songs a emotional masterpiece, most of all... hope your okay dude 🙏

lyrics:
i don’t wanna die got no friends im
in a fight with my mind slit my wrists ten times
fight fire with fire i’ll burn my eyes out
drowning in the lies who the turned the lights out
hearts been broke, now i’m all alone
i could never trust again, no i hate that hoe
leave me lost in the dark, but her eyes they glow
if you ever want me back just let me know

stab me in the back you let me down
turn my smile upside down
the voice inside my head don’t bother me
but its so fucking loud
brain so numb put a bullet in it i know
leave me in the rain, while i bleed, it’s a cycle
break me down now i’m nothing, suicidal
i ain’t never felt the same since i wrote the suicide note

i don’t see the point of going on in a life
that i don’t even like
i don’t even wanna fight
i don’t see why i still try
when i know that i’ll meet demise
ain’t no one cared when i was close to doing what would make me die
doing what would make you cry 
if i went through with thoughts of mine
everyday i wake up in a cycle
i don’t think it spots the trigger i pull
i can see the bitch with my eyes closed
i don’t wanna talk anymore just let me go
you made me sick of myself
made me hate me cause what i felt
girl you played me for the last time
this the last time

i don’t wanna die got no friends im
in a fight with my mind slit my wrists ten times
fight fire with fire i’ll burn my eyes out
drowning in the lies who the turned the lights out
hearts been broke, now i’m all alone
i could never trust again, no i hate that hoe
leave me lost in the dark, but her eyes they glow
if you ever want me back just let me know

suicide note II w/ unknxwn (TXNSHI)

midnight freestyle (puhf x tennis player)

1st collab w/ @unknxwn7 of many!

lyrics: 

unknxwn:

I think to move on is better than what we keep letting go on
You tell me that I'm the problem but we both believe that
Everyone but us is the reason that we're hurting
Thought you were my heaven but I'm only fucking burning

Let's take these chains off
I don't wanna make up
Cause everytime we do, we make up another lie
That only leaves us more broken than what we were the other night

And I don't wanna do that no more
They say hearts don't have bones so how the fuck is mine broke?

cuts:

and i’ve been broken all this time
it’s been a year since you were mine
i know you still hate me but it’s unfair
i would have left you sooner oh i swear
(oh sweaaaar)

i’ve had enough
like stop the bluff
you never seem to tell the truth

you say it hurts
but you’re the worst
you never see what’s in front of you

and you told me every day you resent me
don’t know why i stuck around so long, u jus torment me 
so glad it’s over no more fighting 
don’t see my snap “your ex is typing…”
yea it’s done

unknxwn. - heartbones w/ cuts (lettersick)

(cray)

all this pain up on my body i dont like dis, 
she say its not fair, i got scared, i light this
please just stop here, ive lost you, my highness
the world was so bright, like ur eyes, ur iris (x2)

i try to fix dis shit but i cant even fall asleep
in the corner of my room is where i sit and weep
so many sins ive done so i just pray my soul to keep
they really out to get me demons why they follow me

(ford)

why they following when I don’t got nothin give
life short
Put a slice on my own wrist

trouble some ever since I was a kid
never wanna live all alone like this

always thought I could make better eventually 
only to know that I’m failing the penalty
oh it’s getting so hard
every single night I’m falling apart
and every time you lie I take it too far

i wanna quit it and look at stars
wait til I’m fitted and living on mars
we gon be planets apart

(cray)

its a common occurence when they walk out on me, oh shit
im done with this life, imma light up a spliff,
was bright as a kid i had so much to give
im liking your presence, but i cannt live

and if i drop and fall, baby please just stay back
why u causing all the problems, why u say that
on the drive home im homesick i hate that,
i took a light dose but it feel like i wont wake up 

all this pain up on my body i dont like dis, 
she say its not fair, i got scared, i light this
please just stop here, ive lost you, my highness
the world was so bright, like ur eyes, ur iris (x2)

(ford)

and if I had another night to tell you something that I wanted to
i would honestly just wanna prove
i only ever wanted you

i dont like this w/ brecken [out on spotify now]

Art by @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

I don't wanna talk, you want me to open up but I just wanna stop
Stop my heart, stop my breath, don't care which part
As long as it leaves me unable to feel all this pain that I haven't been able
I know this a song but this isn't a fable

