sanity

Lyrics
You're not what I want, I'm sorry I told you were when I knew that you weren't
I thought I could care just enough then maybe it'd work but it just took a turn
But love isn't easy, you can't make it happen, said it before but I still haven't learned
There's a lot I could say, if it's not through a song I don't know how to put all these thoughts into words

That's why I cave, that's why I break, that's why I feel like I'll never escape
I can't get it out, it's stuck like a splinter
I'm keeping it down but my patience is thinner
I'm breaking, this voice in my head I can't take it, echos though my body I'm shaking
And everyone says I'm amazing

But I know that's a lie cause if I was I wouldn't make these fucking songs
Maybe their amazed at just the fact I make these fucking songs
I'm only on this path I think is right cause life so fucking wrong
Chest is feeling tight, I might just snap and then I'm fucking gone

Hold on, come close, don't let me go
So dumb, can't cope, wrote my own name in a death note

Told that girl she was my last hope, said "okay" and she still lied so
I won't trust no bitch, they gone switch
I'ma deal with it making myself so rich
I won't help anyone that hasn't stayed around when I was crashing
I'ma do wrong cause it feel right
Make my ego reach unseen heights
Fuck if I'll regret it, I'm making you regret it
I'm leaving a scar make sure you won't forget it
I'm fucked, I know
You won't stay, just go
I lost all my hope
Can't trust no fucking hoe
Even if, they'll say it ain't so
I'ma make this whole damn house blow
Try to fuck with me, you fucked up
You don't think I'll leave you fucked up
"That ain't right" don't care, shut the fuck up
I been told my whole life I'm stuck up
I'ma stick in this pain right in you
Make you feel everything I went through
You gone know what the fuck I been through
I don't really give a fuck, I been through

death note, last hope. (prod. capsctrl)

Lyrics

Felt the love for a bit then I lost that
Was on the path for a sec then I lost track
Not alive inside, yeah I got death
Smoke in my lungs, I don't breathe this is not breath

Not great, not a goat and I'm not next
Want to so bad but I'll not text
I'm a bore, you don't wanna be around me
SOS ship sunk I'm drowning

I got h a t e in me
Everyone I'm not I envy
I don't need your fucking pity
Wanna help? Just fucking end me

I might help myself and fly off
Of the bridge that I just caught sight of
Did I do you wrong? I might of
Did I love at all? Well kinda

I can't put this shit in words but it fucking hurts
How the fuck did I get worse? Am I really cursed?
I just wanna be in dirt, put me in the earth
Leave myself murked if I'm too turnt

Wake up in the same old cylce
How's life right now? It's lipo
If I write a happy song it's a typo
Tryna find death like moth at a lightpole

I don't know if I wrote that correct
I don't care right now so fuck that
I don't know why I get so sad
Fuck bands, fuck cash, I want toe tags

I got h a t e in me
Everyone I'm not I envy
I don't need your fucking pity
Wanna help? Just fucking end me

I might help myself and fly off
Of the bridge that I just caught sight of
Did I do you wrong? I might of
Did I love at all? Well kinda

HATE. | Produced by kubsy

Lyrics

Don't know what I did so wrong
That would make you fucking think that apart we're better off
Cause it's only been a week and I promise that I'm not
Any better than I was when I thought you were the one

Maybe you can live a life without me
Baby I can't let you live without me
Like I said in twin flame I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love then no one can

I can't let this happen but we don't have to go there
Don't tell me you're moving on or you ain't going no where
Promised you would never leave, I won't let you break that
You say I'm the problem well you gone have to face that

Don't say "we should slow down"
I can't let you go now
You've dug way too deep
I won't ever let another get as close as you to me

I wanna know what I did to make you hate me
I wanna know why you thought you had to break me
Don't wanna know where you been as of lately
Because girl, because baby...

Maybe you can live a life without me
Baby I can't let you live without me
Like I said in twin flame I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love then no one can

Maybe you can live a life without me
Baby I can't let you live without me
Like I said in twin flame I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love then no one can

without me. | Produced by jewelerbeats

Produced by jewelerbeats

Lyrics

Couple boulders on my shoulders
Baby please don’t tell me that it’s over
I’ll love you forever what I told her
I don’t know how else to fucking show her

That I’m right here
I won’t ever leave you
Bringing life to all my fears
I know you know I need you

Why you wanna hurt me?
You don’t need to do that
I’m so sick of searching
For everything that you have

If we’re not together I don’t know how I’ma manage
You say you don’t wanna be with me, you’re speaking Spanish
I don’t understand it, I just know I need you
I miss what we had when I wasn’t beneath you

If you love 'em let 'em go I say fuck that
Trigger I'ma fucking let it go if you don't come back
I don't wanna be so low but I can't fathom
Me in love with you while you're out falling for a random dude

When you said "Oh he's only just a friend"
But it hurts even worse when he really was a friend
That was mine from the start but was yours in the end
Even more we made a promise never let it get to this

