i was just boring u, how did i ever see love in u ???

1st collab w/ @unknxwn7 of many!

lyrics: 

unknxwn:

I think to move on is better than what we keep letting go on
You tell me that I'm the problem but we both believe that
Everyone but us is the reason that we're hurting
Thought you were my heaven but I'm only fucking burning

Let's take these chains off
I don't wanna make up
Cause everytime we do, we make up another lie
That only leaves us more broken than what we were the other night

And I don't wanna do that no more
They say hearts don't have bones so how the fuck is mine broke?

cuts:

and i’ve been broken all this time
it’s been a year since you were mine
i know you still hate me but it’s unfair
i would have left you sooner oh i swear
(oh sweaaaar)

i’ve had enough
like stop the bluff
you never seem to tell the truth

you say it hurts
but you’re the worst
you never see what’s in front of you

and you told me every day you resent me
don’t know why i stuck around so long, u jus torment me 
so glad it’s over no more fighting 
don’t see my snap “your ex is typing…”
yea it’s done

unknxwn. - heartbones w/ cuts (lettersick)

Lyrics

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

Wake up, I'm fucking over it
Need to let it out but I keep fucking holding it
Wanna scream and shout into this mic I'm holding
It'll hear me out better than any other person

Don't know how I got here, I don't think that I deserve it
God ain't really out here tryna show me what's my purpose
Sittin' at this screen, still tryna find out if it's worth it
Know that nobody is but still wish I was perfect

I told the doc that I was depressed, he told me back that I was anxious
He pulled a bottle out his vest and he told me that I should take this
I took 'em for a couple months but I was numbed out
I rather feel everything than feel like that my heart out

You wern't there for me, I would do anything for you
You ain't talk to me, I would never just ignore you
I just needed you, you made me feel like I bore you
They won't find a body when the police looking for you

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

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shiver. | Produced by septfree

Art by @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

I don't wanna talk, you want me to open up but I just wanna stop
Stop my heart, stop my breath, don't care which part
As long as it leaves me unable to feel all this pain that I haven't been able
I know this a song but this isn't a fable

Every single word I say real
It won't ever work, I can't heal
Honestly I could but if I did I
Couldn't make the shit I

Pour my heart into when I ain't got no one
I don't know what to do when I can't make no song
I know that I'm great but this shit not fun
You know where I'm at, you don't know where I'm from

I don't wanna talk, you want me to open up but I just wanna stop
Stop my heart, stop my breath, don't care which part
As long as it leaves me unable to feel all this pain that I haven't been able
I know this a song but this isn't a fable

I used to hear as a child, this kid gonna go places
Only place I been since then is Hell and I don't really think I can change it
I don't even know if I deserve it, wake up everyday just feeling worthless
I know nobody is perfect but I don't even feel I have a purpose

as long as it leaves. | Produced by saint mike

AMV Lyric Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ewgO656_Mn4&pp=ygULa2VuIHVua254d24%3D

Lyrics

You don't talk to me anymore
You could care less but I still want you more
What's in my chest? Cause I know that it isn't my heart
Bitch I'm done, fuck this life bitch, I'm finished

Today we're good but tomorrow we'll be through
Day after that you'll be gone when I need you
To hold me, to love me, to tell me it's fine
I never will be if you isn't mine

I'm out of time, I'm out of options
Used to like wine, now I like concoctions
I mix my drink so it matches my feelings
She calls me her hero but I'm just the villain

If you're confused, I'll just explain it
detmer is evil, depressed & he's anxious
garrett is gleeful, he's blessed & he's patient
They're on the same coin but 2 different faces

Ken's who I don't like but he is the catalyst
unknxwn. is truly a beautiful accident
qayin is ego, he could be anyone
I made my friends up cause I ain't have anyone

You don't talk to me anymore
You could care less but I still want you more
What's in my chest? Cause I know that it isn't my heart
Bitch I'm done, fuck this life bitch, I'm finished

Today we're good but tomorrow we'll be through
Day after that you'll be gone when I need you
To hold me, to love me, to tell me it's fine
I never will be if you isn't mine

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ken | Produced by septfree x maestrowons

music video: https://youtu.be/RH_eLwPbLd0?si=fwSJFTBo3cr0pyVc

Lyrics

What'd I do so fucking bad I had to lose you?
You could stab me in the back and beat me blue
It still wouldn't change the fact that I would choose you
I know that there's something wrong with me, I got a loosescrew

