Thank God

Ur The Moon Instrumental

That's cash

overtime - Suté

Usually, I struggle with body insecurity and my love for food. It is a struggle convincing  myself that being a few kg heavier isn't all that bad. So this song is a reflection of how I feel or view myself from different perspectives.

CAN I JUST SAY HOW MUCH I LOVE RRAREBEAR'S BEATS? yeah.. okay. I love your beats. 

Lyrics my own
Cover art by Katimi 

The Way We Look

Verse 1:
Reflections irk you so 
They show you all the things that stops 
your smile.
From shaky hands to feet 
and mockery that finds its way 
from within.
Look at her spewing all her inside out.
Tear filled eyes achy head 
sore throat that shows how much she tried
to catch the running feet 
of beauty and inner content.

Chorus
I know (I know I know)
Oh Oh Oh Oh oh oh oh 
Sadly I know 


Verse 2:
Growling stomach 
inner thoughts 
that compensate how much you starve and waste.
“Imagine all the beauty you’ll see when you are just a little bit
a little bit lighter”.

Chorus:
How sad 
You have become so sad
How come you came to hate all that you see?
How come you continue to hurt yourself?
Skinny thighs and skinny hearts are happiness to her
Skinny thighs and skinny hearts are happiness to her
How sad. 

Bridge
You have become so pitiful
You have forgotten how to love yourself
You have become so pitiful 
and it makes me so so sad

chorus:
How sad 
It makes me so sad
I wish your obsession doesn’t lay you in a coffin
I want us to not be anxious about the way we look 
So sad.

The Way We Look (prod by rrarebear)

coral - 234jaydaa

Fresh [ + KSto ]

Dedejaé (feat. SOLIS) - NEGLECT

eternal mob

busy (feat. aylo & begho)

hey, i’m bipolar. 

i got diagnosed halfway through quarantine this year. i’m not sure if i was worse off before or after finding out....the jury’s still out on that. it’s interesting that i’ve dedicated so many years of my life to learning and advocating for mental health because understanding my own illness has been the greatest struggle. the point is....i’ve been a mess this year. i relapsed several times with my battle with self harm & there are several points i was ready to end it all. & because of all of this (and other factors) releasing music was very hard for me. 

i’ve beat myself up a lot for not releasing music on all platforms for you guys this year....i had a plan...a story...and it was beautiful. it still is, and it’s still yours. 2020 has been a cataclysmic year for many of us but i know nothing happens by accident. im still not sure what lessons 2020 tried to teach me exactly, but i’m trusting the process, trusting the Universe & trusting God. thank you to everyone that listened and continue to listen to ‘Ruled By Venus, Unfortunately’.....the story continues next year brighter and boundless. 

love y’all,
sol  .。ｏ♡

I'M A MESS FREESTYLE

feel something.

coral - 234jaydaa

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