Lyrics

Hold me close, don't let go
I love you, don't think you know
'Cause if you did, wouldn't treat me like this
Wouldn't treat me like shit, wouldn't be such a...
Won't call you that, cause you're all I have
Can't push you away, if I did, that'd be bad
Cause then who would I have? I know you treat me bad
I know I deserve better, I don't wanna make you mad
So I won't tell you that, I'll keep it all inside
I'll let it eat at me till maggots crawling out my eyes
Spiders crawling up my spine

itsy bitsy spider.

Lyrics

I been making progress from the old me
But sometimes I wish someone would just hold me
Sometimes all the weight gets me to folding, gotta let go of what I'm holdin
Is it just the drugs or something more I feel?
At this point, I really do not know what's real
I've seen a lot and hurt some more than time can heal
If I slip back in, I'm saying fuck those pills

daemon. (2019)

vanished. (2021)

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

See your face in hallways but you're not there
Why I always end up back here?
Tried so hard but I failed again, I feel like selling my soul again
Named my heart winter how cold it gets, I know I won't get her but I'm still not over it

Cause without her I feel like a no one
I know she hurt me but at least I'm someone
Someone she hurts and abuses
But at least I'm somebody she uses

Treat me worthless baby
You're so perfect baby
I don't know what I'd do without you
I'll always ignore the truth about you

Like when you laughed at me when I told you I'd be there for you forever
I guess there was someone better that you were talking to in secret
Cause you left that same damn evening
And don't you dare tell me I'm wrong, cause you got there at 12 but you found him at 1

See your face in hallways but you're not there
Why I always end up back here?
Tried so hard but I failed again, I feel like selling my soul again
Named my heart winter how cold it gets, I know I won't get her but I'm still not over it

worthless perfection.

prod. me (dawsin)
written by dawsin & lycora

lyrics :
I got a letter, the name on the envelope said Mary.
my wife's name
It's ridiculous
couldn't possibly be true
Mary died of that damned disease three years ago
so then why am i looking for her?

@dawsin
say i hate myself but i know that I'm always bluffin'
why am i always talking big when i know that I'm nothin'?
when i go to war i swear it'll be me that I'm shootin'
maybe this is the end for me but I'm just so clueless.

she's so persistent she gon' end up figuring out why
why i drank a gallon of bleach and sum peroxide
this is not suicide, I'm doing it for her sacrifice
cause i know I'm better off dead then being half alive

listen to me speak, can't see or breathe
"I'll be here for you"
.. but i don't see her anywhere
why the hell you gone?
need a minute to spare
im running from her and she acts
like she knows my despair

t-tired of l-living a lie
d-don't you dare c-cry
i-i-i n-need you in my a-arms
t-tonight
turn o-off t-the l-lights

@lycoraaa
Middle of the crowd i feel things i felt for her
i know that its wrong
think about her till shes gone
I've been tainted and ruined by one girl
cant get the taste out my mouth (mouth)

You continue to haunt me
and ruin my days
i said i would i wait for you
LOOK AT YOUR MISTAKE
i know now youll realize
you lost me, but wait
its permanent yeah ive locked you away

@dawsin
too many times i needa let go
of this grudge can't carry this weight home
it's a real shame, tryna waste my name
risk your life tryna fight all the false pain

NOT WORTH THE TIME
NOT WORTH THE EFFORT
BEEN LOOKIN MORE DEFINED
AFTER YOU GOT "PLEASURED"
BARELY GIVE A SHIT
LET THE 'RETTA BURST BITCH
THREE ROUNDS TO YOUR EYELIDS
WATCH THE BLOOD MEND

PLAY MY HEART STRINGS LIKE A VIOLIN
NEED TO BE DIALED IN
CAUSE IF I'M NOT
SHE GON' THINK SHE'S THE HEROINE
AND BABE I'VE BEEN DOIN THIS FOR THE HELL OF IT
BEEN COLD EVER SINCE YOU'VE BEEN NEGLIGENT

peroxide w/ lycora

Lyrics-

I said I’m fine 
Like fuck ok 
What do you want from me 
I locked myself in here and I don’t want no company 
The silent sense of solitude was kinda comforting 
The end is just outside 
This time I feel that it has come for me 

 I just  can’t escape 
All of the calamity thrown in my face 
Shit I got enough on my plate 
But i eat it up and dont leave non to waste 
And honestly id rather rot in this hell
Than ever step foot inch’s out of my shell
Im comfortable here as if you couldn’t tell 
Now I’m getting tired of repeating myself 

I said I’m fine 
Like fuck ok 
What do you want from me 
I locked myself in here and I don’t want no company 
The silent sense of solitude was kinda comforting 
The end is just outside 
This time I feel that it has come for me

calamity p. wraithontheporch

Produced by NewWhiteBoy, zestymain, mollyred
Art by: @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

This is the end, all I do is fuck up, I'll make sure I don't again
I don't give a fuck about you, I don't wanna be your friend
No one gave a fuck about me, all I wanted was a friend

All I ever wanted was you
But you left me broken and bruised

I can't heal the void inside my soul
You ain't gotta check on me cause I'm already gone
Give me one more night, I don't want you to go
I got something in my mind, I don't wanna let you know

It gets to a point and I don't see it anymore
Sometime real soon you won't see me anymore
Got a soul parasite, I won't feed it anymore
What's the point in tryna fight if I won't be here anymore?

