i aint makin time for any1
living vicariously thru stones
gravel in my soul
traveling the world
traveling in home

everything i feel is fuckin violent
color grading everything in violet

i been pent up gotta double check!

DROPP CHORDS

Composed by @chinapoet
Cover art; 45.65856250959246, -122.58204516552902

used to be real, now i'm fake - just don't worry about it i'ma do it... again.
contemplation starts... in my brain about some shit i shouldn't do.
about something i should've been open to talk about, now i gotta heal all my thoughts around...

now i gotta, recluse away from everyone i care about..
isolation's the only thing i care about...
chamomile to help all down- all these thoughts.. ooh yeah i'm done now
wish my mom and my brother cared about every sentence i said
but i accept they are, and lay my eyes to rest..
i just hope that they can hear me, the thoughts are burning, it's always killing me..

i wish my mama would hear me, i wish my mama could heal me
one conversation it kills me... knots in my stomach stuck staring at the ceiling..
now i have to use up all my energy, just to figure out what i want from me
at the end of the day i'm only eighteen, but i'm still driving me crazy
my mentals fucked, i'm phasing - my mama won't even save me
this pill on my mouth daily. all in my head i'm racing, dear god please don't ever erase me.. i'm still moving and i'm still changing

i just wanna go home.. i just wanna go home..
fell in the river staring at the sun
today is over yeah, but tmrw comes
tell me how next month is, cause I'll be gone.

running across without permission @chinapoet

[i don't rly like this song anymore
but was convinced to drop it anyways]
@digipak @r1yy

ur losin me by the second
n im stuck
tryna find the second exit
lost it

have i lost it will u be honest
couldn't put my finger on it
didn't sit well in my throat
like i was drinking a cheap tonic
rly hope nobody knows
all of the shit in the past 48
thas been up in my nose

u can go thru my phone girl
js dont go thru my notes app
unless u rly wanna throw up
can't think i'm 2stuck
she wna fk up my life
i wldn't duck if she tried

i wna be flexible
tryn bend backwards like sheet metal
hope my head don't meet metal
by the time i do wna fix myself

finally fix myself (x2)

yea, whoa,
it's like half past midnight
girl i luv talkin 2u
i been so damn depraved
think im catchin feelings
wish u knew
n i feel replenished by ur presence
like electrolytes
y don't u come lay wit me?
we can both turn off mental lights
n js be 2gether

ur losin me by the second
n im stuck
tryna find the second exit
lost it

have i lost it will u be honest
couldn't put my finger on it
didn't sit well in my throat
like i was drinking a cheap tonic
rly hope nobody knows

electrolyte @digipak @riyui

@luca_marin

think i saw the end
tweaking out on research chems
didn't wanna have 2 think
but i couldn't go 2 bed

& i sat n thought about it after
n it rly wasn't worth the effort
but sometimes it just happens that way
even if i didn't want u 2 stay

oh no
my bro tweaking off that oxycodone
i miss seeking out them xans in seldom
if i freak out @ u it's matter of fact
id be happy if i told them @ last

feel like i been gaslit but dn't care 4 asking
2 much instability 2 reasonably mask it
tryna b more careful w/ putting eggs in 1 basket
cn't tell if u hate me or if ur js moving tacit

back 2 getting blasted
u been fake like plastic
lately most my actions
semiautomatic;
melodramatic
& i wish they rly weren't
her perception wld rly
hurt 2 bubble burst

think i saw the end
tweaking out on research chems
didn't wanna have 2 think
but i couldn't go 2 bed

& i sat n thought about it after
n it rly wasn't worth the effort
but sometimes it just happens that way
even if i didn't want u 2 stay

oh no (x2)

resEARCh ᶜʰᵉᵐˢ @luca

@1hallow @popilization @violetxx9

ha, yea, like what happened to fashion talk?
i just did my fashion walk
drop money on all kinds of stuff
i just stay posted
i just walked to the bank, to the vault
spin her round from the back to the front
i got my swag up and u stayed a bum
idk u bru how u think we gon chop shit up?
double cup, pass the blunt
mix stimuli feel all types of stuff
and im wit my brudda we got shit out the mud
money talk thats all i love
i'll up the stick i'll call yo bluff
how u say u notice me
but u dont even know my name
she say she over me
she must not know that i changed
when i shoot my shot it's green
when i light this blunt it's dank
i just got some brand new jeans
made a withdrawal out the bank
bank, bank, bank, bank x4 or something

ay, yea, like what happened to fashion talk?
i just do my fashion walk
and she call me a fashion god
and im feelin real good off the wock
adderall got me off the wall
and u know its not yo fault
so dont act like u in the wrong
idk u bru how u think we gon chop shit up?
double cup, pass the blunt
mix stimuli feel all types of stuff
and im wit my brudda we got shit out the mud
money talk thats all i love
i'll up the stick i'll call yo bluff
i do this shit for the love of the game if u dont fw me u cant hang
when i hop out the car im jus testin my aim but bru this could be yo last day
and u know i put prada all up on my frames i can see shit even thru rain
and i rlly keep the glicks on me no franks dont play w me this not a game

FASHION TALK PROD. HALLOW & POPILIZATION & VIOLET

prod @tillamookbay @elxnce
ft @trapjump @zzoos @qlein

@trapjump
whats up witcha
do you wanna paint a picture 
want me to be honest wit ya
whats up witcha
you dont wanna get left out
you dont wanna get put out ur flames
you dont wanna get put down
and im fucked, up 
i left ur life on the pattern
only way to keep it is to keep it proper
call up @m4xyne when we got no power

you can really get left out 
you can really get turned down
you can really get put out your flames
you can really get put down

