forlorn fable

Lyrics

I'm conflicted, I can't make shit
I don't feel the love I fake it
Got this feeling I can't shake it
Got this feeling I might break shit

I'm losing fucking patience
I'm finna be a patient
I got drugs all this room
And I been trying not to take it

But I can't hold on
I been doing that for fucking so long
I'm so done, I can't open up for fucking no one
I been trying, it ain't working
And I know nobody perfect
I know you don't see the anger
But I'm not a peaceful person

All that I wanted to do was be in love with you
But I fucked up like I always do
And I can't figure it out, I'm bouta start flippin' out
Let me rot all alone in a forest

Fucking up everything, yeah I'm for it
If she call me again, I'll ignore it
Got a lot of the pain where my core is
I got too much shit to say that's why I don't do chorus

It's a never ending cycle
I should not be anybody's idol
I make music singing bout the fucked up shit
That I went through and about the shit that I did

Back to sounding fucking angry at the world and at myself
If you can't find me when you die, then you did not get sent to hell
Everything's a fucking lie and everybody's up for sale
Success is not what you would think, if you knew that then you would fail

If that's the case then I'm the most successful person in this place
If that's the case then I feel love forever and I never hate
That's the toll that it takes, I believe some backwards shit
I'm phony and I'm fucking fake, I'm more than just a piece of shit

So if you talking down on me you better do it right
Tell me I'm the fucking worst person you met in all ya life
Open up the flood gates of hate and let me drown slow
I'm a sad piece of trash, I'm so down low

I'ma fuck it all up again
I'm going back where I been
But fuck it is what it is
So I'm not gonna pretend

I know I'm not who I could be now
But I don't know if that's any good right now

Leave me alone, I know I'm a burden
I just wanna go under where the dirt is
I don't wanna know what I did to deserve this
I'ma give myself a reason for it

eeyorish. | Produced by ERLAX

Baby why you do that?
Tell me what I did bad
I don't wanna move on
I want you to come back

I'll tell you my secrets
Only if you keep it
I been on the deep end
You're my only reason

I don't choose to let go
Sink into the darkness
I don't need no help
No one could ever solve this

Problem that I got inside
My stupid noggin
Don't know how to cope
Throw my fist at where the wall is

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

You were all I lived for
Wish we coulda been more
Ever since the day you left
I can only feel sore

I thought you said you loved me
Why you treat me like I'm nothing?

Do you think it's funny to come back into my life when
I finally get you out of my head and stop inviting?
You think I don't know where you live and who you lie with?
Play with my heart ever again, that's who you'll die with

You think I went too far?
But I ain't took a step yet
You think I'm a lover boy
There's a void inside of my chest

It won't be filled till she fills a fucking casket
I won't be healed while she lives, I'm getting drastic
I thought I told you, I'm not angel
But I know how I can make you see a halo

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

loverboy.

Lyrics

Please don't tell me you gone be there, no you won't
Please don't think that I care cause no I don't
Already tried that way too many times, never works
Every time I'm kind, I just always end up hurt
Please don't tell me you don't love me, yes you do
Please don't think we can't make it work after all that we went through
All these times that I cried, you don't understand
You told me you needed spacе but you needed another man
You can live without mе but I don't know if I can
If it isn't you, I don't think I can love again
What'd I do that made you...
What'd I do that made you never wanna talk again?
Please help me understand
I'm holding on to threads, you're prying off my hands
And you don't know how cold it gets, girl, you don't understand
Every time that I cried
There's something more than just 11 letters between you and I

there's more than 11 letters between us.