Every single word I say real
It won't ever work, I can't heal
Honestly I could but if I did I
Couldn't make the shit I

Pour my heart into when I ain't got no one
I don't know what to do when I can't make no song
I know that I'm great but this shit not fun
You know where I'm at, you don't know where I'm from

I don't wanna talk, you want me to open up but I just wanna stop
Stop my heart, stop my breath, don't care which part
As long as it leaves me unable to feel all this pain that I haven't been able
I know this a song but this isn't a fable

I used to hear as a child, this kid gonna go places
Only place I been since then is Hell and I don't really think I can change it
I don't even know if I deserve it, wake up everyday just feeling worthless
I know nobody is perfect but I don't even feel I have a purpose

spotify.

as long as it leaves. | Produced by saint mike

Lyrics

I get lost in my head so much
Go to sleep, I don't wanna wake up
I should care but I don't give a fuck
When I did it was never enough

I don't know where it all went wrong
Think I shouldn't keep making these songs
As of lately it's been feeling dumb
As of lately I been feeling numb

I know some people like what I do
I know some people couldn't care less
I know part of me like what I do
I know part of me wanna progress

I don't know how much fight I got left
I don't wanna keep chasing a check
And that's not what I doing it for
But I'm just a human, I gotta pay rent

It was cool, I was only a kid
I was living with mom back then
I was making a couple of g's
Buying beats for my songs back then

That was all I was worried about
But I ain't a kid no more
I ain't saying I'm giving it up
I just can't put it all in no more

I get lost in my head so much
Go to sleep, I don't wanna wake up
I should care but I don't give a fuck
When I did it was never enough

I don't know where it all went wrong
Think I shouldn't keep making these songs
As of lately it's been feeling dumb
As of lately I been feeling numb

ain't a kid no more. | Produced by metlast

Lyrics

If I fell would you catch me?
I want love, you won't let me
Why do I still fight for dreams?
You only exist when I'm sleep

I wanna feel your love, you wanna watch me die
I wanna build up trust, you wanna make me cry
I would of gave it all up just to give us a try
You were just out getting fucked when I wasn't by your side

Why in the fuck did I think I could make you mine?
Everything you say lies
I'ma make songs about you until I make bank
You gonna watch me rise
Thought what we had was something real but it was so fake
You were just in disguise
I used to feel so much love for you, now it's all hate
All of my feelings collide

I don't feel like myself no more
Are you safe for my health? Not sure
I don't like the way I'm not yours
I don't get what this is all for

If I fell would you catch me?
I want love, you won't let me
Why do I still fight for dreams?
You only exist when I'm sleep

If I fell would you catch me?
I want love, you won't let me
Why do I still fight for dreams?
You only exist in my sleep

Why in the fuck did I think I could make you mine?
Everything you say lies
I'ma make songs about you until I make bank
You gonna watch me rise
Thought what we had was something real but it was so fake
You were just in disguise
I used to feel so much love for you, now it's all hate
All of my feelings collide

I don't feel like myself no more
Are you safe for my health? Not sure
I don't like the way I'm not yours
I don't get what this is all for

disguise. | Produced by yeezo x slaying ibis

Lyrics

Write these songs like I got some to say but
When in person ain't got none to say cause
I'm a stupid, broken, anxious
Shell of a man, I don't think that I can

Reach every goal that I had in the plan
I took a turn on the path that I had
So close yet so damn far
How can I feel love with a broken heart?

Coming this far kinda blows my mind
Still sometimes I just wanna hole in mine
Carrying weight with a broken spine
I get so full of hope in a hopeless time

Cause thats all I got to rely on
Where was god when I needed the light on?
I was stuck in lightless place
When he took who I loved to a lifeless space

That was fucking forever ago
But the feeling I felt it won't ever just go
And sometimes I don't think that it's better to cope
I do better at this when I'm hurting the most

I bled for this, I shed for this
Went to heaven and jumped into hell for this
I'm bred for this, was fed for this
Burned every bridge just to care for this

But you won't understand don't even care if you can
I'm so full of myself, I be foolin' myself tryna act like it's cool when I'm crying for help
When I know that it's not but I won't ever admit that
I still feel like I'm lost but I'ma still just pretend that

