xoxo. 2021

lyrics:

Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze my tired form emaciates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 
If the horse dies then the foal does too
I don’t wanna ever live my life without you
Independence begs me to overlook truth so I do
Myself is a word I use around u
I just gotta a lot of pain in my chest woah woah
I cannot be like him but ill do my best woah woah
Lately I think I lost the fear of death woah woah
Baby I can’t be saved just save ur breath oh no

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

Take my body and feed it to the typhoon
Better than having say that strange goodbye soon
Baby I would never treat u same as u treated urself
I admire ur soul cause it is see thru
 late at night I drink and i fill myself up
Poison pours into my open mouth and I
Mean it when I say I miss how we was
This the game we chose to play with our love and I know
But Where’s your honour
I can see pain flow fast into her mold
So She left me cornered
But suffering like this bring me home that’s all that I know
As Toronto gets warmer 
I can come alive in a way that I never knew
Pour it up into my soda 
I started rolling up purple every time im feeling blue
Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
and In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze the sweat on me evaporates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

these nights are urs (splashgvng)

bring the knife out, you're already killing me 

prod. @nevrfall

guess it's my fault
i just have to take it all
say you love me, don't mean it
you wanna play along
my fault
i get too emotional
losing feeling, i need it 
so treat me terrible

i'm a puppet
got your hands wrapped around all the strings
pull em tighter 
baby come on, make me bleed
i know you love it 
all the words you've been saying to me 
bring the knife out, you're already killing me 

head to a gun
whisper to me so softly
never enough
leaving marks on my body
isn't it fun
keeping tabs on my heartbeat
but this isn't love
my hands shake when you call me

treat me terrible

treat me terrible (prod. nevrfall)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
stop
(what)
where did we go wrong
like.. it hasn't even been long
i always search for u
but hell, i don't have a clue
i might've made you a song
but
does that even have a cost?
no
well baby it's all that i've got
hoping that we could just stop
listen here u need to know
come closer this is unknown
our love is what i'd die for
i don't bluff so let's explore
(ok)
i love you and no one else
i left u so i'll take the guilt
please don't move and just sit still
please don't go it's me i'll kill

i trusted you, i guess rn ur dead to me
i look at you and every time i grit my teeth
she said we're friends but na ur not friends w me
and i swear u would never get along w me
look
u were the only friend i ever had
but i still have all these cuts along my back
thought i'd never forgive you
never thought you'd be an issue
and i put every bit of my trust in her
now i have a hard time trusting anyone
forget you, i wanna be alone
i hate you, thought you were my bro

spotify

i love you

lyrics:

Just holidays
And barely those holidays
Our good terms
Are not immune to decay 
I tried but im still away
And you’ve been fucking his brains out 
Don’t look at me as if there was a sorry to say

I would care but
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

 Ive never met someone so geared on my failure good job
At least I squeezed some meaning into ur shitty life huh
When I die an early death I hope that u can cope when the hatred in ur heart is now evicted with my pulse

Break the home
Breaks my bones and see my soul snapped too
Im alone most the time ur not restricting anything new
I like getting scary I do I know ur tryna be a boss good for u
What the fuck they turn me down for
 I am never going out more
I guess he wasn’t a regular guy
I hope u choke on ur vomit and die
My messages aids I do not open them
Im high as fuck from this bud its like opium
I don’t wanna live to get by
Ur literally here once and its over after that u fucking idiot do what u want ur done after this u fucking dumb ass u suck I fucking hate u
 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

Im torn apart and I am dirty
If its like this fuck 30
I wanna die right now
Baby im sorry im fucked I can’t talk right now
She lies
She just loves him to death
I dont compare to that hex
I suck the tits off her chest
Times waits
For nobody
Crossed lines
Become common knowledge
Bullshit u were with friends that’s bullshit
I was the culprit before
I feel projection in my point of view
  
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

better_off_nUmb (splashgvng)

lyrics:

