Monthly tastes is my way of making playlists that include music I like but don't fit under a specific genre, and can only be categorized by me liking them. By making them in monthly playlists, I get to track my taste of music over time, and it's cool to look back and think about why I listened to certain songs, and it adds variety to what I listen to.

Happy 1 year anniversary of monthly tastes. This month has been amazing and I found a lot of great songs and started finding ways to express myself. I hope you like the creativity I had in creating the title of this playlist.

Enjoy.

february tastes, II

End Credits

Nocturne

Still stuck in my emo phase
Lyrics:


I've got the whole world on my back

Yeah, cause I'm 5'9, 165 
Established 1995 
Living like I'm not getting out alive 
Ima take a second just to tell you why 

I had thoughts since 6th grade 
That this world was not made for the sake 
of the people like me 
who can't see past their mistakes, and  misdeeds 

And I bleed the same blood you bleed
So why are you tryna cut me? 
Why's there always something you want from me?
Why can't you be happy for me?

That I'm not that kid on the phone screaming fuck this world I'm leaving? 
Like when I was sixteen and,  it still feels like I'm dreaming
When I call your phone and realize I forgot to breath in 
Forgot the grave that he's in 
I hope you know I mean it 

When I say I'm only here today cause this music keeps me breathing 
It's my only healing

I'm not alone if you can feel it

I'm not alone, if you know the bliss 
When i  heard that girl don't slit her wrists no more
From that time I reminisced at my show 
Told her there's reasons to stay don't go 

Don't push your family away I know 
They don't understand all the pain you hold 
Im just as sad know you're not alone 
Don't let your story go untold 





 I know you're here in spirit, put on deja entendu 
The only time I'm sad now is when I think of you
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only help one of them then I did it for all you 
I don't know how she's doing, no we haven't stayed in touch 
But I helped her put the knife down and that means so fucking much
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only helped one of them then I did it, I did it for you

I Hope You Know I Mean It

single.

Wish I Never Met You

produced, mixed/master by me
live drums by jordan davis
https://twitter.com/jordancd3_
https://www.instagram.com/jordandavis_98/?hl=en
cover art by ciel
https://cielxxx.com/


its a cold world we live in
had to learn about self forgiveness
im sold out on believin
so ill make what i can with these broken pieces

ive got all the time in the world
to figure it out
the root of my sorrow
the pain and the doubt

you cant live with that
i cant live without
u throwin it back 
while im turnin u out

i got a one track mind
and a wish to die
no tears to cry
when im left behind

dont know about tomorrow but i know bout today
you got me real fucked up but you know what ill say

leaves fall and im fallin apart
had to pick back up
think i gotta restart

yeah
this life is a race and we’re runnin in circles
im takin the leap over hurdles
that ive laid out myself all eternal

i send peace to my life and my loved ones
never got it off a trust fund
been about it since my day 1
imma leave my body when the night comes

leaves fall
and ive fallen apart
have to pick back up
think i gotta restart

if life has no meaning
why the fuck do i care?
yeah these people
these places
thats a reason to live

and these demons im facin
have a place in my life

but the road thats ahead
never comes to end
think that i lost it again

leaves fall and im fallin apart
had to pick back up
think i gotta restart

death calls
but im not by the phone
if you had one chance
would u take it and go?

SPOTIFY

restart

https://open.spotify.com/track/4CLg2FXYDJrhW9pEUgAQjT

i'm crawling out of this trench to get away from you
cause when i see the sun starting to rise i wanna cower in my bedroom
stay there 'til the day that i die
i wish i never met you
cause you sucked the life out of my soul
but i guess i'll have to make-do
with all of the pain that you put me through

i never thought i'd see the day
spitting you words but the venom won't penetrate
i can see you slip away
this is do or die i'm sorry but you can't be saved...

(i'm crawling out of this trench
  i'm crawling out of this,
  i'm crawling out of this trench to get away from you)

would you take it all back
take it all back take it from me?
and when the sun goes down
do you lie with the melancholy?
so would you give it all back
give it all back give it to me?
cause you're fucking up my life 
so here i am yeah spilling the tea

so would you take it all back
take it all back take it from me?
and when the tide starts turning
do you drown there thinking of me?
so would you give it all back
give it all back give it to me?
cause you're fucking up your life and you're too stubborn to see

i know you see me when you're sleeping, bitch
i'll drag myself out of this whole
that you created in my chest and split
cause you fucked with my mind for the last time
should have never let you in
i'm spiralling out of control
you had me sucked in like a twister, shit
i know you've got your own problems 
but i'm fresh out of fucks to give

spotify page

canis canem edit

@treetimee @guardinmusic

Pre release off of 'some boring, love stories' Pt. 2
Big shoutout to Guardin for killing the second verse!
Love u guys <3

Spotify

good for nothing | Feat. Guardin (Prod. Treetime)

Drums/Mix: @peterkuli
Guitar/Vocals: me

Wrote this song over a year ago while I was in Seattle. I was going through my first winter there and didn't really have any friends yet. I never had a reason to finish it, but when peter sent me the percussion it just fit so well. It's far from perfect, but I hope you like it! 