My heartbeat fading slowly
I wish that you would hold me
But you don't care to know me
I'm regressing to the old me

Try to hide it but I feel that shit now
Don't know what I did but that girl is a bitch now
Coulda been a love song but it is a diss now
All those things I didn't understand I still don't get now

I'm not ever getting better

What'd I do so fucking bad I had to lose you?
You could stab me in the back and beat me blue
It still wouldn't change the fact that I would choose you
I know that there's something wrong with me, I got a loosescrew

I got feelings that I'll never bring up out loud
Like how the only thing inside of me is doubt now
Doubt I'll ever be someone good enough for you
Doubt I'll ever leave behind the feelings I have for you

What'd I do so fucking bad I had to lose you?
You could stab me in the back and beat me blue
It still wouldn't change the fact that I would choose you
I know that there's something wrong with me, I got a loosescrew

My heartbeat fading slowly
I wish that you would hold me
But you don't care to know me
I'm regressing to the old me

Try to hide it but I feel that shit now
Don't know what I did but that girl is a bitch now
Coulda been a love song but it is a diss now
All those things I didn't understand I still don't get now

What'd I do so fucking bad I had to lose you?
You could stab me in the back and beat me blue
It still wouldn't change the fact that I would choose you
I know that there's something wrong with me, I got a loosescrew

loosescrew! | Produced by emma

Lyrics

I get lost in my head so much
Go to sleep, I don't wanna wake up
I should care but I don't give a fuck
When I did it was never enough

I don't know where it all went wrong
Think I shouldn't keep making these songs
As of lately it's been feeling dumb
As of lately I been feeling numb

I know some people like what I do
I know some people couldn't care less
I know part of me like what I do
I know part of me wanna progress

I don't know how much fight I got left
I don't wanna keep chasing a check
And that's not what I doing it for
But I'm just a human, I gotta pay rent

It was cool, I was only a kid
I was living with mom back then
I was making a couple of g's
Buying beats for my songs back then

That was all I was worried about
But I ain't a kid no more
I ain't saying I'm giving it up
I just can't put it all in no more

I get lost in my head so much
Go to sleep, I don't wanna wake up
I should care but I don't give a fuck
When I did it was never enough

I don't know where it all went wrong
Think I shouldn't keep making these songs
As of lately it's been feeling dumb
As of lately I been feeling numb

ain't a kid no more. | Produced by metlast

Lyrics

Write these songs like I got some to say but
When in person ain't got none to say cause
I'm a stupid, broken, anxious
Shell of a man, I don't think that I can

Reach every goal that I had in the plan
I took a turn on the path that I had
So close yet so damn far
How can I feel love with a broken heart?

Coming this far kinda blows my mind
Still sometimes I just wanna hole in mine
Carrying weight with a broken spine
I get so full of hope in a hopeless time

Cause thats all I got to rely on
Where was god when I needed the light on?
I was stuck in lightless place
When he took who I loved to a lifeless space

That was fucking forever ago
But the feeling I felt it won't ever just go
And sometimes I don't think that it's better to cope
I do better at this when I'm hurting the most

I bled for this, I shed for this
Went to heaven and jumped into hell for this
I'm bred for this, was fed for this
Burned every bridge just to care for this

But you won't understand don't even care if you can
I'm so full of myself, I be foolin' myself tryna act like it's cool when I'm crying for help
When I know that it's not but I won't ever admit that
I still feel like I'm lost but I'ma still just pretend that

Everything is a okay, even when I hate everyday
Every waking moment is a moment closer to the day
I'll really find out if all this agony was worth the wait
Or if it didn't even matter at fucking all

I get this urge I should just splatter this fucking wall
With every piece of me that hold these secrets deep beneath
The surface that you see in me these curtains here conceal a beast
That I don't wanna show nobody

stupid. | Produced by raspo

Lyrics

I ain't got shit left to give
I ain't got shit left to share, don't even care
I ain't got shit left to feel
I ain't got shit left to heal, life isn't fair

I ain't got shit for a friend
Don't wanna make any amends, I burned the bridge
I ain't gone build it again
I would just burn it again, just for the sin

I feel alive when I'm detmer
Only to feel like I died when I'm better
I won't let me turn to Ken again ever
That was a bad link, I had to sever

They think I'm gone but I'm clever
I can come back where I wanna whenever
I learned to feel pain like it was pleasure
I'll cross the line to the point of no measure

