I didn’t think anyone noticed me(dream-salvia palth)

Not my responsibility(instrumental)- Billie Eilish, with Rue Bennet

blondie - current joys (slowed + muffled)instrumental

audio: little women (2019)
song: agony-yung lean

agony

picture: kai / txt
lyrics: 

Repeat to yourself that they're not really gone
Time has proven that fooling yourself into believing a lie is the most effective way to deal with things you have no control over

Keep listening to the mixtapes they made you
Overanalyze every single word you hear
"Was this a sign that things were going wrong?"
No, no, you were the one that cared too hard, not them

Stay up every single night staring at your phone
Either attempting to gather up the courage to turn these demons, these constant reminders of your loneliness into nothing more than a bad dream
Or praying just for one second you could feel the warmth of equally returned love

Go out for coffee four times a week by yourself
Always bring your notebook, never stop writing
Leave little comics and thank you notes with your tip
Watch them smile as you get in your car

Talk down on yourself whenever possible
"My life is shit because I deserve it, right?"
You must have done something really bad;
It's nearly impossible for you to cry now

Avoid your friends for weeks even though they're the only sense of consistency you have left in your life
If they really wanted to see you they'd come, but they won't
Who cares?

Allow yourself to lose interest in the things you love
Watch as you begin to take a backseat to the world around you, don't fight it
Become a secondary character in your own motion picture

But most importantly drown every single one of your feelings in old stolen rum
Learn to love the taste of it dripping down your throat
Find comfort in the warmth coming from your stomach
You're drinking bottled love now

You don't need other people to drive away your loneliness
You just needed to find a way to talk to it

how to never stop being sad - dandelion hands (sped up)

home - resonance x charlie from “the perks of being a wallflower”

resonance - home sped up x the perks of being a wallflower

milk cassette x.mp3 (if you lie to me one more time, im gone)

you don’t wanna be forgotten, you just wanna disappear. (ePageUSA.com)

there is so much i wanna say but i don’t know where to start X agony slowed

original sound I’m Imagining You, You’re Not Real from the movie Cobweb uploaded by, @tr9de on TikTok x Liza V Posteli cover of Poison Tree slowed & blended by fabian

a perfect fit.

I’m Imagining You, You’re Not Real x Poison Tree (SLOWED) - Liza V Posteli

„Atem der Dämmerung“ ist das stille Tor zu Part 27.
Ein kurzer Moment zwischen Tag und Nacht, zwischen Weg und Wahrheit.
Der Mann steht am Rand der bekannten Lichtung – nicht verloren, sondern wach.

Tiger und Adler sagen nichts, und genau dieses Schweigen trägt die Bedeutung.
Dieses Interlude fängt den Moment ein, in dem man nicht mehr kämpft, sondern hört.
Es ist ein Atemzug, der vor dem nächsten Schritt kommt.
Eine kleine, tiefe Erinnerung:
Bevor der Weg weitergeht, braucht die Seele manchmal einen Moment Ruhe.

Ein stiller Übergang.
Ein leiser Neubeginn.

Not my responsibility(instrumental)- Billie Eilish, with Rue Bennet

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