Don't feel bad when something happens
I should of never even made it this far, it was all an accident
Speeding down the highway, hope I have an accident
There too much on my plate and I can't stomach half of it

All I ever wanted was you
But you left me broken and bruised

it gets to a point and i don't see it anymore.

prod neverforever

mastered by hauri

lyrics

(cyzun)
go head run along
bouta drink to this song
i just wanna feel okay 
but i cant when im not at home
i just wanna be alone
taking addys to the dome
i dont ever wanna see you
but when i do idk
how to feel anything
brain stalls when i think
the way you flickered the nightlight
shouldve seen it coming in hindsight
i was tryna get my mind right
its like you planned it at the right time
i was tryna get my mind right
you fucked it up at the worst time
cause its taking its toll on me to see you

(brecken)
yea yea i dont like the way that ima think
i cant go to sleep without a drink
every night i think of you and me
wish that i could finish what i wanted
took my heart to flaunt it then you broke it
i cant take this no more i been hopeless
but it dont even matter no more
nah cuz i dont wanna see you like that
i wish i could tell you what you really meant to me when we were close
now its so far away i can’t remember ur face unless both of my eyes been closed
i saw a part of me twisted up in your head
but I couldn’t see whachu did til i got to the end of the roach
kicked to curb pushed to the edge
i didn’t know until you told me so
i hit the road i had nothing to own
all that i wanted is leaving the throne
& i could be honest but you wouldnt know
now you gon know it in hindsight

(cyzun)
go head run along
bouta drink to this song
i just wanna feel okay 
but i cant when im not at home
i just wanna be alone
taking addys to the dome
i dont ever wanna see you
but when i do idk

(brecken & cyzun)
go ahead run along
i wont be touchin my phone
not cuz you hurt me a lot
its cuz i think you a hoe
go ahead run along
i wont be touchin my phone
not cuz you hurt me a lot
its cuz i think you a hoe

hindsight w/ brecken (neverforever)

Produced by jewelerbeats

Lyrics

I know you don't care about me at all
Still ain't learn to let go, thought by now that I'd be better off
I lost her but I ain't lose that feeling, still ain't got it off
They say life's a game, I wish it was so I could log off

Dealing with insomnia, I wish I could nod off
I gave so much love to her but she don't want me at all
Every thought I think is wrong, wish I could turn my head off
You're not here so I'm not better

I'm so fed up with myself
I'm weak, every week I just weep
Why'd I let her in my heart? Let her in my soul?
I can't stop, I can't let her go

I got love around me but not in my soul
Please, don't ever ask me why I feel so cold
Romeo and Juliet but you ain't want that role
Where'd you go? I been on my own

This is not a trend or a genre or a style
This is who I am, I been like this since a child
Always in my head, always had a heavy heart
Always holding it in, always falling apart

And I'm tired of it, I don't wanna do it no more
Break down in tears then end up on my floor
All of these years...what the fuck were they for?
I'll never know

I know you don't care about me at all
Still ain't learn to let go, thought by now that I'd be better off
I lost her but I ain't lose that feeling, still ain't got it off
They say life's a game, I wish it was so I could log off

Dealing with insomnia, I wish I could nod off
I gave so much love to her but she don't want me at all
Every thought I think is wrong, wish I could turn my head off
You're not here so I'm not better

inconsolable interlude.

Produced by vipex x centrlx

Lyrics

You really think I need you? I don't even know what I want
Girl, I'll never believe you, you can say "I love you" all you want
She wanna get to know "real me", I don't even know who I am
You could never get under my skin cause I really just don't give a damn

Don't care, I do not give a fuck
I don't care how much your life sucks
I don't care how much pain you in
I don't care about being your friend

I don't care how much you need help
I only care about my damn self
I don't care about what you felt
I'll never care about no one else

I turned myself into the villain, she ain't let me be her hero
I had a heart that was so full of love but I don't anymore it's on zero
I could take all of the medicine, try every therapist, won't ever heal though
Empathy, happiness, confidence, calmness
I know that I'll never feel those

You really think I need you? I don't even know what I want
Girl, I'll never believe you, you can say "I love you" all you want
She wanna get to know "real me", I don't even know who I am
You could never get under my skin cause I really just don't give a damn

Don't care, I do not give a fuck
I don't care how much your life sucks
I don't care how much pain you in
I don't care about being your friend

I don't care how much you need help
I only care about my damn self
I don't care about what you felt
I'll never care about no one else

You really think I need you? I don't even know what I want
Girl, I'll never believe you, you can say "I love you" all you want
She wanna get to know "real me", I don't even know who I am
You could never get under my skin cause I really just don't give a damn

ominus overture.

unknxwn.

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