I met a woman named Christel, everytime I see her, this song Crystal by New Order comes to my head. 
So I made my own version of it.

Crystal (New Order)

Words&Music by Netta&McGill
Available on Spotify, YouTube, iTunes and other music streaming platforms
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Hello, my dear, step in through the door
Come over right here, so I can tell you once more
I would like to tell you in a letter of love
Hand it over to you, there's no one above

I might be repeating, you know how it is
But you're so endearing, that I just can't dismiss
I could tell you each day, in a letter of love
I surely would say, there's no one above

I might be repeating, you know how it is
But you're so endearing, that I just can't dismiss
I could tell you each day, in a letter of love
I surely would say, there's no one above

I'll tell you every day, in my letter of love
Cause there's only you
It's only love

Letter Of Love

Link to one of those slightly moving pictures and lyric video :) - https://youtu.be/DP89YSam_Xk
Lyrics
How can I move on from the past when I can’t remember half the things you want me to forget
And how can I prove I love you more than I’ve ever loved even if I’m living in regret
Tell me how am I supposed to feel now all my choices moved along to another’s chance to live that life instead
Please show me now what to think so I can choose the drink I drink and sleep in the middle of my empty bed

Sick and tired of your ups and downs my here and now’s fed sheep to cows least that’s the words I hear in my insane
Haunted by a choice I didn’t make stranded in true love feeling fake heartbreak lights blind a runaway train
I keep saving chances ‘til the next life holding out ‘til perfect feels right but every day just ends the same old same
Maybe if I get drunk I won’t feel as though I funked up without excuse ready for a blame 
Without the shame screaming out your name

Stuck in head space on my own
It’s a place I can’t get out of
Trapped in my mind and yet still
Too scared to feel the truth
Caught in between fate and fall
It’s a path I can’t choose from
Full of the facts that we bled
But I ain’t got no proof
You know I ain’t got no proof
No I ain’t got no proof
No I ain’t got no proof

You say I’ve had too much love hate relationship cashed too many get free certificates gotta find some inside love somehow
Ticked one more obligation over take me now I’m done getting older hope curtain’s calling waiting for my bow
Cos I don’t have the time I once had game’s half over mug is empty a square can’t fit into a hole that’s round
So I’m gonna make the best of here and now love you like you were the only one any love we have we’re lucky to have found
But with love like yours we’re always tied to the ground


Stuck in head space on my own
It’s a place I can’t get out of
Trapped in my mind and yet still
Too scared to feel the truth
Caught in between fate and fall
It’s a path I can’t choose from
Full of the facts that we bled
But I ain’t got no proof
You know I ain’t got no proof
No I ain’t got no proof
No I ain’t got no proof

Just cause I ain't got none don't mean there ain't none
Just cause I ain't got none you can't say I'm right or wrong
Because I ain't got none don't mean there ain't none
Because I ain't got none can't say I'm right or wrong
When loose lips get loose because I ain't got none
Can you still find your truth because I ain't got none
Should I just have faith because I ain't got none
Is it too little too late
always too little too late
too late 
But I ain't got no proof 
No I ain't got no proof

Proof

It's a long road to hell but we're making good time

Yeah
Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna let me know, yeah
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad I know, yeah, I'm sad I know, yeah

Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna let me know, yeah
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad I know, yeah, I'm sad I know, yeah

I gave her everything
She took my heart and left me lonely
I think broken heart's contagious
I won't fix, I'd rather weep

I'm lost then I'm found
But it's torture bein' in love
I love when you're around
But I fuckin' hate when you leave

Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna let me know, yeah
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad I know, yeah, I'm sad I know, yeah

Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna let me know, yeah
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad I know, yeah, I'm sad I know, yeah

Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna let me know, yeah
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad I know, yeah, I'm sad I know, yeah

Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna let me know, yeah
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad I know, yeah, I'm sad I know, yeah

Original by XXXTENTACION

Cover by Amarya Illude

Sad XXX

I have a stiff upper lip
and I will not cry out in pain
for my enemies are many
and my end won't be in shame
but when the doors are closed
and the crowds are gone...
I lose all pretenses
...fallen to the floor
on my knees...beggin
no more, please god, no more
some may feel me sobbing
crying to the clouds
yea...can U hear me, lord?
and I could go on and on
in my misery...but the clock resets
and so must we...yea
I have a stiff upper lip
and I can not cry out in pain
for my enemies are many
and my end won't be in shame

My End Wont Be In Shame

Listen to this cool song with a base of funky drums, bass and tonewheel organ. 
On top of that there's nice violins, basses, trumpet and flute. 
Cover by Maud: https://maudbaken.myportfolio.com/

The first snow

Au coeur des choses - In the deepest moment

Libre et bohème

Au coeur des choses

Heliosphere (2025)

Note: If your religious and offended by people trying to find clarity in the world of belief. Maybe skip this track...

