so long. (unmixed/snippet)

Produced by flower x 5head

This song reflects a deep struggle with boundaries, emotional exhaustion, and the tension between loving someone and being drained by them. It captures the weight of giving so much of yourself that you lose your ability to thrive. From a faith-based perspective, this song could serve as a testimony of learning to set healthy boundaries and entrusting both yourself and others to God’s care.

Loving Without Losing Yourself:

“I love you to death but I can’t let you take my fire.”

This lyric shows the tension of loving someone while recognizing the harm that relationship is causing. The Bible calls us to love others as ourselves, not at the expense of ourselves.

“Love your neighbor as yourself.” (Mark 12:31)

Recognizing Emotional Draining Relationships:

“What is the point of this if I’m keeping you alive but I can’t live?”

This line captures the one-sided nature of a draining relationship. The Bible encourages us to help others but also to be wise stewards of our energy and resources.

“Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way, you will fulfill the law of Christ.” (Galatians 6:2)

“Each one should test their own actions.” (Galatians 6:4)

Turning to God in Despair:

“When they thought I would fall, I said ‘Dear Heavenly Father.’”

This is a powerful declaration of faith in the face of challenges. Even in moments of emotional exhaustion, you’re turning to God as your source of strength.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)

The “Sinkhole” and Spiritual Warfare:

“Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you’re getting stronger.”

This reflects a recurring battle with darkness, whether external or internal. The Bible reminds us that spiritual warfare is real but God equips us to overcome it.

“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness.” (Ephesians 6:12)

Lyrics

You asked for help, out of love I did and then I got fucked
And I won't help again, so please don't ask again
What is the point of this if I'm keeping you alive but I can't live?
And you may not even know but you're still a vampire, I love you to death but I can't let you take my fire

I been getting colder tryna make you warmer
You're the elephant inside the room, I'm in a corner
Tryna hold it in ain't making me no calmer
Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you're getting stronger

And it seems you're getting smarter
Tryna figure out where you reside is getting harder
I been keeping close some things I should be keeping farther
When they thought I would fall, I said "Dear Heavenly Father"

You asked for help, out of love I did and then I got fucked
And I won't help again, so please don't ask again
What is the point of this if I'm keeping you alive but I can't live?
And you may not even know but you're still a vampire, I love you to death but I can't let you take my fire

I been getting colder tryna make you warmer
You're the elephant inside the room, I'm in a corner
Tryna hold it in ain't making me no calmer
Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you're getting stronger

the moment the pit in my stomach becomes a sinkhole.

Lyrics

Broke my heart, ran away
Scream I hate you but my feelings don't match what I say
Make my art from my pain
It's a paradox, wanna let it go, but can't
Where she went I can't go, I know that I'm always gonna end up on my own
Tried love, fell apart, I think that there's something evil growing in my heart
Tried to stop it, I can't stop it, my heart's hardened, out of options
I know I should let you go, if your heart get involved don't let her know
Feel like 2019, give me back my soul
But it's 2024, I ain't a kid no more

i say i hate you but my feelings don't match what i say.

Lyrics

If you look me in my eyes, you can find out what I am
But don't look me in my eyes cause I know that you won’t understand
Please don't go inside my mind cause you probably won't ever get out
Why you leave me for that guy? Can you tell me what that’s all about?
Can you tell me why you left? Can you tell me why you ain't here?
You can take away all my stress, you can take away all my fear
You can take away all my hurt, you can take away all my doubt
You can take away all my pain, you can save me if I drown
But you ain't do that, you gave me all that back
You gave me so much more, I don't think imma come back

I don't think I can be saved
I don't think I'm really worth anything more than pain
I think I need to be...

I think I need to be put in the dirt
Wanted you bad, now I want you worse
I hurt you last but you hurt me first
I don't care if you’re poison, quench my thirst
You’re lost fire, I'll burn
I’m so tired, won't learn
My lesson, I'm stressing
Can you please read my message?
Can you return my call? Why I'm still in my car?
Tryna find where you are, please don't be too far

i don't care if you're poison just quench my thirst.

