Lyrics
You're not what I want, I'm sorry I told you were when I knew that you weren't
I thought I could care just enough then maybe it'd work but it just took a turn
But love isn't easy, you can't make it happen, said it before but I still haven't learned
There's a lot I could say, if it's not through a song I don't know how to put all these thoughts into words

That's why I cave, that's why I break, that's why I feel like I'll never escape
I can't get it out, it's stuck like a splinter
I'm keeping it down but my patience is thinner
I'm breaking, this voice in my head I can't take it, echos though my body I'm shaking
And everyone says I'm amazing

But I know that's a lie cause if I was I wouldn't make these fucking songs
Maybe their amazed at just the fact I make these fucking songs
I'm only on this path I think is right cause life so fucking wrong
Chest is feeling tight, I might just snap and then I'm fucking gone

Hold on, come close, don't let me go
So dumb, can't cope, wrote my own name in a death note

Told that girl she was my last hope, said "okay" and she still lied so
I won't trust no bitch, they gone switch
I'ma deal with it making myself so rich
I won't help anyone that hasn't stayed around when I was crashing
I'ma do wrong cause it feel right
Make my ego reach unseen heights
Fuck if I'll regret it, I'm making you regret it
I'm leaving a scar make sure you won't forget it
I'm fucked, I know
You won't stay, just go
I lost all my hope
Can't trust no fucking hoe
Even if, they'll say it ain't so
I'ma make this whole damn house blow
Try to fuck with me, you fucked up
You don't think I'll leave you fucked up
"That ain't right" don't care, shut the fuck up
I been told my whole life I'm stuck up
I'ma stick in this pain right in you
Make you feel everything I went through
You gone know what the fuck I been through
I don't really give a fuck, I been through

death note, last hope. (prod. capsctrl)

Lyrics

75526, I been too sick
Fuck a lifeline, true shit I'ma lose it
I am not fine, clueless what to do with all this fucking pain?
I'ma put it in the music

I am not high but I'm off my rocker
She say "hi" but I might just have to block her
I cannot fallback to the fuck shit
I don't wanna talk, please stfu bitch

I don't like my mind
I get so blind by all of the things that it tells me
I feel not alright but it's alright
Because on and on I'll carry

Nobody knows what I keep on the low
I'ma hide it forever, it never can show
Cause I do not think, you would accept me
If you could see all the things that affect me

Say you would but you cannot be sure
You would not feel the same if the shame all was yours
You don't know and you never will
I had a soul now I never will

I'm a fucked up piece of shit, I'm not decent
I cannot go up, I'ma descend
I am not enough, I know I'm not
I'm gone fuck shit up until I rot

Until I hit that grave I'm always gone fuck up anything in my favor
Fuck it, I just wanna get paper
Fell in love too fast now I hate her

Baby I don't know why you attached
I'm a fucked up excuse of a man
I got feelings that I'll never get back
Get back, I might leave you in the past

Went south and it all went bad
I'm fucked, why am I so sad?
Any game I play, I'ma end up last
I don't wanna stay, skip life like class

75526. | Produced by Fantom

deleted track "​i’m not evil." by @unknxwn7 (detmer, garrett)
non profit

Lyrics

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

I keep seeing shit that I just tend to hate
Anger I been fiending it, without it I can't make
Now I'm on the edge, I might jump into the lake
I can't get out of my head, I don't wanna even think

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Why the fuck do I feel this?
How the fuck do I heal this?
Everyone in my mentions
Telling me that I kill shit

I wish that shit was me
I don't wanna deal with me
God a sign I need to see
I don't know if I can be

Who I need to, I don't mean to
Come off like this, I'm not evil
I am only just a human, just like you
That's going through it

Tryna figure out what I should figure out
Nothing even matters, we all end up in the ground

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

​i’m not evil. (prod. puhf)

Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Lyrics

What do I do? I don't even know
I don't have a home, I got nowhere to go
I been holdin' it in, I don't know how to cope
With the pain that's within every ounce of my bones

Don't look up to me, I am the epitome
Of all the reasons everyone got rid of me
Don't say you care cause I know you just pity me
God if you're there tell me why you did this to me

I'm a loser, I know I'm a mess
Only at this computer know how to confess
All the things I can never get off of my chest
Life is a game I just wanna reset

Pushing away any entity tryna be friends with me
See everyone as an enemy
Tired of fighting though, I wanna stop
At this point I don't know if I can turn it off

I'll never be who I wanted to when I was wanting you all I could dream of was holding you
I couldn't change all the hoe in you, I was just boring you, how did I ever see love in you?

