TIDE. fuckin love this so much. all your songs NEVER fail to impress me and astound me. you have fuckin talent. ❤❤❤💯

3 years later and still making sad songs about girls

i used to listen to this 2-3 years ago, i didnt have anything related but now it feels meaningfull

//'/':#1most

Happy birthday to me.

Produced by Living Puff

Lyrics

Told her she was all I needed and I meant it
She said, "Ken I mean it too" but she didn't
I don't wanna feel anymore feelings
Girl you great but what you see in me is not what it is

I'm a lost cause baby, it is not all
Greener on the other fucking side when I am the fault
I'm the reason that you can't get right
I got demons and they meeting with me every single night

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

She's a bitch but I know I'm no better, I'm an asshole
And it's been 3 years but she still the one I call though
I'm a fucked up sad little lost soul
I don't know how it got this bad when I fought so hard

Got so far from myself in my own mind
Tar on my breath, I do wrong when I know right
Where you are? I don't know
If I get in my car I'ma throw it off the road

Turned 21, wish I didn't
You sent me a sign, I didn't get it
Why am I'm alive? I need a minute
All this fucking time, I just been sinning (x2)

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

spotify.

XXI.

Produced by tundrabeats

Lyrics

All the pain that I have, I'ma leave it in the past
Every thought that is bad, I'ma throw it in the trash
I can see what's to come so I can't go back
And I hate that bitch, so I throw her on a track

Used to want her love, now I want cash
All these bitches leave me crushed, I don't want that
I been through that shit enough, so it's fuck that
Heart broke so much, at this point it can't crack

You can say what you want
But I promise that I won't give a damn what it is
I'ma do what you don't
Ego, this not that, I'm a God in the flesh, that's a true fact

If hell's in my head I'll see heaven when I'm dead
Fucking regret all the fucked up shit I said
Played with a demon and now It's in my bed
Don't ever ask why at night I just don't rest

Get the the fuck out my mind
You'll never see all the shit that I hide
Say I'm okay when I'm not really fine
I start my day with a fuck ton of lies

Heaven sent, when I'm around you smell that heaven scent
She say omg when I'm inside, that's heaven sex
And it's once in a lifetime, ain't seen her ever since
I can't make a bitch my bride, it's something I don't get

But what I do, you can't know
If I'm not on other shit, then my wheels don't roll
Might stress, might bend but I will not fold
I confess my sins to the mirror that I hold

Cause I'm the only one that needa know, I never told another soul about the glass that I have broke
I'm a roll, I know I'm chose to talk about what I have wrote
I'll never go back to the place where I had not one ounce of hope

Broke my two horns, made them a halo
They say too far, fuck what they say though
Demon mode inside of an angel
Break my heart, I'll live past the pain hoe

You don't really wanna see me turn back into what I used to be
Being the asshole a hobby to me
I let it go but it's right in my reach

You're not mine, bitch why you trippin'?
You're too late, turned off my feelings
I'm so fake, I don't give two shits
Fuck her face until she toothless

I'm not what you need, girl I warned you, tread lightly
She think I'm a fuckboy, I might be
Do I give a fuck though? Not the least

Stopped caring, started stackin'
It's apparent, I'm not cappin'
"Where'd you go? Like bro what happened?"
I went ghost and I won't tap in

ethereal!

Shut up p grayskies IG @ HARDLYLUVD

Lyrics

Say you got my back but I ain't ever seen you really do it
You won't hit me back and I been really fucking going through it
I just need a call, I just need to talk
I don't wanna type and I don't wanna write these songs

Cause it hurts too much and it takes too long
I can say it don't exist if I don't write it down
I don't really wanna see myself around
I just wanna put myself inside the ground

I just wanna fucking die
I don't wanna fucking live
I just wanna fucking cry
I can't even shed a tear

I might really need a beer
I might really need to smoke
I don't wanna face the fear
I just wanna fucking go

I can't stop the fucking thought
I might crash this fucking car
I might go right off the bridge
I might run right through the bar

