I wrote this song for my girlfriend at the time. I hope it makes other people happy too.

Carizma Don't Worry

I wrote this and sang this song for my dad to help him understand the struggle I was going through in fighting anorexia.

Daddy I'm Not Weak

Giving the love of your life a good reason to leave you because although you dream to make them happy, in the end they were suffocated by the pain they saw in you, desperately trying to fix their problems for them whilst overlooking your own decline and the pain it causes others.

Baby Maybe

Revealing to my girlfriend at the time what I knew about the pain she was hiding and that no matter how consumed she was by her disorder, I would love her just the same in the dark reality she was living that hated me, as mine hated her's.

I Know

Lyrics:
A twisted unfair earth we're bound to
Trapped by some force thats given us only one door to choose
It's a scary one just like my childhood closet hiding monsters in the dark
But I don't want to be here anymore
There must be somewhere better
I'm desperate to explore that forbidden mysterious escape route door
Tell me about this place you dream to go
This place of transcendence, not down but up you weightlessly float
Not heaven or hell below but somewhere without the guilt of unpaid debt,  the suffering you owe

Silence in your mind for the first time since you were 13 
Walking yet no footprints to be seen
Absent of failure and greed
Oh you think this is the way it has to be
They all say it's wrong but I struggle to believe
I only can't accept that to be true for the one that makes me happy
I love her but we all know that means nothing  

Fly away my dear, you're far too weak to run 
Just take it slow angel, you'll get there eventually 
Oh fly away my dear,  to a place where you can't hear
The contradiction the chaos in your head where your thoughts are crystal clear 
I'll watch you fly away as you slowly disappear

I saw it in your beautiful sunken eyes, you're getting a different kind of high 
Not drugs or high off life, but emptiness and a voice of sweet lies
To get this far what did it take? 
How many friends how many lost memories? 
Did it just start as a simple gateway?
Only to consume your life and control all that you do and say
Did it let you say goodbye to the life you lost?
Or do you not care because you can't remember because it's been too long

Fly away from me dear
Spread your wings and fly away somewhere you'll be happier
Break the chains that keep you down here 
Break my heart as I can't hold you near
Oh fly away dear,  
to a land void of your fears 
fly away until the distance makes you disappear
ignore my tears, they spill out the now only painful memories that will haunt me forever
I'm no God,  I'm no savior
Fly away until you disappear
As long as you're happier

I could see how tired you are,
why you would want to go to a place so far 
Not only your eyes but your spirit and heart
Tired of not feeling good enough,
tired of looking the way you are
Up and away from the self hate, up past the stars
You might stop there because that's what you are to me
But you keep on going

Take off and fly away from here
Where it doesn't hurt and it doesn't rain
Where there is no reason for gateways because there is no pain
Oh fly away my dear
I don't know where you'll be when you disappear
But I'll be looking because I wouldn't last a single year
Don't you worry, I'm right behind you 
I'll see you soon 
I'll circle the date on which our missed weekends would have been
If you were still here
Are you happier up there? 
Fly away my dear 
I'll fly away from here
Fly away from here

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