I want every drop of what you have
You just want what seems good but it's not all

So you leave when it's not easy
I want you to love me, not need me
I don't think anyone has seen me
With the eye that's never blinking

a love letter. | Produced by unknxwn.

unknxwn.

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