I don't really give a fuck no more
I can't figure out why my heart so sore

Everyday I wake up I don't really wanna live
I been feeling pain but I don't really wanna give
Into all the things that I don't really wanna feel
Everyday the same, I don't think any of this real

Talk to my therapist, say existential
Tell me that all that I feel is just mental
What is the point that I'm trying to get to?
All that I've done, I don't think that I meant to

This a pathetic aesthetic, do not look up to me
Say I don't let it, but let it get to me
Fucking regret what I let you do to me
I need a medic for what you do to me

Made a living off of talking bout how much I wanna die
All these feelings, when I'm in it all I wanna know is why
Am I the way that I am, should I really even try?
Why if I know that I can even give it any time?

Life is hard so I gotta live it harder
Got no car but I still be getting farther
I taste tar and I feel it in my lungs
I just learned I was all I ever needed all along

nothing to hold on to. | Produced by ralm

worth it [+grayskies]

much love to @sleepywater <33
Produced by me ^-^

Lyrics:

(grasior)
you think your just so perfect
skeletons in your closet
faceless beast yeah you know it
but you lost with your 2 tricks

but you writing my phone
texting my phone yeah you feel so alone
you take me out
feel so loud

never thought the void could fill
this emptiness makes me shrill
the quietness that you built
fills me up with guilt

you watch the world in flames
tryna shift the blame
manipulate the world
to figure out your name

everything that you do leaves me in disbelief
count to three in your dreams damn you feel so unique
you hear the screams of the past yet you smoke n repeat
switch em out yeah you making em leave
baby running my mind but all I need is just me
everyday that you lie makes me feel one with peace
keep it up till you try to wave it all back
all your feeling are back but you feel so detached

(sleepwater)
push me in the ocean let me drown
wont be alive for long you know that now
feels way to open need way out
got me fleeing for safety a royal
i plead for ignorance in hell
im scared but here i bloody am
im facing death im in the sea
i would kill myself for you and me
baby i think that your the bee
baby i swear your in love w me
it was only you and me
baby i swear your in love w me
i wanna kill myself
baby you should kill me
i wanna kill myself
baby you should kill me

(grasior)
everything that you do leaves me in disbelief
count to three in your dreams damn you feel so unique
you hear the screams of the past yet you smoke n repeat
switch em out yeah you making em leave
baby running my mind but all I need is just me
everyday that you lie makes me feel one with peace
keep it up till you try to wave it all back
all your feeling are back but you feel so detached
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flower petals ✾

disbelief w/ sleepwater

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

i run away out of fear and out of panic
i dissipate everybody who cause damage
i love it here
i think i can manage
i disappear into trees and into foliage
i walk a path, clear my head for my advantage
no one knows i'm here
no one knows i vanish

walking through mud, all the mire's climbing up my pants
water soaking through my jeans, why is it all swampy land
i'm so getting sick of this, take me to the flower field
i need to lay down and rest
sleeping would be ideal

love

vanish

SPOTIFY

heylog - vanish

Lyrics

Love you to the moon and back
I don't see the light that you do, I'm bad
How'd I ever lose all the faith I had?
I won't see the truth till I face my past

I been kinda pissed off, I been kinda livid
Like it when I hit rock, honestly I miss it
Miss it when I did those things that were dead wrong
I wasn't in pain, I was someone else's main cause

I couldn't help it
Hurting people helpless
All the pain I dealt with
I made it someone else's

I know I'm a fucking piece of shit
I'm nothing
You say that you love me
But I know that you're bluffing

Love you to the moon and back
I don't see the light that you do, I'm bad
How'd I ever lose all the faith I had?
I won't see the truth till I face my past

I been kinda pissed off, I been kinda livid
Like it when I hit rock, honestly I miss it
Miss it when I did those things that were dead wrong
I wasn't in pain, I was someone else's main cause

And that was selfish
Part of me regrets it
The other part I hide away
Would come back it's no question

I keep feeling something
Creepin' in my stomach
You say that you trust me
But I know that I'm bluffing