I forgot the way about 10 miles ago
Ive heard to use the stars to help and walk me home
But Its hard to see anything aside from the moon
She said Its never been the same since the town lost u
The storm hit hard way harder than most
U shouldve been inside when it got that close
I pass thru the rubble heaps and I call to a ghost
Fear can get the best of us but pride will take a soul
I fly thru the sky for 10 seconds at most
And I thought to use the gust to try and drop me home
And I tried to use the wind but found the telephone posts
I felt The clips pops thru me out the back of my throat

And then the stars came crashing down
I wait for u now I drown
In my sorrows lost and found
Im just down and bad right now
And around we go
The life we used to live is forgotten so
Im loving on her lips and it feels like stone
If u could run away would u come back home

The clouds look fake again
But what’s wrong with u
Its still poison that drips down
That’s what they’re telling you
So what ur telling me
Is that its you vs everyone else
I think u think too much
I know I do it too
And it forced my to change shells
And I wish we didn’t have these fucking arguments
But we dont talk to anyone else
She said I know
What u dont
She said I could tell u
But u should know its brutal
Well fuck it then I dont need anymore trouble than I got
A quarter way is a long way when ur looking back at the drop
There’s nothing better than a friday except a Friday u forgot
Even when its just my place I feel a strong urge to get crossed
The night had always looked beautiful but this time its just so strong
Even after the worst of it im still happier than I thought

And then the stars came crashing down
I wait for u now I drown
In my sorrows lost and found
Im just down and bad right now
And around we go
The life we used to live is forgotten so
Im loving on her lips and it feels like stone
If u could run away would u come back home

the stars came crashing down
as i wait for you in this dirt road town and i
cannot make this up if i wanted to
i’m just lashing out at life
i can’t let go
it’s a lil bit harder now
you taste like him
i’m a lil on fire now

light speed into the fray ft eric godlow (eric godlow)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
pacing around the floor making circles that could go miles
tears are running down my face they're stacking up in piles
threw us in recycle, unrecognizable files
all our data's lost, babe it's been a while
cause we
don't need
us
remember when we met i was too scared to even look at u
these knots that are in my stomach ain't normal they're all bc of u
and i can't help but stutter the first time i ever talked to you
and i knew u were special, really thought we'd have a future
but we
don't need
us

i stg
this can't be real
2 years gone
nothing to feel
it went so fast
thought it would last
but i was too, arrogant with that

staying the night at your home
feels good waking up, knowing ur close
don't know why or how i go
with you, was never alone
i'm poppin all my cells
where are you now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay right here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that i've always feared
that i fear

CAPABLE OF LOSING EVERYTHING
I GOT NO FRIENDS
ONLY PEOPLE THROUGH A PHONE SCREEN
I'M ALONE LESS
WHEN YOU CALLED I WAS HOPING
YOU WERE COMING HOME
1 YEAR DONE NOW 3
LEFT TO GO
POURING OUT MY HEART TO RANDOM EYES
BET THEY KNOW ME
BETTER THAN YOU EVER DID
COME AND SHOW ME
SHE'S TOO BUSY THROWING UP
ALL THE ALCOHOL
WHILE I'M SITTING IN MY LIVING ROOM
CUDDLING WITH MY DOG
bored out of my mind, riff guitar i love to escape
cut off everyone, i keep swimming in my mistakes
staring at the ceiling
bet it has more feelings
than i ever will i come to realize i'm deceiving

produced by heylog

lyrics:
would u like to meet in the summer
catch up on life or should i even bother to plan a dine
i don't really even know where u reside
pick apart my soul and it feel like
something has been missing
right now i really miss u
n when i'm alone i wish i could reach out and kiss you
but life isn't fair
no life's never fair
the one i truly loved is gone now i'm the only one that's here
man i'm really done, getting tired, might just book a plane
this the same shirt i wore, for like 3 days
throw it on, roll my eyes looking mad at the stains
no if u can't handle this then u can't handle me
i'm busy hangin w myself so i got no time
to come through and drink booze or waste my life
peer pressure, i said i don't wanna get high
but the pressure continues i got a fragile mind
so i fantasize about a future that lies
and u are in it w me, all the way till we die
but i don't want it to seem like i am forcing
anything oh at all, just tell me what u think