@zzoos
what u talkin bout?
it dont rlly mean nothing now
u dont call or come around
just something i cant live without
call me n im right there
we cld turn this shit 2 a nightmare
hope u kno that i care
im trying i swear ><
(just watch ur flames)
u cld rlly get put out
brand new fit, new strain
me n ray in the lost n found

@qlein
youre in my ear like aerosol
but ill live with it, idc at all
im fine, but i had question
does it hurt you all the same
feel a rumble in my brain 
scratches on my back when u leave my lane 
the things we carry
my fears they vary 
sorry i been mia
i switched my face
im flammable like celluloid
a freudian slip i cant avoid
like damn
cuts up on my hands
youre the type of person i cant stand
one more chance
you fucked my plans up

whats up witcha (michimani, elxnce)

pull up to the party to the block party x4

my thoughts are wrong x4

taking off my flesh going to the block party
she said babe what happens next im like girl im so sorry
got my hands around her neck dont know go bout
got my teeth around her flesh think im gonna go for it x2

pull up to the party to the block party x4

block party

#ferda

All works in collaboration with Surgeon

@44yy 
instagram.com/atelier44y
@makemeapromise
instagram.com/prodsurgeon

ferda Clips @surgeon ⋆ ★

@rayzuu @3eight9
coverart @zzoos

i can't keep my mouth shut
i wanna show u off ya
i got a fine lil hoe
i live my life out the mold
know they still tryna get control
but i can't keep my mouth shut
i won't keep my mouth shut

bitch i'm faded, i feel like no one could top me
my ex crazy-my ex crazy, she got people tryna stalk me
im a failure, and a fuckup, and i need someone to stop me
saw her staring and i wondered how that'd feel on my body
then i got it

i can't keep my mouth shut
i wanna show u off ya
i got a fine lil hoe
i live my life out the mold
know they still tryna get control
but i can't keep my mouth shut
i won't keep my mouth shut

whats the vibe ya?
baby i cant hide u no more
i despise them 
i deserve what they got more
i'm so fed up, i'm bored
i'm so shocked, i'm floored
i want your love
i want your-

bitch i'm faded, i feel like no one could top me
my ex crazy-my ex crazy, she got people tryna stalk me
im a failure, and a fuckup, and i need someone to stop me
saw her staring and i wondered how that'd feel on my body
then i got it

i can't keep my mouth shut
i wanna show u off ya
i got a fine lil hoe
i live my life out the mold
know they still tryna get control
but i can't keep my mouth shut
i won't keep my mouth shut

keep my mouth shut @rayzuu @3eight9

ALL BEATS FROM JAN15-DEC29 2025 NOT CHRONOLOGICAL
thank you to @marusaki @ariaoasis @fruitydelay @2rel @lumyere @01satu @heyscripy @uxiexo @cldxp @ivoruu @advxrse @kylanonline @ssoh for doing tags and thank you to everybody i have worked w u saved me from killing myself probably

IDs 
0:14 "ferd nation" [@makemeapromise] [@rhekdens] [@r2s2d]
1:46 "overhaul" [@rhekdens] [@2rel]
1:50 "im in beijing w these hoes" [@rhekdens] [@16fc] [@2rel]
2:11 "CRUNCH" [@rhekdens] [@16fc]
2:24 "brainfog" [@pw4prez] [@rhekdens]
2:37 "decision" [@rhekdens] [@2rel]
2:50 ??? [@7mental7] [@1burningjuly] [@heyscirpy] [@rhekdens]
3:03 "esdeath" [@rhekdens}
2:16 "angels" [@rhekdens] [@16fc] [@2rel}
3:28 "luv" [@rhekdens}
3:41 "with maya' [@rhekdens] [@????]
3:54 "ida" [@tgwog] {@cruseyyyy] [@2rel] [@rhekdens] (https://soundcloud.com/uxiexo/liaison)
4:06 "joker" [@rhekdens]
4:19 "1000 - 7" [@rhekdens]
4:32 ??? [@rhekdens]
4:45 "aizen" [@rhekdens]
4:58 "bad" [@rhekdens]
5:10 "nezu" [@rhekdens]
5:23 "kenpachi" [@rhekdens]
5:36 "suzaku" [@rhekdens]
5:49 "ulqiorrra" [@rhekdens] [@kirarrii]
6:02 ?? [@rhekdens]
6:14 ?? [@lynyou] [@rhekdens] [@eboof]
6:27 ?? [@rhekdens] (https://soundcloud.com/monsain/analyze-1)
6:40 "3crown" [@rhekdens] [@2rel]
6:53 "breakthrough" [@rhekdens] 
7:06 "TTM" [@rhekdens] [@pitchweavr]
7:18 "cranker bitch club" [@rhekdens]
7:31 "SOUL SOCiETY" [@RHEKDENS] [@PW4PREZ] [@VENEXXi]
7:44 "start up" [@rhekdens] [@heygwuapo]
7:57 "visual novel" [@2rel] [@rhekdens] (interpolates https://soundcloud.com/kevinrianto/back-number-happyend)
8:22 "frendli" [@rhekdens]
8:35 ??? [@kylanonline] [@rhekdens] [@salviaparadox]
9:32 "weird chords" [@rhekdens] [@on1yone]

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