Love you to the moon and back
I don't see the light that you do, I'm bad
How'd I ever lose all the faith I had?
I won't see the truth till I face my past

I been kinda pissed off, I been kinda livid
Like it when I hit rock, honestly I miss it
Miss it when I did those things that were dead wrong
I wasn't in pain, I was someone else's main cause

LY2TM. | Produced by jewelerbeats

switchbladekisses

Visual: https://youtu.be/GPKZ9nyH2lM

Art by @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I don't really got anything else to say
Never really happy, if I think I am, I just felt a little nice, it'll go away
My brain is so messed up, tried to download love but I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? Ain't shit gonna change, I already tried it

Been starved of love for so damn long so when I catch a girl I can't let her go
Everyone I every cared for is gone, if you don't wanna stay then let me know
Why does everybody like to waste my time?  If you don't think you are then where're you now?
While I sit alone in my bed and cry, I can't even get high to escape my down

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I say that so many times, ain't shit else to say
Even when I'm happy, I don't really get to feel it, been not so long, I don't really like the feeling
My brain is so messed up, my hardware fried, I got a virus
So much weight I can't get up, if there's any kind of help please help me find it

I been searching for so long for somewhere that I belong
I'm an orphan to my own thoughts
I get so lost but I know where I'll end up
Dead in a box all covered up, my life's a mess, I fucked it up

Where do I go when I don't know where to go? (x4)

Peaceful in Hell, when I'm not I feel so cold
I'm off the rails and back on the same road
Not doing well but this is what I chose
Laugh at my pain, my life is all a joke

Been starved of love for so damn long so when I get it now, I just let it go
Everyone I ever cared for is gone, you don't really wanna stay, I already know
Why does everybody like to waste my time? I got tired of it all, I don't go out now
I just sit alone in my bed and cry, why should I get high when I'll just come down?

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I don't really got anything else to say
Never really happy, if I think I am, I just felt a little nice, it'll go away
My brain is so messed up, tried to download love but I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? Ain't shit gonna change, I already tried it

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, ain't shit else to say
Never really happy if I think I am, It'll go away
My brain is so messed up, I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? I already tried it

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I don't really got anything else to say
Never really happy, if I think I am, I just felt a little nice, it'll go away
My brain is so messed up, tried to download love but I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? Ain't shit gonna change, I already tried it

virus. | Produced by IOF

Lyrics

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
When I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

Will I end in suicide?
These are things inside my mind
That I always try to hide
But it's hard to always fight

So I'll let it all be known
Show some things I've never shown
Learn some things you've never known about me
Evil in me

I've done things I'll never cope with
Might be bad to show this
I take back what I said
I'm keeping it all in my head

I won't love again
Stuck in the pain, I been smothering
Nothing to hope for in life except for the end
Don't think that my pain is a trend
I been so lost in the thoughts of my mental
How in the fuck did I get so far away from myself? It don't make sense
I'm in love with the fact that I hate shit
Took shit so long ain't no wonder I take shit
Hood on my head, don't you look at my face, I'm not confident, I cannot take it
I'll never be fine because you wasted my time
You played with my mind, thought you were a dime but that's a lie
You left me alone and I wanna know, bitch why?

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

why don't i feel alive? | Produced by Raspo

OUT NOW ON IDLEGLANCE: https://youtu.be/AEaAIisJ3ek

Check Out The Producer:

Soundcloud: @lilghosty00
Youtube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCVj24MJaGwohHDmmbfQ6Frw

Lyrics
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I got bags, I got drip, I got lean in my sprite
I got cuts, I got scars, I got nothing left to hide
I got coke and xanny bars from the plugs on my line
If you ask me how I'm feeling then I fucking hate my-

I got bags, I got drip, I got lean in my sprite
I got cuts, I got scars, I got nothing left to hide
I got coke and xanny bars from the plugs on my line
If you ask me how I'm feeling then I fucking hate my life

I'm awake but I'm tired, looking for a lighter
Shawty call me liar, and I know that she right
Think I'm hanging from a wire, lover not a fighter
Baby I'm a vampire, never see the light

