Friends

@reject333
@not-a-fucking-hero

maybe im not good enough
for you to gimme all ur love
i rly miss ur fuckin touch
so ima let out all my blood

dont take the knife away from me
there aint a point in savin me
my current state youd hate to see
so ill just end it hastily

ur make believe
i dont wanna be what u make me to be
and i dont wanna dissapoint my family
but this whole damn time nobody was there for me

so ill go


dont really wanna go but i know i cant stay
in the back of my mind voices takin their place
everybody linin up for the start of the race
when i hear the gunshot i cant keep the same pace

take a 9 millimeter to the side of my face 
so i dont have to sit here and count down the days
take a chunk of my flesh just to get you a taste
when i die fuckin happy ill be a disgrace

and i dont want my legacy to go to waste
so the fame and immortality is what ima chase
but everything i want is stuck behind a lens painted grey
i cant make out the faces cant make out the shapes 

[popularreject:]
baby im not good enough 
for you to even give a fuck 
my hands are tied 
my wrists are cut 
and ima drain out all my blood
you arent where youre supposed to be
you belong here close to me 
and ive been thinking overly 
you arent where youre supposed to be 
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
smoking so much i fill my chest up
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
babygirl jus-

HOLD ON
COULD YOU HELP ME HOME
LET ME KNOW
GIVE ME HOPE
HOW LONG
YOU COULDN'T HELP ME I'M TOO GONE
HOW LONG
HOW LONG
i need a change right now
could someone fuckin notice
in jus a couple days
went thru a couple pounds of potent
its generic as fuck but i'm really on my own
SHIT
that's jus the show biz is what they say
is what they say
is what they say

disgrace

disgrace w/ popularreject (hero)

As i fade away
I suffocate
I handle the blade and alleviate
The writhing pain
I felt today
When i found out the eternity of my fate

Im dealt these cards
And i cant get far
My stillborn heart
Will not restart

Take it away from me
Before i hurt myself
Im not too well

baby ur all that i need
when i’m stuck inside my shell
this stupid hell

don’t look back
when you walk away
i’m too far gone
I cant be saved

so tell me what’s real is it all in my head?
did u ever mean anything that you said
heart swellin up cuz it’s fillin with dread
don’t wanna fix it i’ll stop it instead

what is the point if i can’t even have this
it was my fault now it’s lost in the past tense 
i’m bleeding out while ur sitting there laughing
at my expense so i’m just getting blasted

i drink too much it’s a really bad habit
life is a test and i don’t wanna pass it
cant show my pain so i’ll sit here and mask it
even when you took my heart and stabbed it

don’t look at me
when i’m weeping from my sins 
im on my knees
will i sink or will i swim

follow still vanishing

suffocate (still vanishing)

prod. by @thesoundofgivingup and @etchmygrave

im not the person u used to know
im sry im unusual
dont tell me that ur sorry girl im sorry cuz im used to those

i been nothin but delusional
im waiting for my funeral
cuz everytime i hear ur voice its drowned out by a song that goes
wooooahhhhhh
wooooahhhhhh

im fuckin sick of this everyday cycle
they left me 2 bleed but my organs arent vital
theyll drown out my screams with the sounds of recitals
cuz i am just another kid that claims theyre suicidal

a suit and tie is suitable to transfer to the other side
there is not a glimpse of hatred comin from my tired eyes
i cant even think straight cuz im riddled with a tired mind
kick me to the curb im tired of bein on the sidelines

static
stand still lock on scope automatic
take out my soul wit a blade to the back and
just end all my habits when you come in slashin
im not comin back to the past where i left you behind
end it all when i pull out the knife
pray to god at the end of the line
pray to god this the end of my life

static

prod secre x tiedforsilver

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

(you and i could try to work it out)
ive spent enough time in my mind to know its not the answer
is there a god in the sky respond to my prayer
maybe i wanted to die i couldnt find my savior

turn me into sumn i cant even look at
stare into a mirror and a stranger is what looks back
8 grams in my book bag
smokin after school to kill the feelings that i hold back

ripped away at my life
got gutted with my own knife
im tired of livin in strife
i thank the demon inside

that caused the place i reside
to wither in front of my eyes
you couldnt keep me alive
no matter how hard you try

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

wha- wha-
want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

strawberry amnesia

@killedmyself

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

all my life i felt worthless
i took my heart and i purged it
never comin up to the surface

thought that you would be worth it
i thought that you was perfect
tell me what'd i do to deserve this?

take me back,
take me back to the real world
take me back,
take me back to when i couldn't feel

rip my heart straight from my ribcage
i've been led astray from the good place
i've ran out of luck where did my good days go
the place in which i reside no longer feels like home

20 years have caught up wit me n jus fucked up my mental
tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

Final Will

theblueokapi