Produced by fowni x jaysset 

Lyrics

Bite my teeth and I clinch my fist
I tried hard but I couldn't resist
Miss your lips, girl I miss your kiss
Really wish that I could but can't get out my head

Fuck waking up, I can't get out my bed
Told you to stay but you left me instead
Wish I knew what I should do
I talk to her and pretend that she's you

Told you before, I'm delusional
You treat me so ugly but you're beautiful
Found you again what you moving for?
You won't escape me until you're a corpse

Keep fucking with me and I'll expedite it
If it makes you feel safer then go ahead, change your name
But I swear that I'll still find it
If you stayed then I wouldn't be like this

Don't try to say that this ain't your fault
You coulda saved me but you said fuck off
Tasted your love, baby I need it all
My head is spiraling and it won't stop

It never will because you won't come back to me
Won't ever be enough for you but you were already enough for me

Bite my teeth and I clinch my fist
I tried hard but I couldn't resist
Miss your lips, girl I miss your kiss
Really wish that I could but can't get out my head

Fuck waking up, I can't get out my bed
Told you to stay but you left me instead
Wish I knew what I should do
I talk to her and pretend that she's you

if you stayed then i wouldn't be like this.

Produced by flower x luffysome

Lyrics

She was my queen, I thought I was her king but she jacked up my heart, I got played like some cards
I don't know why you left, I don't know why you ran, girl you know that I'll find you wherever you are
Did you think we were done? Girl, I'm sam I am, I can have you near, I can have you far
Girl my life won't be better, my life won't be okay
Until the day that I have your heart

She was my queen, I thought I was her king so I trusted her but she fucked me over
I got a void in my chest, it won't be put to rest until her life is fucking over
Girl I'm just playing, I need you alive if you're dead then there isn't a purpose in mine
Either I'm tryna get you or I'm the one with you

Yeah you might feel what I'm sayin', you do not know what I been through
Hold up this wasn't the plan, I don't know what I got myself into
Bitch, why in the fuck is you playin'? You can't get rid of me that simple
Acting like I ain't ever did shit when you know damn well that I did though

Why you gotta be like that? Beat me down, make me so sad
You ain't gotta do all that, can you keep me around? You're all that I have
Baby can you please come back? Who I was before you, I can't go back
They say that hearts don't have bones...how the fuck she broke that?

*auditory agony*

until the day i have your heart.

Produced by flower x luffysome

Lyrics

Wish I was what she needed but I'm not the one she want
She was all I ever needed but I see I'm not enough
Yeah I'm out here making songs but I ain't making this shit up
I still feel like she the one, I ain't ever giving up

I won't ever let her go, you could never even know
What I'm feeling in my bones, what I feel when I'm alone
I don't have to be alone if you would come back
I won't ever let you go, can you please come back?

Stuck in my head, left me on read
Seen what I said but you didn't text back
I found some new motivation inside of these songs
Because I got my stress back

I just want what I had back
Life is a test, I won't pass that
I'm not in pain, bitch I'm past that
I had a chance but I passed that

Don't know what I did so wrong babe
You're not here so I'm not okay
Thought by now that I'd be healed
I'm still not, you're still with him

Wish I was what she needed but I'm not the one she want
She was all I ever needed but I see I'm not enough
Yeah I'm out here making songs but I ain't making this shit up
I still feel like she the one, I ain't ever giving up

I won't ever let her go, you could never even know
What I'm feeling in my bones, what I feel when I'm alone
I don't have to be alone if you would come back
I won't ever let you go, can you please come back?

Don't know what I did so wrong
You're not here, "okay?" I'm not
Thought by now that I'd be healed
I'm still not, you're with him

you're not here so i'm not okay.

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

See your face in hallways but you're not there
Why I always end up back here?
Tried so hard but I failed again, I feel like selling my soul again
Named my heart winter how cold it gets, I know I won't get her but I'm still not over it

Cause without her I feel like a no one
I know she hurt me but at least I'm someone
Someone she hurts and abuses
But at least I'm somebody she uses

Treat me worthless baby
You're so perfect baby
I don't know what I'd do without you
I'll always ignore the truth about you

Like when you laughed at me when I told you I'd be there for you forever
I guess there was someone better that you were talking to in secret
Cause you left that same damn evening
And don't you dare tell me I'm wrong, cause you got there at 12 but you found him at 1

See your face in hallways but you're not there
Why I always end up back here?
Tried so hard but I failed again, I feel like selling my soul again
Named my heart winter how cold it gets, I know I won't get her but I'm still not over it

worthless perfection.

prod. by Geekinz
prod. by 3rden
mix & master by young bad kid
lyrics by young bad kid
happy birthday Maksik

playboy flow (prod. by Geekinz)

Gambling Musik Freestyles. 
making it is only option. 
you miss cause you didn't listen. 
voices in your eyes an't crazy. 
just listen and you find your way. 
easy as that. 

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@2025

Gamble_House.mp3

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling, that feeling is gone

I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help
I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help

No cure for me so theres no care for me
Call me your friend but you're not there for me
I'll never fit in, theres no "pair" for me
I'll never leave but they don't bear for me

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

until the day i have your heart.

unknxwn.

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