I talk openly about my beliefs that religion is Earth poison just like money so I don't think I should tip toe around that here either. I'm always respectful when someone else talks about their beliefs and I choose who to mention my firm beliefs to (if anything is currently firmed up at that time)... But it's time I painted them to my music properly too So 🫡🔆

I am a spiritual person and I think it's a possibility there may be an afterlife. But religion didn't make me realise that or show me a way to genuinely feeling that. I found that myself and I would have found it a lot younger if it wasn't for the lies and indoctrination that was attempted on me as a child by church and religion.

I think it's time we called out churches for what they are for most of us and what they should be if they want to survive. They should be houses for adults to go and confirm what they believe but in my pea head opinion you need to have a good chunk of the universe learned before you start trying to figure out your spirit and soul because the way it is now... They don't let you figure out the universe properly! How can we Co exist with that ! I'm not anymore and my kids aren't anyways. We will continue to be respectful towards everybody's beliefs. But these are mine. I don't have any and the truths I'm trying to figure out will change everyday because they involve only real truth as I see it.

So if your offended... Well no one has ever apologised to me for the lies and limitations religion put on my life so... I'm not sorry because I don't need to apologise to a realm that limited my thought and still tries to limit the thought of children today 


Here's what I think of Jesus. I think he has the same spiritual power as my Grandparents do as individuals too. They give me serious power. I don't understand that fully and I probably never will in my lifetime but I do embrace it. However I accept the large possibility that it is a self inflicted hypnotic/placebo effect born of neuroplasticity in the brain. Simply, I may just convince myself. Spirituality for me is deeply personal. I only discovered it's power by discovering it myself my way. The spirits represent part of me that has existed and still exists in memory/consciousness and a merged intent. I believe spirituality might actually evolve as physical beings do. Like Jesus had his niche 2000 years ago and it sounds like he found out some things. But look, he didn't even write them down himself. Others did that and then a few version redactions later we have one book... Not for me thanks. He was a man and that was it so I won't put him on a pedestal. I will however appreciate his good spirit like the good spirits my Grandparents are and my friend Tina and all the other spiritual energy those powerful individuals project in the universe


In the grander scheme of ideas and collective projections... There is still way too much war because of belief to be ok with just letting it be... It challenges the entire existences of too many people for it ever to be a collective positive for life. When we treat it scientifically and we all meet up for that spiritual gathering... then I'm there everyday, not just Sundays


I believe we had the second coming already s lot of times. Ian Brown was was one time. Along with the rest of that band. The random dude across the street from me that I don't know. They are a new version too.

Buddhism is the closest I think I would associate myself with. Empowering the individual. That doesn't have to be selfish but it does start from a foundation that you only have your eyes and as far as we know telepathy isn't possible. So as we grow to learn our consciousness more in science, my "guess" is we will find beings connected to one energy without the need for a god because we are god and we create the world we experience

Old Belief

A wounded prayer rising from the ashes of betrayal, forgiveness carved in soul and fire.

Prayin' For You

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🤟🏼Working on new patterns and techniques in composition, production, and performance of both instrumental(classical/acoustic guitar) and voice- pieces are built (loops and beats)..on BandLab @nyla_k00  and Soundtrap (new)

I have removed the (amp) tag for consistency in distribution- acoustic pieces I perform will be tagged as ‘acoustic’ (apologies for page reorganization)

TBH, I aspire to be a guitar 🎸 but I’ll settle for being able to play competently what I hear when I write...(one day, Alice...to the moon)

I study under Duncan L. Wood and am grateful for his guidance and patience. Most of my influences are Folk/Blues/Indie, but inspiration arrives in many forms so HT to Hip Hop, Rap, Classical, especially Chamber trios. Current tracks are first cuts and I may update them in the future with cleaner versions, thank you for listening as I learn.

My End Wont Be In Shame

Nyla K