Lyrics

Hold me close, don't let go
I love you, don't think you know
'Cause if you did, wouldn't treat me like this
Wouldn't treat me like shit, wouldn't be such a...
Won't call you that, cause you're all I have
Can't push you away, if I did, that'd be bad
Cause then who would I have? I know you treat me bad
I know I deserve better, I don't wanna make you mad
So I won't tell you that, I'll keep it all inside
I'll let it eat at me till maggots crawling out my eyes
Spiders crawling up my spine

itsy bitsy spider.

lyrics

im not too concerned about the outside
bloody me and bury me by half time
swear its been the same since last time
i dont even know what i live like
plants are sprouting out by the cracks in the floor
im not in my ways
since i walked out the door
everytime 
everytime i sit here wanting more
this feeling in my chest dont go away anymore

the lights are busted
and the heaters off
last time i checked
its freezing out
feels my lungs are 
collapsing now 
the metal decorations have rusted out
so bb come and visit me
im engulfed in misery
im sick of pain when i wake
and all the injuries
so bb come and visit me
hold me while i fight the freeze
i sit here awake
throwing up in the bedsheets

im not too concerned about the outside
bloody me and bury me by half time
swear its been the same since last time
i dont even know what i live like
plants are sprouting out by the cracks in the floor
im not in my ways
since i walked out the door
everytime 
everytime i sit here wanting more
this feeling in my chest dont go away anymore

The Outside (p. dash)

Produced by 2late!

Lyrics

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Because honestly the answer is that I'm always so sad
And I do not want to talk about that
Ask my mom, always been like that
Every time she wanted me to talk, I would close up
Now I'm an adult and my heart still froze up
For a moment it wasn't, for a moment I felt all the love
For a moment I felt so alive, for a moment I felt like enough
But that's all that it was, was a moment
'Cause that's all gone now and it won't come back
One day I'll be gone and I won't come back
Can you tell me that you love me before it comes to that?

I know that you won't though, baby girl, please don't go
Now I'm just so cold, I don't wanna do this no more
I'm all on my own, please don't tell me you know
What I'm feeling in my chest, I swear to God that you don't

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Because honestly the answer is ten times much worse than that
All these things I put in the open, I got so much more that's closed in
I got so much more you don't know and so much more you won't know

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Even though I tell you all this, I won't ever tell you that
I won't ever tell a soul, I tried once but not no more
All they could do was fucking hold me while I cried, that was pitiful

I won't ever let nobody see that again, felt love once, I won't feel it again
Guess it's time to accept that fact cause I tried so hard and it still ain't back
I gave her time and she still ain't back
Act like I'm fine but I'm not intact
Wish I could cry but I can't do that
'Cause I did for so long and I can't go back

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Because honestly the answer is that I just want you back

please don't ask me why all my songs are sad.

oh shit 
I spilled my drink
I pour another cuz I just don’t think 
I get so messed up I walk with a limp 
im playing these memories that’s saved on this disc

oh shit
imma snap it 
Remind me of times I thought that was gone 
I seem unhappy im making these songs 
I spill my guts everytime that im wrong 

I pour my heart out for them was it right?
i was a kid i was so scared of knifes 
playing with blades when im up in the night
this is my downfall my downfall alright 

I wanna save myself
I cannot save myself
I need some help
in a box I yell 
in a box I yell 
come get me out 

oh shit 
I spilled my drink
I pour another cuz I just don’t think 
I get so messed up I walk with a limp 
im playing these memories that’s saved on this disc

oh shit
imma snap it 
Remind me of times I thought that was gone 
I seem unhappy im making these songs 
I spill my guts everytime that im wrong 

-

is it worth getting away just for a day 
and then I’ll just come back worse
what did I say, i missing the rain 
Cuz the sun just hurts 

oh my god yea this life’s a blur 
yea 
I won’t lie I don’t like world but 
some of you 
I will keep with me 
But some of you
you will walk with me

disc [michael harrison]

Prodcued by legos
Art by: @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

I clawed my way out, hand over hand
Digging into walls just so I could fucking stand
Breathing in the dirt like like I thought it was the sky
Thinking that I’m climbing but it’s all a lie

Each escape just made it worse
Wind in the wound, deepened my curse
Caught my breath but I ain't catch peace
Rested long enough just so I could fucking sink