I don't even know who I think I am
I'm just somebody who I used to know
Leave me alone with a couple of cans
I think I'm better at the side of the road

Spending all my cash on a couple of grams
I'm only high when I ain't feeling low
Back from a show with a handful of bands
Babe do you love me? Don't say no

Don't say no
Don't say no
You're all I have left just please don't go
Don't say no
Don't say no
You're all I have left, please don't-

I got bags, I got drip, I got lean in my sprite
I got cuts, I got scars, I got nothing left to hide
I got coke and xanny bars from the plugs on my line
If you ask me how I'm feeling then I fucking hate my-

Imma make it all the way, I'll be coming for my pay
Grab a slice and grab a plate, you can have what's left behind
See me: Louie on my waist, Gucci dripping in the rain
I ain't fucking with no fakes, but y'all can see me on the rise

I got bags, I got drip, I got lean in my sprite
I got cuts, I got scars, I got nothing left to hide
I got coke and xanny bars from the plugs on my line
If you ask me how I'm feeling then I fucking hate my life

I'm awake but I'm tired, looking for a lighter
Shawty call me liar, and I know that she right
Think I'm hanging from a wire, lover not a fighter
Baby I'm a vampire, never see the light

I got bags, I got drip, I got lean in my sprite
I got cuts, I got scars, I got nothing left to hide
I got coke and xanny bars from the plugs on my line
If you ask me how I'm feeling then I fucking hate my life

I'm awake but I'm tired, looking for a lighter
Shawty call me liar, and I know that she right
Think I'm hanging from a wire, lover not a fighter
Baby I'm a vampire, never see the light

Nothing Left to Hide

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Nothing Left To Hide [Prod. Lil Ghosty]

https://soundcloud.com/idleglance lyrics/amv: youtu.be/l57sbfuaYzA 


https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7

lyrics

(bbyk9)
Girl my heart’s already broken
I want closure why you stole it
Bust my hand up I’m so lonely
Do your damage kill me slowly

And I just did a half line
Didn’t call me up today that’s a bad sign
Lately it feels like you're just a pain in my backside
Lately I just live in constant pain but I act fine

I don’t know why I try saw you in a past life
Wish that I could go back there one last time
Love’s a loaded gun girl hit me like a landmine
You just tear my heart out, then you think it’s snacktime

Used to tell me how you loved me, you gon hate me in the end
Got a chip up on my shoulder, never learned to make amends
Girl I just think it’s funny, how I’d do it all again
Got the same shit fucking with my head

Tongue tied, and I’m anxious what do you expect
Cut the shit, turn the lights off put you all to bed
If you won’t get the door girl then I won’t knock again
Even when I’m feeling not bad I’m still fucking dead

(Unknwxn)
Girl my hearts already broken
Don't waste time on me, it's hopeless
Tried my best so I hope you notice
I'm a fucked up mess with the words of a poet

I don't really like the fucking path that I'm going
Talking bout my past really just tryna hold it
If I get a chance, I'ma put in the trash
I don't feel like I deserve to be better than I am

Cause I'm fucked up, I had enough of
All of the fake love that's stuck inside of my mind
Tough luck, I don't give no fucks, I got my hopes up, I don't think I'ma be fine
Notebook full of my fucked up thoughts that I had when I sat in the back of a class
I put all of my hate in a glass in the back of my mind ain't no wonder I'm bad

I'm a ghost stuck in the snow
Where do I go? I don't know
I don't like life anymore
How do I cope? I'ma smoke
I'm a joke, fell for a hoe
How I give her my heart and I get it back broke?
I can't wait to get high to get out of this low
That I'm feeling inside of the core of my soul

Not happy and you can't make me
Life's crappy and you can't save me
Might crash on purpose maybe
So I don't have to deal with the shit that's daily

I lost my mind in my own, it's built to destroy
Chaos is my only joy
I hope I don't die alone in the end
I just wanna connect, I just want a friend

alreadybroken - cobyKanine ft. Unknxwn (prod. Caps Ctrl)

