Sad Vibes

rest in peace, it will forever haunt me that I never got the chance to sit down and talk with you face to face.

forever broken

i just been so wide awake, i cannot take
the pain that i feel in my heart
i never know how to cope, hide it with dope
you were a part of my art
i still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
tell me this shit isnt real
i still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
tell me this shit isnt real

i just been so wide awake, i cannot take
the pain that i feel in my heart
i never know how to cope, hide it with dope
you were a part of my art
i still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
tell me this shit isnt real
i still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
tell me this shit isnt real

you helped me numb my depression, if only for seconds
it ment the world inside my eyes
lets just pretend that were numb, snow on repeat
days that i wanted to die
bumpin your thinkin too much, garettes revenge
sit at my desk while i cry
you were the beacon of light, darkest of nights
you helped to keep me alive
all of this happened too fast, part of me passed
i wont pretend im okay
hurtin cause well never meet, feelin defeat
shit that i wanted to say
help me to find my own peace, i was so stressed
you showed me how to express
quick when a bullet get shot, everything stop
nothing as final as death

nothing as final as death

i just been so wide awake, i cannot take
the pain that i feel in my heart
i never know how to cope, hide it with dope
you were a part of my art
i still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
tell me this shit isnt real
i still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
tell me this shit isnt real

i just been so wide awake, i cannot take
the pain that i feel in my heart
i never know how to cope, hide it with dope
you were a part of my art
i still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
tell me this shit isnt real
i still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
tell me this shit isnt real

Rainy Tapes, Vol. 1

ｆｕｌｌ　ａｌｂｕｍ　ゲく医

Roderick Porter - XXX (Prod. NiNETY8)

Single for Rainy Tapes Vol. 1 COMING OUT AUGUST 3RD!!

Prod. Jacobsen

Smoke dope, stay home
Bad thoughts, my dome
Go ghost, alone
Don't check my phone
Stuck in my ways
Don't feel the same
I like the pain
I like the pain
Smoke dope, stay home
Bad thoughts, my dome
Go ghost, alone
Don't check my phone
Stuck in my ways
Don't feel the same
I like the pain
I like the pain

These days I don't feel no pain
I don't really want to feel okay
Sunshine, I don't feel no rain
My demons call my name
And I kind of want to go back
Thinking that the shadow where my home at
Fuck it, I've been feeling so heartless
Strange I've been taken from the darkness, yeah
And I don't really feel myself
Smoke til I can't feel myself
Drink til I fucked up my health
My friends said I need help
Cause I want to feel a heart break
Want to feel the pain of a heart ache
I don't really know what love is
I'm just fucking done with the numbness, yeah

Smoke dope, stay home
Bad thoughts, my dome
Go ghost, alone
Don't check my phone
Stuck in my ways
Don't feel the same
I like the pain
I like the pain
Smoke dope, stay home
Bad thoughts, my dome
Go ghost, alone
Don't check my phone
Stuck in my ways
Don't feel the same
I like the pain
I like the pain

And I try to convince myself that I don't love you
I don't love you, no
And I try to convince myself that I don't need you
I don't need you, no
And I try to convince myself that I don't love you
I don't love you, no
And I try to convince myself that I don't need you
I don't need you, yeah

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i like the pain

SPOTIFY!

Roderick Porter - i like the pain (feat. Shiloh Dynasty) [prod. Jacobsen]

Rainy Tapes Vol. 1

Die Young

i just reuploaded this for the 3rd time i hate myself

I can't get you out of my mind, no
Said I think about you all of the time, yeah
Been imagining you all in my bed, whoa
Ay cause you been running round in my head, yeah
Ay, I can't get you out of my mind, no
Said I think about you all of the time, yeah
Been imagining you all in my bed, whoa
Ay cause you been running round in my head, yeah

Maybe I'm just stressed
Maybe need some rest
When I get a text
I can feel my heart beat out my chest
I think I'm obsessed
But this shit is not correct, no
I can't seem to get
Why my brain been doing reps
Overthinking what you say
I been going out my way, yeah
You a little blue in a sky that's always gray
And it's come to seem
You been spotted in my dreams
Been decoding what you mean
Every time you talk to me

