i dont love myself how could i love u right?

Produced by Yago

Lyrics

Everyday I wake up it's a bad time
Nic it up my heart rate, I won't flat line
If I do don't even matter, fuck my life I'll trash mine
I am not a good guy, you just haven't seen my bad side

Wanna grab a gun, cock it, put it at my brain
I know that ain't right but I am tired of the pain
Every time I meet a bitch they make me insane
Fuck all this shit, I been stuck in the rain

I don't want no friends but I do
I am just so fucked up don't know what to do
All I do is smoke nicotine in my room
Making all these songs over beats, making tunes

I just wanna love, I don't think I can
Even if I told you, you won't understand
That bitch had me fucked up, left me in a trance
I'ma get my bucks up, watch me do my dance

Tried to give you my heart, you wanna give me hate
Lil bitch I'm on my grind, you gonna watch me skate
I'ma get cash, I'ma get bands, lil bitch I broke that bank
Promise you the day I can, hop on a plane get out of state

fkdupfreestyle! | Produced by Yago

Lyrics

I'm conflicted, I can't make shit
I don't feel the love I fake it
Got this feeling I can't shake it
Got this feeling I might break shit

I'm losing fucking patience
I'm finna be a patient
I got drugs all this room
And I been trying not to take it

But I can't hold on
I been doing that for fucking so long
I'm so done, I can't open up for fucking no one
I been trying, it ain't working
And I know nobody perfect
I know you don't see the anger
But I'm not a peaceful person

All that I wanted to do was be in love with you
But I fucked up like I always do
And I can't figure it out, I'm bouta start flippin' out
Let me rot all alone in a forest

Fucking up everything, yeah I'm for it
If she call me again, I'll ignore it
Got a lot of the pain where my core is
I got too much shit to say that's why I don't do chorus

It's a never ending cycle
I should not be anybody's idol
I make music singing bout the fucked up shit
That I went through and about the shit that I did

Back to sounding fucking angry at the world and at myself
If you can't find me when you die, then you did not get sent to hell
Everything's a fucking lie and everybody's up for sale
Success is not what you would think, if you knew that then you would fail

If that's the case then I'm the most successful person in this place
If that's the case then I feel love forever and I never hate
That's the toll that it takes, I believe some backwards shit
I'm phony and I'm fucking fake, I'm more than just a piece of shit

So if you talking down on me you better do it right
Tell me I'm the fucking worst person you met in all ya life
Open up the flood gates of hate and let me drown slow
I'm a sad piece of trash, I'm so down low

I'ma fuck it all up again
I'm going back where I been
But fuck it is what it is
So I'm not gonna pretend

I know I'm not who I could be now
But I don't know if that's any good right now

Leave me alone, I know I'm a burden
I just wanna go under where the dirt is
I don't wanna know what I did to deserve this
I'ma give myself a reason for it

eeyorish. | Produced by ERLAX

Lyrics

I can't get away from all the shit that I'm on
I went farther than where I was, I should of stopped
I let all of the loops in my head to go on
I met death and I think I'm the one that he wants

OD, that's what I tried when I wanted to die
I see everything I believed then was a lie
Where I breathe, you out of breath when I don't even try
What I see, I would see still even if I was blind

God please send me a sign, I been losing my mind
I need something to show me I'm not out of time
My greed sent me down a path where I couldn't survive
So I fleed but I'll never get away from whats inside

I can't tell if I should give in or fight back now
What's this talent I was given? I got all these mask now
detmer, garrett, unknxwn., qayin, ken is of the past now
Too far to reach back now, can't get back what I had now

addiction.

Lyrics

All of these emotions
I don't know if I can cope with
Why the fuck I even wrote this?
Why the fuck I even post this?