Never was there when I needed it, pain you were feeding it 
My heart was yours, you were beating it
I feel like X you were eating it, I kept repeating it
Knife in my back, I'ma leave it in

God I don't know where I went wrong in life
But I need to figure it out but I can't figure it out
I just been losing myself, all been doing well
Tryna call god, think I'm going to hell

But I don't want to, no I don't wanna
I just succumb to all the weight I'm under
I'm not an angel, baby I'm a monster
From another angle, I'm a motherfucker

That's just how this thing go, I'm just on the river
Might let this pain go, I might pull the trigger

spotify.

bones. | Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

I don't care how you feel about the shit that I say
I can say I don't care till this song damn end
I don't care about no promo, I don't care about no label, I don't care about no co sign, I don't care about no friend
Care where I'm going, I don't care where I been
Care what I'm doing, I don't care what I did
I don't care what you show me, I care what you hid
You can say that you love me in front of my face but behind all the scenes all that hate could be big

I don't care, holding my breath, think it's love in the air
I was alone, it wasn't nobody there
Did this shit on my own so it kind of confuses me when I see you asking for help
Don't get in your feelings, I don't care how you feel
When I was all in my feelings they ain't ask how I felt

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

That girl the reason I don't care, I gave her all of my love, in return I got hurt
I know that life isn't fair but what in the fuck did I do to deserve that hurt
Fuck did I do to deserve this shit? Don't try to hide, I'ma find you bitch
Every wall that you build, I'ma burn that shit
Everything that I felt, you gonna feel that shit

you're gonna feel everything that i felt.

Produced by fowni

Lyrics

You're letting go, I'm holding on
I wanna go to wherever you are
When you tell me you hate me, I hear that I love you
Cause how could you hate me if you never loved too?

Nowhere to run to, baby I'll haunt you
You don't understand, girl I need you, not want you
Alice in a wonderland the kind of lengths I would go to
Peter Pan in neverland, girl I'm a lost boy without you

Girl I'm nothing without you, every song is about you
I tried living without you but I can't live without you
All I wanted was love, you just wanted to fuck
You fucked more than my body, I'ma need a lobotomy if I wanna let go of you

You need him, I need you, what the fuck did I do?
Can you tell me the truth?
If you do then I swear I will leave you alone
I can't leave you alone, say I will but I won't

Said I did but I didn't
Say I don't but I miss it
I'm alone, where'd you go?
I just wish you would listen

Please can you just hear me out?
Cause your love, girl I can't live without it

You're letting go, I'm holding on
I wanna go to wherever you are
When you tell me you hate me, I hear that I love you
Cause how could you hate me if you never loved too?

Nowhere to run to, baby I'll haunt you
You don't understand, girl I need you, not want you
Alice in a wonderland the type of lengths I would go to
Peter Pan in neverland, girl I'm a lost boy without you

i'm gonna need a lobotomy to let go of you.

Produced by flower x luffysome

Lyrics

Oh no, where in the fuck do I go now?
Don't know, my heart is broken and cold now
I'm so over it, this shit is old now
You really think I would care if you like me? I don't even like myself now

Say what I feel, feel what I say
Wanted to die but I didn't wanna wait
Swear that I tried but I guess that it wasn't my fate
Shit I guess there's a lot more I can take

I guess I got some more pain to experience
Love is the cure and I'm sick of experiments
I ran away and it lead me back here again
But I bet that I won't give into that damn fear again

Holding on with broken arms
Lost, don't know how far I've gone
Every time I call you, you ignore it
Really thought that I was more important

But I guess I'm not and that's okay
Cause I know you'll be back one day
If you're wondering why I'm so certain
Cause she has to be or this shit wasn't worth it at all

Ask me if I care then, I don't, not at all
Every time I get a call
I look at the number to see if she callin' me back
If it's not then I'm turning it off

Turning it off, don't wanna talk
Headed to hell but I don't wanna stop
I wanna feel but I turned off my heart
I can't turn it back on, I don't know where to start

She told me, "Ken, I hate you"
I told that dumb bitch thank you
I do not know why she thought that would hurt me
Pain is all that I'm able to understand

I'm misunderstood
FR87, unstable
9 out of 10 won't understand that
But I swear that you real if able

love is the cure and i'm sick of experiments.

STONE OCEAN

Jerking not dead☠️

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I feel like a god damn waste
God if you're real you can god damn take
My life away cause I god damn hate
The shit that my mind can god damn make
Me feel, sometimes I wanna take three pills
Just to feel like I have free will
Why can't these god damn people just be real
Some days I feel so low, to the point where I just wanna let go
Gun at my head and I might let it blow
Goin' through shit that you don't even know
I'm fuckin' stuck in place full of snow
Been here so long I don't even feel cold
I need another cup of my merlot
I don't have any love left to show

I live in Hell but you never could tell
Cause the way that I hide it is too fuckin' well
Losing my trust in humanity, full of insanity
I don't have a soul to sell
But if I did, I would
Keepin' that shit would honestly do me no good
I rather thrive on this Earth while I can
Than struggle when shit gets to hittin' the fan
I'm a mess stuck inside the body of a man
Need an escape I just might take a xan
Don't judge, you ain't been through the mud
Don't think that I do this for fun
I'm just a fucked up fuck up
Do it yourself, or I'll shut you up
I don't need help cause I never had none
Standing my ground I will no longer run

love is the cure and i'm sick of experiments.

unknxwn.

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