Also, relatable with all the cold weather this week lol

Spotify & iTunes

Tonight w/ Peter Kuli

You got me out my element like CO2 
Like CO2 (repeat)

You got me out my element like CO2 
Like CO2 (repeat)
I just wanna see you

Hey love what’s good with you
Flip flows yea I like too
Get fly yea I like too
Get high yea how bout you
How about you? 
You so on
Damn girl you so wrong 
Damn You so throwed
I’m out my zone

Hook

Shawty Im noticing you notice me, I noticed you too 
A nigga stay jazzy fresh like prince it makes sense, take me with you
You Nia like long If I’m coming too strong, we can take this slow too
Sitback and let this thing brew
Relax I play lambardi like 12 
I bet you missed that
It’s kool I get that 
Let’s cut the chit chat
Girl is you with that 
Break you off like kit kat 
XO like tic tac
Ten toes you down 
Like 3 times in a row?

Excuse me Just being honest I’m so aggressive these days
Can you blame me cuz that ass don’t match with your waist
Being passive is only an excuse for a lack of action 
don’t have much time to waste 
Too many ventures for me to make it a chase
I’m like miagi let’s kick it if it’s explicit
 thats too much for your taste 
Cuz ain’t no  pudding 
worth me catching a case
I got one rolled 
spark it lets take a trip to the moon, 
see the stars, or some place 
I’m shooting for anything 
to get in your space

Written by: Reed Pake
Vocals by: https://soundcloud.com/wetdaytimetable/
Produced by: https://soundcloud.com/tsii
Album art by: https://soundcloud.com/saintkales
Mixed/Mastered by: John Garcia

Lyrics:

Hook:
Never wanna be confined, be confined, be confined 
Wanna color out the lines, out the lines, out the lines/  
Now when I look out of my blinds, out my blinds, out my blinds
All I see is grey/
Eyes used to glisten with life, but I feel like that’s died/
Wishin’ for a better life, one where I’m not gettin’ dried/
Out of all ambition, what I’m missin’ is a little light/
Out of my window pane/

Verse:
Back when I was a kid I would sit and dream/
By my window seat listening to the winter breeze whistling/
With nothin’ but a pad and a pen to bleed/
All I’d need was a bit of ink to link with my mind and free/
Myself from my identity, shed my body and fly with ease/
Or become the mightiest king or a hero fighting enemies/
Whoever I’d pretend to be, it never felt pretend to me/
Whether I was an an entity zippin’ beyond infinity/
Or in a different century solvin’ a murder mystery/
I could escape my boredom that tended to be a trend for me/
But when I was scolded for livin’ in my mental imagery/
I let myself get molded into something that isn’t me/
‘Cause I was told it was time to rid of kiddish sensibilities/
And I let that shit get to me, ‘till I met all my friends, ya see/
They helped inspirit me and bring back what appeared to be/
That old energy back when I had nothin’ but a pad and a pen to bleed/
And pushed me not to dream to live, but rather to live to dream/

Hook:
Never will I be confined, be confined, be confined 
Coloring out of the lines, out the lines, out the lines
Now when I look out of my blinds, out my blinds, out my blinds
Great array of shades/
Eyes are glistenin’ with life, knowin’ who is  by my side/
Couldn’t have a better life, everything is feelin’ right/
Ambition and a mission, always see me up and beamin’ bright/
Out of my window pane/

Live to Dream (feat. JUAN) [Prod. TSII) - Single

Spotify/Apple Music

Live to Dream (feat. Juan) [prod. TSII]

thank you for 6K. glad to finally work with one of my best friends in the scene @ihateshinigami

i never asked 
for the cards 
i been dealt with
and i still
don't know
where my mind is
feel like
my happiness and i
have part ways
feel my eyes
growin heavy
on my pale face

and all i ever
wanna be is enough for you
but i never get close
no matter what i do, and
everybody is sayin
i should relax
but the stress is 
piling up as time elapse

and i swear it never gets better
i been sleepin less and less
this shit is lasting forever
but i try my fucking best
i got too much on my plate
i'm sorry i'm far away
i promise i don't mean to be
but this ain't easy to say

so don't go away from me
i just need a little bit more time
don't go away from sme
i just need a little bit more time

when it's said and done 
i hope that i'm enough
for the ones i love
but it's getting tough
so just bear with me
you're the one i need
i've been losing sight
got no room to breath