Never built a bridge, I just carved a ledge
Told myself I’d change but I stayed right on the edge
It ain’t healing when you’re just surviving
Calling it a life but inside you're dying

Auditory agony, please can you be sad with me?
I know I won't ever get my after ever happily
Everything is backwards, everything inverted
Yin Yang, Buster's Mal Heart, I been hurting
Perpetual machine of fucking pain is what I'm turning into

You're the only one that I been into
Please don't try to end us, I'ma end you
I don't really think that I'm the issue
Baby, I just miss you

I don't think that's bad, I don't think that's crazy
I just want back my sweet baby

after ever happily.

baazi (sped up)

Produced by clk

Lyrics

You don't know how I feel, don't tell me that you understand
Most of these people ain't real, just a machine that look like a man
Most of these people don't think, most of these people programmed
Most of these people ain't woke, they just sound good when they get on that 'gram

You heard that voice in the back of yo head
Why the fuck didn't you turn around?
And it hurts cause you know that they heard what you said but they care about how it sound
And you know they gone call you crazy, know they gone call you weird
Some people ain't worth saving, you can scream but they won't hear

cold crescendo.

Produced by diemadeway x krovarxiv

Lyrics

Pills, weed, alcohol and cigarettes
Took too much now my heart beating fast and I don't know what's next
Even if I did OD, nobody would notice me, nobody except my fucking mom
I'm a fucking bum, I live like a slob

I just met this bitch and I don't even care about her, I just wanna get some top
I'ma do her wrong, woke up with her next me, I asked her could she leave so I could make a fucking song
What the fuck is going on? She said I'm a piece of shit and I can't prove her wrong
So I'ma prove her right, hope she cry at night, hope that I can make this hoe rethink her fucking life

I can't be the best she ever had but I can be the worst
I can't show her love but I can break that bitch heart first
I don't care if I'm your enemy aslong as you remember me
I know all I'll ever be is just a fucking memory

pitiful performance.

Produced by sockedrock

Lyrics

What I feel I don't know why
Feel like I been killed but I won't die
All I feel is pain but I won't cry
Told me that you'll change but it's all lies

Woke up, I ain't want to
I know that I'm fucked, why I want you?
Giving me a chance what you won't do
I don't understand why you're playing, why you so rude?

Where you going? Can you hold on?
I'ma hold onto the pain cause I got no one
And I know that I can change but I don't want
This is all I've ever known, I can't go on

I don't know why I'm like this
I'm getting tired of fighting
I'm getting tired of trying
I'm getting tired of hiding

You don't wanna know the real me
You won't ever understand, you don't feel me
I ain't dead right now but I will be
You should give up now, I ain't healing

You don't need me, you should leave me alone
Fuck how I feel, I don't need you to know
If I don't exist then I can't feel alone
Don't say that you cared when I'm long gone

They think I'm off cause it's all on
What they think is right I think all wrong
The shit that I know I can't talk on
Cause I'm in a place you can't walk on

*auditory agony*

Woke up, I ain't want to
I know that I'm fucked, why I want you?
Giving me a chance what you won't do
I don't understand why you're playing, why you so rude?

Where you going? Can you hold on?
I'ma hold onto the pain cause I got no one
And I know that I can change but I don't want
This is all I've ever known, I can't go on

I don't know why I'm like this
I'm getting tired of fighting
I'm getting tired of trying
I'm getting tired of hiding

agonys allegory.