Couple boulders on my shoulders
Baby please don’t tell me that it’s over
I’ll love you forever what I told her
I don’t know how else to fucking show her (x2)

manage. | Produced by jewelerbeats

Lyrics

I don't like the vibe that I get when you come around
How much higher can I really get till I come down?
I been making music almost 6, you think I'm done now?
Bitch I'm coming back, everybody better run now

Bitch I'm an enigma, you won't understand me
Rappin' ass niggah, I know you can't stand me
Bitch I'm fucking raw, killin' shit like a plan b
Music plan a and if it don't work out, it's plan b

I tried being normal
All I felt like was a waste of life
When I'm making songs though
All my soul can do is fucking thrive

Even if I'm talking bout how much I
Hate this fucking Earth and how much I wanna fucking die
Nothing on this rock could compare to what it do to me
I'm a fucking God, there ain't nothing you could do to me

I lost myself
I'm gonna go to hell
I'm turning pale
I don't want help

Fire in my lungs, I be smoking till I can't breathe
I don't wanna run but a better life I can't see
I know what you want baby girl but I can't be
If you knew what I've done, shit I'm glad that you don't though

Stop telling me how you feel, I don't care bro
Stuck in my mind, I don't even know what's real no more
I know you don't care I'm sure
Evil embedded in me to my core

What's the point of all this pain I got inside of my soul?
I can't let go because I molded it to give me life

I don't like the vibe that I get when you come around
How much higher can I really get till I come down?
I been making music almost 6, you think I'm done now?
Bitch I'm coming back, everybody better run now

Bitch I'm an enigma, you won't understand me
Rappin' ass niggah, I know you can't stand me
Bitch I'm fucking raw, killin' shit like a plan b
Music plan a and if it don't work out, it's plan b

spotify.

enigma. | Produced by grayskies

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

i'll be okay.

wired.

i do.

unknxwn. - i get so fucking low sometimes. (prod. blue moon ring)

Produced by staywoozy x owleeng

Lyrics

Can you tell me why you left it all?
Did I ever mean anything at all?
I would still answer if you called
Answer when I call

I want you to know that I figured out
Every little lie you let out your mouth
I hope you don't think that I grew up and I'ma let it go
Everything feeling that I grew up, I'm bouta let it go

I don't wanna die, I want you to
You gon' lose your life if I'ma lose you
I know everywhere you ever moved too
I know every single fucking room too

Picture on the backdoor, flower on the counter
Top drawer passport, I like it around here
But there ain't enough room for the 3 of us
This world will be better off when it's free of us

I get hurt, that's usual
Putting me first unusual
You don't treat me a like person
I'm a tool, I'm useable

Here when you want me
Thrown to the side when you don't need me
You'll always haunt me
I just wanna cry but I don't want you to see me

Told you how I feel, you don't believe me
When it gets real, you're gonna leave me
Bitch I'm right here but you don't see me
Why does no one ever really need me?

I'm not that bad am I?
I just wanna smile, why can't I?
I guess I'm the bad guy
I only ever wanted to be your guy

Can you tell me why you left it all?
Did I ever mean anything at all?
I would still answer if you called
Answer when I call

I want you to know that I figured out
Every little lie you let out your mouth
I hope you don't think that I grew up and I'ma let it go
Everything feeling that I grew up, I'm bouta let it go

Can you help me?
Can you hold me?
Can you save me?
Can you love me?
Can you call me?
Can you want me?
Can you text me?
Can you tell me?

anything at all. (extended remix)

Produced by flower

Lyrics

Wait right here, I'll be back in the morning
Don't know why I still call, I know you'll ignore it
Don't know why I care at all, I'm not important
Told me that you needed space but you just needed more him

Less me, you won't help me
Think about you all the time, I know that this ain't healthy
So sad, you're the best I ever had
And I gotta cope with the fact that you wish you never met me

Never learned to let go, all I know is hold on
Baby hold on, you're all that I know
I'm incapable of moving on, so I can't go on
You left me for him but babygirl I don't got no one

Don't got no one, babygirl I'm broken
Don't try to save me cause I know it's hopeless
Why you hate me? Never did you no wrong
Should've known that you were faking when you said you'll come

Pick me up, save me from my doom
They think that I'm great, I just scream inside a room
All I know is pain so I turn it to a tune
By the time that I'm done, don't know what I turned into

Don't know what I turned into, I don't know what I should do
I been talking to myself cause I cannot talk to you
Mean I can but I know that you won't care
Where you at? Told me that you'd always be here
Fuck this, I don't wanna be here
You said be right back but you went to see him
I won't ever see you again, I won't ever see you again

i'll be back in the morning.