Don't even need me a reason, sometimes I do it because I know I can
Knew it was wrong for reason, I knew just what it would cost but I did it again
Told me don't talk to the demons, I went and sat at the table to meet with 'em all
Now I got a few in my body that won't ever leave until I'm just a body

Till I'm just a pile of dust, till I'm just a pile of ashes
Highschool got on the bus, just hoping the driver would crash it
I don't know why I'm in a rush for a promise that never was broken
On the edge so I just need a push, chaos is all that I'm hoping

I ain't got shit left to give
I ain't got shit left to share, don't even care
I ain't got shit left to feel
I ain't got shit left to heal, life isn't fair

I ain't got shit for a friend
Don't wanna make any amends, I burned the bridge
I ain't gone build it again
I would just burn it again, just for the sin

left to. | Produced by septfree & inbloom

Lyrics

What do I do? I don't even know
I don't have a home, I got nowhere to go
I been holdin' it in, I don't know how to cope
With the pain that's within every ounce of my bones

Don't look up to me, I am the epitome
Of all the reasons everyone got rid of me
Don't say you care cause I know you just pity me
God if you're there tell me why you did this to me

I'm a loser, I know I'm a mess
Only at this computer know how to confess
All the things I can never get off of my chest
Life is a game I just wanna reset

Pushing away any entity tryna be friends with me
See everyone as an enemy
Tired of fighting though, I wanna stop
At this point I don't know if I can turn it off

I'll never be who I wanted to when I was wanting you all I could dream of was holding you
I couldn't change all the hoe in you, I was just boring you, how did I ever see love in you?

Never was there when I needed it, pain you were feeding it 
My heart was yours, you were beating it
I feel like X you were eating it, I kept repeating it
Knife in my back, I'ma leave it in

God I don't know where I went wrong in life
But I need to figure it out but I can't figure it out
I just been losing myself, all been doing well
Tryna call god, think I'm going to hell

But I don't want to, no I don't wanna
I just succumb to all the weight I'm under
I'm not an angel, baby I'm a monster
From another angle, I'm a motherfucker

That's just how this thing go, I'm just on the river
Might let this pain go, I might pull the trigger

bones. | Produced by septfree

Lyrics

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

I got all these feeling I don't talk about
Every time I did lead to someone else just walking out
I'm so fucking scared of what I feel because if I tell the truth
You might see what I see in myself and hate me too

And I don't wanna do that again
I don't ever wanna feel like I did back then
I would rather be numb to it all
That feeling something good just to lose it all

Life ain't what I thought it'd be
Like I thought when I was 16
Felt like I would be so free
That was shallow, now I'm deep

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

And on some days I feel like that day could be now
And on some days I feel like I figure it out
But on all days I'm really just keeping it down
So does it even fucking matter if I'm happy?

Cause when I am, I'm not
And everytime I am, I know what I really got going on
Inside my head, some stupid fucking voice telling me I should be dead

shallow. | Produced by greaf

Produced by tennis player

Lyrics

Truth is I'm a liar
I can't go to heaven my soul already on fire
This is shit, I can't even get a grip
I been walking on a cliff and I think that I'm bouta slip

Like woah, I can't hold on
No more I'm so done
Go just like everyone else
We went through the same thing but you ain't feel what I felt

You don't know the cold in my bones
You don't know the ghost in my home
You don't feel the hate in my veins
You don't know my story, we ain't even on the same page

I just wanna feel alive
I don't wanna feel like this, I'm dead inside
Maybe in another life
I won't need to think about another life

Maybe you won't leave me for another guy
Maybe you won't tell my ass another lie
Maybe I won't give a bitch another try
Maybe I won't give a shit and you'll just die

Bird brain, head cage, I'ma let it fly
I don't think about the pain tonight
I can't get away from the pain inside
All I feel is hate, I just wanna say goodbye

I can't heal with all the pain I deal with
I don't wanna feel it no more, I wanna kill it
Death to what's in me, demons I know many
But one's always closer than the others, like a brother

Truth is I'm a liar
I can't go to heaven my soul already on fire
This is shit, I can't even get a grip
I been walking on a cliff and I think that I'm bouta slip

Like woah, I can't hold on
No more I'm so done
Go just like everyone else
We went through the same thing but you ain't feel what I felt

You don't know the cold in my bones
You don't know the ghost in my home
You don't feel the hate in my veins
You don't know my story, we ain't even on the same page

I just wanna...
I don't wanna feel like this, I'm....
Maybe in a...
I won't need to think about a...

bones. | Produced by septfree

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