I'm not what I thought that I was anymore
I thought I was ready but now I'm not sure
I don't wanna hurt you again like before
I think we'd better as friends but I don't even know

If I'll find love like yours, should I keep this inside?
All of this time swear I tried

To be what you need
But that isn't mine
I think I should leave
But my thoughts are not right

I think I should be left alone for some time
I don't love myself, how I could I love you right?
Do you even love me or do you love the thought
Of what I just could be? I know now that I'm not

What you think I am
Look at the start
I just couldn't say no
Now just look where we are

*auditory agony*

spotify.

wtfiewt. | Produced by tennis player

(unknxwn.) 
Don't know where I went wrong
Been tryna figure it out all night long
What do I do? How do I leave?
What hurts me the most is the fact that it's me

I'm what I hate, I know I'm fake
Been trying my best to learn a new way
Evil is rooted down deep in my core
If I lose it, I'd lose it, don't know what to do when

All is okay when I wake with no pain
I been hurt for so long when I'm not, I'm just grey
Look to the sky, don't know why I'm alive
Spill my heart on my art cause I can't even cry

I just wanna go away, I don't even wanna try now
I don't wanna see a face, think I might just rip my fucking eyes out
I don't wanna hear your words, they won't ever really work
They don't ever fucking heal me, shut the fuck up you don't feel me

Shut the fuck up, you don't know
All the bad stuff that I hold
In a part of my brain I won't show
To another other than me

I wish that I could though
But I know that I can't
Don't tell me that I can

(cuts)

i know im a mess and im far from the best
but i cannot change cos i feel so deranged
i know that you hate when i say im no good
i promise that i try but i wish that i could

be the person that you miss the most
that persons dead, now im just a damn ghost
you want one thats happy, not fucking depressed
but im just a human, mediocre at best

i wish i was perfect you see its impossible 
ive been so broken you cant feel responsible 

i did all of the things you would ask me to
i ask for one thing now it’s all about you
im always the bad guy that’s just how it seems
but you were projecting your mistakes onto me

you say that you hate me and you want me dead
you have no remorse and i don’t think you’ll dread
im crying and pleading while it points at my head
i didnt think it was grave but the guns in your hand

i just wanna go away w/ unknxwn. (itb)

Lyrics

Wish you knew what you meant but you don't cause
If you did, from my love, you would not run
You wouldn't have left me, you wouldn't have did that
You wouldn't distress me
What I gave to you, you'd give back
You would've came back by now
Did me wrong, you ain't think I would find out?
Old me would've been folding, went and got drunk
'Cause I can't get high now
I really wish I could cry now, but I can't cause my tears all dried out
I'm at a point in my life, I ain't got time to waste
Either do or I don't, I can't try now

Really hurt my heart when you left, I don't know how to deal with this stress
And I'm only just gonna get worse
I don't believe in myself enough to be the best
Don't remind me of what I did, I don't know how to do it again
And I know that I did you wrong but I wish that we could be friends

i'm only gonna get worse, i don't believe in myself enough to be the best.

A ghost story with no haunting — just the boy who lived. Ellis Wilder sings straight to his dead mother, spitting confession, blame, and love into the same glass. It’s a return to the hometown that tried to bury him, a match held to the house that made him. Raw, unwashed folk rock for the sinners, the runaways, and the kids who learned to raise themselves.

Little Orphan Boy

dreams an illusion (i crash u crash - lil peep ft lil tracy beat non profit) recorded on 22 oct 2023

all respects to Gus and tracy, they helped me to cope with all my traumas love em

(i let the time pass too fast i crash u crash)

(u was the one thats one thats what i told myself, i dont even know myself got my back up against the wall)

(i let the time pass too fast i crash u cra-)

she said it was accident, i hope it wasnt on purpose, friends told me the death on me gon the perkys, but i pop them just to feel alright cannot cope with me another night, told her i dont wanna fight 

we both mad bout the fact that we keep living, she was mad bout the fact that i keep sining
its just my way to stay alive
even if im not all right
she took my life and all its bright
told her i dont wanna fight

now my dreams full of regret, they said “god make forget” ill be high off percocet, she told em abused her (hope it wasnt purpose) guess thats better than a loser, next thing i know that lost her…
all dreams paint an illusion 
she never got a clue that i know that im gon lose her… 

we both mad bout the fact that we keep living, she was mad bout the fact that i keep sining
its just my way to stay alive
even if im not all right
she took my life and all its bright
told her i dont wanna fight

late night drive… she said im a zombie, thats better than abuser, my dreams are lucid, in love with music, these drugs paint a picture its just an illusion, dreams are lucid, lifes full of delusion, fck the place im from….
she said im a druggie worm… hope thats better than abuser

she told me come here baby take a pill lets feel the thrill, next thing i know aint no netflix and chill, just a not fixing pill, will i get rid off this feel? or another cup am i fill? 

