deleted track "DEADEND!" by @unknxwn7 (detmer, garrett)
non profit

Lyrics

Lost my mind, I don't know where my head is
I'm not fine, where I go from a dead end?
All the way back where I didn't wanna be?
I can see everyone but they don't see me

This is what it's like to be alone
Crossed the thought I might just be a ghost
Off the edge and into the unknown
I am now where you shouldn't go

The man in the black trench coat tryna get close
I ain't got enough of what I need so it's simple
I'ma trade off what I have for what he got
I'ma end up right up where he stands when we rot

Is it for the better? I don't know
But I lost my heart, why not lose my soul?
I'ma fall apart either way I go
Don't tell me shit, just leave me alone

For so long I been waiting
For someone to come and save me
As of lately that don't seem as if
I might fucking flip

Wade in water to neck
I'm fading, I don't know what's next
I've always been such a mess
I lost control and caused a wreck

DEADEND! (prod. luciid x yeezo)

deleted track "​i’m not evil." by @unknxwn7 (detmer, garrett)
non profit

Lyrics

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

I keep seeing shit that I just tend to hate
Anger I been fiending it, without it I can't make
Now I'm on the edge, I might jump into the lake
I can't get out of my head, I don't wanna even think

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Why the fuck do I feel this?
How the fuck do I heal this?
Everyone in my mentions
Telling me that I kill shit

I wish that shit was me
I don't wanna deal with me
God a sign I need to see
I don't know if I can be

Who I need to, I don't mean to
Come off like this, I'm not evil
I am only just a human, just like you
That's going through it

Tryna figure out what I should figure out
Nothing even matters, we all end up in the ground

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

​i’m not evil. (prod. puhf)

Lyrics

"Ken, I fucking hate you"
Guess I prolly made you
Fuck it, you a sheep
So you gone do whatever they do
I can't fucking shake you
Demon on my back
Feel like shutter, I'm attached
I'm still stuck with what I had
And it won't ever leave
This ain't the shit that I need
Weight bring me down to my knees
Begging to God to just go set me free
Leave me alone, I'm still stuck tryna cope
Tryna write another song using words that I ain't wrote
I'm such a bum, I be losing all my hope
I be fucking up my lungs every single time I smoke
I need to stop fucking up on like purpose
Is thеre a purpose?
Is it all worth it?
Or will I always forevеr feel worthless?
I'm fucking hopeless, this shit ain't working

Made you mine, almost lost my mind
Every word was a straight faced lie
Fucking bitch had me hate my life
Even though she fucking saved my life
Is that how it works?
I guess love has all the perks
I got the ones the ones that would hurt
My heart got put in the dirt
Blood on my shirt

pathetic aesthetic. (remix) | Produced by tundrabeats

Lyrics

Losing every part of me I used to try to be a person that you need
But I don't think our needs are in the same basket
I don't like the way I feel, mask it
I don't like the life I live, crash this
Stupid fucking car I'm in, actions
I regret from the past, reaching
For my fucking soul, I don't need it
Out my fucking nose, I been bleeding
All my fucking goals, lost belief in
All these fucking songs, all these fucking years
In a fucking moment, it all disappeared

a moment in time. | Produced by nxku

lyrics

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

unknxwn. - Faults.

unknxwn. - faults.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

out of reach.

Lyrics

I don't wanna go home
There I feel much more alone
I'll stay out all night with friends
I know they ain't even friends for real, at least I can pretend

My bed's gonna be a grave
If the thoughts inside my head don't soon regress and go away
I keep fighting for the day that I can say that I'm okay
But I keep waking up and breaking down, don't know if that day is gone come around

We been doing this a while
You don't wanna see me smile
I think I'll just go and leave
Put headphones on and walk for miles

Till my feet
Can't carry me

My legs gonna be in pain
Till the blood from in my feet leaves the soles in my shoe stained
I'll keep walking till the day that I can say that I'm okay
I'm gonna be walking till the day I'm in a grave

I won't ever understand how the fuck I ended up right here
This shit was not the plan
I guess that's what I get, I'm so sick of this shit
They say home is where the heart is but I don't know where that is either

my bed's gonna be a grave. | Produced by velvet

Produced by IOF

Lyrics

I don't wanna run
But you don't wanna come back
You're the only one
That I would ever come back to

So hold me closer
I say I need closure
But I won't ever close up
That door in case you show up

You think I'm okay but
I won't be okay cause
I know you're not with me
And I just keep pretending

That one day you'll come back
But that won't ever happen
Why the fuck this happen?
I wish I could go back in

I don't know what I need but I want you
Who you want I wish I could be but I'm not
Dude what the fuck did I ever do to deserve this?
All I ever needed was you but I'm worthless

I said I don't know what I need but I...
Who you want I wish I could be but I'm...
Dude what the fuck did I ever do...
All I ever needed was just you

I don't wanna run
But you don't wanna come back
You're the only one
That I would ever come back to

So hold me closer
I say I need closure
But I won't ever close up
That door in case you show up

i don't wanna run.