I can't get you out of my mind, no
Said I think about you all of the time, yeah
Been imagining you all in my bed, whoa
Ay cause you been running round in my head, yeah
Ay, I can't get you out of my mind, no
Said I think about you all of the time, yeah
Been imagining you all in my bed, whoa
Ay cause you been running round in my head, yeah

Out of My Mind

shouts out to https://soundcloud.com/mike_beke ill reformat all this shit in the morning lmao

Problems

Introspection

Half Hot, Half Cold [Prod. Taylor]

ive been crying so much the last two days. mac was literally the reason i started making music. i listened to him through every album and mixtape drop and im just so heart broken. it hurts a lot when youve been following someone though different eras of their life and then theyre just gone... i had actual dreams of hanging out with him at his house talking about music ideas and smoking and im just so god damn broken knowing ill never get to meet my biggest idol.

i, want to die
sometimes i hurt and dont know why
and i, deep inside
need someone that can teach me how to fly
and i, know what that brings
cause when they leave theyll take my wings
and i, dont want that
i guess ill suffer where im at, im at

said im goin through hell but i hide it well
and i dont know when ill be back again
i let the rain fall down until i drown
and then i float away

said im goin through hell but i hide it well
and i dont know when ill be back again
i let the rain fall down until i drown
and then i float away 

said im goin through hell but i hide it well
and i dont know when ill be back again
i let the rain fall down until i drown
and then i float away

said im goin through hell but i hide it well
and i dont know when ill be back again
i let the rain fall down until i drown

away, yeah
away, yeah
away, yeah
away, yeah
away, yeah
away, yeah
away, yeah
away

Roderick Porter - goodbye. (feat. XXXTentacion) [prod. Xtravulous]

Roderick Porter - goodbye. (feat. XXXTENTACION) [prod. Xtravulous]

ily <3

recently i been contemplatin if imma make it
come home and dance with demons i keep locked up in my basement
my heart is vacant, found the edge and right now im just pacin
cause i dont like this place, id rather sleep til times erasin
and i make music for the clinically depressed, i guess im stressed
i got too much weight up on my chest
and people tell me problems bout their slippin mental health
how the fuck im sposed to help you, i cant even help myself

i cant even help myself
how the fuck im sposed to help you, i cant even help myself
and i cant even help myself
how the fuck im sposed to help you

and way too many people care about me and thats why im here
couldnt tell em all of these things because itd cause em fear
so i sit and write song and drink a dozen beer
hope i fall asleep and wake up in a couple fuckin years
and i never want you to ever feel the way im feelin
i smoke a blunt and get so high im walkin on the ceilin
my friends and family devistated if i left today
ill bear the wounds just know that i wont ever cause you pain

i wont ever cause you pain
ill bear the wounds just know that i wont ever cause you pain
i wont ever cause you pain
ill bear the wounds just know that i wont ever cause you pain

Demons

Shadows

prod @citygrl

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thanks ily

damn, i even dont know how to feel
ay, i cant even tell whats real
yuh, i just want you to come chill
ay, yeah i thought that was the deal
ay, why you always playin these games
yeah, why you like playin these games
woah, why you still playin these games
yuh, why you keep playin these games
yeah, im still just rollin up dope
woah, imma get lost in the smoke
yuh, you gettin stuck in my mind
ay, please just dont waste my time
damn, why you always playin these games
yeah, why you like playin these games
woah, why you still playin these games
yuh, why you keep playin these games
yuh

i just wanna cut, i just wanna fuck
i just wanna feel you
i dont wanna love, i dont wanna "us"
can you be the real you
say you not attached, you dont want that
why you tryna act cool
tryna take it slow, i dont think you know
i can see right through
like it when we talk, make the time stop
ay, it dont mean a lot, i just want the top
yeah, and it gettin late you should stay the night
but when i catch a flight, i dont wanna fight
like it when we talk, make the time stop
ay, it dont mean a lot, i just want the top
yeah, and it gettin late you should stay the night
but when i catch a flight, i dont wanna fight

damn, i even dont know how to feel
i cant even tell whats real
i just want you to come chill
yeah i thought that was the deal
why you always playin these games
why you like playin these games
why you still playin these games
why you keep playin these games
im still rollin up dope
imma get lost in the smoke
you get stuck in my mind
please dont waste my time
why you always playin these games
why you like playin these games
why you still playin these games
why you keep playin these games

i didn't realize how empty my bed was until you left

★ SPOTIFY/APPLE MUSIC★

Roderick Porter - i didn't realize how empty my bed was until you left (prod. City Girl)