[shinigami]

w/ my eyes wide open
i see clearly now
stretch my hands
let fate fall into place

up and down i been falling
cold wind calling my name
i'm not the same as i once was

i'll take you away
to a world that is glistening
where everything's fine
have you even been listening?
i'm falling apart
you knew this from the start
lay your head in my arms
we'll never be apart

losing sight w/ shinigami

sick of overthinking every night

made this one in like a day
sometimes it be like that
another production by the amazing @harvest

spotify

make this work (prod. harvest)

vocals in order of appearance
93feetofsmoke
fats'e
cøzybøy

produced by jay vee
coproduced by fats'e & 93

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@cozyboycries

bleed for no reason w/ 93feetofsmoke, fats'e, & cøzybøy

broken senses

Prod by @prodbyshdw

Lyrics:
wake up cold, i been sleeping all alone
yeah its 3 am, and i know im getting old
feel a cough in my throat, and i wonder i been told
got my hands to my side, but you know theyre yours to hold

i cant sleep, waking up from some bad dreams
close your eyes, i know you got some sad dreams
hold my hand, we'll get through all the bad things
dont know how, but my brain got some half schemes

know we got some bad dreams
but we learned some good things

yeah you ever feel sick but you know its placebo
all in my mind but i know its on me though
wont take any meds dont need help i need sleep though
try to take a shot missed the point thats a free throw

i cant sleep, waking up from some bad dreams
close your eyes, i know you got some sad dreams
hold my hand, we'll get through all the bad things
dont know how, but my brain got some half schemes

witchinghour (prod SHDW)

MY INSTAGRAM: instagram.com/worryaboutwhy
MY TWITTER: twitter.com/yungworry

(Verse 1)

I thought that this time, it would be the last fight
I thought we’d work it out but then you seemed to lose sight 
Never been so down before I thought that I’d die 
Never been so low like this not in a long time 

(Verse 2)

You pretended to love me but you were faking 
You pretended to like me and I kept waiting 
Can’t you see I’m a mess, you left me naked 
Can’t you see I’m a fool who wants to be famous?

(Hook)

And I
I don’t love you anymore
Anymore 
(x2)
No no

(Bridge)

She tried to change me up 
Like how I changed my flow 
She went behind my back
She thought I didn’t know  

So I sip my tea 
And I smoke my dope 
To forget it all 
Cause I don’t wanna know 
(x2)

fool

STREAM ON SPOTIFY

you wont steal my tomorrow

featuring @lilxtraatl spittin some bars with me
and @sorrow_bringer on the beat
happy valentines day

erase it (ft. Lil Xtra) [prod. sorrow bringer]

prod. @flwrs

[lyrics]

you kept me safe
you kept me warm
then on that day
you went away
you have a good heart but youre angry
and you have the right to be
people hurt you a lot but youre guarding it tho
yet you still fucked me over

you left me here all alone
you left me here by myself
you came back then you left again
but now i dont know who i should trust
(x3)

throat closed i dont know i think im losing my shit
falling inside of the pit
i think thats what insane is
my emotions get the best of me
im dying inside
run and I hide
run and i hide
block out the people even you
now its myself but you should be here too
i ran
my fault
you hurt
,my loss

I left you alone
I left you by yourself
and i came back then I left again
and Im sorry you dont know who to trust
(x3)

she said I said [prod. flwrs]

@cloudhighcomeup <333
SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/6NCGRdqrVIicXy37trDA5g?si=ra7qItfGT-GPaqTra-6sPw

lyrics:
staring at the sky,
wondering how far i can fly,
does it hurt when i touch your skin?

when i look at the stars
i know it's alright,
the moon and the sun,
will shine at the same time,
when i say goodbye,
the earth will continue to spin

la la la la,
la la la la,
la la la la,
la la la la,
la la

i could hardly say,
that i loved you more,
then you walked away,
and it changed it all, 
when i see your face,
i can't help but fall

i know i messed up again,
i know, 
but i swear i’m a different person,
i could try to fall in love again,
but i swear it’s not worth it,
and i keep on staring at the sky,
and say i’m gonna change this 

and i fall in love again,
i can never say,
how i really feel, 
You know that

keep it in my head,
you can walk away,
but i’ll always stay,
just come back

and i fall in love again,
i can never say,
how i really feel, 
You know that

keep it in my head,
i love you back,
just know that

𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕚 𝕤𝕒𝕪 𝕘𝕠𝕠𝕕𝕓𝕪𝕖 (ft. cloudhighcomeup)

twenty-two, brb

try to be a more unrealistic version of yourself

february tastes, II

UnrealisticBeing