Produced by tundrabeats

Lyrics

I thought I moved on, thought I forgave
But the shit that you done still stuck in my way
Tried to ignore and I tried to escape
But I still think about your touch everyday

Still think about what I could of changed
You were the reason my soul got saved
I try to find love but I retreat to the fact
That I know no one else is the same

Maybe that's good that you're one of kind
But I swear on my life you won't get out my mind
I thought I let you out but when I walked away
You were standing on the other side

And I can't lie, if you came back
With all of the knives in mine
I'd still have yours, because I never lied
That you were the love I was dying to find

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high

Fuck it, I'm stressed again
I don't who you been messing with
I thought that you were my medicine
But it don't seem like you heaven sent

But for your love I'm hellbent
I'm so selfish, I want you all to myself
But it don't seem if that's it
So I think I'ma just take you to my little hell

I think my mind gone bad, I'm so sad
You think you leaving me? Not so fast
"Yo shit man, why so rash?"
I guess we all want the shit we ain't have

This ain't aesthetic, it's fucking pathetic
You think it's a trend, you gone fucking regret it
I can burn all of you down to the filter
I say the words of a mouth with no filter

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high (x2)

spotify

pathetic aesthetic

SPOTIFY: https://sptfy.com/6Ao6
SOUNDCLOUD: https://soundcloud.com/cairnmusic
APPLE MUSIC: https://music.apple.com/artist/cairn/1534352747
YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/iamcairn
INSTAGRAM: https://instagram.com/iamcairn
TWITTER: https://twitter.com/iamcairn_

Lyrics:
I honestly tried to fit in
To the life you want to be living
But I could never be enough
And I’ll never be enough
You’d rather throw away your love
Into the heavens above
You tell me that I’m not alone
I got no doubt I’m on my own
‘Cause you ghost me and throw me away

You tell me you care
But no one is there
I’ve lost it all
I’m up in the air
‘Cause you can’t be there
You’ll watch me fall

My picture waits in your closet
As my colours fade, I can’t stop it
Got me blind in thе dark
While I’m searching for the stars
And I’m covеred in dust
Locked up and living with these scars
And if you ever change your mind
Don’t think I’ll ever call you mine
‘Cause you ghost me and throw me away

You tell me you care
But no one is there
I’ve lost it all
I’m up in the air
‘Cause you can’t be there
You’ll watch me fall

Fall

fall

Lyrics

All this pain I'm holding
Feel like I might just start folding
My heart's dead, it got all molded
My head's a sea, I'ma split it like moses

Drive into the back of a building
I'ma hurt myself like you hurt my feelings
All I see is death when I look up at the ceiling
Stuck inside the past, that shit fucking up my healing

Did me so wrong and I think about it all
Ain't no "Ken, yo how you are?" you don't even try to call
I'ma flip until I fall, throw my fist into the wall
Pretty girls so fake, guess that's why they call 'em dolls

I don't know what it is that you want from me
But I swear to fucking god there ain't nothing here to see
Everything I was I'm not and I'm never gonna be again
She gone pull up to the spot so she can leave again

Hurt so much now I just done had enough
Bitch I don't wanna talk can you please just shut it up?
If I get me something good then you know I'll fuck it up
Can't but I could, won't would fall in love

All this pain I'm holding
I might just start folding
Heart's dead, got all molded
Split my head like moses

I think that I might just move on to the next bitch
If I think the one I'm with just might not be the best fit
I'ma keep it honest ain't no feelings I'ma mess with
Still ain't found the one with all these hoes that I met with

Rip my heart out, slam it on a page
Yeah that's how I make a song that be inflamed will all the rage
You could try to sound like me but you & I we ain't the same
I don't even know what I am, how you think I made my name?

I'm selling a lease on what I lean the least on...my soul
I don't think that I'ma really fucking need one
Where I'm going
And I wish I was joking

novana! | Produced by ERLAX

unknxwn.

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