Self Doubt

BBL DRIZZY BPM 150.mp3

Why Is It Called Hot Lunch When My Meatloaf Is So Cold?

Invasion Protocol: Trippy Transcendence

Odd Future - Orange Juice (OFWGKTA)

Produced by Gusstra beats

[Verse 1]
I’m it’s Romeo, it’s my Juliet but it doesn’t even know it yet
My love’s so obsessed I cannot go to bed,
I’m gushing at my pictures of it but they’re lower res’
Took ‘em at a distance plus I trembled when the photos snapped,

But I guess it’s prolly for the best,
‘Cause this’ll get me on the road again to figure out it’s home address,
I can follow straight behind it in it’s white Ford Edge 
License plate Y-sixty-five-one-forty-six

It’s our first date and it ain’t even know
I’ll be taking it home in the rain sleet and snow,
I checked the weather bet that it’ll brace for the cold
And keep its face in the warmth of its grey winter coat but ooh

[Chorus]
Ooh-ooh To be a fly on its walls,
Watching it dance with its garments off,
Ooh-ooh It flaunts and taunts,
Swinging its hair in the parking lot, like

Ooh-ooh I’ve always thought,
I bet it’s skin’s soft as cotton swabs
Ooh-ooh It’s all I want,
The most beautiful object I-ever saw

[Verse 2]
The next night I follow it home watch it walk up steps toward
It’s small enclosure along a dim road
Ten-fold tempo of my heart crescendos
Find a parking spot to start my walk a block of it north,

Wind blows dense storm drift snow
Up my exposed nose as I waddle in my trenchcoat,
I got the pockets full Glock pistol in-tow
With chloroform and knives and wires and oh,

Just noticed next home‘s
The one it owns but I’m not gon’ knock on its door,
So like I’m techno Imma dip low,
And inch slow around the side as my saliva droplets get froze

Tip-toe get close tryna get a glimpse though
It’s so sexual I’m fogging up the window,
I wipe it off and spot it watching it’s show 
Single sensual lies my darling primrose just ooh

[Chorus]
Ooh-ooh To be a fly on its walls,
Watching it dance with its garments off,
Ooh-ooh It flaunts and taunts,
Swinging its hair in the parking lot, like

Ooh-ooh I’ve always thought,
I bet it’s skin’s soft as cotton swabs
Ooh-ooh It’s all I want,
The most beautiful object I-ever saw

[Verse 3]
It’s sitting back relaxed I could choke it with my massive hands,
But there’s a final barrier that I have to smash,
I start to wind up at the window and I clasp my hands
Together and I try to fix my elbow as a batter’ ram

Swing it like battle axe bam like a cannon blast
Bash the glass and grab it in the shattered glass avalanche,
I choke its neck as it performs a small dance
Then I force up in its nose and throat a chloroform rag,

After its sedation, drag it to its basement,
Bind it up with wires and I gag it and duct tape its,
Trap and strip it naked, handcuff it and chain it,
Set my camera focus as it slowly reawakens,

Hi it, you’re the object of my desires,
It should know that I am sort of like a Michael Myers,
The question chosen’s yes or no but don’t get all defiant,
And oh, it should know that I don’t like no liars,

So, would it object if I objectify it?, 
Yes it’s against it?, it’s a lying bitch and I’m not
Gentle like a Jeffery Dahmer I am into gentrifying
It it’s like chicken cow or pig except it‘s sexualizing

Itself, and it smells so effeminate,
I love the way it wants to play like it is innocent,
My pleasure rises like its pressurized I press the knife in
Decompress the life in it this body’s all I ever wanted ooh

[Chorus]
Ooh-ooh To be a fly on its walls,
Watching it dance with its garments off,
Ooh-ooh It flaunts and taunts,
Swinging its hair in the parking lot, like

Ooh-ooh I’ve always thought,
I bet it’s skin’s soft as cotton swabs
Ooh-ooh It’s all I want,
The most beautiful object I-ever saw

Object

The Heights

Prod. H1TMAN beats

Lyrics:
[Intro]
I guess sometimes, no matter how much you put in,
With somebody else,
Things just aren't meant to work out
But that's also for the best

[Verse 1] 16 bars
I felt like a king when I acquired my queen,
I tried to be somebody you wanted to be seen,
You were the key that allowed me to be free
‘Cause with you, I finally I wanted to be me,

I would walk you back to your place for the night,
And I couldn’t keep my eyes dry when I’d be saying goodbye,
We finally found somebody who wanted to love us back,
And honestly, we were all that each other had

You were my first love, first kiss and your touch
When gone was something I’d search the ends of the earth for
At the time, it felt like another absurd thought
To think a girl would want me intertwined with her heart

So if I lost you I thought there’s no fuckin’ way that I’d get
Another chance at love so I’d tolerate disrespect,
I lost count of all the days that I wept,
And all the ways that I bent for you always breaking my neck ‘cause

[Chorus]
I tried to see your side
But all I’d see were lies and deeper signs
‘Cause you weren’t seeing mine 
All my deepest fears were realized 

If you could see me,
You’d see the reason why
That I just can’t believe the lie
That love is all you need sometimes

[Verse 2] 16 bars
I wasn’t my best then, but you were someone to be better for
I miss that, even though I’m near a peak, better form
I guess that, now the camaraderie, had been a force
Best friends falling for each other is best and for-us,

I underwent a metamorphosis that was soul-splitting
And I’m so different now than I was four years a-
-go that it’s wild, while you were so rigid,
Flat out looking back now, it’s so rich that,

Everything between us treat it like it’s my fault,
Every time you’d be upset it’s something I solve,
If I screwed up there would be no fuckin’ grace for me
But you never looked me in the eyes once saying sorry,

And that’s if you said sorry-it’s almost kinda funny I,
Have fingers than the times that you apologized
Call me liar call me a fraud, call me psychotic lie
To your next sucker that’ll fall in line

[Chorus]
I tried to see your side
But all I’d see were lies and deeper signs
‘Cause you weren’t seeing mine 
All my deepest fears were realized 

If you could see me,
You’d see the reason why
That I just can’t believe the lie
That love is all you need sometimes

[Verse 3] 16 bars
I was always fighting for your affection,
Holding out hope that you would notice the lengths that
I was willing to go to fulfill ya there’s no question,
I would’ve taken a bullet for you in a second,

And I took so many bullets broken and injured,
But you were the motherfucker pulling the trigger
Oh it was sickening, if I wasn’t down on my hands,
You would be fucking shooting at me watching me dance,

’Cause you always treated me like I was beneath you,
Treated me like shit and then said I really need you,
Made me think that love is always trying to please you
Sweetheart fuck off I no longer believe you,

Today instead of questioning my sanity around you,
I’m just happy to say that I’m happier without you,
Feels like I’m out of a stormy dark night
And I’m starting to absorb the warmth of sunrise ‘cause I

[Chorus]
I tried to see your side
But all I’d see were lies and deeper signs
‘Cause you weren’t seeing mine 
All my deepest fears were realized 

If you could see me,
You’d see the reason why
That I just can’t believe the lie
That love is all you need sometimes

[Outro]
So I'm going to let you go now,
And I'm going to let us go now
And I do mean this when I say this,
I hope that you find somebody who makes you happy,

And I hope you make that person happy too
Goodbye

Why Is It Called Hot Lunch When My Meatloaf Is So Cold?

Young Liu