always feelin down, guess this is life
surprised i live another night
surprised i haven't took my life
surprised i'm even still alive
but i got way too much to lose
i don't do it for me, i do it for you
i put away the knife, i did that for you
i'm wonderin if u can see, i'm right in front of you

so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too
so would u wanna run away with me..?
through the mountains and things i've never seen
on a hill maybe lay down by a tree
and close my eyes with a little bit of breeze
she said, "i can't do this log... i can't look after u no more"
so why u telling me this now?
i thought u had me figured out

man i'm really done getting tired might just book for a plane
in the north montana, gotta isolate
need someone to break my heart to feel something
cus i deserve it i've caused way too many pains
so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too

reside

dying on my own' is available on all streaming platforms!
Go listen to it and lmk what you think ✨

prodby: 
@prod5head
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCF36HvJAbYz7Ki1ckns9CBw
mastered by: 
@prod5ynox
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC-ivYmf-wZvLaV2-LohqYUA
coverart by: @h5.o__o

This gon be my second official release ever and im really happy how it turned out considering it not even being a year since I started making music.

At this point I wanna give a special and huge shoutout to astralvision & and the people closest to me for keeping the energy up. ⛓️🖤

lyrics: 
Feeling like I'm dying inside
Feeling like I'm crying tonight
Feeling like I'm doing this for myself
I don't wanna talk to you anymore
I don't wanna see you on my phone
I don't need your help I'm on my own
I feel like dying on my own

Even though I feel like dying on my own
I still miss every single one I met along
I don't really mind if you say so (If you say so)
I don't really mind if you say so (Do you say so?)
I don't really mind if you stay hoe
I don't wanna fight I just wanna escape my life
I just feel like dying tonight, I just wanna be be your side
Fuck this cruel world filled with nothing but agony
Visualizing all the things that I could be
Knowing damn well my smile won't ever be (won't ever be)
The same, oh no
My heart is gone
I feel alone
I'll stay unknown

Feeling like I'm dying inside
Feeling like I'm crying tonight
Feeling like I'm doing this for myself
I don't wanna talk to you anymore
I don't wanna see you on my phone
I don't need your help i'm on my own
I feel like dying on my own

dying on my own (prod. 5head)

lyrics:

Lay me down I can take the pain
Beds of nails honestly I wait
Turn me on abuse me while I say
Baby I love u I would never stray
When hope is gone will will lead the way
Ive been fucked over and I pray
You dont take advantage of my state
When im gone ill protect u from the grave
Weekends I would spend stuck on you I regret
Still Id save for the death of me I feel u in my chest
Id give u my breath and
I would carry u on my back
But I settle for the worst fate yet
Alright
No matter my path I swear im alright
Right over my head she’s burning all ties
Thank me when im dead when I expire

Watch her Mutalate My open eyes
She Evisercates The last of us
Our human brains Could not comprehend the reasoning
But I await her reckoning
Request the help and ill spit in ur face
This does not feel how its suppose to feel
I feel lonely right now good time to break the seal
So I drink till im big numb
Its the only time I could say something with confidence
After that call I cant help but wonder how the morning went
Dont say sorry cause I know u’d cave and do it again
Id rather be alone than to make amends At this cross roads

Check the time Im sorry that im not sober tho
I put big bucks in this bottle so imma put that down my throat
Im tryna dodge this ash that’s falling I cant let it hit my clothes
Im not tryna fuck im just tryna get lit then go home
 I fell I left planet earth
I need to think with my feelings first
Part the crowd up cause I walk thru turnt
Take me on my word I cannot be burnt out right now
Cause I do not care if u were feeling me right now
Im in that zone u dont glue to me right now
Im thinking about the shit they put me thru before right now
Let me be the proof they will never choose for me right now