Everything is a okay, even when I hate everyday
Every waking moment is a moment closer to the day
I'll really find out if all this agony was worth the wait
Or if it didn't even matter at fucking all

I get this urge I should just splatter this fucking wall
With every piece of me that hold these secrets deep beneath
The surface that you see in me these curtains here conceal a beast
That I don't wanna show nobody

stupid. | Produced by raspo

Lyrics

I ain't got shit left to give
I ain't got shit left to share, don't even care
I ain't got shit left to feel
I ain't got shit left to heal, life isn't fair

I ain't got shit for a friend
Don't wanna make any amends, I burned the bridge
I ain't gone build it again
I would just burn it again, just for the sin

I feel alive when I'm detmer
Only to feel like I died when I'm better
I won't let me turn to Ken again ever
That was a bad link, I had to sever

They think I'm gone but I'm clever
I can come back where I wanna whenever
I learned to feel pain like it was pleasure
I'll cross the line to the point of no measure

Don't even need me a reason, sometimes I do it because I know I can
Knew it was wrong for reason, I knew just what it would cost but I did it again
Told me don't talk to the demons, I went and sat at the table to meet with 'em all
Now I got a few in my body that won't ever leave until I'm just a body

Till I'm just a pile of dust, till I'm just a pile of ashes
Highschool got on the bus, just hoping the driver would crash it
I don't know why I'm in a rush for a promise that never was broken
On the edge so I just need a push, chaos is all that I'm hoping

I ain't got shit left to give
I ain't got shit left to share, don't even care
I ain't got shit left to feel
I ain't got shit left to heal, life isn't fair

I ain't got shit for a friend
Don't wanna make any amends, I burned the bridge
I ain't gone build it again
I would just burn it again, just for the sin

left to. | Produced by septfree & inbloom

Lyrics

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

I got all these feeling I don't talk about
Every time I did lead to someone else just walking out
I'm so fucking scared of what I feel because if I tell the truth
You might see what I see in myself and hate me too

And I don't wanna do that again
I don't ever wanna feel like I did back then
I would rather be numb to it all
That feeling something good just to lose it all

Life ain't what I thought it'd be
Like I thought when I was 16
Felt like I would be so free
That was shallow, now I'm deep

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

And on some days I feel like that day could be now
And on some days I feel like I figure it out
But on all days I'm really just keeping it down
So does it even fucking matter if I'm happy?

Cause when I am, I'm not
And everytime I am, I know what I really got going on
Inside my head, some stupid fucking voice telling me I should be dead

shallow. | Produced by greaf

Produced by tennis player

Lyrics

Truth is I'm a liar
I can't go to heaven my soul already on fire
This is shit, I can't even get a grip
I been walking on a cliff and I think that I'm bouta slip

Like woah, I can't hold on
No more I'm so done
Go just like everyone else
We went through the same thing but you ain't feel what I felt

You don't know the cold in my bones
You don't know the ghost in my home
You don't feel the hate in my veins
You don't know my story, we ain't even on the same page

I just wanna feel alive
I don't wanna feel like this, I'm dead inside
Maybe in another life
I won't need to think about another life

Maybe you won't leave me for another guy
Maybe you won't tell my ass another lie
Maybe I won't give a bitch another try
Maybe I won't give a shit and you'll just die

Bird brain, head cage, I'ma let it fly
I don't think about the pain tonight
I can't get away from the pain inside
All I feel is hate, I just wanna say goodbye

I can't heal with all the pain I deal with
I don't wanna feel it no more, I wanna kill it
Death to what's in me, demons I know many
But one's always closer than the others, like a brother

Truth is I'm a liar
I can't go to heaven my soul already on fire
This is shit, I can't even get a grip
I been walking on a cliff and I think that I'm bouta slip

Like woah, I can't hold on
No more I'm so done
Go just like everyone else
We went through the same thing but you ain't feel what I felt

You don't know the cold in my bones
You don't know the ghost in my home
You don't feel the hate in my veins
You don't know my story, we ain't even on the same page

I just wanna...
I don't wanna feel like this, I'm....
Maybe in a...
I won't need to think about a...

stupid. | Produced by raspo

unknxwn.

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