Produced by jeweler

Lyrics

I know I'm alone but I learn how to cope with it
I won't ever know how it feels to be close with them
I know what I am and I know that they won't like it
I know I won't go but it'd be cool to be invited

Something evil in my soul and I don't wanna fight
I reside in shadows, I don't like it where the light hit
You just think it's darkness, I can see it's vibrance
I gave her my heart, she ran away and I can't find it

I'm a fucking joke, I ain't nothing but a loser
They tell me choose life but they don't know that that mean choose her
Don't call me an angel, I am not a savior
Look at my behavior, I think that I'm the danger

I know I'm alone, I learn how to cope though
I know you won't call, I'm still staring at my phone though
Standing in my yard, wanna smash my phone on the rocks I'm standing on
Fuck this cliff I'm standing on

*auditory agony*

Something evil in my soul and I don't wanna fight
I reside in shadows, I don't like it where the light hit
You just think it's darkness, I can see it's vibrance
I gave her my heart, she ran away and I can't find it

I'm a fucking joke, I ain't nothing but a loser
They tell me choose life but they don't know that that mean choose her
Don't call me an angel, I am not a savior
Look at my behavior, I think that I'm the danger

cheerless composer.

Produced by vertigo x centrlx

Lyrics

Know what I should do, know right from wrong but I can't do it though
You still got my number, you could call but you won't do it though
I hold on so tight, I should let go but I won't do it though
They think I'm a villain but I'm not, I'm like magneto

I guess I was wrong cause girl I thought you were my only
I'm so fucking cold, I know you know but you won't hold me
Fuck opening up, that shit's a joke cause you don't know me
You don't speak my language, you don't know my coding

All I feel is anguish, feel like I'm corroding
Nothing could extinguish all the flames when I'm exploding
I'm on a new level, I think you're still loading
Im not saying that I'm better, I'm already where you're going

I can't let you stop me, I cannot let you delay me
Please don't waste yo time, I'm out my mind & you can't change me
Girl, I appreciate the fact you tried but you can't save me
I never wanted to leave june in july but now you hate me

Know what I should do, know right from wrong but I can't do it though
You still got my number, you could call but you won't do it though
I hold on so tight, I should let go but I won't do it though
They think I'm a villain but I'm not, I'm like magneto

I guess I was wrong cause girl I thought you were my only
I'm so fucking cold, I know you know but you won't hold me
Fuck opening up, that shit's a joke cause you don't know me
You don't speak my language, you don't know my coding

bitter ballad.

Produced by luffy

Lyrics

No one ever told me it could get this dark down here
I don't get it, I don't understand, I don't know why I'm here
I learn all these things about what it means to be alive but I don't ever feel alive

I got colors on the palette for some reason I can't paint it
I lost what I had then, what it was I can't explain it
I'm not what you want but I need what you are
I got all these thoughts but I can't see what they are

I'm a corpse of who I was, I'm just a ghost, I'm a nobody
Waking up feel forced, I'm fucking stuck, this ain't a hobby
Tried to let it go but they told me that they own me
Wrong is where I go, I'm not alive, I'm just a zombie

I got something in my soul that I can't get out anymore
I used to be sure but I'm not so sure anymore
I miss who I was but I can't be him anymore
I don't wanna do this, not again, not anymore

Because no one ever told me it could get this dark down here
I don't get it, I don't understand, I don't know why I'm here
I learn all these things about what it means to be alive but I don't ever feel alive

Told her I would follow her through any door
Then she said, "I don't love you anymore"
She ain't stab me in my back with a knife, she used a sword
Everything I feel is black, I don't see color anymore

I think I'm drowning, can somebody help me?
I don't think I meant for the dreams I'm always having
They'll always be dreams and I'll always have to wake up
Always have to clock in and always wear this make up

Make you think I'm okay cause you could never save me anyway
Reminisce on old days cause I won't ever feel happy any day

trauma tempo.

Ice in my veins
Knives in my heart
How did I die I dont know where to start

I start to fade
Everything grey
Other than death I dont see any way

You're all controlling and you dont even know
Watch as I freeze as I sleep in the snow

You're all controlling and you dont even know
Watch as I freeze as I sleep in the snow

Bodies everywhere, and I watch em all burn
Thinkin' to myself, "did I take the wrong turn"
I make mistakes and I will never learn
Once I depart I will never return

trauma tempo.

unknxwn.

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