Produced by kledyy

This song carries a deep emotional weight, capturing themes of identity, longing, self-conflict, and inner turmoil. It’s a powerful piece but it’s important to note that it represents a past version of myself that was caught in double-mindedness and seeking validation through relationships, identities, and external recognition.

The lyrics reveal a struggle with self-identity and fractured personas. I express the pain of trying to reconcile different parts of myself—Ken, Detmer, Garrett, Qayin, and unknxwn.—and the longing for someone’s love and acceptance.

From a faith perspective, this could serve as a testimony of how God’s love has provided me with the wholeness and purpose I was searching for through those identities.

Identity:

“Ken is my name but I’m not who he is” reflects the disconnect you felt from your true self.

Biblical truth:

God created you with purpose, and your identity is ultimately rooted in Him.

“I have called you by name; you are mine.” (Isaiah 43:1)

Love and Longing:

“Wish you would tell me you love me, you won’t” expresses a deep yearning for love and acceptance.

Biblical truth: 

God’s love is unconditional and fills the void that no human relationship can.

“The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love.’” (Jeremiah 31:3)

Inner Conflict:

“Garrett told Detmer to unhand me” and “I’m not alive, I’m an echo” capture the battle between the parts of yourself and a sense of emptiness.

Biblical truth:

True peace comes from surrendering all parts of yourself to God.

“A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.” (James 1:8)

Lyrics

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

Why you leave me on my own?
I need you more than I need my own breath in my body
Cause what is it worth
If you're not the one that I'm spending it on?

Ken, detmer, garrett, qayin, unknxwn.
They came to save me when I was alone
Nobody else did, nobody else will
Nobody on earth will know the pain I feel

Guess I'll explain it again, Ken is my name but I'm not who he is
Detmer is all of the things that he hid, Garrett just wanna make peace and amend
Qayin don't really care who he is, he gone be cool with whoever he with
unknxwn. is an alias we only use it when tryna be confident but we be faking it

Don't call me crazy, I'm not, I make sense to myself and that's all that I got
Cause what's it all matter if what really matters to me is not what I say I believe?
So find out what matters to you & don't ever let it be moved
And don't ever let it get lost, cause you only get one and that's all

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

ken is my name but I'm not who he is.

Lyrics

I been making progress from the old me
But sometimes I wish someone would just hold me
Sometimes all the weight gets me to folding, gotta let go of what I'm holdin
Is it just the drugs or something more I feel?
At this point, I really do not know what's real
I've seen a lot and hurt some more than time can heal
If I slip back in, I'm saying fuck those pills

daemon. (2019)

Produced by fowni x jaysset 

Lyrics

Bite my teeth and I clinch my fist
I tried hard but I couldn't resist
Miss your lips, girl I miss your kiss
Really wish that I could but can't get out my head

Fuck waking up, I can't get out my bed
Told you to stay but you left me instead
Wish I knew what I should do
I talk to her and pretend that she's you

Told you before, I'm delusional
You treat me so ugly but you're beautiful
Found you again what you moving for?
You won't escape me until you're a corpse

Keep fucking with me and I'll expedite it
If it makes you feel safer then go ahead, change your name
But I swear that I'll still find it
If you stayed then I wouldn't be like this

Don't try to say that this ain't your fault
You coulda saved me but you said fuck off
Tasted your love, baby I need it all
My head is spiraling and it won't stop

It never will because you won't come back to me
Won't ever be enough for you but you were already enough for me

Bite my teeth and I clinch my fist
I tried hard but I couldn't resist
Miss your lips, girl I miss your kiss
Really wish that I could but can't get out my head

Fuck waking up, I can't get out my bed
Told you to stay but you left me instead
Wish I knew what I should do
I talk to her and pretend that she's you

a moment in time. | Produced by nxku

unknxwn.

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