Watch her Mutalate My open eyes
She Evisercates The last of us
Our human brains Could not comprehend the reasoning
But I await her reckoning
Request the help and ill spit in ur face
This does not feel how its suppose to feel
I feel lonely right now good time to break the seal
So I drink till im big numb
Its the only time I could say something with confidence
After that call I cant help but wonder how the morning went
Dont say sorry cause I know u’d cave and do it again
Id rather be alone than to make amends At this cross roads

mutilate (branwen)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
ok i been right here since the beginning
look into the mirror and i hate what i see
back away n just shake it off
i never even knew i could look this rough
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust

well i heard what u said right behind me
making rumors up bro why u lying
so tired of being under the bus
always cautious about who i trust
so i don't need anyone, only need me
cus in the end that's the most important thing to me
i never noticed when we talk
both your lips are coated with gloss
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust
and i hate the way you look at me
your face expressions fib to me
and i sent you a text but it never received
and u sent me a snap but it says pending
and i cant believe we're separate paths
i hope ur happy and i hope ur glad
so finally i can catch a breath
without your hands around my neck

i'm glad we broke up

prod by me and soundcloud.com/cay2o

shoutout to soundcloud.com/heylog , soundcloud.com/nothomex , and soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for hoppin on this with me they're all goated and rly cool ppl show love to them if u arent already

hope u all enjoy :)

lyrics:

me:
i dont think I can keep on livin like shit
close my eyes, feel the tension 
im stressin bout it 
cause no ones the same, and I cant feel nothin 
im feelin strange, but I cant care cus its nothin 

please dont leave yet, I can see you frown when im bleedin.
please ima be there, anytime u need me ill be close so u can see me 

heylog:
everyday i'm feelin awful
6 feet, horizontal
i recommend u give me space
cause i'm close to hostile
she compliment me on my eyes
said, "i love the way they sparkle"
i'm lookin like some trash
while she's looking like a model
i want you
ur irish changes from green to blue
i love you
but why u gotta leave so soon

not home. :
they told me im too gone 
green packed in a new bong
I told her put her bra on, I wont be here too long 
left your thraxx in a baggy
bad bitch ripped jeans, cincinnati 
im your boy so call me shaggy
at the house now her lips speakin nasty

skele:
go ahead and just leave now
won't be here when i break down
keep cutting me i wont feel it
but i love when you bring the knife out
n babe i think that u ruin me 
not numb but god how i wanna be
look in my eyes if you want i feel the blood in the back of my tongue
say love, 
i really think you're a bad one
i think you like how my hearts gone
i think you just wanna have fun 
play around till it kills me 
till i hang from my ceiling 
getting close to no feeling
will u stay here if im willing

ima be there

ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

produced by heylog

lyrics:
so how long has it been since i saw you
it was right after summer when i was leaving ur place
and i knew right then and there i won't be okay
wipe the tears from our eyes, everything will be okay
do u believe in love cause i'm having a hard time
believing myself, let's drink to that and raise my
cup and make a toast to us lonely people
at least we know we'll forever be peaceful and so i been
counting months it's almost eleven
since we've talked and showed u affection
i'll never have anyone to connect with
like we had or the feeling of commit
maybe this time i'll go up to heaven
getting weaker by the day, pain just pressing
thinking what to do with my life, it's depressing
thinking i'll always be alone, i expect it

on my arm, you look with dissapointment
i knew it was wrong, trust me won't do it again
u made me feel alive, i thank u for that
now i got a heart that has no light in it

eleven

sleep gang (prod. nadiak)

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

produced by: trill skeleton @trill-skeleton

cover art by: SirC https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

lyrics:

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

come around
while im down
breaking down
on the floor

stick around
close the door
i been feeling
fucking bored

what the fuck
did i do
when you took
out my name

from ur phone
back in june
and said were thru
said were thru

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

wtf im crying (prod. trill skeleton)

produced by why loner at https://twitter.com/why_loner

lyrics:

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

the words we spoke
baby girl it like a knife to my throat
we smoking blunts that look like barrels on a rifle
all the games u play with me i swear u fucking psycho

got the sauce but im looking like a failure
imma boss but my compitition amateurs
ep drop better mark it on ur calender
bitch ill make just what i want and fuck the caliber

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
alone for 5 minutes and i smoke again
got some things i think id rather keep held back
or forget
or erase
fucking get rid of them

it was all
such a waste
of time i cant get back
throw it all
in my face
ur really good at that
even one
change of pace
could cause a heart attack
and if that is the case
well baby dont hold back