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coasting
https://soundcloud.com/zoercrader/tracks
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sinkway
https://soundcloud.com/sinkway
https://www.instagram.com/sinkway/

Stratosphere (feat. Coasting)

★ YOUTUBE ★

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i said i know that you in pain, i cant fuckin stand it
keep on runnin back into the man that caused you damage
i dont understand it, you got me goin manic
so i think its better if i go ahead and vanish
cause i cant fuckin take it, you intoxicatin
and i always get into my feelings when im faded
no reciprocation, i was always chasing
the one i fabricated in damn imagination

it wasnt really you
it wasnt really you
ay now i see the truth
ay now i see the truth

said i made it complicated, dont know if it was worth it
you got me feelin pain every time i see you hurtin
i know you think you worthless, but to me you perfect
i see how you compare yourself to every other person
you got yo demons lurkin, right behind the curtain
i hope you find your peace cause i know that you deserve it
said im good at burnin bridges, im good at buildin walls
maybe just wait a year and then please gimme a call

said please gimme a call

broken

★YOUTUBE★

Roderick Porter - broken (prod. 97SPECIAL)

up on all platforms <3

you keep playin with my heart
youre tearing me apart
saw it comin from the start
the start, the start
and i keep trying to run away
know you need me to stay
dont look at me, dont look at me
dont look at me that way

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Ghost (feat. Ivri)

To the moon and back

I’m in real big trouble

I’m in real big trouble (ig: broly500__) [Prod. Taylor]

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said its getting kinda late and, im still wide awake
and you had a bad day, wanna stay up at my place
yeah you can come through
i said you can come through

and it seems we always talkin, never really say much
living in a dream world, think its time to wake up
i dont really love you
i dont really love you

and you say i numb the pain
an umbrella for the rain
yeah i guess you do the same
but its only for the day, yeah its only for the day
yeah its only for the day

now im getting fucked up
cause you got me fucked up
feelin like i fucked up
i dont really love ya
the way you love me, at least thats what it seems

dont cry for me
dont cry for me
dont cry for me
dont cry for me
i know youll be... okay

said its getting kinda late and, im still wide awake
and you had a bad day, wanna stay up at my place
yeah you can come through
i said you can come through

seems we always talkin, never really say much
living in a dream world, think its time to wake up
i dont love you
no i dont love you

said i looked into your eyes and saw your heart break
i thought we talked about no feelings from the start babe
and every time i see you naked make my heart race
but this is more like we just speedin in a car chase
it wasnt meant to last, you knew i had to dash
and we was aiming at a wall expectin not to crash
that fuschia lemonade, it feel like heavens gates
and you just worried ill forget you when im gettin paid
but that just not the case, and we all made mistakes
just know it killed me watchin tears keep running down your face
tears keep running down your face

dont cry for me
dont cry for me
dont cry for me
dont cry for me
i know youll be... okay

dont cry for me
dont cry for me
dont cry for me
dont cry for me
i know youll be... okay

Cry 4 Me

found this old song on my drive from 11 months ago, thought i might as well give yall sumn, also if anyone knows the producer please let me know i dont have any files for the song and i dont remember where the beat is from

Lovely

💖 Roderick Porter - Lovely 💖 @roderick.porter

Produced by Roderick Porter <3
Featuring @zoercrader <3

Roderick Porter - Baby (feat. Coasting)

SPOTIFY

💖 Roderick Porter - Baby (feat. Coasting)💖

if u listen closely u can hear my brother squeaking his chair throughout the song

lady satan [prod. flowers in narnia] IG: @soskidx

i hope u guys like this one!!

cover art by @perfiosa on IG

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Sad Vibes

Alfredo Santos