pain with delusion 
pain with delusion
dreams an illusion… 
drugs are illusion

dreams an illusion (i crash u crash - lil peep ft lil tracy beat non profit) recorded on 22 oct 2023

Produced by sorrow bringer x project luna

Lyrics

I can't figure out where to go
Maybe I just really might be better on my own
It's not like that I'm not used to being alone
I just like it better when I have someone to hold

But they always go and I always run
"unknxwn. I can't wait for you to blow"
That's not what I want
I just want a home where I can go when cold
Never works out though, I'm forever alone

I've done some things that I don't like to say
I've been all of the things that I say that I hate
A cheat, a lie, the smoke in the sky
I don't want you to see, can you please close your eyes?
But I have learned from all my mistakes
I won't ever go back to reside in that place
I have changed for the better and that I can say, I put on that on my grave

I don't why it's so hard to figure out what I would want
I think I stop and say it's over but my pain ain't ever done
I can never get away, be the reason I should stay
Everyday is only just a drag from all the other days

I don't really get the point of all this
Would you try to save me if I fall in?
Because I'm falling, please fucking stop it
This shit is not it, my heart is knotted

Don't say that, I'll fuck up
I hate that I lost love
Honestly I'm not much
Don't go get your hopes up

I am just a fuck up
Trying not to fuck up
I know that I'm stuck up
So you can shut the fuck up

In my room tryna write these songs
Just to fucking try and right my wrongs
How much weight on my chest? A ton
I can't wait for the day I'm done

I can't figure out where to go
Maybe I just really might be better on my own
It's not like that I'm not used to being alone
I just like it better when I have someone to hold

But they always go and I always run
"unknxwn. I can't wait for you to blow"
That's not what I want
I just want a home where I can go when cold
Never works out though, I'm forever alone

home.

Produced by ryini

Lyrics

Don't call me if I'm just your scapegoat
To ignore the pain that you hate most
I know that you're lonely cause so am I
But don't come around me with that damn disguise

Acting like you really might want me
I'm not a toy, don't try me, don't taunt me
Cause I've got impulses that haunt me
Do you really wanna end up as a trunk piece?

That's Detmer talking to Qayin
I'm Ken, I really don't like them
Don't hurt me, that's what excites them
Then it gets really hard for me to try and hide them

They been tryna get out, make something happen
Holes they wanna dig out, fill 'em with some tragic
They don't like to talk, they just really be on action
Once ounce of pain, all it take for them to tap in

Bitch stay away cause I promise you don't want this
You might let 'em in if you even choose to bump this
Burning embers, you can't even stomp it
My light getting thinner, turning into something

Ken stfu, we don't wanna hear you
They making yo blood rush, we gone make 'em feel you
If they wanna touch us, we gone make 'em fear you
Let 'em know they fucked up, then show them the real you

Tryna pull some fuck shit, we gone fuck 'em up now
Throw that body in a ditch, we ain't had enough now
Tellin' us they last wish but they out of luck now
Who left on that damn list? Let's see if they tough now

last wish.

Produced by Miler

Lyrics

Pain inside, I'm not alright, I'd rather die than to be alive
Every time I see the light, I get thrown back to darker side
What's wrong with this mind of mine? Heaven's gone, I'll never find
I want love but never mind, cause it always leaves me less than fine

I'm never getting better, since I lost her can't forget her
Let my thoughts out on my twitter, then delete 'em when I'm not as bitter
She don't care, I know that, if she did wouldn't of wrote that
Or maybe I'm just so fucked that I fuck everything I have up

On the edge, please don't lie
I might fucking go psycho
Voice in my head, God oh my
Telling me things that I don't like no

Try to ignore what I think I'll do
But one day I might just be through
Either on me or all on you
I think I need help, don't what to do

If you think I'm just making songs for the fun
Come and meet me, I'll show you what I'm on
Don't believe me, I'ma show you that you wrong
Then you'll just be another part of my song

To the ones that wanna be friends
Don't try cause It always just ends
To the girls that wanna try and love me
I'm telling you now don't trust me

Gave my heart to one girl
She made me feel fucking stupid
Told everyone she was my world
Ran to her love, she fucking juked it

But I will always have love for her
She the one only that helped me through it
Girl you got me lovesick
Now I'm all alone just fucking puking

wtfiewt. | Produced by tennis player

unknxwn.

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