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again (prod. why loner)

i love you... (addict.)

music video: https://youtu.be/n4sWulmLDPo

Lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mwdGPE1V6wg

Produced by Yago

IT'S GONNA BE AN ENDLESS NIGHT

Lyrics:

[Intro]
"iluvtora"

[Pre-Chorus]
i'm running out of time
im stuck inside my head
you make me feel alive
i won't sleep until im dead
i wanna feel your touch just one more time
i just want your love, you don't care about mine

[Bridge]
shit is getting hard i hope you know i'll never comeback
youre always on my mind and all i see is fucking flashbacks
i think its getting late but if u leave its gonna kill me
it's gonna kill me...

[Chorus]
id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

[Verse]
and now im getting high
drinking doesn't help
either way im in the sky
i wanna stay outside
it's gonna be an endless night
yeah under the moonlight

i wish you called me back today
but i don't wanna fight so its okay
i wish you called me back today
but i don't wanna fight so its okay
wish me luck imma die in piece
can you take my heart and come with me
i can show u all my pain that im fighting
my inner peace is what im finding

i can show u all my pain that im fighting
my inner peace is what im finding

[Pre-Chorus]
i'm running out of time
im stuck inside my head
you make me feel alive
i won't sleep until im dead
i wanna feel your touch just one more time
i just want your love, you don't care about mine

[Pre-Chorus]
shit is getting hard i hope you know i'll never comeback
youre always on my mind and all i see is fucking flashbacks
i think its getting late but if u leave its gonna kill me
it's gonna kill me...

[Chorus]
id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

[Outro]
id rather kill myself 
in my best outfit
lost my mind but i found it
pain grows faster in silence
pain grows faster in silence

music video

killing myself in my best outfit (prod. Yago)

xxxtentacion - revenge/hope *sewerperson cover* (fantom)

featuring @sewerperson
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
killing all the memories cant get them out my head
do u think you'll remember me what a great way to end
now she's giving me goosebumps, up and down my skin
i don't wanna hurt u, but we were getting tense
i despise u cus i really tried my best
but was there something wrong with anything i did
this fire burns
it's burning out my chest
my hairs developing curls
she run it with her nails

i left her a note but i kept it secret in my head
guess you'll never know what i had wrote or what i said
let me clear the air i don't consider you a friend
oh how we were toxic it was to our benefit
if u truly love her go and say it to her face
but he never will he only spoke it thru the pain
his scars present a symbol she will carry with attain
and she looks at him with disgust and hatred and with vain
she let him slip by but who's the one that holds the blame
she dont care cus she got guys who provide all the needs she craves
cus he could never satisfy her so he solved it on a blade
she acted like she cared but it was nothing but a fake

i don't know how to act right i guess
and u should prolly leave don't want a witness
calling down to the 2 friends i have
but they ain't never here i crave ur love bad
so i don't know how to act right i guess
and u should prolly leave don't want a witness
calling down to the 2 friends i have
but they ain't never here i crave ur love bad
SO I DON'T KNOW HOW TO ACT RIGHT I GUESS
AND SHE'S MINDLESS TALKING BACK WITH HER EX
BUT HE NEVER LOVED HER, ONLY LOVED THE SEX
I GIVE UP I'M SO DONE WITH THIS

(sewerperson)
thru the wind i smell the blood
it tastes to me like broken heart
i know i feel though my body cold
and hungry reaching out for more
peaceful i could sleep peaceful finally
breaks in the trees in my bed pines needle my heart
im still deep in the rows all despite the fresh start and its killing me
im just not myself for the time being
promise u baby i’ve changed i swear
bodies in the garden behind my stairs
i just woke up with em laying right there
crush crush crush all these bugs in my hair
guess i came back from the dead for a moment
i cannot speak with my mouth sewn shut
broke open
welcome to the end you’ve chosen

kill all the memories can’t get them out my head
do u think you’ll remember me what a great way to end
even if I was what they said 
would you still love me then

xoxo. 2021

shdw cmplxx [@unvversed]