Lyrics

I say I hate you but I won't let you go
I say I hate you but you still in my phone
I say I hate you, I say I hate you..
I say I hate you but in my heart, I don't
I say I hate you but girl we both damn know that I still want you
Baby, why you hurt me? Baby, where you run too?
Baby, don't desert me
Baby girl, I need you
Why you do me like that?
Everything I gave to you but you won't give me...
You won't give me all that, you won't even call back
You're all that I care about, I'm about to air it out
I cry into silence but I swear you gone hear me out
I'm not even violent but you know how to bring it out
You know to get me to open up, touch my heart, and just go rip it out

*auditory agony*

Dear mе, love you
What did I turn into?
Don't recognize my rеflection
I hate what I've succumbed to

*auditory agony*

auditory agony.

Number02

Lyrics

I got a bottle of pills and a mind full of bad shit
Imagining shit, I hope I don't take action
Fuck my past, 'cause I still ain't past it
If I get in my car, I might crash it

Living lies that we were told were true
Used to talk, now I'm ignoring you
Fucking stuck and don't know what to do
Except for make a song and hope it pushes through

Working for a day that I'm not like this
I don't like to talk, that's why I write shit
Talent from the dark, I ain't on no bright shit
I'm on some deadboy, post death type shit

I'm just like you
I just wanna live life just like you
You say "I wanna be just like you" 
But I promise I'm nothing to look up to

I'm lifeless, stupid, broke, and I'm sad
Love like cupid, I never had
Won't get through this, I never have
Chance for some new shit, I think I'll pass

I know I hurt you, I'm sorry for that
You might get stuck if you go in my head
That's why I try to not let no one in
I don't need more pain from losing a friend

Antidepressants all over my bed
Don't know if I wanna take 'em again
I think I wanna feel the pain instead
If I can't feel that, then I'm honestly dead

cupid. | Produced by HXRXKILLER

@paineko

Lyrics

My soul is burning from fires that I set
You said you loved me, that's not what your eyes said
You think I'm breathing, I promise I'm not yet
You know those people that suck? Yeah I'm that

On planet depression till drugs take me off it
The hope that I had slipped away and I lost it
The only bed that I need is a coffin
I'm stuck in a nightmare, won't end till I stop it

And that can mean two things, growing up and facing life
Or my blood from blew brains
Knife inside my back, it's marked with a few names
All are alterations of mine, I'm what I hate

"Damn, that's some deep shit"
Nah, it's just real
But real is buried underneath
It's locked away and it's sealed
So I guess deep could justify the fuckin' way that I feel
All the pain's in my head but I swear it could kill

Kill a motherfucker quick, pop one shot and I'm dead
I swear that I tried, I want to but I can't
All I say is TIDE! but can't get the stains out
If I don't die soon, I might blow my brains out

Mama I'm sorry, I know soon enough you'll hear this
But sometimes all of the pain's too much to deal with
I don't even wanna get better, just want to quit
I'm sorry if the day that I die, it seems too quick

I'm sorry if I die too soon
I'm sorry but at least you knew why
I'm sorry if I hurt you too
I'm sorry if I die like tonight

I don't really wanna take this
I don't really wanna face shit
I don't really wanna get up
I don't even really wanna sleep

I don't even really wanna...oh my god
I forgot what I wanted to say, I'm so off
I might really like go away, so long
I been dealing with my pain so long

I don't even really wanna...oh my god
I forgot what I wanted to say, I'm so off
I might really like go away, so long
I been dealing with my pain so long

I'm sorry if I die too soon
I'm sorry but at least you knew why
I'm sorry if I hurt you too
I'm sorry if I die like tonight

I don't really wanna take this
I don't really wanna face shit
I don't really wanna get up
I don't even really wanna sleep

I might of took too much
Fuck it, i'll just take one more
I still ain't gone enough
Fuck it, I'll just take two more

How much more will it take?
Till I can't take it no more
Till I can't stop that shake
Till I die on my own floor

collapse. | Produced by paineko

Lyrics

I don't wanna be alone I have been so long
I'm afraid I'll die with the comfort of no one
People do me wrong, I really don't wanna go on
Why'd you have to lie? I just started to grow on you

Guess that's fine, my heart's used to being broken
Girl I broke my back for you, I'll guess you'll never know it
I wanna come back to you, I'm trying not to show it
Cause then I'll get my heart abused and trashed and then you'll throw it

I don't wanna connect anymore
There's not a lot of people that I really care for
But the one's that I do, I try to give it my all
And there still ain't nobody there to catch me when I fall

Thoughts that I don't like to think about, I'm feelin' anxious now
Locked inside my room, I'll make a song to let the hatred out
Don't know what to do, say that a lot, but fuck I'm lost a lot
I wish it was through, I need a drug cause I can't make it stop

I don't wanna be alone I have been so long
I'm afraid I'll die with the comfort of no one
People do me wrong, I really don't wanna go on
Why'd you have to lie? I just started to grow on you

Guess that's fine, my heart's used to being broken
Girl I broke my back for you, I'll guess you'll never know it
I wanna come back to you, I'm trying not to show it
Cause then I'll get my heart abused and trashed and then you'll throw it

broken. | Produced by paineko

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